# Diary of a Gay Man **URL:** \ **Category:** Men's Journals\ **Created:** [June 13, 2014, 1:34am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/diary-of-a-gay-man/62195 "2014-06-13T01:34:11Z")\ **Posts on this page:** 20\ **Page:** 1
**Author:** ![gruntl3d](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/g/f475e1/32.png) [@gruntl3d](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/gruntl3d)\ **Post date:** [June 13, 2014, 1:34am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/diary-of-a-gay-man/62195/1 "2014-06-13T01:34:11Z")
Let me start by saying I’m black, 22, gay, and an athlete (student of dance). So I’m going to just cut right to the chase. Yesterday (Wednesday, 6.11.14) I got a little to go bottle of “[Molecule C](https://a314.com/product/molecule-c/)” whatever that may be and I randomly picked up that up (while aiming for my instant shine) so I decided to just test it first. 1 spray to the neck and I dabbed my wrists on my neck afterwards at about 6pm. Just before I went to one of my dancer friends’s house to play some video games. I don’t know what this stuff is, but I think I want some more, lol. About 3 seconds after I sprayed it, my body instantly relaxed as if I was under some kind of influence. About 30 minutes later it definitely felt similar to if I had had a glass of wine or maybe a glass and a half, haha. The upside to this is I didn’t have to deal with all of the gross biological responses. But I was certainly more relaxed, not as self conscious and completely at ease. Which worked out particularly well because that friend I mentioned in my introductory post happened to be there and there was no awkwardness. Most of which is probably caused by myself anyways so it really helps that I had this Molecule C on me. I also want to add that the self effects acted much like if I were having a margarita with friends in that I progressively felt looser and looser. It did stop after about an hour or 2.. closer to 2. But the effects after that were pretty study for at least another 3 or 4 hours. I don’t recall “feeling sober again” until maybe 11:30 while playing video games still. Needless to say that was an overall interesting experience.. And that was only one spray. Now as far as the effects on others goes, I don’t really recall much, but that’s mostly because I was too busy feeling a bit disinhibited myself, lol. I will say, though, that I think I sensed a slight openness from others. Not a dramatic difference but more comfort in just opening up and talking. Particularly in females. I ran to the school to print a couple of things out and I noticed this complete air of comfort from the girl that was in the lounge with me (white, either 19 or 20, not quite as athletic as I am, she does musical theatre) but our conversation flowed really smoothly. I had actually tried to leave about 3 times but she was able to just continue the conversation, and I wasn’t as internally resistant to her (because normally I am. I just habitually get resistant towards her, internally. I’m working on myself, haha). The conversation just seamlessly carried on for maybe 5 minutes and I finally found an exit, lol. Not that I wanted it to stop, I was just really anxious to get back to my house. But I will say that there seemed to be an openness in the air no matter where I went. Whether it was from self effects due to the pheromones or from the pheromone hitting their nostrils. Another thing I also noticed as I was leaving my dancer buddy’s house (where my friend was also at) the first time was what seemed like only the slightest feeling (i’m a very intuitive person. Or I try to be, I like to pay attention to energy and things like that) of wanting me to stay. Like a slight tug. But I’m not going to think too much on it, honestly. Because I have got quite a few things in myself to work on. All in all, I’d say that yesterday was pretty successful and so far I think that this Molecule C stuff would be great for if I wanted to go to a party and limit my drinking. Because I would already feel loose enough. Today (Thursday 6.12.14) 1 spray to my wrist, transferred to my other wrists and the inside of my elbows at around 6pm ZERO self effects, and I am okay with that, lol. That’s pretty much what I was shooting for. Yesterday was intense. So that ends that part. I think the most noticeable effect happened to be on women who are older than I am. I believe that there was still some openness in the air, but not as much as when I gave myself a shot to the neck. Btw, I’m ushering for the colleges play tonight, so I am swamped with opportunities to interact with plenty of people. However there is one small hispanic lady who seems to be really cozy with me and she was cracking quite a few jokes with me from the moment she walked in the lobby. I also had a pretty extended conversation (as in I almost forgot I had a job I was doing) with an older white lady, who I’m pretty familiar with but, again, there seemed to be some new (yet subtle) element of openness in the air and our conversation seemed to go really smoothly (i also talk to her pretty regularly but there didn’t seem to be as much of a wall up) and she seemed to just be genuinely glad to see and talk to me and hear what I had to say. Overall, I’ll say a lot of the women were pretty responsive and not AS walled up as they could have been or as it normally gets. I can’t really say how long this will last, however judging from yesterday, I say I’ve still got a couple more hours to go. All in all I’d say that right now this Molecule C stuff seems to be a hit with the older ladies or ladies who think they’re old (in the case of my sort of friend girl from yesterday). I’d say that it is funny how ironic this entire Molecule C thing is right now considering I don’t like women and I don’t care to have much of a conversation with them unless I consider them friends or good associates. However I do see subtle traces or openness right now and I have only used just one spray these past two days. (I’ve pretty much decided that I’m going to test things out by taking it slow. I’ll do one spray for three days, maybe take a day long break, then do two sprays for three days, maybe take a day long break, then do three sprays for three days, followed by a