# Night\_Hawk's Pheremone Journal **URL:** \ **Category:** Men's Journals\ **Created:** [December 2, 2010, 4:05pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/night_hawks-pheremone-journal/43688 "2010-12-02T16:05:09Z")\ **Posts on this page:** 20\ **Page:** 20
**Author:** ![Night\_Hawk](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/n/3bc359/32.png) [@Night\_Hawk](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/Night_Hawk)\ **Post date:** [April 7, 2017, 6:49pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/night_hawks-pheremone-journal/43688/383 "2017-04-07T18:49:20Z")
So, I’m on the dreaded night shifts, arf!! ☹ One down, 3 more (Including tonight), to go!! Saturday just gone, another mone-free day, but I had a brief conversation with ‘RW’ about something that happened 2 years back between us - Pretty certain it’s probably documented in the earlier pages. Anyhow, attempted to hint how I find her as a great, true friend, someone I can trust with anything. Could see on her face, the ‘awkward’, puzzled look. Was tempted right there, right then to say, “Here, go to this link, look at this journal, read it all from page 15 and show it to ‘X’ as she has a right to know everything too; and then you’ll both understand!” OK, so that didn’t happen, but as I turned to leave the office door, I paused for a second or two; and that was the thought running through my mind. I guess sharing my past, present and future thoughts aren’t something I can do right now, even to a closest friend (RW). At least I hope now she understands that I’m a friend, her friend and that to me, she’s the one person in there that I can put my total trust in, albeit, if we had a major problem, she’d probably be the first to head out the back door, lol! 😃 Sunday, a nice rest day, yay, a cider playing tunes day! This is becoming a habit, lol. 🙄 Monday, yep, machines from hell again! Yay, I found a few sprays of IO in a togo - [Neroli](https://a314.com/product-category/scented/androtics-neroli/), yes!! Straight to my adam’s apple did it go. Lynx ‘Black’ to my chest/arms and the back of my neck. So from having a mone-less couple of days, I can now see the staff around me once more becoming chattier, more social - that’s what I like to see! None of the, “I’m bored!” Comments that I usually get, when not wearing AD’s mones. This is when you get to see the effects, get to see how things work, both on yourself and others, mainly myself, lol. Ok, so I’ve gathered in recent months that my application points for some of the mones I’ve used have been in the wrong places, hence me getting self-effected; and to a point in some cases not getting the desired effect because I’m under the influence as well, lol! Wrists, yep, got to always remember that one for IH. May have to think about that for IO as well, as I do seem to show the signs of being more open with my thoughts that I would do without using any mones! Still can’t believe some of the things I blurted out in front of ‘X’, my thoughts for her, right in front of her/everyone, no wonder she probably felt uncomfortable, I know I probably would of. Actually no, I’d of probably thought it was some form of joke, as compliments towards myself is something I don’t tend to get! I’m the thinnest human going, can never put on any weight. Most I’ve been ever is 9 and a half stone; and due to a very high metabolism, I can shed a stone or two in less than a week! I literally live on high-energy foods/drinks to keep me going; add shine to that, P74 and my head goes into wake-up mode even quicker; and it lasts for what feels like hours!! Still, Monday went off without a hitch, lol, no gaffes to reassembling the machinery, but damn, were we short staffed yet again!! 4 of us were due off at 2pm, so I volunteered to stay till 3 when a couple of others were due to start their shift - couldn’t leave even then, too darn busy!! Ended up staying till near 5pm; and even then, I didn’t really want to leave them, as it was still busy as hell, but I’d kind of had enough of hearing the shift manager ask me over and over if I was going home?!! He’d been asking me since 2pm, lol. Yeah sure thing ‘ST’, I’ll leave at 2pm with the other 3 and watch you struggle as I leave the front door! Sorry dude, not going to happen, I’m not that type of guy that allows extra stress to the team,because through no fault of their own staff have either failed to turn up, or have phoned in sick! Still, Tuesday and Wednesday I had a nice two days off! Finally, 5 months on, I completed the track I had to stop producing due to the endless thoughts of ‘X’s’ track on loop, causing a mental block! That’s gone off to the Distribution Company, the US one I use and think in future I’ll send all my tracks to them. Reason being, I paid my yearly subscription to the UK Distro company I started out with back in 2013, only released 2 tracks with them, but damn, they’re a nightmare to deal with!! They’re even based in the same City as me, yet for some bizarre reason they double charged me and set up a ‘stealth’ direct debit! So, now I’m sat waiting for a refund and bizarrely, the customer rep assigned to my case is based in their Australia office, so due to the time difference I’m having to wait the best part of 12 hours to be updated on the progress, albeit, the rep seems to be taking up to 2 days at a time to respond - nightmare company to deal with!! Still, the US company I’ve used for the past 2 years (Distrokid) have just announced that ‘Ludacris’ is releasing his latest track through them, yeah, that says it all. They have the best customer service I’ve experienced, with AD’s not far behind in 2nd place, lol, sorry, I have to be honest, except, they don’t send sweets in their packages, or good vibes in the form of mones/test products, lol, so yeah, they’re not great for everything!! 😃 Last night, Thursday, my 1st night shift and another mone-free night!! ☹ Lynx ‘Black’ was all that I had on. ‘CD’ went “Damn, what you wearing? I can smell it from the other side of the room!” Yeah, I might of put a tad too much on, lol, neck, arms, chest, hehe. Think I might throw on a few drops of hedione tonight, revisit that oil based substance of complete mystery and apply the Lynx on top as the cover scent. Think from what I’ve seen, I have a pretty good team on tonight, all young, all friendly, just what we need! No idea where in the store I’m working, but hey, anywhere is good for me, will work any position! 🙂 Payday came yesterday. I wanted to put in a small ‘Party mix’ order, but until the UK Distro company refunds what they’ve taken, I’m stuck with the hedione, Lynx and togo fumes, pah. ☹ Better than nothing I guess. Speak probably tomorrow. Regional rail strike tomorrow, so I’ll probably be walking home in the morning. Not to worry, it’s a good chance for me to play my music/mixes. 🙂 NH. ---
**Author:** ![Night\_Hawk](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/n/3bc359/32.png) [@Night\_Hawk](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/Night_Hawk)\ **Post date:** [April 13, 2017, 9:59am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/night_hawks-pheremone-journal/43688/384 "2017-04-13T09:59:32Z")
I officially hate that milkshake machine! Actually, I’m beginning to hate the work environment too! Yes, I really did just say that! So, Monday. Instead of finishing at 6am-ish from my night shift, I continued to work on, as I had the shake machine to clean. Sadly for me, I had to wait until nearly 630am to start as it decided to go into it’s ‘pasteurized’ mode at 4am and you can’t clean it until it has ended! Thankfully, I managed to get the smoothie machine cleaned around 2am, during a quiet period, but even that nearly came close to being hit with a blunt object! 😠 Nothing worse than going through all the steps of cleaning, for the computer to have a failure right near then end resulting in you having to go through the whole lot again, pff!! Anyhow, one of the 6am people failed to turn up. They’d been through for food an hour earlier with their partner, yet, somehow they’d slept in??!! 😕 45 minutes before they showed up, meaning I had to help out. Didn’t mind, couldn’t clean that darn machine anyhow until it had finished its heat cycle, but the minute it did, straight on to it did I go. I was on a combination of 8 dabs of hedione and a good spraying of lynx ‘black’. Head was focused, but in a chilled-out state, memory was on a full recall of all the stages to complete the cleaning of the machine, which to be fair, once I started, really didn’t take long at all! It had been off all night, spraying mix/milk everywhere whenever it was used. Ice cream side was fine, but then, I did notice that some Muppet kept turning the freezer buttons off, then shouting down to me that the machine wasn’t working - Maybe then, just leave it on freeze and it will work!! Didn’t really help with the shake side though, as it would spray out like a fan everywhere, so yeah, that side was clearly off for the night. Downside to that, I had to tell every single customer on the headset that there was no Shakes - nightmare!! ☹ So, think it took me about 2 hours to strip down, clean out and reassemble. Yeah, that’s when I discovered why there had been no shakes through the night shift, or at the time, the reason I thought was why we had no shakes, until reassembly! For me, I thought it was down to the fact that on pulling out the shake milk that I could see 2 black monopoly stickers floating inside! OK, how the heck did they get in there?? 😮 Sticker roll is nowhere near the tank, more to the point, both tanks are covered with lids, so some Muppet has clearly put them in there to block it up!! On draining the milk, getting ready for the first bucket of water to clean the tanks, I see a further 6 stickers glued to the bottom of the tank! 😮 8 stickers don’t grow legs, lift up a lid and climb in for a little night swimming, but at the time it sort of explained why there was a problem, the nozzle inside was probably blocked. 🙄 So, stripped it down, didn’t find any stickers inside, hmm, wonder why it wasn’t coming out right then; and went back to the theory that it was down to the freezer buttons being switched off. Reassembled everything after cleaning, waited 10 minutes for the temperature to be correctly reached, then tested it. HA!! Same thing as last night!! 🙄 Looked and realised straight away, the dispensing cap was missing where the mix comes out of the machine into the cup!! Now, this thing doesn’t just fall off, it takes a bit of brute force to get it off; and yeah, I’m doing a recall of my head as I didn’t remember taking it off in the 1st place!! 😕 …Enters the shift manager, the one whom trained me to clean it (AJ), to go look for a part that I can now see in my mind that I hadn’t taken off, as it wasn’t secured to start with!! Seriously wish I could plug myself in at times and replay what I see, but now I’m in a position of having people tell me that they saw it on there, when my recall is showing something entirely different!! 😠 Safe to say, we both ended up crawling around the floor looking for it around the machine - no sign!! Looked pretty much everywhere, even though my head is displaying on loop the very fact that this cap wasn’t on in the 1st place, yet, I cannot prove it! What kind of amused me, was that Sausage was claiming it was on when she started her shift. This was the person that started 45 minutes late, yet I’d already stripped it down 15 minutes prior to her arriving, so what the heck was she on about?!! 😠 Worse still, ‘AJ’ claimed there was a spare, hence why we looked everywhere, but then Sausage claims that it was missing last week too; and she went into ‘AJ’s’ spares box and took it, to replace it, without telling anybody! Yeah, that was nice, initiative to replace, failure to notify, as in the words of ‘AJ’, “If I’d known, I’d of ordered a spare last week!” Ended up ringing around all the other local stores to see if they had a spare, ha, not flippin likely. 