P130
Thanks, Sharkndragon! The pleasure is mutual!
So I recently discovered that I have a bit of p130 left. Probably a half a bottle. I think I’ll spend this next week testing it. I’m at a point where I have a reasonably broad assortment of social interactions on a regular basis: classroom, family, individual friends, friends in groups, and new acquaintances. I hope I don’t run out before I get a good sampling.
I tried some today for self-effects. 15 mcg on the chest/neck.
I’ve been feeling a lot of anxiety lately. Most of that has to do with the fact that my dad has been battling cancer for the past 6 months. He doesn’t want to tell anybody, so I’m the only family member who knows. He lives alone, so when he needs somebody to take care of him, I’m the only one to do it. I’ve also been meeting a lot of new people recently that I’m trying to become friends with. I’m also an MBA grad student. So the stressors certainly have been piling up, even if it’s supposed to be good stress (such as making new friends).
I had made some plans to go out today, but I cancelled them because I was feeling overwhelmed and anxious. In retrospect, I wish I hadn’t done that. It wasn’t until late at night that I rediscovered my p130 and applied 15 mcg. Within a few minutes, I felt the stress start to melt. I could still feel an underlying unrest, but as time went on, I cared less and felt more calm. Now, 3 hours later, I think I’m at the peak. I feel pretty relaxed from the continuous exposure, but I can feel that it might come back as the effects wear off. I’d better get to sleep before that happens.
I wish I had thought to do this yesterday, when I went alone to a party where I didn’t really know anybody. Sure would have loosened me up quicker!