# I'm keeping track of how things go--Might as well share **URL:** \ **Category:** Men's Journals\ **Created:** [September 23, 2008, 9:33pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/im-keeping-track-of-how-things-go-might-as-well-share/20137 "2008-09-23T21:33:41Z")\ **Posts on this page:** 20\ **Page:** 8
**Author:** ![pherophreak](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/pherophreak/32/1531_2.png) [@pherophreak](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/pherophreak)\ **Post date:** [March 11, 2009, 3:17am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/im-keeping-track-of-how-things-go-might-as-well-share/20137/141 "2009-03-11T03:17:06Z")
Skipped all classes today, felt terrible this morning… Around 6 I went to the arcade with TG, and two other male friends (J and C) I wore a different mix than normal, I was in a rush and didn’t really know what my goal for the night was Mix: 2 shots 30mcg A1 (ammo scented I think, ask Mark-in-Dallas) 2 shots to-go IJ I know there was more, but in all honesty I’ve forgotten. I’m sure it wasn’t anything with -none though. Overall not much really happened, TG was in a really good mood considering she just got dumped, but knowing her she was hiding her real feelings. No kino, no puppy dog eyes, no intense eye contact. The only thing she did was poke my ribs a couple times as she always did. I’m guessing it was just an off night with her. Oh well. Strange part is after I leave early (gotta go to work!) she texts me later and we schedule a date to go see Watchmen tomorrow. I initiated the invitation but she didn’t hesitate to agree. I feel REALLY strange, is it showing in my writing style? ---
**Author:** ![jayarea](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/j/48db29/32.png) [@jayarea](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/jayarea)\ **Post date:** [March 11, 2009, 3:46am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/im-keeping-track-of-how-things-go-might-as-well-share/20137/142 "2009-03-11T03:46:09Z")
> [@pherophreak](#): > > Skipped all classes today, felt terrible this morning… > > Around 6 I went to the arcade with TG, and two other male friends (J and C) > I wore a different mix than normal, I was in a rush and didn’t really know what my goal for the night was > > Mix: > > 2 shots 30mcg A1 (ammo scented I think, ask Mark-in-Dallas) > 2 shots to-go IJ > > I know there was more, but in all honesty I’ve forgotten. I’m sure it wasn’t anything with -none though. > > Overall not much really happened, TG was in a really good mood considering she just got dumped, but knowing her she was hiding her real feelings. No kino, no puppy dog eyes, no intense eye contact. The only thing she did was poke my ribs a couple times as she always did. I’m guessing it was just an off night with her. Oh well. > > Strange part is after I leave early (gotta go to work!) she texts me later and we schedule a date to go see Watchmen tomorrow. I initiated the invitation but she didn’t hesitate to agree. > > I feel REALLY strange, is it showing in my writing style? a bit. it’s not as fluid as your other posts. slightly ot question: does TG stand for anything that’s not personal? if it’s her initials you don’t need to tell me, but i saw “TG” used in a few other users’ posts so i was wondering if i’m left in the dark on some new acronym. ---
**Author:** ![revivia](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/revivia/32/2124_2.png) [@revivia](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/revivia)\ **Post date:** [March 11, 2009, 3:51am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/im-keeping-track-of-how-things-go-might-as-well-share/20137/143 "2009-03-11T03:51:02Z")
Hmm…I don’t see a noticeable difference in your writing style. In my honest opinion I think you are dealing with this entire situation quite well, and I’m sure she’ll want you as her bf in the future as soon as she is out of her slump. Wish you the best. 😃 ---
**Author:** ![pherophreak](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/pherophreak/32/1531_2.png) [@pherophreak](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/pherophreak)\ **Post date:** [March 11, 2009, 4:05am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/im-keeping-track-of-how-things-go-might-as-well-share/20137/144 "2009-03-11T04:05:53Z")
> [@jayarea](#): > > a bit. it’s not as fluid as your other posts. > > slightly ot question: does TG stand for anything that’s not personal? if it’s her initials you don’t need to tell me, but i saw “TG” used in a few other users’ posts so i was wondering if i’m left in the dark on some new acronym. TG is theatre girl, because I realized she was interested in more than just friendship at a theatre, and because I’m not creative at all. I’ve seen it used around here as well, “target girl” or “the girl” has been used a few times in other threads. I started a trend! 😃 ---