3 people literally laughed down the phone, 1 manager thought it was a prank call, 1 store wouldn’t answer, 1 said they’d get back to us whilst laughing and never did! Only 1 store actually looked, I could hear them going through boxes, etc whilst I was on hold, but sadly to no avail! New BM got told via text from the shift manager ‘AJ’ without actually being told it was off all of Sunday’s night shift, nor being told that there had been 8 stickers found in the tank. Sabotage was in my mind, from lazy people not wanting to use the machine. It happens, sadly. So yeah, what was fairly a good night, turned into a bad day; and I went home feeling a little miffed to say the least, as everyone on the day shift were now accusing me of something I hadn’t done! Yesterday, ha, went in for my 12pm - 8pm shift to have the BM give me hell for her having to order in a new cap, P&P being rather expensive, apparently. Told her that it wasn’t on there to start with, that got rubbished by her as if I was lying, so told her to check the camera, which she refused to do! You see, there’s a big security camera pointing right at the machine, it would of shown the cap missing when I started cleaning it; and if they were clever and played the video back, they’d of seen whom had taken it off! But, no, it was my fault. _Shakes head_ So, BM goes to another store for a meeting and another salaried manager (AM) tells me that he found the missing cap! Yeah? Great!! Where? He found it that morning, on his way INTO the building, laying in the drive-thru lane! Say what? 😮 It must of grown legs in the night and walked itself out there then, for little bit of fresh air! _Shakes head_ Said to ‘AM’ to look at the camera and see how it got out there, as clearly someone had taken it off, only to get the, “Can’t be bothered,” look. Yeah, you know I was right, just no one wants to check and have to apologise! That aside, shift was busy, really busy. One person failed to show up for their shift, another phoned in sick. We’re on our Easter half-term break for all the schools, so the place was full of unruly teenagers, causing mayhem and making a right mess, half of them only in the store to charge their phones and use the free WI-FI! To top it off, we discovered there was a fair on locally, so we were getting even more people coming into the store than normal, with a skeleton crew to deal with it; and the Police not making a presence to remove the kids, despite endless phone calls to their switchboard! Woo, favourite manager came in! (RW), don’t know how she does it, but I could be in the saddest of moods (Well, kind of was with what had gone on with that shake machine and being effectively branded a liar); and she just makes for the shift to be one happy place! Ended up staying another 3 hours over my shift. Partly because it was so busy; and I didn’t want the team to be stressed out even more, if I left! Partly because my head was giving me warnings (Which I haven’t seen in a long time), so felt compelled to stay in the event that something major was to happen. Yeah, would of thrown myself into it, if it meant protecting my team, thankfully nothing did happen, apart from two customers in a car being abusive to ‘RW’ because she asked them to park up, plus a few threats from the teenagers; and discovering that they’d ripped out all the hanging flower baskets from the walls and smashed them up outside, whilst smoking their cannabis. Lovely. ☹ ‘Something major’ to me is like what happened in the pubs/hotel (recap older posts), so yeah, as we know, my team’s protection/safety comes first over me, every time. …and yeah, party because I was on shift with my favourite manager; and oh, I don’t know, it was like some weird magnet wanting me to stay on, lol, don’t ask me?!! I know she is ‘X’s’ best friend, Muppets on shift with me had been trying their best to wind me up all day/night with the usual comments, “Do you miss her? Do you think about her? Do you still speak with her online?” Well, let’s clarify that one. Yes, I miss her. I still have the images in my head on loop every day. Actually, as they asked, I was looking at those images and not them. Seeing the ‘bad’ moment of the Bierkellar, the 108/9 images of the apartment on the 5th/6th December, the mobile image from ‘ST’ in February and the Snap Chat filter images from ‘JP’ at ‘EH’s’ party in March are all on display, night and day, I just cannot for the life of me work out why, or when they will be replaced with something else?!! Do I speak with her online? Erm no. Can’t really, when she un-friended me in October, never attempted to re-add her, even though I get some stupid “People you may know” request thing pop-up on my media a/c every week. Just couldn’t do it. She removed me for a reason, one that I never really got cleared up, sorted out, as I ended up listening too much to others and staying away from her. Really wish I didn’t, really wish I could turn the time back and speak with her again, resolve what needs to be resolved, find out what the heck was said, as I still don’t know everything! Actually, one idiot (IP), whilst stood next to me to get a response/reaction from me, asked ‘RW’, “Do you still speak to/see ‘X’?” ‘RW’ responded with, “We’re going on holiday together!” Don’t think she realised what he was trying to do, didn’t get a response from me, I just walked away and said nothing. You’d think by now they’d of stopped asking, trying to cause trouble, but as I’ve said time and time again, I’m their entertainment, it’s never going to end! Apart from my recall images that I see daily, I very much doubt I will ever see ‘X’ again; and as I’ve posted before, I really hope she is doing well for herself, she deserves to be happy, she’s a really nice person, with a kind heart, despite a few others working with me, try to tell me otherwise. Sorry people, but you didn’t get to know her like I did, sit down and talk as long as I did, well talk, up until the point that my lovely ‘haters’ took interest and forced me to back away to prevent ‘X’ from being harassed. Still, in the moment of madness with the teenagers running riot outside and stopping ‘RW’ from trying to get back into the building by blocking the main entrance, my temper/mindset altered somewhat. Remember, I’m not on my usual AD mixes here, my mind is relying on hedione to work as some form of substitute, in combination with whatever is in the Lynx Black, if anything. Think the subtle neroli hint in the spray is what makes me like it. Well, the thought of my theory on electricity popped into my head. Always wondered if standing with both feet on a Live electric train rail would either fry you, or do what I see when a bird lands on it, ie nothing?!! Kind of said that out aloud with ‘ST’ and ‘RW’ stood either side of me. ‘RW’ looked at ‘ST’ to say in a silent eye contact way, “Did I just hear that?” With ‘ST’ burst out a short laugh and say, “Hey, NH, if you want to do that, train station is next door! Go try it.” Feck sake. What can I say, I have lots of theories in my head about many things, that just happened to be the one that popped out, slipped out vocally in the heat of the moment of feeling mad at what had occurred. As I’ve said before, I look online for help in searching for random things that come into my head from nowhere and some of the time, Google has the answers; and I’m sat there thinking, “How the heck did that come to be in my head in the 1st place?” Other times, there’s nothing there and I’m left thinking, “Okie, so maybe this is one for me to experiment!” Got some weird schematics for machinery I’m yet to work out what it is, or even for, lol. One day maybe. Probably should just draw it out, scan it, and upload to the net to see if for some bizarre reason someone out there already knows what it is?!! Ah well. enough of my crazy memory, my crazy thoughts. No theory testing today or any other day I think, but by gawd am I missing my mones, my usual AD products. My mindset is nowhere near what it usually is at, not feeling my lively bubbly self, none of the effects of the ‘Party mix’ that I so desperately want again and again! Even the ‘social’ effects on the people around me, I can see a significant difference. Hedione brings a small response when they get close, but nothing much; nothing on the scale of TUTH, but then, I’m not wearing that in work, not again, lol!! It’s going to be at least May, before I get my next order, my next research products sent to me. Can I wait that long? Doubt it, but going to have to. Think I might be back on the Ted Baker products come the weekend, might throw in the hedione for the hell of it. 8 dabs of hedione seems like a safe amount to use. Behind the ears, back of neck/hair line and jaw line are my application points, then covered by Lynx Black. Anyhow, it’s Thursday now, back to work tomorrow. Think I’m running the kitchen 3pm till midnight, so busy, but out of the way of the mayhem of the teenagers. Probably what I need, but on the downside, I’ll most probably be working alongside my ‘haters’ so I expect there to be more comments on ‘X’, more winds-ups to get a response out of me. Not recommended lads, not when I’m not using any from of Neuro Influence products. My head will be on full recall, it is now, as I type this, only need the slightest bad thought; and that will be that for the remainder of the shift, watching it over and over again. Why do I have to have a photographic memory? A bang to the head when I was 10; and now years of remembering everything in minute detail; and as we have seen from Monday, even what I say, what I see, I cannot prove, only I can see it, live with in and somehow, try and work out how to deal with it, every single day - nightmare, it’s quite literally a living nightmare, that never goes away! Arf, sidetracked. Almost 11am, going to get some brunch, do a spot of coding on my website to get my ‘Live stream’ section up and running. Week of May 1st; and I’ll be Live Streaming my DJ sets. About time I guess. Had a massive amount of rewiring to do yesterday, rigged up my old CD players/club mixer to work with the controller/iPad setup I took to the apartment in December. It works, just metal trying to control two mixers at the same time to get a mad mix of old and new tech. Ok, so I could upload everything to the iPad, but where’s the fun in that, lol?!! I like to complicate things; and this just about makes DJing as complicated as it can possibly be, but to see it in action, damn! Right, I’m going for a bit. Speak probably Saturday, sometime. NH. ---
