# Diary of a Madman (and a cat) **URL:** \ **Category:** Men's Journals\ **Created:** [June 16, 2011, 9:08pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/diary-of-a-madman-and-a-cat/50780 "2011-06-16T21:08:21Z")\ **Posts on this page:** 1\ **Showing post:** 25
**Author:** ![skittishsynapses](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/s/7ba0ec/32.png) [@skittishsynapses](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/skittishsynapses)\ **Post date:** [July 13, 2011, 7:18pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/diary-of-a-madman-and-a-cat/50780/25 "2011-07-13T19:18:16Z")
A Night Out, first meet I’ve been talking to a girl, Mary, for a couple months now back and forth online. Seems like a sweet girl, likes disneyland and Tori Amos. That kind of girl. We had talked about meeting for coffee sometime and either her schedule would goof up or mine would. Case and point, I was suppose to go take photos of someone in her area and he ended up in Central California. Uh? okay. So I drove down to her area anyway to see a band play at a record store. Now the mones. I sprayed on P103 (10mcg) for the self effect of quieting my nerves and putting me in a good mood 2 hours before meeting. An hour before I spray: 2 sprays - IG (throat and back of neck) 2 sprays - IH (sides of neck) 1 spray - Ammo (forearms, rubbed) 3-4 sprays - P96 (super diluted amount in some perfume I have, prob 1mcg per spray lol..hair, under shirt) On the drive there, there were two major traffic slow downs. I didn’t seem that phased. Man, P103 is great for mellowing me out. Find parking, walk up, and she waves at me. The band is about to start. They didn’t though. We were just talking side by side, leaning in here and there. I tried to make her laugh here and there. Not gonna lie, she laughs like Gargamail’s cat from the smurfs. lol. At first I noticed she was okay with leaning in, but as the show progressed, she kept leaning farther away, holding her purse close to her. When my elbow hit her back, she somewhat freaked out, looked at me and then down. She seemed anxious overall. She was quiet towards the end of the show. We went to Starbucks around the corner. The barista seems unaffected by me. We sit down and drink our coffee. The conversation lasts a good 45 minutes to an hour. In that time, it’s all laughs, smiles, pupils half dilated. We spent much of that conversation in direct eye contact. I didn’t really try to look her below the neck and neither did she. She even made me a mix cd, which she forgot to bring. lol. I attempt to keep my body open and non threatening. I think the IH made me a little too honest since I told her some facts and things about my past I wasn’t trying to. Almost slipped in stuff about my ex. oops. Talk of bad luck, coincidences, friends who know friends, family, freeways. She asked about the big skate session I set up and asked me to send her the facebook info for that for her to pass around. Ha, she talked about a water gun fight I missed for that big skate meet. I had forgotten I had gone to the session and I got the shit test of what was I really doing? And had to explain the whole thing and this being our 5th one. Could be she wants to really see if I organize this or making it up. She went to track a bathroom, and instead we wandered around a couple blocks, stopped across the street from the record store, talked some more. Lasted 15 minutes. She stood further back than she did in the beginning of the date. Said next time, she’d remember that cd and she had to wake up early, so goodnight. I went in for a hug and she gave me a loose quick, 2 second hug. She walked off around the corner…strange. I went to my car and drove home. I’m mildly amused that she was closer to me physically earlier on but by the end, she was trying to put an arm’s length of distance. I seemed rather comfortable and not nervous at all. IG or P103 self effects? I wouldn’t see her as someone I’d date, but it was good to make a friend and get my socializing on. --- _[View the full topic](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/diary-of-a-madman-and-a-cat/50780)._