**Author:** ![jayarea](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/j/48db29/32.png) [@jayarea](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/jayarea)\ **Post date:** [March 11, 2009, 4:44am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/im-keeping-track-of-how-things-go-might-as-well-share/20137/145 "2009-03-11T04:44:05Z")
> [@pherophreak](#): > > TG is theatre girl, because I realized she was interested in more than just friendship at a theatre, and because I’m not creative at all. > > I’ve seen it used around here as well, “target girl” or “the girl” has been used a few times in other threads. I started a trend! 😃 _doesn’t hear the clue phone ringing_ that makes sense now. target girl, target guy. ---
**Author:** ![pherophreak](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/pherophreak/32/1531_2.png) [@pherophreak](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/pherophreak)\ **Post date:** [March 12, 2009, 1:04am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/im-keeping-track-of-how-things-go-might-as-well-share/20137/146 "2009-03-12T01:04:47Z")
Went to see Watchmen with TG (good movie) Mix: 2x IHx2 2x tuth 30mcg [P83](https://a314.com/product/p83/) 30mcg A1 Keep in mind it was about a 3 hour movie, so mix had optimum time to take affect. Also realize that TG was dumped 3 days ago so keep that in mind. Overall effects? Well…She was just really quiet the whole time and didn’t say much during the entire movie. It really sucked to be honest, I wonder if she’s playing games with me or if she is just still sore about the breakup? She swears she is fine, but we all know girls hide their feelings. After the movie we went to Subway. Here I told her that I’d like a chance to show her how important she is to me, and she said she was wanting to be single for a while. I told her I agreed with that but to realize I’m here for her regardless. Then she said “my eyes are always open” which I don’t really know what to take from that…any thoughts? Hopefully this behavior doesn’t continue…she’s been so cold… ---
**Author:** ![ShaneS429](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/shanes429/32/2349_2.png) [@ShaneS429](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/ShaneS429)\ **Post date:** [March 12, 2009, 1:14am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/im-keeping-track-of-how-things-go-might-as-well-share/20137/147 "2009-03-12T01:14:52Z")
> [@pherophreak](#): > > Went to see Watchmen with TG (good movie) > Mix: > 2x IHx2 > 2x tuth > 30mcg P83 > 30mcg A1 > > Keep in mind it was about a 3 hour movie, so mix had optimum time to take affect. Also realize that TG was dumped 3 days ago so keep that in mind. > > Overall effects? Well…She was just really quiet the whole time and didn’t say much during the entire movie. It really sucked to be honest, I wonder if she’s playing games with me or if she is just still sore about the breakup? She swears she is fine, but we all know girls hide their feelings. > > After the movie we went to Subway. Here I told her that I’d like a chance to show her how important she is to me, and she said she was wanting to be single for a while. I told her I agreed with that but to realize I’m here for her regardless. Then she said “my eyes are always open” which I don’t really know what to take from that…any thoughts? > > Hopefully this behavior doesn’t continue…she’s been so cold… Well is she the type that doesn’t talk during movies? I personally don’t talk at all during movies and just stare at the screen and focus on the movie. Or do you mean she had no reactions to the movie, As in she never laughed, never got excited, and never even moved? As for the “my eyes are always open” from what I can tell, she is saying she just needs time. She isn’t completely closing the door, but it’s to soon for her to do anything. She will keep her eyes open for guys, but that’s it at this point. Nothing more you can do at this point but to make sure her “open eyes” see you. ---
**Author:** ![M\_M](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/m/9fc29f/32.png) [@M\_M](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/M_M)\ **Post date:** [March 12, 2009, 1:47am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/im-keeping-track-of-how-things-go-might-as-well-share/20137/148 "2009-03-12T01:47:27Z")
> [@pherophreak](#): > > Here I told her that I’d like a chance to show her how important she is to me With her being dumped 3 days ago … that was a **BIG** mistake. Most women I know that has been dumped without wanting to be dumped … hang on to hope of his return, and vice versa. DO learn from it for future references. Keep your mouth closed, should you ever get in this situation again … people normally will give you signs, if you know what to for, if they’re interested in you that way. Now she knows you want her, which becomes uncomfortable for her every time you’re around now. To wuss or not to wuss … that tis zee questione. You’re in need a GOOD new hobby fast! I’m talking something that you really enjoy that’ll keep you from looking at your cell phone every two seconds. Become unavailable, and no texting or calling 50 times a day talking about, _ **“I just wanted to say hi and see if you’re alright.” “Just wanted you to know that I’m here for you, if you need me.”** _ No she’s not alright … she got dumped! Three days … you’re an animal, and now she knows. Still … there are exceptions to just about every single thing … even day light, so … Sometimes you win, sometimes you learn. Hang in there! ---