**Author:** ![Night\_Hawk](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/n/3bc359/32.png) [@Night\_Hawk](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/Night_Hawk)\ **Post date:** [April 15, 2017, 10:59am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/night_hawks-pheremone-journal/43688/385 "2017-04-15T10:59:18Z")
So yesterday, I woke up with the pain from hell in my right arm/wrist, wondering what the hell I’d done, so got online for the self-diagnostic research, which as we all know usually tells you you’re on your last legs and your days are numbered, lol!! Actually no, finally discovered why that fracture in my arm is forever wreaking havoc with my wrist - Carpal Tunnel Syndrome!! Here’s me for years being told I have Raynaud’s Syndrome, poor circulation, but no, it looks like because I had my tendons/nerves severed a couple of years back, then cracked the bone next to my elbow a few weeks later, when working at the other store in Kensington (Liverpool), after splitting my head open only hours earlier, that yeah, my carpal was restricted beyond belief. Talk about saying things come in 3’s lol. Explains the swelling on my wrist. To be fair, my left arm/wrist has been doing the same on and off since the metal fragment/heat injury I got in Germany as a kid (Recap last 2 pages of page #26). Solution, yes there really is a solution to repairing the damage ending the pain. If only I’d known this years ago!!. Two options: 1. A wrist brace. A support fastened by velcro, were a metal plate gets inserted along the wrist and across the entire palm of the hand. 2. Surgery. Either keyhole or an incision made from the end of the wrist across the palm of your hand. Both procedures then do the same following steps of making a cut to the carpal, breaking it entirely to relieve the pressure; and stitching up the cut to the skin. [http://www.nhs.uk/Conditions/Carpal-tunnel-syndrome/Pages/Whatisit.aspx](http://www.nhs.uk/Conditions/Carpal-tunnel-syndrome/Pages/Whatisit.aspx) Enters me making a same-day order for a couple of braces, which where waiting for me when I got home from work, 10 hours later. Got them on now; and have to say I’ve had the best nights sleep in ages, 4 hours still, surprise, surprise. Left wrist, can’t feel a thing, right one, yeah I can feel it, but nowhere near as bad as it was in work last night. Instructions from the medical info research is to wear the brace for a few days/week, obviously going to have to take it off in work, can’t be having the endless questions of what have I done, or my least favourite fan club using at some means to entertain themselves further, but at least I finally know what it is (Doctors’ have gotten it wrong yet again!! 😠 ). Actually, there’s quite a few mentions online where doctors overlook the carpal as being the fault and diagnose arthritis instead, meaning a life of pain killers for many, something I hate using as you can become addicted; and after a while, the pain just doesn’t go, because your body adapts to the medication!! Last resort is the surgery, but it puts me out of action for 6 weeks; and I cannot afford to do that, so back to my days of putting on a brave face in work, screaming when out of site, which was mostly yesterday and yeah, just getting on with it as I usually do! 🙂 Last daft thing I did, whilst ordering those braces, yes, erm, bought myself a couple of dumbbells. ‘Dumb’ being the word, lol. You see, (…and I bet the courier hated me for ordering them) I got myself the heaviest set I could order - 6KG weights, each!! Yeah, I know I’m mad, lol, it’s me remember, always doing something daft, but on putting the left wrist brace on, did I try lifting one of the dumbbells! 😮 Feck me, this support lets me lift it right up above my head with ease!! 😃 So, yeah, build the strength in my arms (Probably wrist, lol), will think about using it with my right arm in a week or so, for now just getting my carpal swelling reduced/wrist realigned, as I noticed yesterday, that my right hand appeared to to be slightly out of alignment with my wrist - did I say, “Ouch?!!” ☹ …and back to last night… Woohoo, I found me a few sprays of A314 Rev B., P131 Stealth and about 4-6 sprays of what I think may be iShine/IO going by how I was last night after using it! One spray of all 3 products to my Adam’s apple on arrival at work, with a blast of Lynx Black everywhere else. Instantly got that A314 feeling of going to the gym, that stuff makes me feel like I’m standing taller, but with what I believe is the IO/IShine mix, my usual mix, boy did I come alive!! After a few days/week of using nothing, it looks like this weekend I’ll have something. Using it sparingly to make it last longer, at least I’m getting the hit from the both, self effect and to (Some) others. Yep, I was right, kitchen shift as manager; and I spent the 1st 30 minutes stood in the gawd damn freezer!! ☹ Told one of the crew that came in looking for stock that I hadn’t gotten to yet, "How am I supposed to organise and run a kitchen from in here? They seriously need to either invest in a backroom person (Where he asked, “What is that?” Really?!!), or the kitchen manager from the previous shift gets out the stock before leaving, where by the new manager only needs to perform a quick visual check. Never going to happen, too many people set in their ways - working backwards!! 🙄 30 mins in, had a sudden rush, had to stop what I was doing and help the manager (SK) working Grill Side on his own to prevent the operation grinding to a halt. Could see the A314 doing it’s thing to him, great! Never seen him so quiet around me, usually always has some smart remark to say. Not this time. Could see that look of “Whoa, not crossing you,” face. Not complaining and about time, A314 doing its stuff/desired effect!! 😃 Went back to the freezer from hell, yeah you guessed it, stock everywhere. Kinda miffed that people can’t take out empty boxes, break them down and put them into the cages for collection, lazy, lazy people! Then, ‘CD’ came looking by instruction of our new BM, wanting to know why it is taking me so long to setup my shift? “Erm, had to stop to help out with all the Grill Orders! Have had to move all the stock out of this extremely small fridge/freezer to get to the back; and if left alone, should have it all done in the next 10 minutes.” Still, stopped what I was doing, proceeded to follow her back into the kitchen asking if ‘SK’ needed me again? Nope, the whole store was dead! Doh. Why can’t people leave us to do what needs to be done, always checking up on everyone, yet thinking all work can be done in under a minute. Like to see the BM get stock from the back of that freezer, when you have to walk through a jam-packed fridge 1st to get to it, as both units are combined walk-through units!! Heard the words of the BM to the Shift Manager ‘ST’, “Get NH to check the tempering rack.” Er, no. Not checking that thing every hour, not today, that’s role is getting assigned to someone. I’m now following the EoTF rules, the new system we’re getting in a couple of months, the easy way, the correct way of doing things; and were possible, the newer staff are going to be shown it, without realising it, by me. Well, up until they get around to doing the 16 online training courses on the new system. Then, they’ll realise what it is I’ve been showing them all this time over the past 2 years; and maybe just maybe say, “Oh yeah, NH was right!” So, enter the guy that was in the fridge with me at the very start, Lee. Whoa, he’s only setup the tempering rack once before, OK, crash course time. BM came looking to see if I’d set it up, safe to say she nodded when I said I’d assigned the task to Lee for the remainder of his shift, finally, I can concentrate on what needs doing. Ha, kids from hell from Tuesday night were in, yep, in the restaurant, the very ones that smoke the cannabis outside (It’s illegal in this Country - UK); and proceeded to rip out the hanging baskets from the walls. What bright spark allowed them to be served and sit in, ha, ‘ST’, the very person that called the Police on them on Tuesday night. Unbelievable!! 🙄 BM went nuts, found them to be sat in plain view of all the customers using a tent-card designed to show customers on their tables what new products we have on offer, build themselves a joint, lol!! Yeah, they’re not bothered. She called the Police, kicked them out, they took off like the cowards that they are as the Police car with one Officer in, arrived; and then, where they had been sitting, the BM found a bag of cannabis stashed under one of the chairs, lol, they’d left it behind - Unlucky!! 😃 That got handed to the Officer; and on him leaving, less than 10 minutes, they’re back trying to get in, realising their little stash WAS still inside. Look on their faces when they were told the bad news, lol, still, it was raining outside; and they thought they could take shelter in our doorway/entrance, blocking ANYONE coming in or out!! 🙄 Could see all this going on from my lovely observation post in the kitchen!! Waited for the BM to return, now with another senior manager attempting to stop them re-entering, to tell her that they were the ones that caused the destruction on Tuesday, ‘ST’s’ shift again, yet, in his defence I said that he’d tried for some 30 minutes on-hold to get through to the Police switchboard! Still, that aside, I’m in a proper little happy, upbeat mood, better than the previous week of being on Lynx/Hedione! ‘AC’ comes in, appearing happy to see me, literally skipping down the corridor to me, lol, O-K! No way the IO/IShine effect was working, not that far, not that quick!! So, yeah, happy to see me, I guess. Still, break time for me. Went back to a steady shift, not before adding another shot of A314 and P131 ‘Stealth’. Still got that “Whoa,” look for ‘SK’, hehe, deffo getting more of the Rev. B., when I put in my next order, it just has the right desired effect, the ‘leader’ effect, keeps them at bay anyhow, just what I need. Tempted to get some iJerk, for when the kids from hell come in. Not used that in a very, very long time, but it sure does make those that think they’re hard turn into complete wimps when they detect iJerk’s mones, hehe. Might be worth a try again. 😉 Remainder of the shift ran pretty smoothly. Kids eventually got the message and stopped coming back. Either that, or they got fed up being wet from the rain, as the BM set the magnetic lock on the door preventing anyone coming in. Literally having to stand at the door and push a button to let customers in and out, but worth it to see those rats look miserable from their soaking!! Actually, the shift was that good, that I started doing the (Kitchen) night shift’s jobs, so they had practically nothing to do when they came in. Nice guy aren’t I! It’s all teamwork, that’s the important thing. Anyhow, back in, in the next 3 hours, so need to get myself some lunch, hehe. Can’t be living on ice cream and tea/coffee, which is what I have on my daily break in work. Like I say, I have a high metabolism, burn off my energy too darn quick, so the sugar in the ice cream and the 4 sachets I put in my tea/coffee, plus my mix on top, keeps me going until the end of my shift, when I can make something more substantial when I get home from work! Speak later. Still got a couple of sprays of A314, P131 ‘Stealth’ and what I believe is my IO/IShine mix to use - happy days - another night of running the kitchen!! NH. ---
**Author:** ![Night\_Hawk](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/n/3bc359/32.png) [@Night\_Hawk](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/Night_Hawk)\ **Post date:** [April 18, 2017, 4:05am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/night_hawks-pheremone-journal/43688/386 "2017-04-18T04:05:32Z")
**This is a non-mone entry, more of an on-going update to my journal, so that there is no long gaps in visits. (The next entry will be a mone report)…** Well, we all know what day it is?!! Monday, machine from hell cleaning day!! So, considering I was in work till gone 10:30pm (Sunday), expected back at 7am, yeah, like that was gonna happen, was gone midnight by the time I got home, lol. Walked into the shift manager/2nd assistant ‘LB’ in a state of panic thinking I wasn’t coming in. Haven’t even been able to clock in or out for the entire shift as I hadn’t had enough ‘rest’ between shifts, lol, nice eh! Management want you to do the hours, yet they’ll mess around with your electronic clock card, so that they don’t get into trouble from the powers that be on staff working over the legal work hours!! Got 4 male ‘haters’ on this shift with me (LK, SK, TD, and Cal D), woo! ‘LK’, ‘Cal D’ and ‘TD’ all have to say over and over as I start to sanitise the tanks of the shake machine - “Make sure you don’t lose any parts today!” That prompted me to respond with, “Make sure the Muppet that put 8 monopoly stickers in the shake tank doesn’t get any more bright ideas to do so, or throw the part removed, outside the front door again!” Made for all 3 to laugh, each time they said it; and I responded with the above response! Yeah, I have a feeling it was one of those 3 last week that removed the cap, wouldn’t know for sure who it was unless the camera system was checked, but as we know, no one is willing to do that! Crikey, smoothie machine, had to do a monthly, weekly and daily clean - 3 flippin’ hours to be precise. That then had a knock-on effect of getting the shake machine back online before 10am. Was nearer 1pm when I got it up and running, ‘LB’ getting a ticking off from the BM for not scheduling me for today. From now on, I’ll be starting my Monday shifts at 6am - yay, not! They seriously need to have at least one other person capable of cleaning that machine other than me. No one wants to do it mind, too much effort on their part, but what happens when I eventually get leave, if ever I go off sick (Albeit, that’s