day long break. I rock back and forth between doing four, but I don’t think I’ll go for four unless I am REALLY getting some stellar results from either two or three.) I’d like to venture to think that as the doses increase, so will the responses from other people, like men. I think I have learned that guys are definitely a bit more resistant to Molecule C than girls are but I won’t be able to say for sure until I do my experiment with two and three sprays. But I am definitely looking forward to using this stuff more often. I am quite amused at the self effects it gives me. I won’t be using them tomorrow for personal reasons (i’d also like to say that I have no intention of using pheromones while taking my dance classes everyday because that time is critical to ensuring I develop proper technique and improve upon what I already have and I’d like for everyone in class to get equal attention and for everyone to have their heads on straight. My only exception may be next thursday because we might be just having a little ballet party for class so i might try that instant shine out just to see what that does. but I really plan to stay consistent with which pheromone I use until I try them all out at their “max dosage” of sorts… Which will most likely just be three for me.) however saturday I plan to try to spray my wrist, then transfer it to the other wrists and swipe my neck to see how that goes for my second night ushering. I think Molecule C has some good things coming in higher doses. I’d almost like to venture to think that it may even attract younger women in higher doses, not that I’m looking for that. But I’ve got a feeling, haha. Okay, enough of my rambling, I think that’s everything that I’ve got for today. I’ll try to check back in a couple days with more results and things of that sort. ---
**Author:** ![1Alpha](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/1alpha/32/190_2.png) [@1Alpha](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/1Alpha)\ **Post date:** [June 19, 2014, 7:56pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/diary-of-a-gay-man/62195/2 "2014-06-19T19:56:13Z")
Great to see you start up a journal. I would ask, what you’re dosage is on the TAC (Molecule C)? It’s good to compare your ‘1 spray’ equivalent to my own testing of that molecule. Keeping an eye on your journal now as I’ll now get updates on your posts. 1Alpha . ---
**Author:** ![gruntl3d](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/g/f475e1/32.png) [@gruntl3d](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/gruntl3d)\ **Post date:** [June 20, 2014, 12:53am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/diary-of-a-gay-man/62195/3 "2014-06-20T00:53:24Z")
Wow, okay. I have a lot of updating to do, lol. Friday 6.13.14 (technically saturday at 12am) For whatever reason, I decided it’d be a good idea to spray 3 shots of instant shine to my neck. Furthermore, I hadn’t slept in over 24 hours so I was sleepy and delirious. Yet I still decided to spray myself and go to my friend’s house to play games. I’ve concluded that doses that large should be reserved for big party scenarios. Now let me backtrack. the self effects were relatively nonexistent because I was entirely too sleepy to actually receive any, in my personal opinion. So that’s all I’ve got to say for that. It had quite an interesting effect on everyone else, though. There was a lot of laughter and people seemed to have no problem just being themselves and vocalizing their true thoughts. So basically, everyone just started doing a lot of shittalking, which was actually very discomforting for me because that’s something I’m trying to get out of the habit of doing. I’m working towards becoming this whole, positive person and things of that sort. And nobody paid any attention to me. Which sucks. But again, I’m chalking it up to my being waaayyy too tired to actually try and work with it AND the fact that I sprayed quite a large dose for such a small crowd. From what I’ve read, instant shine is supposed to sort of put all eyes on you… i think? Right? Maybe not, maybe I misread. But yea, that inspired me to just stick to my original plan, haha. I can’t tell you how long it lasted because I was dog tired and ready to pass out after about 2 and a half hours. Sunday, 6.15.14 [Molecule C](https://pheromonelabs.com/product/molecule-c/), 1 spray on my wrist, transferred to the other and rubbed on my neck Ushering for the show again, around 1pm As far as self effects go, it was a lot easier to deal with. I believe I still calmed down and felt very smooth without the whole feeling drunk thing going down. So that was nice, haha. Not as much of a response from girls as when the larger portion of the dose was on my neck, in fact.. They seemed to not pay very much attention to me at all. Some of my friends would speak but for the most part, girls kept their distance… Actually, I think everyone pretty much kept their distance. They’d feel comfortable enough to talk around me.. But not to me. That was interesting. Literally there were old ladies who suddenly just stopped directly in front of me and had an entire conversation, and another one stopped to talk to the guy who was ushering with me. Her husband even stopped to talk for a bit, so that was nice. It’s so odd getting these responses from old people. I’m wondering if it’s because of the dosage.. not sure of how long this one lasted either because I usually just go home when I’m done being around people. i think i ate and walked back over to the school to chat for a bit. Then went back home. All in all, I was out in public for maybe 3 or 4 hours? Monday, 6.16.14 Molecule C, 2 sprays to the neck then shared with my wrists Hitting the road to another town and a friends house, about 6pm My friend has a rehearsal that’s out of town and it was my turn to drive. Luckily, I have friends in that town who don’t mind me hanging for a couple of hours. The self effects both during the trip and while visiting my friend were ridiculous. I really just could not stop talking for the life of me. Could. Not. Stop. Talking. No matter how bad I wanted to quit, there was always something for me to talk about, lol. And I’m someone who truly doesn’t mind driving long distances in complete silence. I