**Author:** ![pherophreak](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/pherophreak/32/1531_2.png) [@pherophreak](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/pherophreak)\ **Post date:** [March 12, 2009, 1:54am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/im-keeping-track-of-how-things-go-might-as-well-share/20137/149 "2009-03-12T01:54:08Z")
> [@M\_M](#): > > With her being dumped 3 days ago … that was a **BIG** mistake. Most women I know that has been dumped without wanting to be dumped … hang on to hope of his return, and vice versa. DO learn from it for future references. Keep your mouth closed, should you ever get in this situation again … people normally will give you signs, if you know what to for, if they’re interested in you that way. Now she knows you want her, which becomes uncomfortable for her every time you’re around now. To wuss or not to wuss … that tis zee questione. > > You’re in need a GOOD new hobby fast! I’m talking something that you really enjoy that’ll keep you from looking at your cell phone every two seconds. Become unavailable, and no texting or calling 50 times a day talking about, _ **“I just wanted to say hi and see if you’re alright.” “Just wanted you to know that I’m here for you, if you need me.”** _ No she’s not alright … she got dumped! Three days … you’re an animal, and now she knows. > > Still … there are exceptions to just about every single thing … even day light, so … > > Sometimes you win, sometimes you learn. > > Hang in there! Well…see a big thing I didn’t mention (didn’t occur as I typed it) was that she told me she’s going on a date with a guy from college on Saturday, thats when I erm…pulled a pathetic one. (They should call it “Pulling a Bob”) ---
**Author:** ![M\_M](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/m/9fc29f/32.png) [@M\_M](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/M_M)\ **Post date:** [March 12, 2009, 2:00am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/im-keeping-track-of-how-things-go-might-as-well-share/20137/150 "2009-03-12T02:00:27Z")
Pushing you away, would be my guess, but that DOES NOT make me right. You need something else to do … a date, but don’t tell her you’re going on a date/been on a date/want to go on a date … just do it! Maybe she’s using the other guy to make her ex jealous … people do that, not understanding that there’s not just ONE outcome from that, but TWO … 1) It may bring them back 2) It may push them away FOREVER. You’re feeling really ugly right about now, but please trust me when I say, “You WILL be just fine,” even if it doesn’t feel like it. No more calling or texting … should you pass her on the street … a big hello with a big smile and keep on going! If she wants to chat, chat, but cut it short and get out of there. It’s rolling the dice … nothing’s guaranteed. Believe that it’s her that’s missing out, and you’re on your way. Good luck! Fer true. ---
**Author:** ![pherophreak](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/pherophreak/32/1531_2.png) [@pherophreak](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/pherophreak)\ **Post date:** [March 12, 2009, 2:00am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/im-keeping-track-of-how-things-go-might-as-well-share/20137/151 "2009-03-12T02:00:32Z")
> [@M\_M](#): > > **You’re in need a GOOD new hobby fast!** I’m talking something that you really enjoy that’ll keep you from looking at your cell phone every two seconds. Become unavailable, and no texting or calling 50 times a day talking about, _ **“I just wanted to say hi and see if you’re alright.” “Just wanted you to know that I’m here for you, if you need me.”** _ No she’s not alright … she got dumped! Three days … you’re an animal, and now she knows. Hmm…A hobby? Well…there is this OTHER girl… I’m not sure, does this constitute as playing games? ---
**Author:** ![pherophreak](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/pherophreak/32/1531_2.png) [@pherophreak](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/pherophreak)\ **Post date:** [March 12, 2009, 2:02am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/im-keeping-track-of-how-things-go-might-as-well-share/20137/152 "2009-03-12T02:02:51Z")
> [@M\_M](#): > > Pushing you away, would be my guess, but that DOES NOT make me right. > > You need something else to do … a date, but don’t tell her you’re going on a date/been on a date/want to go on a date … just do it! Maybe she’s using the other guy to make her ex jealous … people do that, not understanding that there’s not just ONE outcome from that, but TWO … 1) It may bring them back 2) It may push them away FOREVER. > > You’re feeling really ugly right about now, but please trust me when I say, “You WILL be just fine,” even if it doesn’t feel like it. > > No more calling or texting … should you pass her on the street … a big hello with a big smile and keep on going! If she wants to chat, chat, but cut it short and get out of there. It’s rolling the dice … nothing’s guaranteed. > > Believe that it’s her that’s missing out, and you’re on your way. > > Good luck! Fer true. Alright, what if she texts me eh? Also, the appropriate response to her telling me she was going on a date would’ve been for me to wish her luck with a big smile, right? ---