rare), or better still, get transferred to another store?!! They don’t think that far ahead. So, mone-free day again, Lynx Black only. It’s not a day I need to wear anything, as I’m not really in a manager capacity, albeit our mixer-tap person, ‘LZ’ was in one of her weird moods, very snappy for the 1st couple of hours she was on shift! I couldn’t really speak to her during that time, had nothing nice to say in return back to me, whatever her problem was?!?! Later on though, she changed to her normal friendly self. Might have had something to do with her getting food mind you, seems to have changed her attitude somewhat. Have to remember that one! On top of that, I have ‘AC’ along side ‘ZE’ tell me that ‘LK’ is up to his old stalking tricks again, ‘ZE’ being his new target - poor girl!! Seems that whilst he was warning me off from talking to ‘AC’ on shift and sending her the most lengthy ‘I love you,’ scary private messages on her social media page, he had also started sending them to ‘ZE’ as well!! Interesting. It all came out today, when ‘ZE’ confided in ‘AC’ and she told her to speak with me, for what he’d said and done to me. Safe to say I told all, but it prompted ‘AC’ to ask me in front of ‘ZE’, “NH, what was it to make you dislike ‘LK’ so much, what has it he’s done to you, because it clearly happened before he started on me?” Well, everything is ‘X’ related, as we all know from my previous postings; and then this on-going harassment, I seem to have to put up with, as salaried just aren’t interested. Been to them twice, not got anywhere, so I’m dealing with this, with them, my ‘haters’ on my own! Told them both, “Sorry, can’t share it. I’ve put it all in my Journal, that’s where I put everything that goes on in here, it’s what I now use to clear my head and move forward!” Safe to say ‘AC’ went on to say, “Well, we’ve shared ours, you should at least share yours!” Responded with, “Nope. It’s in my journal, it stays in there!” ‘ZE’ was like, “What journal?” ‘AC’ has clearly been listening to/talking to Sausage, as she replied with, “It’s some secret section of a website, that you can’t search for that section on Google. He won’t tell us where it is, or give us a link to look at it, but clearly whatever is in there, is major!” I just responded with, “It’s my life. It has everything from when I was a kid to now in it. Jobs, research, stuff that I don’t want anyone that knows me, to see. My own family do not know some of the things that are contained in it, it’s just things I cannot talk about, cannot share; and yes, everything said to me, everything that happens in here, in work is written into it. Sometimes I make multiple entries a day into it, sometimes, when I feel that things are getting to me, people are getting to me, I write in it on my break or at the end of my shift. It’s how I clear my mind, albeit, I never really forget, what with this endless photographic memory showing me everything over and over, but it helps me deal with it better!” I think that made it clear to them, as they didn’t say anything further. Still, both girls went on their break together; and ‘AC’ showed ‘ZE’ all of the private messages ‘LK’ sent her, then all of the messages he sent me, which I forwarded on to ‘AC’. Told her (ZE), to keep all messages he sends, screenshot any Snap Chat messages and continue to tell ‘AC’/myself if he continues, as it may be an issue now, that we all need to go to salaried and make them take notice, do something about the situation, as clearly it is affecting everyone’s ability to work comfortably together, can’t really go on. As far as ‘ZE’ is aware, he’s not started following her to clubs/bars like he has been doing with ‘AC’ for the past few months, she was actually quite shocked to hear that he had been doing that to ‘AC’! Shake machine, time now 10:20am; and the guys in the kitchen are needing the back sink area to clean the breakfast equipment, prompting me to fill a couple of massive portable tubs to clean/sanitise the internal shake equipment from the now stripped down machine. Thought I’d clean it at the back of the kitchen out of everyone’s way. Bad move! On going to the front of the store to get some cleaning brushes, some Muppet thought they would put a handful of lettuce in the sanitiser tub and take out one of the red o-ring seals from a separate small white bucket I was using to hold all the tiny parts/seals. Had a feeling which one/two had done it - LK/Cal D, as they were both smiling, acting stupid towards me on returning to the back of the kitchen; and repeating their saying, “Make sure you don’t lose any parts today!” That’s what prompted me to look in that white small bucket and realise that there was a missing o-ring! Feckers!! No to worry, didn’t rise to them, knew that is exactly what they wanted, anything to cause trouble, get their entertainment at my expense, yet again, as for them, they didn’t realise I have now got quite a few spares! Matter of a fact, after last week; and the BM/AJ ordering more in, I’ve hidden a couple of parts, as I now know from Sausage, that people go and help themselves without telling anyone. This now prompted me to move everything to the front of the store, the counter area, in a corner out of the way now in view of 3 cameras. Anyone that now goes near the tubs are going to be caught by at least 1 of the 3 cameras! Still, whilst I was sat in the corner in a crouched position cleaning/sanitising those parts, ‘Cal D’ shouts over the counter, now finished his shift and going home, “Hey NH, make sure you’ve not lost any parts!” Funny thing to say! Yes, we know there’s a part that has gone missing; and if I hadn’t had any spares, I’d of been in trouble, as it was one of the main seals for one of the pumps, putting it out of action! They’re determined to get me into trouble, I give them that, but it was just the way he leaned right over the counter to me, to shout it out aloud for all to see, nasty, nasty people! Next, with a space of 10 minutes from ‘Cal D’ leaving the building, I now have ‘LK’ bent over in front of me. There was no need for him to be anywhere near me. I’m out of the way of everyone working, he’s working in the kitchen, so why is he here, now, stood bent over, looking at me? Wondered if I was about to be told not to speak to/interact with ‘ZE’, like he did a couple of months back with ‘AC’ but no, it was to say, “Make sure you haven’t lost any parts today!” Oh, surprise, surprise, another one! I just looked straight back at him and said, “Nope, not missing any parts today!” Not hinting that I have spares, or the fact that I know at least he or ‘Cal D’ had taken that o-ring from the bucket! So, what does the dope say in return? “Are you sure?” With a big grin on his face! Responded with, “Yeah, I’m sure!” With that, he went back to the kitchen, still smiling. So, my thought here is, does he have that part; and if so, where is it?!! Don’t know what they get out of it, sabotaging equipment, as all it does is causes problems for the staff having to tell every customer over and over, that we don’t have that product available. I guess this will be the thing for next week and future weeks to come, yay! Certainly going to be watching those 2 from now on though! So, I reassembled the shake machine, with ‘LK’ watching my every move! Really doesn’t take long, 15 minutes if that! It’s just the process before hand the dropping of the milk, the 5-stage cleaning of the tanks, stripping the internal parts down; and cleaning/sanitising the parts. Last procedure after reassembling is to clean the syrup lines. Used to that from working in bars/hotels. Cellar services, the nightmare of performing a line-pull. Thankfully, this is nowhere near on the scale of cleaning beer/wine lines, but the process is the same, so a 10 minute job. Everything is back on, I’m now filling up the tanks with milk mix, only minutes away now from finishing; and a rather angry looking BM comes over to me, holding the o-ring in her fingers! HA!! “Where was that?!!” I asked. BM responded, “It was laying on the top of the box of toys in the corner!” Well, now we know why ‘LK’ came over, as the box was right next to where he had been standing, I was slightly away from it! Responded with, “Well, that managed to climb out of the bucket from the back of the kitchen and make its way all the way down there on its own! I noticed it gone, after I noticed someone had put lettuce in the sanitiser tub, prompting me to clean everything on front counter, that’s why I moved back down! It’s OK though, had a part, had a feeling it would eventually re-appear, but the 2 that have repeatedly asked me if I was missing any parts, didn’t know that I had any! Thanks, I’ll put it back with the other spares!” Her face, lol. I think it sank in that someone had been playing silly b\*ggers, but thank gawd that the BM and ‘AJ’ had the sense to get a few extra spares, otherwise that conversation would have been approached a lot sooner; and not gone as well! So yeah, I finished my ‘non-clocked in’ shift and went home not long after cleaning down the area. A long, long day which could have gone a lot more smoothly had it now been for a few idiots hell bent on causing problems towards me! Karma will come to them at some point, always does! 😉 Well that was today, tomorrow (Tuesday), I’m going to be trying to get what fumes are left in the bottom of the A314, P131 ‘Stealth’ and what I think is my IO/IShine mix, as I have ‘Grumpy’ running the shift, oh great!! Another day of back-to-front procedures and being spoken to like I’m a 2-year-old, nightmare. Schedule says I’m working in the kitchen, but I could literally be put anywhere when it comes to ‘Grumpy’, got a feeling I will be in the Booth taking orders, but let’s see what the day brings, with only a few hours before I have to go back in! Going to see what Thursday’s payday brings. My Birthday is on Saturday, come Monday next, I will be putting in some form of order, even if it’s just a bottle of IShine x2, it’s a case of having to!! Right, going for some breakfast, lol. Speak later today/tomorrow. NH. ---
**Author:** ![Dee\_A](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/d/7bcc69/32.png) [@Dee\_A](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/Dee_A)\ **Post date:** [April 18, 2017, 5:38am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/night_hawks-pheremone-journal/43688/387 "2017-04-18T05:38:16Z")
Hehehe. About time to update your IJ experience then eh? Hehehehe. Nice to see you taking two steps ahead of those a-holes. 😃 ---