generally drive without any type of noise anyway, whether I’m alone or not. But for whatever reason I just couldn’t quit. But they didn’t seem to mind. When I got to my friend’s house, he was suddenly very talkative. At first he seemed pretty calm and chilled, but he had been playing a video game before I got there. However, he seemed to get more and more talkative AND animated as time passed. Which was pretty cool and hilarious. Conversation was relatively easy the entire time. We just kept talking and talking and talking and carrying on until my other friend called to let me know he was ready to be picked up. There was a strong sense of camaraderie between us if that made any sense. Even when I was in the car with the friend who had rehearsal. It was pretty cool. Everything started to calm down somewhere along the way home. Thank God. Because my mouth was hella dry, and I try to keep myself hydrated. So I was glad when I could finally STOP talking, lol. I’d say these effects lasted about 4.5-5 hours in total. ---
**Author:** ![gruntl3d](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/g/f475e1/32.png) [@gruntl3d](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/gruntl3d)\ **Post date:** [June 20, 2014, 12:54am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/diary-of-a-gay-man/62195/4 "2014-06-20T00:54:14Z")
> [@1Alpha](#): > > Great to see you start up a journal. I would ask, what you’re dosage is on the TAC (Molecule C)? It’s good to compare your ‘1 spray’ equivalent to my own testing of that molecule. > > Keeping an eye on your journal now as I’ll now get updates on your posts. > > 1Alpha > > . Iiiii will let you know as soon as I’m near it again, lol. Hopefully it’ll tell me the dosage on the bottle. EDIT: 5mcg per spray ---
**Author:** ![gruntl3d](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/g/f475e1/32.png) [@gruntl3d](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/gruntl3d)\ **Post date:** [June 20, 2014, 6:50pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/diary-of-a-gay-man/62195/5 "2014-06-20T18:50:15Z")
Thursday 6.20.14 Molecule C (which I’ve now discovered is actually TAC, i suppose i’ll have to research it some more) 2 sprays to the wrists and shared with my inner elbows 9:00pm Over to a friend’s house to play D&D (super nerds) Self effects: I got some slight self effects from it this time. I wanted to talk a lot, but nowhere near as much as Monday. Praise. God. But it was actually pretty cool. I was very relaxed and I’m really starting to think that when I find the right spot and the proper amount to put this stuff. I’m going to find myself really liking it. It was just a very chill feeling overall. Effects on others: By far my favorite experiment to date. There was a very “homeboyish” vibe going on the entire night. We also never actually played D&D, lol. But that’s the most comfortable I’ve ever been around straight guys, and I think that’s the most comfortable they’ve ever been around me. Or maybe I’ve never paid any attention. Either way, the energy was very free flowing, from when it was just four of us to when it was 8 or 9 of us. I got along with the straight guys really well (when the other group came in, there were a couple of other gay guys). But it was just very relaxed. I felt like such a “bro” lol. It was cool, though. What I also noticed is that there was some distance from the gays, not so much because they seemed repulsed or repelled by me, though. They just seemed… distant. Like they weren’t quite sure how to communicate with me. I’m also friends with the roommates of the guy’s house we were in (a gay couple) and I’m actually really good friends with one of them and even he seemed to be a bit distant… I’m pretty sure the gay guys were treating me like a straight boy, lol. And maybe that’s why they weren’t quite sure how to get along with me, this stuff may have been giving off straight boy vibes. Anyways, after we played super smash bros for 2 hours, everyone left and went to go hang with my female friend who was asking me to come hang for awhile cuz we haven’t seen each other in forever. She and her friend both seemed pretty comfortable around me which isn’t too surprising but again, the energy seemed to flow a bit more freely. BUT I have got to tell you about the liquor store, because that is probably the most out of the ordinary thing that’s happened all day. I was in the store at the same time as another guy who seemed really straight. As in, I got scared and made sure my shorts weren’t riding up on my thighs (due to dance, my thighs are a bit on the muscular side) and tried to be as ungay as possible, lol. However when I was purchasing my liquor, the guy needed to get on the other side of me so he very politely said excuse me as he touched my shoulder to get past me.. mind you there was enough space behind me for him to just walk past. But then, once my alcohol was bagged, he picked up his bag and then mine and handed it to me and told me to enjoy my evening. And he was all smiles and sparkly eyes. That is definitely out of the ordinary and I’m 89% positive that he wouldn’t have been so “perfect gentlemanly” had it not been for these [pheromones](https://a314.com/shop/). He was TOO much of a gentleman, lol. I don’t understand why he felt the need to pick up that little brown bag for me and hand it to me because I was actually right in front of it. He basically went out of his way to be as nice to me as he possibly could. That gave me a chuckle, though. Here I was, scared to get gay bashed (I live in a pretty small, very country, very behind the times city right now) and the exact opposite happened. Again, this has been my favorite experiment so far, lol. I’m starting to like this TAC stuff more and more. But mostly because of the relaxed and comfortable vibe it gives off. So far there just always seems to be a deep sense of comfort and camaraderie, especially from the straight guys. I think it’s going to take a little bit more work with being around mostly gays to really get a good grip on how it affects them. But I like it. I was unsure at first. But I like it. I’m pretty sure it wore off at around 1:30-2:30. So that’s about 4.5-5.5 hours. Fun stuff. Fun stuff. ---