**Author:** ![M\_M](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/m/9fc29f/32.png) [@M\_M](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/M_M)\ **Post date:** [March 12, 2009, 2:13am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/im-keeping-track-of-how-things-go-might-as-well-share/20137/153 "2009-03-12T02:13:25Z")
> [@pherophreak](#): > > Alright, what if she texts me eh? Text her back … the next day … keep it short … sound happy. > [@pherophreak](#): > > Also, the appropriate response to her telling me she was going on a date would’ve been for me to wish her luck with a big smile, right? You’re not me, so … Not wish her luck, but you’re in the right ball park … IF you ask me. The correct answer to something so painful should ALWAYS have something funny in it, like … “Make sure you’re home by 9!” “Don’t forget your Certs!” “Make sure you wash behind the ears!” You know her, so you should know what makes her laugh … IF you’ve been paying attention. It’s ugly to have to play games with people when it comes to matters of the heart, but it seems like that’s what everybody’s doing these days. **How to Kiss for Dummies** sells! Tis sad! Tis sad! 😮 I reserve all rights to be wrong! ---
**Author:** ![M\_M](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/m/9fc29f/32.png) [@M\_M](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/M_M)\ **Post date:** [March 12, 2009, 2:17am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/im-keeping-track-of-how-things-go-might-as-well-share/20137/154 "2009-03-12T02:17:49Z")
> [@pherophreak](#): > > Hmm…A hobby? Well…there is this OTHER girl… > > I’m not sure, does this constitute as playing games? IF you really like this OTHER girl. If not, you’re really being as ugly as your friend sounds. When people use people, it always comes back to haunt you. It may not be that day, that week or even that year, but it comes back. What tickles me is that these are the people that ask, **“Why does it always happen to me?”** Duhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! Hobby — gym, dance club, karate, bowling, something fun that YOU enjoy, or you’re gonna watch your cell until your eyes become muscular! ---
**Author:** ![pherophreak](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/pherophreak/32/1531_2.png) [@pherophreak](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/pherophreak)\ **Post date:** [March 12, 2009, 2:20am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/im-keeping-track-of-how-things-go-might-as-well-share/20137/155 "2009-03-12T02:20:53Z")
> [@M\_M](#): > > IF you really like this OTHER girl. If not, you’re really being as ugly as your friend sounds. When people use people, it always comes back to haunt you. It may not be that day, that week or even that year, but it comes back. What tickles me is that these are the people that ask, **“Why does it always happen to me?”** Duhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! > > Hobby — gym, dance club, karate, bowling, something fun that YOU enjoy, or you’re gonna watch your cell until your eyes become muscular! I’ve actually been texting and calling her considerably less recently. Not sure why…well actually I do, NG has been keeping me occupied. Hmm…to ponder such things is to ponder nothing, and everything at once! Who is it that was quoted saying that… ---
**Author:** ![pherophreak](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/pherophreak/32/1531_2.png) [@pherophreak](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/pherophreak)\ **Post date:** [March 12, 2009, 10:37pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/im-keeping-track-of-how-things-go-might-as-well-share/20137/156 "2009-03-12T22:37:08Z")
> [@pherophreak](#): > > Went to see Watchmen with TG (good movie) > Mix: > 2x IHx2 > 2x tuth > 30mcg P83 > 30mcg A1 > > Keep in mind it was about a 3 hour movie, so mix had optimum time to take affect. Also realize that TG was dumped 3 days ago so keep that in mind. > > Overall effects? Well…She was just really quiet the whole time and didn’t say much during the entire movie. It really sucked to be honest, I wonder if she’s playing games with me or if she is just still sore about the breakup? She swears she is fine, but we all know girls hide their feelings. > > After the movie we went to Subway. Here I told her that I’d like a chance to show her how important she is to me, and she said she was wanting to be single for a while. I told her I agreed with that but to realize I’m here for her regardless. Then she said “my eyes are always open” which I don’t really know what to take from that…any thoughts? > > Hopefully this behavior doesn’t continue…she’s been so cold… Replying to my own post. 😕 In hindsight, I should have gone heavy on socials and low -none. I want her to be comfortable around me and realize that I’m a lot of fun to be around, not think I’m a horn-dog. Too bad these thoughts come POST event. I’ll try to keep it in mind though next time we go out. ---