**Author:** ![Night\_Hawk](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/n/3bc359/32.png) [@Night\_Hawk](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/Night_Hawk)\ **Post date:** [April 24, 2017, 11:48pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/night_hawks-pheremone-journal/43688/388 "2017-04-24T23:48:47Z")
Thanks Dee. 🙂 Yeah, IJ is a must I think on the next order! Not something I’ve used in a very long time! If memory serves right, last time I used that, I attracted some young male’s mom in a nightclub. Actually, he tried to introduce me to her, lol, saying she liked younger guys! If only he/she knew my actual age at the time, haha. She looked proper rough though, as in the type that would happily beat you to death for saying the wrong thing, not my type of person to date, as we’ve kind of gathered over recent months my type of person, but it prompted my friends that night to question why I was attracting scary people, as it happened two more times that night, in two different clubs, lol. The last one, I could of probably just about dated, but the ‘age’ thought sort of popped into my head and I simply slipped away from the dance floor and out the door with my friends! Then we headed to China Town for food, lol, as you do, hehe! Yeah, that was my 1st experience of IJ, must admit, I believe I had it mixed with TUTH, possibly CTTM V1 (Yep, the original spray) and IO/IShine. Not surprising therefore I was attracting people! So, last Tuesday, (Wow, it’s been a week since I was last in here!!). Walked in to have the two brothers ‘SK’ and ‘LK’ repeatedly say out loud from their position in the kitchen (I’m on the front counter, so they’re shouting it loud enough for all to hear, customers included!), “When’s the shake machine going to be ready?!” Yeah, funny! I’m wearing P131 ‘Stealth’ and IO/IShine, all one spray of each to my Adam’s apple plus, I had two sprays of A314 to either side of my neck. Lynx Black everywhere else - shoulders, back of neck, under arms (Cover scent). Grumpy got a full hit of the mones, hehe, could see the “Whoa!” face as she went to say something to me and literally slammed on the breaks, hehe, gawd I love that stuff - A314!! iJerk, IShine X2 and A314, check, that’s what’s gonna be in the next shipment at least! Got to get the components of that party mix though!! Oh my word do I miss that night, fun, fun times mostly with great friends; and making new friends - yeah, I’m referring to that dancing across the Booth, haha!! Okie, nothing ever going to happen there, but still, it was fun whilst it lasted! 🙂 It was one of ‘those’ days in work. Job itself, straight forward; and as I predicted, Grumpy had me out on a till, not where the Floor Plan had me placed! In a way, I was kind of glad, as it meant I wasn’t stuck with my least favourite fan club, whom now an hour into my shift, still repeatedly shouting out, “When is the shake machine going to be ready?” For people in their 30’s you’d really think they’d grow up, but nope, I’m in, they need to entertain themselves, can see it ending badly for them if it continued, had that vibe going through me that it was coming at least! So, the BM is working in the observation area, she can hear the comments, she does nothing, surprise, surprise there! Took out a hold and met up with Grumpy on the way back in to the store as she’d been out just after me with another hold - yep, kitchen are taking the mick at making the food yet again. They need to stop talking and just get on with what is required! Looked like total chaos on the ‘fry’ side, 3 staff and they aren’t working as a team. I know for a fact when we go to the other stores for the EoTF training, they’re in for one hell of a shock, as they’re just going way too slow, doing everything wrong, cannot work like that, everyone has to work as one unit, or everything will go pear-shaped very quickly! I don’t think half of them actually care, I think they think it’s gonna be a walk in the park, ha! To be fair myself and the 2 people from my store that went for the same training 18 months ago thought the same; and boy were we wrong! One had a meltdown on attempting to keep up within the kitchen to the point that he said to the Company Trainer, “I don’t know what I’m doing, I don’t work in this area!” Yeah, as a trainer yourself, that’s one thing you don’t say, lol, but the procedures were totally different to what we had followed for the previous 6 years, totally different to what we were used to in our own store; and the technology was so advanced that you didn’t know where to look or even how to operate it! It took us 4 weeks of training to learn it, our colleagues are going to be lucky if they get a day, before literally being thrown into the deep end of a fully functioning store! Like my colleague, now a shift manager; and soon to move to a new store, I can see plenty of meltdowns when the staff go to work elsewhere, gawd help them! So a day of having ‘SK’ on one kitchen section and ‘TD’ on the other section each take turns to repeatedly shout out, “NH, when is shakey going to be ready?” and , “Make sure you don’t lose any parts today!” Yep, had a feeling this was going to happen!! Well, I just ignored them, kids, they really need to grow up! Had the BM working the observation area, not saying “Boo,” to my least favourite fan club, whilst they shouted their comments towards me, only metres away from her. Nice to have no support from your salaried team! So, a customer orders a food item; and ‘TD’ clears it from the video display then thinks he can be funny by claiming it wasn’t there; and refusing to make it, laughing with the 2 new members of staff stood working beside him, yeah, let’s have some fun at my expense on Grumpy’s shift in the presence of the BM! Yeah, that went well for ‘TD’, not! Proceeded to print off a till receipt, take it to him, tell, “Here’s the proof you wanted that I rang it through the till, that the customer ordered it and still needs it!” Got the response from ‘TD’, “Well it’s not on my screen, so I’m not making it!” Well, that’s because you served it off, I watched him do it, along with 2 other orders, long before any of the 3 orders were ever assembled! So, I replied with, “Well in that case, come an tell the customer that you’re not going to make it for them, they’re standing here waiting, having paid for it; and you now have the receipt!” Saw him look at the other two staff members and laugh, only for that to be wiped right off of his face - Grumpy ripped him a new one!! She asked me what was the problem, so I told her, told her he (TD) was now in possession of the receipt and still refusing to produce the item! Ha, did he get it; and the idiot tried to argue back with her - wrong! BM, still stood there, in-between them both and said nothing! She really needs to wake up and start dealing with these idiots, before matters get way out of hand! So yeah, after that, they seemed to ‘behave’, even ‘SK’, which I was surprised at! Had a nice remainder shift, for the idiots when home; and they were replaced with my now favourite workers, ‘AC’, ‘DB’, ‘CG’ and ‘AL’. These are the people, even though way younger than me, I’ve come to be good friends with, so much so, that ‘DB’ has mentioned that I and he go on holiday together at some point, in the near future. There’s something I didn’t expect to ever hear! Sure they all have their friends, you make a lot of good friends all the time, with new staff; and then they all seem to go at some point on holiday together, but this is most definitely a 1st for me; and one that I am seriously considering! Wednesday, Thursday, nice two rest days. Okay, so I got fairly merry on the cider, as I seem to be doing a lot now, lol, don’t ask me, it’s a nice taste. Actually, it’s like drinking soda pop, takes a few bottles to give that desired, ‘merry’ effect to kick in, but still, has me mixing away on my controller; of which I was trying out my new gear to perform ‘Live Streaming’ sometime in May. 🙂 Anyhow, Friday, Saturday, late shifts from hell - those annoying teenagers that we don’t serve! Friday, I had to call the Police due to endless abuse and threats from 2 male and 3 female teenagers, shift manager at her wits end, feeling the same as me, that the BM doesn’t give a damn and wants us to carry on regardless! She told me in confidence, that when she gets her performance review with the BM in the next few weeks, that she may present her with a Doctor’s note signing her off of work with stress! Yeah, it’s come to that; and ‘CD’ is one of our ‘stronger’ managers, able to handle everything. Well, it looks like ‘everything’ has finally taken its toll; and I’m not surprised one bit, not far behind her myself! ☹ Today, wahey!! Got told yesterday that I had to come in at 5am to clean THAT machine instead of 7am, as there was a service engineer coming in between 8am and 9am to re-assemble the shake machine with new parts/seals! So, an hour of ‘SK’ repeatedly ask, “NH, when’s the shake machine going to be ready?” Oh, here we go, it’s started! His brother ‘LK’ comes in late around 530am; and takes over from his brother with the comments! Yay! ☹ ‘SK’ goes home about an hour later, albeit, repeatedly asking over and over, “NH, when’s shakey going to be ready?” Can’t begin to tell you how much I guarded those parts as I stripped the machine down!! Didn’t know what the engineer was going to do, give us new parts or use what we already had, so I set up a couple of bun trays on the counter and lined them with tray liners ready to ‘air dry’ all the parts after I’d sanitized them. Well, got it stripped down by 730am; and am thinking “I need to get this cleaned damn quick!” The tiny seals, nightmare to take off! If you’re not careful the plastic tool to take them off with go and stab your fingers, nothing you can do, they’re just fiddly parts! So, whilst I’m doing all this I hear a customer pass comment about one of the bun trays awaiting the parts I was cleaning in the two tubs in the corner again. Someone had drawn a penis right across the tray liners in purple pen! Two female staff, ‘BD’ and ‘LZ’ working the counter area, attempted to accuse me, ha, thanks girls! I just pointed up to the camera above my head, pointing back down at those trays and said, “Wasn’t me, but whatever idiot did do it, they’ll of been caught doing it on camera!” Customer was, yeah, well, you don’t go into someone’s workplace and then try and hit on them; and this is what this guy was now doing in the response of seeing the drawing, thinking that the two girls had done it! He said, “You can’t blame me for trying to get some on a Monday morning!” Really?! What an idiot!! Still got ‘LK’ shouting the same saying over and over from the kitchen, now roping in other staff he’s working with to also say it. This is how childish he’s gone, I hear him say, “‘JPov’, ask NH when shakey will be ready?” there’d be a pause, the ‘JPov’ would repeat it word for word. Then he said it to another manager; and he repeated it, then yet another manager came in, he said it to him; and he repeated it! Yeah, here we go! Clocked ‘LZ’ take a picture/video of me whilst I cleaned the syrup lines, could see that was sent to the closed social media page. I can’t see it, can’t comment, my iPod is in my bag in the crew room; and what with the iffy wifi, chances of me seeing it until I got home, slim! So, got that machine done, started on the smoothie machine. Put two buckets in the back sinks to fill with water and soap solution on a low-fill, so I could go and dismantle a few parts to take them and clean them. Wasn’t expecting to go to the back sinks to find that someone had turned the taps up full; and closed the plugs on all 3 sinks in an attempt to flood the floor! Great, it’s going to be like this for the remainder of the shift is it?!! Shouted out so that they could hear me, “Which child decided to be stupid and flood this back area?” Never got a response directly, but could hear ‘LK’ and ‘JPov’ laugh/snigger. Went back to the front with one bucket - the engineer has arrived; and although ‘LK’ couldn’t see him, it didn’t stop him from yelling out again from within the kitchen, ‘NH’, when’s shakey going to be ready?" Shouted back, now getting a tad pished off to say the least, “Don’t know. You’ll have to ask the engineer next to me!” Took a 3rd bucket back to be filled with solution and thought, “I’ll stay with this one!” Just as well. I hear ‘LK’ say to ‘JPov’, “Quick, he’s gone back down with the bucket, fill the back sinks!” Then the pair of them run around the corner and literally throw on the breaks when they see me! Made me laugh out loud, right at them, “Sorry boys, spoilt your fun! Yes, I’m still here, you can’t fill the sinks!” ‘LK’ said nothing walked past me and out the side door into the crew room. ‘JPov’ had a lovely look on his face, of guilt and being caught, tried his best to say, “I don’t know what you mean!” Thinking I must be deaf and stupid, to which I proceeded to say, “Don’t try that one, I heard ‘LK’ say to you to fill the back sinks; and here you both are, running around to do it!” He got an order and had to go do that, I took the buckets back to the front. Sadly, that prompted me to have to do the strip-down slightly different, as it meant I had to take everything in one go to the back sinks to be deep-cleaned/sprayed, as I just couldn’t do it in stages, something would have probably gone missing again; and sadly for me, those back sinks have no cameras, so they’d of gotten away with it, just like last Monday, when the lettuce climbed into the sanitizer bucket and the red o-ring climbed out of the white bucket all on their own! Man, was the sections that blends the purees/ice filthy! Couldn’t believe I was finding thick black mold on the