**Author:** ![gruntl3d](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/g/f475e1/32.png) [@gruntl3d](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/gruntl3d)\ **Post date:** [January 9, 2015, 1:32am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/diary-of-a-gay-man/62195/6 "2015-01-09T01:32:35Z")
Okay, I have been missing in action for quite some time now. However, I haven’t been skipping out on testing mones when I can. Also, wording it like some strange lab report is a bit awkward for me, so I’m going to go ahead and just talk about what I’ve gathered so far a bit less stuck upedly. [Instant Shine](https://a314.com/product/shine/) is the shit. I love it. But what I’ve learned is that location is everything when it comes to using these things. That, and density of the crowd, and my personal mental state and demeanor at the time. Like, if I’m not in a good mood but I choose to IS anyways, it’s definitely gonna backfire on me. As in, everyone else around me will begin to have the time of their lives and completely forget I exist. I’ve also learned that 3 sprays to my neck is wayy too much for a small crowd. I would honestly only do about 3 sprays at night when I’m planning to go out and have a good time. Other than that, One is just enough to get the party going for a small group. When I get a chance, I really want to pair it with MX297, my new best friend. Because that little mix of mones or whatever it is, does me very well. I use work (which happens to be a restaurant that can be dead as a graveyard and packed to capacity in a matter of a few minutes) as testing grounds sometimes and I’ve discovered that when I do one spray each on the insides of my elbows, everyone is a lot friendlier. I also work at the to go station, so I don’t get tipped as heavily as servers do, but when I wore that, I walked out with a relatively good amount for me to just stand in a corner and ring people up, lol. I didn’t notice much of anything with just one spray. There was one day where I sprayed 3 times on the neck, then a few hours later (after break) sprayed another two shots and that was interesting. Everyone’s energy was very scattered and crazed and all over the place. Girls in particular (mostly in their 20s) seemed to be very easily flustered and confused and lost. I actually thought it was pretty funny. I couldn’t really gather my bearings either until maybe an hour or so later. NOW! I went out to the club this past saturday while I was visiting home and I gave myself only 3 sprays all on my neck… And I felt kind of invincible. I’m not sure if it was the mones or if I was just in a good mood… Actually, it was probably a combination of both. But I was very confident in myself. I told a guy he was attractive, then saw him dancing by himself and told him he could come dance with me and my friends if he wanted and lo and behold! He came over and danced with us.. Then two other completely random guys joined us. Oh, right, alcohol probably helped this too. But it was a nice little group and all of us were just having a really good time and dancing our asses off. So I’ve definitely gotta try that again next time I go out. Everything just seemed very fun and I kind of felt like a superstar… But a down to earth, easily approachable, super cool to hang out with, superstar. I was drawing people in, and it was nice. Oh wait, I had actually made plenty of friends that night, lol. Another guy passed by me and told me his name and told me I was attractive. I was being stared at from the moment I approached the club, and from what I discerned, there weren’t any judgemental vibes, more like interest. The point is, I was either approached or looked at by cute guys… And that never happens to me. I wanna try that again. To wrap it all up, I’m running out of MX297, lol so I gotta buy some more soon. I’ll probably get the bigger one this time. But I finally decided to start toying around with Molecule C, so I struggled two sprays of MX297 out onto the sides of my neck and gave myself one spray of Molecule C in the front just before I went into work… These girls have never gotten that close to me or that open with me before. ever. Like, as far as energy goes. I have female best friends obviously and we talk about everything, no holds barred. But there’s still that small wall between us.. the one that says “We both totally don’t want each other.”.. And while, I am literally, completely unattracted to women.. That wall was completely nonexistent, lol. There was some pretty serious comfort there which I can only attribute to Molecule C, cuz I’ve worn the 297 to work plenty of times without that happening. Too bad only girls wanted to get that comfortably close to me, lol. The other funny thing, though, is that people had absolutely no problem approaching me or talking to me, and when they did it was all eyes on me… But if I came by and asked a question or tried to get someone’s attention, it’s like I wasn’t even there. Yet it didn’t feel like a bad thing… I think there was just so much comfort there, it wasn’t too different from being alone with your thoughts… Or.. something, idk. The point is, I didn’t feel like they were ignoring me, I think they just genuinely didn’t notice that I was there. However if they did want to talk to me it was full on. Like they knew i was there and I’ve been around them the whole time. I also noticed that I was a lot calmer and wayy less anxious with Molecule C in the mixture. So there’s that. That’s nice… But I think it may or may not be just a little sexual because I put the same mix on at school and it was hella uncomfortable. It just felt inappropriate for class.. But now I’ve decided I’ll save my mone experimentation for when I’m not at school. I kind of want to try Molecule C as a standalone since I’m actually going to leave my house tonight… But I think I’ll cool it and just not. I’m really excited about my little pheromone adventures so now I’m anxious to try more and more, just to see what they do. But I’m getting the hang of this life of the party thing. I think I want to eventually track something down that puts not just me, but everyone in a good mood, without putting the spotlight on me. Just hanging out with some friends (or potential friends because I actually CAN, in fact, attract people) and us just having a grand time. Enjoying each other’s company. P.S. I know I was supposed to be wrapping this up, but one more thing I noticed about proper use of these pheromones… Is not thinking about it. If you just go with it and follow those little impulses, everything seems to come right together. Because that Saturday night, while I was out, I knew I’d sprayed the mones on, but I was more focused on having a good time than checking to see if they worked or not. It wasn’t until later the next day, when I realized that I’d actually attracted a crowd, that it was definitely thanks to the mones cuz trust me. I do a very good job of being invisible… Whether I choose to or not…☹ ---
