Yesterday, I wore a newly devised mix - we will call it Seduction Mix 10. It goes like this:
3 drops A314 (1 in goatee, 2 on forearms)
1 spray TUTH (back of head)
2 sprays IShine (neck)
2 sprays IOpen (forearms)
2 sprays IHonesty (forearms)
Effects:
I arrived at college 45 minutes late. Usually, my strange brand of social anxiety tells me, “If you’re late, don’t go in at all.” It being mid terms, I went in anyway, and was pleasantly surprised that it was easier than I thought it would be.
I noticed I was more assertive in class, voicing my point of view, “taking up space” more, if that makes sense. I asserted my presence, I guess you could say.
It was obvious that I was dominating the room, and I quickly realized I had to keep my mouth shut for most of class to allow the instructor his due respect. (I’m far more advanced in my technical photographic knowledge and skill than everyone else in that class but the instructor, and in fact I’m only in that class because I couldn’t get into Advanced before it filled up.)
I had other students looking to me for answers when they were not certain how to answer his questions, because they knew I knew the answers. But I had to keep quiet so I didn’t seem disrespectful or give away the answers without letting them think for themselves.
I did, however, parlay with the instructor a few times on technicalia that was rather arcane to everyone else except one other guy, who runs a wedding photography business. In the end, to my amazement, the instructor seemed just as confised about the answer as I was, and then decided my original answer must have been correct after arguing against me for several minutes. I don’t usually assert myself that much.
The Latina I mentioned above was giving me IOIs during class, but they were not as strong. I think she was feeling outclassed by my A314/TUTH and displays of knowledge. But she lingered on after class trying to be close to me for longer than I could find any other explanation for, and gave me a sweet look and wave as she waslked out finally.
Oddly enough, I was feeling slightly intimidated by the instructor after class when I asked if I could switch from film to digital.
Went to the library for a few hours, had an online argument with my distractant, and before I went back to class, I re-applied. Same formula, same places, only this time acidentally had four drops of A314.
We were supposed to have ten images to display for finals. Because my printer had run out of ink shortly after I began making my final prints, and I had mistakenly failed to realize I had no more cyan ink (I have 2-3 of everything else, naturally), I was stopped cold with aout 80% of one print done. I showed up and it turnedout most of the class didn’t have anything at all, and my 80% of one print easily outmatched everyone else for sheer skill and quality. (I have a printer that can produce museum quality prints, if you know how to use it.)
The results were interesting. The whole class congregated around me… for the whole class… and I wasn’t sitting where the class normally would sit. But they all kept a respectful distance of 2-3 feet. The instructor gave me his version of high praise, which is to say, he made only one small positive comment about the skill with which I had rendered the tonal range. Usually, he will dissect and pick apart anything that isn’t perfect. Everyone else got the dissection treatment.
Nobody spoke to me much, except to give me one comment about how good my image was. I noticed I was getting repeated IOIs from the sister of one of the girls I find very attractive in the class. Oddly enough, this sister looks a lot like the sister of my ex girlfriend. ??? But I have never gotten any notice from this girl before.
Now the reason I re-applied was to see just how far I could push the TUTH. Neither time I applied did I feel the hot-face that I usually do, and neither time did I become upset, angry or paranoid, and I have noticed can happen with me on androstenone. Something definitely toned it down. I bet if I added TAF and put it in an oil base, this mix would be insane.