underside of the holders that cover the drinks as the blade breaks up the ice! That’s one way to make people sick! Had a crew member ‘BS’ look at me next to the shift manager and ask, “What’s up?” Said, when was the last time that was cleaned?!" Her sarcastic response, “Last night like every night!” You see, a ‘daily’ clean is performed every day, but as with everything, they cut corners, they’re not there to work, they’re there to play on their phones and have a social get-together with one another! Safe to say I held the not black cloth to say to her in front of the manager, “That wasn’t cleaned last night, I can tell you that now! That is at least 2-3 days of growth.” Response she gave me, classic. “Well, it’s your job to clean it every week, don’t know what you’re complaining about!” Right back at her, “Er, no, it’s everyone’s responsibility to clean it correctly on the daily clean, not cut corners. You lot drink from this. No wonder you all feel sick!” She uttered something to the shift manager ‘ST’ that just pulled a stupid face at whatever her comment was; and she went onto the corner to quietly tell the staff members (LZ/BD) now standing playing on their phones in that area. Almost got it all done, set back up, just had a few things left to clean, to put back in storage; and ‘LK’ is back to telling those in the kitchen with him to go ask me about “When is shakey going to be ready?” They never got a chance to, I exploded!! ☹ I know I shouldn’t swear, got customers and an engineer present in the restaurant, albeit, I’m at the back of the kitchen. Got a salaried manager in the office only metres away, but still, I blasted out, “‘LK’, will you just f\*\*\*-\*\*\*! Grow up, you little child!” That got them all laughing. A-holes, the lot of them! ‘LK’ got an early dart at that point; and when I finally finished everything I went into the office, pished off, in a daze if I’m honest, my head on recall again, I’m reliving the entire shift in my head; and I end up saying everything to the 2nd Assistant ‘AM’. Safe to say he said, “NH, I wish you’d told me whilst he was here, I would of had him in the office and told him straight, that if he touched that machine again, lost any parts, he would be up for a warning! Don’t worry, I’ll pull him in the office in the morning!” He asked for the other managers, one by one to go into the office, so that they would be told. Can’t begin to tell you how quiet that was when they came out, not a word said to me! Shift manager went on his break and I put the last few pieces of equipment away. Went to go into the crew room to say to the shift manager that I was having a break. Forgot I started at 5am, 2 hours early. In my mind I was still working till 2pm, so ‘ST’ was now saying I could finish. To be honest, I needed a break, needed to sit down and calm down, but in that crew room, apart from ‘LK’ as he had now gone home was 'AB, ‘IP’, ‘JPov’ and ‘BS’ all giving me the look of “You’ve told!” and not saying a word. Yeah, you’re damn right I’ve spoken out and finally someone has listened! So, I made myself a drink, went back to the now practically empty crew room, only ‘ST’ being there saying I can go home. Said, “I need a drink, a break, I’m knackered. If you don’t need me when I go back, I’ll go home!” He went back to work. HA! Got wifi. I’ve got a private message from ‘LK’! “Grow up NH, don’t go moaning about me to ‘AM’. Haven’t even done anything to ya, and even if I did then speak to me about it, you’re meant to be a manager now. What a joke.” Yep, took that straight to ‘AM’ to read. Then I proceeded to tell him of what has happened with ‘AC’ and all the messages he sent her; and the stalking too; and showed him the messages he sent me to stay away from her, not talk to her. Then told him about ‘ZE’ also being sent messages and speaking to me last Monday with ‘LK’ trying to listen/watch between the coffee machine/small fridge. Said to ‘AM’ I have a feeling that everything is connected, that he is doing it as they have come to me for advice in dealing with his unwanted advances. I mean seriously, who stalks their work colleague from one night club to the next, when they have said they’re not interested in that person?!! Anyhow, finished work less than 10 minutes on returning. Another salaried manager ‘LB’ had come in, said I could go, thank you! Got home to find a message on my social media page, what, another one? Nope, this was displaying a small preview images on our closed groups work page of me cleaning the shake machine - oh great, they’re filming me now! Below that is two identical comments from ‘IP’ and ‘AB’ around 30 mins before I went into ‘AM’ - “NH, is shakey ready yet?” Yep, they’re targeting me online too, happy days! Tried to get a screen capture, but a box came up with, “This image/video has been removed or archived by the original poster. You cannot comment on this post.” Let’s hide the evidence shall we! If it has been ‘archived’ there’s a copy hidden in the settings that only an admin can obtain, will have to wait now to see if that is the case. I have a page of my own, separate from work, so I know that anything that has been archived, cannot be deleted by the original poster, and in some cases, cannot be deleted at all! Safe to say I’m glad I’m off tomorrow/Wednesday (Rest days), can only wait to see what, if any, messages I get tomorrow! Here’s hoping it ends, doubt it though, they have to have their entertainment as I keep saying; and salaried managers aren’t there all the time, so it’s inevitable to continue when they aren’t around! Got ‘SK’ running the shift on Thursday, late shift for me, can’t wait for that, probably use it as some means to get back at me for dropping his brother in it with management, but I’m sorry, it had to be done, it’s gone on for too long; and finally, someone had listened and begun to do something about it. Right, I’m going to chill get my 4 hours and put in some form of order into the store. Need something to make me happy. Actually, I’ve been invited to a night out with my friends I haven’t been out with since October, yeah, the night out I posted that post on the social media page (Recap top of page #15), prompting my sanity to go down hill rapidly. I’m in work till 7pm, they’re meeting up from 8pm, have to get out, have a blast and forget these few months of hell and bad memories and enjoy myself. Speak later. NH. ---
**Author:** ![Night\_Hawk](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/n/3bc359/32.png) [@Night\_Hawk](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/Night_Hawk)\ **Post date:** [April 25, 2017, 12:39pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/night_hawks-pheremone-journal/43688/389 "2017-04-25T12:39:35Z")
Right guys (…and ladies), I’ve put in an order! Had to be done, 1st time I’ve not used PayPal in 6 years to pay. Used my debit card, as PayPal have done something to my account in the past fortnight; and even their resolution staff don’t know how to resolve it - that’s nice! So all goods being purchased at the moment are going through my debit card. 😉 Anyhow, that aside, I’ve ordered the following (All TOGO’s): IShine Double strength, [Neroli](https://a314.com/product-category/scented/androtics-neroli/). TUTH, Neroli. Alpha A314 Spray (1.32B). P96 12.5mcg, Neroli. …and at the advice of Dee… IJerk, Neroli. Case of _having_ to get this one, I think! So, whenever that arrives, yep, it will be put to good use, albeit I’ll be back on the testing/research level for the IJ, seeing as its been a right long time since my last use/report on it! Deffo going to mix things up when I use that, but it has to be done! Not too sure about wearing it to nightclubs again though, not after last time, although maybe I should just say, “To hell with it!” and step out of my comfort zone for once! 😉 Actually, I saw a few friends/work colleagues start posting up one of those daft ‘Profile’ things that we’ve probably all come to see over the last few years, tells you about yourself, etc. Said sod it, had a go, was slightly shocked at the results, as they’re pretty darn spot on, almost like it has read my mind, literally! Anyhow, this is what it was; and what it’s response was… > [@](#): > > We Reveal Why You’re Still Single Based On Your Star Sign: > > Have you ever stopped to wonder why you’re still as single as a pringle? No? Well, we have, and let us tell you, there’s something to blame. Sorry to break it to you love-seeker, but there’s a high chance that the stars are sabotaging your chance at finding your one and only. Yep, your zodiac sign has more to do with your single status than you think. > > Perhaps you’re a secret stage five clinger, or maybe you don’t even know if you want to be in a relationship at all. To help you navigate the stormy sea that is love, we’ve put on our astrological hats and found the reason why you’re single. You’re welcome. > > **Taurus** > WHY YOU?RE SINGLE: YOU?VE GOT A ?TYPE? AND REFUSE TO BUDGE. > Are those wedding bells we hear? Taureans would love nothing more to settle down and make many babies…as long as their SO ticks all the boxes. One day you decided that you had a ?type? and from then on, you refused to open yourself up to those who didn’t fulfill that criteria. Loosen up, lovebird! Step outside your dating bubble comfort zone and your future hubby/wifey could cross your path. Pro tip: once you’ve met the ?one?, keep the flame alight. …and yes, there we have it! I do have a mammoth list of what I look for, in a person, not just looks and personality, but do we have something in common, etc. Person that ticked every box was ‘X’; and we all know how that went, what with me effectively hiding from her, to stop the others harassing her. Looks like in reality, I should of been talking to her if this (and your own endless comments towards me) are to go by! Really wish I had! But what is done, is done; and I cannot turn the time back. ☹ Anyhow, so far (So far), I’ve not received any further private messages on my media a/c from ‘LK’, or spotted any other messages/posts for that matter from any of the ‘others’. The day isn’t over yet though, so who knows! Just kind of looking forward to getting my shift over and done with on Saturday and getting out with my friends! 🙂 Anyhow, got to go and get my hair cut. It’s gotten way too long again, kind of letting it grow though to hide the still healing scars from December. Almost clear, still get a slight pain/weird sensation around the area were I cut my head open/have those two craters. Actually, those craters appear to be healing! I can just about get my fingers into them, so it would seem they are leveling of. Her’s hoping anyway, certainly feel where they are all the time, notice it more now that I don’t wear a cap in work, apart from with I have to wear a headset/work in the kitchen. Right, going. Speak later. Any tips on using IJ, with the mones I’ve ordered, anyone? I’m all ears. NH. ---
**Author:** ![Night\_Hawk](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/n/3bc359/32.png) [@Night\_Hawk](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/Night_Hawk)\ **Post date:** [April 27, 2017, 12:47pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/night_hawks-pheremone-journal/43688/390 "2017-04-27T12:47:29Z")
Another day in my lovely workplace, yay! Break time, sat with a fellow manager (WW), not someone I consider to be apart of the group from hell, but still cautious! Got half a spray of A314, nothing left now, same for the IO and IS, stealth P131 is somewhere in my bag, may have 1 or 2 sprays of that left. Grumpy is in yay, seems to be nice at the moment, funny boy (PK) has been commenting on my shiny head, as I’ve had my hair cut, lovely. Got May 1st on Monday (recap page 26), so my head is on recall. 29 years I’ve had these memories on display, what with moms pending operations; and the endless cr\*p from the idiots, safe to say my head isn’t very focused right now, but it is very, very active!! ☹ Feel like ditching everything, getting on a plane and jetting off to anywhere!! Can’t obviously, got work, got responsibilities, got to just get on with it! Just got the weekend to look forward to, get out, get drunk, stay off my social media account afterwards, lol!! Not heard anything about Monday, time will tell on that, still got Monday to come; and it would be on Anniversary Day, just my luck!! ---