**Author:** ![gruntl3d](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/g/f475e1/32.png) [@gruntl3d](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/gruntl3d)\ **Post date:** [January 30, 2015, 3:44am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/diary-of-a-gay-man/62195/7 "2015-01-30T03:44:36Z")
Mmkay. So I don’t think I like [Molecule C](https://a314.com/product/molecule-c/) too much… Okay, I don’t like it at all. I’ve noticed that it does a good job of making sure the gays keep their distance… But the girls like to get all up in my grill. And I’m suddenly “one of the guys” with my managers. Which I don’t really care about. I also don’t get tipped anywhere near as much as when I wear, say, MX297. So yea.. My Molecule C experiment is over. Don’t get me wrong, it’s great stuff.. Just kind of not what I’m going for. I gave myself four sprays this past tuesday.. And while it was cool, my gay coworker kind of limited his interaction with me and seemed a bit nervous about talking to me when he’s usually waaay super forward with me, lol. And my manager (who’s definitely a straight, stereotypical male… you know, one of those “women’s basketball isn’t a real sport” types) was super comfy cosy with me.. Funny enough I noticed that out of all of them, whenever I wear Molecule C, it affects him the most. He’s like my best friend. It’s kind of interesting but I don’t like it. I don’t really care to be “one of the guys”.. especially if it’s going to affect my tips, lol. Don’t get me wrong, everyone’s pretty sweet when they interact with me, but they’re just waayyy less likely to tip because I’ve got such a very relaxed, borderline invisible vibe when I wear the stuff. Again, like I said previously, when I’m there, I’M THERE. But if people aren’t really focused on it. I hardly exist, lol. So there, I think it’s great for guys who are really looking to be man’s men and fit in with the fellas and get along with people great. It’s great for keeping a very relaxed aloof vibe about you. Like, I think it has tons of pros.. I just don’t care for any of it. Because when I’m running full on at 100%, I like to start a party and get the crowd going, lol. That stuff ain’t gonna do it. ---
**Author:** ![gruntl3d](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/g/f475e1/32.png) [@gruntl3d](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/gruntl3d)\ **Post date:** [January 30, 2015, 4:02am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/diary-of-a-gay-man/62195/8 "2015-01-30T04:02:53Z")
Random additional note. I forgot to mention this because I just remembered it. But I noticed that whenever I wear the [Molecule C](https://pheromonelabs.com/product/molecule-c/), i’m much more likely to get strange looks when I’m being goofy than laughs… Such as when I’m wearing MX297… I need some more MX297, lol ---
**Author:** ![gruntl3d](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/g/f475e1/32.png) [@gruntl3d](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/gruntl3d)\ **Post date:** [January 30, 2015, 4:08am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/diary-of-a-gay-man/62195/9 "2015-01-30T04:08:06Z")
> [@1Alpha](#): > > Great to see you start up a journal. I would ask, what you’re dosage is on the TAC (Molecule C)? It’s good to compare your ‘1 spray’ equivalent to my own testing of that molecule. > > Keeping an eye on your journal now as I’ll now get updates on your posts. > > 1Alpha > > . I just realized I never answered this question. The dosing was at 5mcg per spray. Sorry about that ☹ ---
**Author:** ![gruntl3d](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/g/f475e1/32.png) [@gruntl3d](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/gruntl3d)\ **Post date:** [February 1, 2015, 6:39pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/diary-of-a-gay-man/62195/10 "2015-02-01T18:39:23Z")
So a couple of things crossed my mind this morning. One, I’ve noticed that a good majority of us post how many sprays we used instead of the actual amount (5mcg, 10mcg, etc.) So I’m going to try and switch over to doing that. Mostly because I think it’d make things easier to figure out. Two, it occurred to me that [Molecule C](https://pheromonelabs.com/product/molecule-c/) may have different effects in higher doses. Although when I had 20mcg instead of 5 or 10 on me, I was starting to find myself a bit all over the place. Of course the simple solution would be to do high doses.. Just don’t spray it anywhere near where I could get self effects… So I guess I’m not quite done with Molecule C, yet… ---
**Author:** ![gruntl3d](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/g/f475e1/32.png) [@gruntl3d](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/gruntl3d)\ **Post date:** [February 2, 2015, 3:48pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/diary-of-a-gay-man/62195/11 "2015-02-02T15:48:24Z")
Alrighty, so I noticed that previously in my journal, Molecule C was one of my favorite experiments to date. So I suppose I should use it outside of work some more. And after last night, it actually really isn’t so bad. I think it just needs some other pheromones to steer it. ORRRRR, if I just use it in large doses. Effects seem to become much different. I spread 30mcg across my body any way I could last night and people were leaving me some pretty nice tips. Everyone was in love with me. I had guys talking to me like we were best friends. Even the gay guy went back to normal and he was hitting on me like he usually does. So I think it’s great for getting along with the straight guys without all of the