**Author:** ![Wrlprchnx](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/wrlprchnx/32/1360_2.png) [@Wrlprchnx](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/Wrlprchnx)\ **Post date:** [March 13, 2009, 6:56pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/im-keeping-track-of-how-things-go-might-as-well-share/20137/157 "2009-03-13T18:56:28Z")
> [@pherophreak](#): > > Replying to my own post. 😕 > > In hindsight, I should have gone heavy on socials and low -none. I want her to be comfortable around me and realize that I’m a lot of fun to be around, not think I’m a horn-dog. Too bad these thoughts come POST event. I’ll try to keep it in mind though next time we go out. Mmmm… I like the IFM and IH in the mix - I would go with AMMO instead of TUTH and leave P83 out entirely… If you have [P74](https://pheromonelabs.com/product/p74/) I bet that would be excellent to replace the P83 (I’ve never used it solo… but it’s inclusion in the MX275-81 series seems to have really bumped up the relationship harmony factor from standard AMMO) ---
**Author:** ![pherophreak](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/pherophreak/32/1531_2.png) [@pherophreak](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/pherophreak)\ **Post date:** [March 23, 2009, 9:14pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/im-keeping-track-of-how-things-go-might-as-well-share/20137/158 "2009-03-23T21:14:59Z")
Today I tried wearing 2 drops Alpha314 and 2 sprays of Mx292 in class today. Wow I hope it wasn’t the mones that made me so tired. I slept through two entire classes, which is really bad considering this is the first day back from spring break. It also could be from the fact that I had a hard time getting to sleep last night and took a sleeping pill at 12:30 when you are supposed to take them like 45 minutes before you want to go to sleep. So I could’ve just been really groggy from that. Hits…hmm. Well I got a new professor for one of my classes, and she seemed pretty friendly towards me, making random comments towards me even know I’ve never seen her before. In my chorus class I didn’t notice anything overt, but again, I was pretty damn groggy. I’ll try this mix again tomorrow, and I’ll try to build up some more respect from my classmates with a baseline of Alpha314. That would benefit me in multiple ways. ---
**Author:** ![pherophreak](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/pherophreak/32/1531_2.png) [@pherophreak](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/pherophreak)\ **Post date:** [March 24, 2009, 4:52am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/im-keeping-track-of-how-things-go-might-as-well-share/20137/159 "2009-03-24T04:52:10Z")
Oh, to continue my stream of thoughts. (Can’t sleep again…) Wore mx292 and Alpha around texty girl from way earlier, and she invited me to go golfing with her and a mutual friend. (my best friend) At the course I wore 2 drops alpha and 2 shots of Mx292+ more 292 every few hours, I think it had SOME effect as she has been texting me much more often, and she has made a few sexual comments recently that I’ve never heard from her before. (Telling me she is a masochist, and that she likes to be choked during sex) 🆒 I don’t see NG often because of school and work, but we plan to get together in the future. (I have to get my car license re-approved, long story but I didn’t get any tickets or anything like that) I need to take a hard look at myself, because I’m not currently happy with who I am. I spend a lot of time alone because of my partying habits (can’t drink, don’t do drugs.) I need to get a group of friends to hang with, and erm “get a life” so they say. I’m tired of wasting my days going to school, work, then bed with hardly any social contact in between. Oh, and I think it is worth mentioning I don’t notice any obvious self effects from any mone products currently. Alpha does give me a bit of a strut, but other than that… I’ll continue to use them though. 🙂 ---
**Author:** ![Wrlprchnx](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/wrlprchnx/32/1360_2.png) [@Wrlprchnx](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/Wrlprchnx)\ **Post date:** [March 24, 2009, 1:56pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/im-keeping-track-of-how-things-go-might-as-well-share/20137/160 "2009-03-24T13:56:23Z")
> [@pherophreak](#): > > I need to take a hard look at myself, because I’m not currently happy with who I am. I spend a lot of time alone because of my partying habits (can’t drink, don’t do drugs.) I need to get a group of friends to hang with, and erm “get a life” so they say. I’m tired of wasting my days going to school, work, then bed with hardly any social contact in between. I know the feeling man - Try and find your local Ultimate League - I find as a sport it is extremely social - and it’s easy to get into (unlike hockey or football). [Previous page](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/im-keeping-track-of-how-things-go-might-as-well-share/20137.md?page=7) [Next page](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/im-keeping-track-of-how-things-go-might-as-well-share/20137.md?page=9)