**Author:** ![Night\_Hawk](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/n/3bc359/32.png) [@Night\_Hawk](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/Night_Hawk)\ **Post date:** [April 27, 2017, 11:03pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/night_hawks-pheremone-journal/43688/391 "2017-04-27T23:03:51Z")
So, a quick update on today. 🙂 Well, note to self, don’t leave ordering to the point that I’m on fumes. These past couple of weeks have been hell, literally. Rationing sprays and not using my normal amount has had a hell of an effect on me personally. Usually, I’m so lively, bouncing everywhere, not seen any of that for the past fortnight. I know my Monday’s haven’t been great, nor my luck it would seem, lol, but still, I’m back to seeing the difference of when I do use mones and when I haven’t gotten any!! Nightmare springs to mind! ☹ So yeah, I have a couple of sprays left of p131 stealth. Found a few (Possibly empty) bottles tonight, going to see if I can extract even the tiniest drop out of them, doubt it though. Can’t begin to tel you how happy I will be when I see the DHL man on my doorstep! Actually, Saturday will be the 1st time I’ve been out on a night out without so much as a drop of IShine - god help my head on Sunday when I have to be back in work for 9am!! 😃 Think they’ll find me in a corner somewhere, sleeping!! So, no further developments when I went back to work after my break, Lynx Black was all I had to play with after my half-shots of IO/IShine and A314. Didn’t really notice anything from those around me, to be fair, I didn’t really expect to, considering I was using next to nothing. For me, I got a little boost, really didn’t last long, an hour at most, but it did bring me out of the weird trance I had been in, from when I went to work at midday. I guess I had way too much on my mind. Anyhow, same hours tomorrow, think I might hang onto the p131 for saturday. Speak tomorrow. NH. ---
**Author:** ![Night\_Hawk](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/n/3bc359/32.png) [@Night\_Hawk](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/Night_Hawk)\ **Post date:** [April 29, 2017, 11:22am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/night_hawks-pheremone-journal/43688/392 "2017-04-29T11:22:22Z")
Pick up from DHL, oh yes!! Says it’ll arrive Thursday, doubt it will be that long, but party mix time in work, why not!! Not sure when to use the IJ, not used that for so long, don’t want to come across as the nutter bad boy on day one, but I’m tempted to keep that for Mondays (For obvious reasons), and maybe when we have a lot of those unruly teenagers trying to smash the store up!! Yesterday, not bad, something has definitely been said as they’re being fairly nice for once! Don’t know how long that will last, but hey, gonna enjoy it whilst it does!! ‘LK’ was in this morning, got a brief smile, brief conversation, nothing special, but the peace maintained throughout, no unpleasantness, even with ‘ZE’ being on shift, again, something has been said to him, finally! So, as I type this on my break, I’m missing the fact that my favourite manager ‘RW’ is getting CSR’d by our ops consultant, hope she does well, should do, knowledgeable young lady, great to work with, a good friend! Back later, maybe. Out tonight - hedione- oh yes!! Forgot I had that, binned the ylang, became to potent for my liking, hedione I can just get along with, with any product used over as a cover scent! My actually take the plunge tonight and try one of those hedione base colognes on offer when you go to the gents. Got an idea for a few that are heavily dosed in hedione, so will be on the lookout for those - bring on the fun, hehe. Headache from hell tomorrow probably, with Grumpy running the shift, oh great, kill me after I’ve been out, lol!! 😃 Speak later. NH. ---
**Author:** ![1Alpha](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/1alpha/32/190_2.png) [@1Alpha](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/1Alpha)\ **Post date:** [May 1, 2017, 3:00pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/night_hawks-pheremone-journal/43688/393 "2017-05-01T15:00:50Z")
Yes!!! Hedione- oh yes!! I’m sure you can get along with Hedione and IJ. That’s one hell o’ a combination. You’re doing some great journaling, NH. Keep up the good work. Taking some ‘dry’ days between mones should help with alleviating the headaches, if these are from the constant use of mones. I’ve had the headache from hell with weeks of constant mone testing and application to the point of crazy as well. When I had some additional time in my life, with taking some time off from my volunteer work, I studied and was certified for massage therapy, with Shiatsu, Deep tissue, Swedish and several other modalities. This includes Acupressure which uses the same points as acupuncture. There are acupressure and sports massage techniques that will help with CTS. Because of this, I suggest acupuncture to alleviate your pain and find relief. I’ve read some studies on acupuncture, for example, on a small group \< 70 participants, with half using ‘fake’ acupuncture and the other ‘real’ acupuncture over a 4 week period, 2 times per week for a total of 8 sessions and the electrophysiological parameters, nerve conduction velocity (NCV) was significantly different between two groups after 4 weeks with acute reversal of pain and increase in movement on the ‘real’ acupuncture participants. I’ve used acupuncture over the years and has helped and cured several maladies that I’ve had including joint pains to the point of not needed any treatment for them anymore. Will come back and keep an eye on your journal, NH. See ya! ---
**Author:** ![Night\_Hawk](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/n/3bc359/32.png) [@Night\_Hawk](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/Night_Hawk)\ **Post date:** [May 3, 2017, 1:52pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/night_hawks-pheremone-journal/43688/394 "2017-05-03T13:52:07Z")
Hey 1Alpha, thanks for stopping by!! Hedione and IJ, really??!! I’m guessing you’ve tried it then, lol? Kind of wary as to when and where I wear that, still think Monday’s cleaning those machines is the best time, at least, for a couple of weeks. Don’t know when I’m out with my friends mind you, not after Saturday (Will get to that in a minute). DHL came Tuesday afternoon, yay, told you it wouldn’t be Thursday!! 😃 Got a ‘stealth’ test TOGO product included with my order - P132. Okay, looking at my sig, that’s one product I haven’t tested yet, hmm, research time then, hehe!! 😉 No idea what that does, wonder if it will work with the ‘Party Mix Mk2’? I say Mk2, because well, I’m missing my IO from the equation, not a mistake on AD’s part, nor mine for that matter, just that at the last minute due to money constraints waiting for that refund to appear back from PayPal from my Distro Company over-charging, that I switched it out for IJ!! Still, got about 25ml of my hedione oil left, so, still got quite a few testing days of that ahead of me, plus the other products I’ve ordered; and now in my possession! So, ‘Party Mix Mk2’ (PMM2) will consist of P96 12.5mcg, IS 5mcg and TUTH 2.5mg. May make up a ‘Party Mix Mk3’ (PMM3) with P132 5mcg (Stealth), as well as do the standard ‘stand-alone’ test of said mone to see/workout what it does, what effect is has on me/others, if anything, fun times ahead, huh! Still, also got A314 1.32B again! Nothing like watching people go to take the mick or yell at you, get a whiff of that; and slam on the brakes, certainly puts a smile on my face each time I see it happen; and that scent, it’s so much better that the 1.29B version, seems subtle, wearable, not like the mulled wine scent it used to give off, used to put me off from wearing it. So, back to Saturday!! Finished work at 7:20pm and it was a nice 20 minute wait for a taxi to come and pick me up, strange for that time on a Saturday?!! Then I found out from a colleague why? Turns out the Joshua/Klitschko fight was on in every bar/club and everyone was probably wanting a taxi to get to them, great!! Got home around 7:45pm and am supposed to be out for 8:30pm in the City Centre, at our meeting venue, not a chance! More likely to be 9pm for me, so posted a quick message to my friend Mike to tell him I was getting food and would be leaving around 8:40pm, which ended up being nearer 8:50pm by the time the taxi app accepted my booking! Got to our first bar for 9:10pm to find my friend Mike, was also having taxi booking troubles and would be arriving at 9:30pm, lol, ah well these things happen. Was greeted at the entrance by the other two guys I’ve come to call good friends, albeit, I’ve only been out/met them on two other occasions, but damn, you laugh and laugh in their company, both actors, well, one also does directing but still, if you ever wanted a good night out, then it would have to at least have these two guys in the group!! So, it turns out that it is Steve’s birthday, hence going out; and well, told them it was mine last Saturday (22nd), to then have then attempt the age guessing game, hehe! They didn’t come close, which surprised them somewhat! Brian was like, “Older or younger than 28?” His original guess. Steve thought I was 26! There’s that age that I keep having my head tell me I am, even though I’m not. I look in a mirror and the image back I think, there’s no way I’m older than 26! In reality, I am, according to my Passport/Birth certificate, but I guess it’s all down to that facial reconstruction when I was 10, has to be, no other reason I’m not ageing, well, none that I can think of. Saying that, I have no visible signs anywhere else either, no wrinkles on my hands/arms, nothing. Look like any other 26 year old, probably why I keep thinking it myself, my head certainly seems to keep saying it to me when people in work, new members of staff ask my age, I just automatically say “I’m 26,” every single time now. Then some bright spark goes and spoils it; and blurts out my real age, lol. That, for a few seconds actually has me doubting myself, lol, then reality kicks in, I think of my sister’s age, add on 12; and bam, horrify myself at my ‘real’ age!! :Yikes: Still, we do the age climbing/guessing game; and I watch Brian’s eyes slowly get wider as he goes up and up in total disbelief, lol. Safe to say, I had to show them my passport to prove my age to them, as even on eventually guessing (and killing some time awaiting for Mike to arrive), they still didn’t believe me, lol. Kind of one of the reasons I shy away for asking anyone out. I know the youngest I’d go for is 24/25, but still, in the minds of some, that’s still young. Teenagers, hell no! I work with them mostly; and even though I get on with most, if not all, the word ‘teenager’ has me running for the hills, literally. It’s one of the reasons I’m cautious around ‘AC’ as she’s 18, albeit, she’s told a few in work that she’s 20, no, she’s really 18, asked her sister a few weeks ago just to make sure, ‘CC’ being 17, a year younger than ‘AC’, so never will be anything more than friends! 