aggression and hostility. And it would probably be even better with another mone to steer it… I just don’t have any clue how in the hell I’d want to even steer that thing, lol. But it’s fun to experiment with at the very least. I can say for sure that it does a great job of keeping me relaxed and in good spirits. My coworker next to me was spazzing out for a solid 30 minutes and all I could do was laugh the entire time while calmly and precisely doing my job. OH! Here’s a good story I just remembered. There was a woman who’s order was placed incorrectly and my manager voided it off before the kitchen could start making it. So I rerang her in and it was actually quite a lengthy process but she was actually very patient with me as I double and triple checked and asked questions. (Usually people find this to be a pain in the ass and you can tell by their energy). She ended up leaving me a ten dollar tip.. Which is a lot, especially when all you do is work at the ToGo station. In fact, if anyone was annoyed that day, it was never directed at me. Another thing I’ve noticed about it, too. Or something I’m starting to think about is it’s effects after it’s been on for some time. Usually the first hour or so can be a bit crazy or charged, but after that. After it’s been sitting for awhile, all at once, everyone’s mood seems to suddenly just lift and that’s when everyone starts to really be all in my grill, then. If they weren’t before. Or maybe they just have to warm up to me when I’m wearing that mone in particular. Either way, it’s a fun little [experimental pheromone](https://pheromonelabs.com/product-category/advanced-pheromones/experimental-pheromones/). I’ll have to try 30mcg again when I’m not at work. ---
**Author:** ![gruntl3d](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/g/f475e1/32.png) [@gruntl3d](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/gruntl3d)\ **Post date:** [June 24, 2015, 4:34am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/diary-of-a-gay-man/62195/12 "2015-06-24T04:34:30Z")
HOOOOOOOOOOOOLY SHIT I haven’t been on here on forever. Small recap. I’ve spent the last however long working my butt off with the dance company I perform with. Furthermore, my finances started getting a little rough to the point where I had to start searching for a new job ANNNND I’ve been going to therapy. It’s been a struggle since last time I’ve been on here, lol. But everything is starting to even out now and I just had some amazing tea that’s got my nerves all relaxed. So I guess I’ll talk about some stuff. [Instant Shine](https://a314.com/product/shine/) is the shit. I’m sure I’ve said this before. If I haven’t. I’ll say it again. Instant Shine is the shit. It blends perfectly with me no matter what the dose. If I spray just one everything is great. If I go for four, it’s a fucking party, lol. But seriously, this particular spray, I think, blends particularly well with my personality and body chemistry because I’ve always got all eyes on me when I wear it. Especially since starting therapy. And now I’ve gotten so accustomed to how it works that when I catch people just staring at me, I know to shoot them a smile or tell some sort of ridiculous story. But I reserve IS PURELY for the good vibes and good times. I wouldn’t wear it to work at all. MX297, if I had some, would be great for both work and the club. It keeps me friendly and approachable but not too much a party animal. P74 is pretty cool, too, but I don’t think I like it as much as MX297. P74 at 15mcgs kept people in a pretty good mood. They loved me and I believed that was when I was tipped more often. However, 30mcgs everyone just thought I was a nice guy and left me nothing, lol. They loved chatting it up with me but wouldn’t really give me any tips. My new job is going to be in sales, meaning I’m getting commission as well, so if I do decide to get another bottle of P74, results may be very different. I’ve got to find something that’s going to fit the way I sell, though. I’m not very much of a pushy kind of guy. I just casually (yet genuinely) suggest things as I continue to earn your friendship and figure out how I can better serve you. So I don’t really think A314 is really all that necessary in this kind of deal… Eh, who knows. We’ll see as I continue to learn how this pheromone stuff works… Except I’m going to do it the right (well, most suggested) way this time. I still have another putative that I haven’t tried yet in my shoe cabinet (P97). So I’ll wait til I settle into my new job and get back to making money and I’ll finally experiment with that. I’m quite looking forward to it. Mystery Boy totally sucks for me. I don’t know what it is about this freaking pheromone but every. single. time. I’ve tried to use it, it seems to have the opposite effect than intended. And while it does smell really good. I can’t seem to get it to work for me. And maybe I’m just dosing higher than necessary.. Or maybe not high enough. I want to go out to a couple of gay bars and try it in different doses there. But I may just have to give up on it. Mostly because every time I wear it, I find myself retreating back into myself instead of beaming outward like I do on a normal basis. As for IO and IH… I have yet to crack the code, lol. So I’ll just start with low doses for both of those and work my way up. I now understand the reason all the intro posts tell you to start slow and low and work your way up. There’s a method to the madness, lol. So. I’ve been an impatient prick and I’ve just kind of been winging it, but there’s a reason I should just take it one at a time and see what happens with different dosages in different spots. So from here on out, I’m going to go ahead and give myself a method for working with these mones and finding my sweet spot. I’m also going to work on detaching myself from the outcome. I keep expecting certain things to happen that I get frustrated when they don’t.. Which probably makes it harder for me to figure out whether the mones are actually working because I’m too busy expecting a specific response. D’ah I’ll figure out soon. But I figure I should throw this update out while I was awake and it was on my mind. Can’t wait to get a chance to buy some more. I’m strongly considering purchasing TUTH to combine with my IS or maybe MX297 (when I get some more)… I’ve been in the mood to go beyond my comfort zone and see what I can accomplish these days… ---
