Hey there Keith!
Your story really reminds me of myself 2 years ago… lol.
Great that you have begun on the journey of self-improvement, believe it or not,t he number of people participating in things like that are small.
So consider it an advantage which will grow and continue to grow if you keep watering that improvement 
But you are already having thought of turning your life around, so that’s a great way to start your first few steps.
Based on your information which you have given us, I would like to recommend these few products;
- A314
- Ammo
- IS
Intro to Mones
How to Qualify for GC
A person who consistently work on his self-image will eventually become an alpha male in a time-span of maybe a year or two. That is kinda how it works.
So keep working on it
Hope you find it useful!
Cheers!