Hi there David, welcome to PTalk.com!
Thats a very detailed intro, not to hard to read, you write very well.
From your post, you seem like you have a hard time with attraction, you might want to take a look at;
- Ammo - Good all rounder product
- IG - For that status and respect, charming
- Ishine - For that feel good vibe
you might want to read up on;
https://pheromonetalk.com/t/an-introduction-to-mones-names-size-strength-use-effects-length-of/43003
Good resource to read up on your first time here.
Cheers!