**Author:** ![gruntl3d](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/g/f475e1/32.png) [@gruntl3d](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/gruntl3d)\ **Post date:** [November 27, 2015, 8:42pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/diary-of-a-gay-man/62195/13 "2015-11-27T20:42:52Z")
So I pretty much know what I like. I don’t know that I’ve figured out how to attract guys yet. But at this point I’m positive it has everything to do with my lack of game, lmfao. I love instant shine for when I’m going out. I’ve got to return Mystery Boy because it tends to make me behave completely opposite of how I normally behave. I’m a relatively “loud” person for lack of a better word. I have a strong presence in general, probably because I’m tall lol. But the Mystery Boy tends to make me withdraw into myself. I also realize that every time I apply Mystery Boy I put it in a “self effect” zone, lol. So I might try again, but keeping it away from having the self effects applied to me and see if that works. I keep forgetting I’m going to try that. Anyways, [Instant Shine](https://a314.com/product/shine/) will always be my baby. But nowhere near as much as MX297. For whatever reason. Maybe my body chemistry. MX297 is like a loud subtle. It definitely works with me and turns me into a super star. I’d say it’s like a focused Instant Shine. Turns people into best friends and things. I wonder what that and P83 would yield. I already know IS and P83 definitely makes the walls disappear and keeps things light (even when the conversation is heavy). So I’m interested to see what would happen if I combined P83 with MX297.. Maybe one day I’ll just start ordering random putatives and MXs and experimenting. Because why not. I’m also considering adding tuth to some IS or MX297 one of these days… We’ll see. Anyways. I’VE FINALLY GOT SOME MX297 ON THE WAY AND I’M EXCITED. ---
**Author:** ![justintime469](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/justintime469/32/1402_2.png) [@justintime469](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/justintime469)\ **Post date:** [November 28, 2015, 12:43am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/diary-of-a-gay-man/62195/14 "2015-11-28T00:43:20Z")
You have a really great journal and just got done reading it and have been trying to get through it the last few days when I have had the chance. It is nice to see another gay man around. I think you should check out HankBuddy’s journal as it is full of great info. I think you are right about MB. I have found gay men usually prefer the pheromones like A314, IG, and Ammo. I actually started testing some of the women pheromones like IS/A and IS/B because I am curious on how pheromones actually effect different people and genders. Hank has a lot of good experience and Lillian has had really good luck with TUTH, A314, and I think she is testing Ammo now. What was very interesting to me is when I worn IS/B I actually met a gay male couple and we are really good friends now. Hank pointed out to me that they saw me as a friend and no threat and he was right. I actually found out my wife knows one of the guys and he is like a family friend. I am subscribed to this journal ---
**Author:** ![HankBuddy](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/h/f04885/32.png) [@HankBuddy](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/HankBuddy)\ **Post date:** [November 28, 2015, 12:47am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/diary-of-a-gay-man/62195/15 "2015-11-28T00:47:07Z")
Hey, Gruntl3d! Glad to see another gay man posting here. You know, you’re the second gay man to say that he didn’t have much luck with [Mystery Boy](https://a314.com/product/mystery-boy/). I’ve never used it myself because I didn’t like the sales pitch. I’m more into older guys, so I went with Ammo. I had good luck with it. Got a bunch of phone numbers! Yeah, I love IShine, too. Get good vibes from it. When I used it with A314, total DIHL from guys. I need to write more about it. Give Ammo and IShine a try. You’ll still get the best friend effect, but with Ammo you’ll let the guys know you can be more than a friend, if that’s what you want. Haven’t tried IShine and P83. Will have to do that someday. Hmmm… maybe tonight! Yeah, I think I’ll do that. That sounds like fun! ---
**Author:** ![gruntl3d](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/g/f475e1/32.png) [@gruntl3d](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/gruntl3d)\ **Post date:** [November 29, 2015, 3:38am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/diary-of-a-gay-man/62195/16 "2015-11-29T03:38:44Z")
> [@justintime469](#): > > You have a really great journal and just got done reading it and have been trying to get through it the last few days when I have had the chance. It is nice to see another gay man around. I think you should check out HankBuddy’s journal as it is full of great info. I think you are right about MB. I have found gay men usually prefer the pheromones like A314, IG, and Ammo. I actually started testing some of the women pheromones like IS/A and IS/B because I am curious on how pheromones actually effect different people and genders. Hank has a lot of good experience and Lillian has had really good luck with TUTH, A314, and I think she is testing Ammo now. What was very interesting to me is when I worn IS/B I actually met a gay male couple and we are really good friends now. Hank pointed out to me that they saw me as a friend and no threat and he was right. I actually found out my wife knows one of the guys and he is like a family friend. > > I am subscribed to this journal Thanks for subscribing! Hopefully I can keep it updated more often, lol. It’s nice to know that I’m not the only one not really getting any luck with MB. I’ll be sure to subsribe to Hank’s journal ---
**Author:** ![gruntl3d](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/g/f475e1/32.png) [@gruntl3d](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/gruntl3d)\ **Post date:** [November 29, 2015, 3:42am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/diary-of-a-gay-man/62195/17 "2015-11-29T03:42:49Z")
> [@HankBuddy](#): > > Hey, Gruntl3d! Glad to see another gay man posting here. You know, you’re the second gay man to say that he didn’t have much luck with Mystery Boy. I’ve never used it myself because I didn’t like the sales pitch. I’m more into older guys, so I went with Ammo. I had good luck with it. Got a bunch of phone numbers! > > Yeah, I love IShine, too. Get good vibes from it. When I used it with A314, total DIHL from guys. I need to write more about it. > > Give Ammo and IShine a try. You’ll still get the best friend effect, but with Ammo you’ll let the guys know you can be more than a friend, if that’s what you want. > > Haven’t tried IShine and P83. Will have to do that someday. Hmmm? maybe tonight! Yeah, I think I’ll do that. That sounds like fun! It seems like IS is a staple in drawing in some guys. It’s good thing I’m in love with the stuff. Next time I can afford to make a purchase I’ll have to get my hands on some A314 and [Ammo](https://a314.com/product/ammo/). Hopefully that’ll help move me out of auto friend zone. ---
**Author:** ![HankBuddy](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/h/f04885/32.png) [@HankBuddy](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/HankBuddy)\ **Post date:** [November 29, 2015, 6:43pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/diary-of-a-gay-man/62195/18 "2015-11-29T18:43:48Z")
> [@gruntl3d](#): > > It seems like IS is a staple in drawing in some guys. It’s good thing I’m in love with the stuff. Next time I can afford to make a purchase I’ll have to get my hands on some A314 and Ammo. Hopefully that’ll help move me out of auto friend zone. Between A314 and Ammo, I’ve had much stronger reactions with A314 than Ammo because it suits my personality better. It’s my base whenever I go out, except when I’m experimenting with a putative. Ammo is good and lots of guys show some interest by hanging around close to me, but the impact isn’t that great. I have to initiate follow-up. With A314, I see a different reaction. Guys don’t hang around near me, but if I go up to them, they act shy and stuff. Later they message me and say they enjoyed meeting me! It’s almost like I can pick and choose who to talk to when I wear A314. Add IShine, and you’ll see DIHL reactions. ---
**Author:** ![gruntl3d](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/g/f475e1/32.png) [@gruntl3d](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/gruntl3d)\ **Post date:** [March 20, 2016, 12:24am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/diary-of-a-gay-man/62195/19 "2016-03-20T00:24:24Z")
> [@HankBuddy](#): > > Between A314 and Ammo, I’ve had much stronger reactions with A314 than Ammo because it suits my personality better. It’s my base whenever I go out, except when I’m experimenting with a putative. Ammo is good and lots of guys show some interest by hanging around close to me, but the impact isn’t that great. I have to initiate follow-up. > > With A314, I see a different reaction. Guys don’t hang around near me, but if I go up to them, they act shy and stuff. Later they message me and say they enjoyed meeting me! It’s almost like I can pick and choose who to talk to when I wear A314. Add IShine, and you’ll see DIHL reactions. Noted! Thanks a lot, man! ---
**Author:** ![gruntl3d](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/g/f475e1/32.png) [@gruntl3d](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/gruntl3d)\ **Post date:** [March 20, 2016, 12:41am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/diary-of-a-gay-man/62195/20 "2016-03-20T00:41:59Z")
I’m not sure why I’m perpetually on and off this thing. I try to be consistent then I get a little busy. I try to be very productive, lmao. BUT THAT’S NOT THE POINT! My best friend came to visit me a couple of weeks ago and we went out to a straight club and on a whim I decided to spray myself down with 4 sprays of instant shine (2 to the face, 1 in that spot opposite each elbow) and followed up with a spray of mx297 in the same spot opposite my left elbow and ALL. NIGHT. LONG. All of the DL guys were staring me down hard, lol. Or trying to get as close to me as they could. I definitely realized that it was the mones because I am not really DL but I’m not super flamboyant. I’m just me. In fact, I vary between the extremes regularly. Depending on who I’m with and where I am, some people might think one of my straight friends is gay before me but I will turn around and give a “YASSSSS” at the top of my lungs in the same moment, lmao. For the most part, though, I’m just me’ing. The point is, lol. I don’t have very much experience with DL guys but I can generally spot them and we leave each other alone. Mostly because I’m usually on a mission (and I don’t know how to flirt) and they are likely trying not to get caught/found out. However, on this night. All of that was out the window lmao. AND I was drinking so if Beyonce or a nice ass-shake song came on. I was bouncing my ass, lol. I was making no effort to calm down for anyone’s benefit. And that didn’t stop these guys from tracking me down. I remember dancing off to a corner with my best friend next to a couple of guys and she eventually had to pee. When we got back from the bathroom we went to another side of the dance floor, more towards the middle and a couple of songs later, I look up and I see those same guys that were huggin the wall getting mighty close to me lol. I actually saw another guy literally move from the wall and sorta half dance right beside me with his back turned. But he kept casually looking over his shoulder at me, lol. Again, I usually just claim to be oblivious. But a lot of these guys were so obvious that even my best friend (who ain’t too keen on who is and isn’t gay) took notice and said something to me when we got back in the car, lol. So that’s my random update. Apparently instant shine and mx297 is the milkshake to bring the boys to my yard. I’d like to see how this mixture works at a gay club. But that was such a cool experience I couldn’t help but share it with you guys, haha. I still need to give A314 and IS a shot and see what happens there. [Next page](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/diary-of-a-gay-man/62195.md?page=2)