🙂 Happy with that thought, she’s a great laugh, a minx most of the time, but still a good friend. Probably even more so after what happened with ‘LK’ and her confiding in me. Probably her way of asking for help but getting nowhere (Like I did), on speaking to salaried. I’ll always help where I can, especially my friends, always look out for my friends, make sure they get home safe on nights out, etc, even if that means me taking them to their front door, lol. Done that with Mike a few times over the years, when he lived with his brother in Kirkby. My home was on the way, but in the early days when he was dealing with his sister being ill; and getting in a state so drunk that he could hardly stand, I’d take him to his house 1st, then go back to mine. Might of added another 5GBP onto my journey, but at least I knew my friend was home safe and sound. Would probably do that with my work colleagues, if put into the same situation, actually, I know I would!! So, 1st drink of the night, 500ml bottle of Kopparberg mixed fruits cider, one of the flavours I live on at home. I drink the stuff like lemonade, takes ages to get a drunk feeling, lol, but when it kicks in, damn, I’m just happy. Does make my head very active though, alcohol, don’t know why, seem to see a hell of a lot more than normal, which can be a tad of a problem, as I start tilting my head/body left and right, trying to look around the images displayed in front of me. Must look bizarre to those around me, if they see me!! Did it on arriving at ‘EH’s’ party back in March, caught on mobile camera by ‘LZ’ and got to see myself doing the ‘look around’ when I viewed myself the next day on our social media works page. Does look strange lol, but then if people could see what I’m looking at (Which sadly they can’t. Not yet anyway! Lockheed Martin need to hurry up and develop that!), then they’d understand, albeit, they’d probably go “Whoa, how do you live with all of that everyday?!!” Good question! I’m sure LM will solve that one in years to come. So far, it would seem they have found a way to target memories and remove them, probably electro shock, not something I’m trying out any time soon, but as with their testing on F16/F35 pilots to ‘think’ to control the functions of their aircraft, see in their minds what needs to be done for the machinery to connect and function in normal parameters, that thought of them working, seeing, what the pilots see, is one step closer to developing a means of displaying one mind. Probably a few years yet, before that becomes a reality, although someone, some department is throwing lots of money at the research and development, so who knows, might come sooner than thought! Hope so, would love to share with everyone (Most) of what I see. Would certainly make the ‘haters’ back right off, them seeing their actions out on a display for all to see. Say good-bye to that CCTV that no one wants to check, there’d be no need for it!! Side-tracked - Saturday!! So, I’m out with 8 dabs of hedione to my jaw line, back of neck/hair line! Ted Baker, yep, had to be done at some point, lol, X2O. Not much of that, so applied another TB product that has no name on the small sample bottle, still nice scent, so applied that to my wrists and back of neck where I’d applied the X2O. Got myself a TOGO bottle and added about 2.5ml of my hedione oil to it. To that I added another TB product XO. A lot stronger than the X2O, but felt the need to take something out with me! Sprayed my shirt/under arms with my Lynx Black and that was my setup for going out! Had to shake up the hedione/XO blend, as the oil was sat at the bottom of the bottle. Mixed it looked like yellow urine in colour, lol, sorry, for that mental image, but it really did. Deffo a stronger scent that what I’d applied on leaving, but, I didn’t apply any in the 1st bar we were at, get to that in a little bit! 😉 So, Mike eventually turned up and Brian and Steve try to get him to guess my age. I guess they forget I’ve known Mike since out radio days together, so he knows my age, kind of, lol, was a year out, haha, thanks m8, don’t mind being that 1 year younger, before he corrected himself, pah! 😃 Still, 30 mins in; and we’re talking about the boxing match and thinking of where best we could all probably go and see it, within walking distance of the venue we were at now - Off to the Whiskey Bar we go!! Enters the fun and teasing from Brian and Mike to Steve as his ex-girlfriend keeps sending him text messages, telling him she’s going to Scotland this week on holiday! Apparently, according to Steve, she’s a psycho, lol. Never met her myself, so wouldn’t know; and they’ve only been going out since October, wonder if that dousing of mones I gave him on our night out had something to do with it, he was single on that night out, started dating a day later, go figure?!! 😃 Bare in mind, this is the same guy that went from dancing with no one in Smokey Joes, to having 11 women all climbing over him, lol, so yeah, could of still been giving off some mone signature that next day! Still, on arriving at the Whiskey Bar, Mike gets a text that one of his fellow actresses is heading to the same bar with a couple of friends, okay. Well, not that he made much to speak to her, or her friends, as the boxing was starting; and he, Steve and I were now fixed on it, but in the corner, Brian was now engrossed in conversation with all 3, looked like he was swapping mobile numbers, lol, sounds about right, guy seems to be a magnet to attracting women, 55 I think he said he was in the 1st bar, with our age guessing game, wow! The oldest of the group, Steve next at 47, Mike at 43, me being the baby of the group, erm, 26, lmao!! 😃 Some day I’ll wake-up and think/share my age. Today is not that day, lol, but I am younger than the other 3. 🙂 Damn, it was packed in there, the bar, not to worry, found a great spot to watch all 11 Rounds. 3 bottles of Peroni! Damn this stuff has a strong taste, no Kopparberg in this bar, so have to make do. Won’t touch certain other brands of cider, they put aspartame in it to make it sweet; and after being a part of the Italian Research years ago, there’s no way on this earth I’ll touch any product with it in!! Back to the bar…Klitschko, wow, looked like the guy had had a heavy drinking session the night before! Didn’t think he’d last as long as he did, if I’m honest. Still, just before the match ended, Mike’s female friends left and went looking for a quiet bar to talk, fair enough. Finally got to introduce myself to Mike’s friend - Lisa. The other two, kind of kept themselves back at a distance from the rest of us. Found out why when they left; and Brian returned to our group. On was from Spain and spoke no English, with Lisa translating; and the other was from China on an acting exchange programme, so limited English. That would explain that then! Went to the toilet, damn that was a mission in itself! Could of done with SatNav to locate it, lol, down in the depths of the basement; and the 1st time in a very long time I’ve had to queue up in a line to go to the toilet! Eventually got inside to think I was in Roman Baths, looked like it by the decor anyhow, toilet cubicles though, two of them up high on some staging platform. You could hear more than one person in each, most likely up to no good trying out some form of substance, that’s what usually happens in bars that you find more than one person sharing the toilet cubicle. Still made for those in the line to put on deep voices and pretend they were the door security, lol, try and get those inside, outside so that they could go and relive themselves! Worked anyhow, lol. 😃 Another bottle and we moved on to yet another bar, in a side-street close by. Tiny bar, really tiny, but nice atmosphere inside!! 3 more bottles of Peroni, telling the bar staff a break down of each round of the boxing, seeing as they couldn’t see it! I guess my memory has its uses, lol. Brian was like, “How are you so detailed in what happened? I can just about remember the last round, lol!” Mike responded with, “The jammy git has a photographic memory, remembers everything, literally! You’ll come to understand in years to come when he recalls your best embarrassing moments and reminds you of them, done it to me a few times; and you’re like, I forgot that, how the heck do you remember that, so detailed??!!” Hahaha, yep, sorry Mike, lol!! So, we move on to yet another bar, another side street, 4 peroni this time! Ah man, I’m starting to feel that drunk feeling - I have no IS to bring me back to life, just this hedione/TB mix. Went to the gents; and we have the usual toilet attendant standing over the sinks. Looked like he’d tied bin bags over 3 of the 4 taps preventing anyone from turning on the water, so they HAD to go to the sink by him, pay 1GBP to wash their hands, get a bit of soap from his dispenser and then you were free to use the hand dryer on the wall! His collection of colognes, damn, think he got them from Pound Land, didn’t recognise any of the brand names, certainly none from that mammoth list of hedione based mones I posted back in November, so it was time to use that hedione/TB concoction I made up before leaving home. DAMN, this be strong!! Probably should of done one spray, probably should of done it under my clothing to my chest, maybe, but drunk idiot here forgot that it wasn’t my usual mix and did 3 quick blasts to either side of my neck and to my Adam’s apple! Then, the strong scent hit me; and it his me hard, lol. OMG, what have I just done?!! So, I leave and am shaking my shirt, rubbing my neck, trying to rub this stuff into anything to get it to die down. Not happening, this is strong, lol, but on mingling with everyone else in the bar, it seemed to slightly ease off, thank gawd!! Still, in my mind, it was still there, still present, still strong compared to my [Neroli](https://a314.com/product-category/scented/androtics-neroli/) mixes, the Lynx spray, etc, gonna have to get used to it, it’s on now, nothing I can do but wait for it to die down! The other 3 didn’t notice it, to be honest, didn’t show any signs that they had noticed. If they did, would probably of said I got it on the gents, lol, but damn, certainly shocked me, kinda worried me, as I was getting that drunk feeling and it was only a matter of time before my head would take-over and go “IS time! Go spray and wake-up!” So, we move on to the next venue, some club near Mount Pleasant, no idea what it was called, Steve now on the phone with his ex-girlfriend apparently also in the City Centre bars/clubs wanting him to come find her! Yeah, going by his tone of voice that wasn’t going to happen. They broke up 2 weeks ago and she’s apparently been saying she intends to meet-up with someone, anyone, when she goes to Glasgow, Scotland this week! Sounds like she was trying to make the guy jealous, lol, but he switched his phone off after telling her to effectively “Do one; and stop ringing/texting multiple times a day/night with a full account of her every move!” Yeah, that doesn’t sound right, lol, she deffo sounds like a nut job! Brian kept laughing and saying, “She is a right stalker, that one!” For a moment and I don’t know why, I had a thought of ‘LK’ being the ideal person to date her. Maybe should get her details and pass them on! 😉 Still on the Peroni, starting to get that drained feeling, arf. This is were the IS would bring me to life, keep me going for hours, make me lively as hell, but not tonight, well not at the moment anyhow! Another 4 bottles for me, the other 3 are all on pints of larger. Me, I stick with bottles. Years of working in bars/hotels, you come to see all the things that they do to prevent wastage, like pouring the drip trays collected in some uncovered metal bucket, back into the barrel. Or, worse still, the autovac system that takes the drip tray spillage out directly and puts it back into the next pint pulled. No thanks, staff are handling money; and those buckets attract fruit flies - dodgy pint, dodgy stomach, I’ll stick with bottles thanks! Off we go to yet another bar next to the Adelphi Hotel. Supposed to be 5\*, ha, not anymore it’s not, very run down, but in this bar we ended up in, they had karaoke; and well, in a drunk state I’m game, lol! Don’t actually know what the heck I was singing, probably nor did anyone else, lol. When Brian went up to sing, ha, Steve gave me his phone (Steve’s) to take a photo. Wrong thing to do, lmao! Loaded up Facebook, located ‘Live Stream’ hit ‘Go Live’ and started watching the general public start tuning in, hehe! Half way through, thought, “Sod it, gonna flick the camera back at me!” Did so and said, “Hi, this is Daveros recording Brian on Steve’s phone. Enjoy!” Then switched the camera back on to Brian, lol, as you do!! Safe to say Brian wasn’t impressed a short time afterwards on telling him, he was now famous, lol, but Steve replayed it just the same; and stood and laughed in the middle of the dance floor on his own, just staring at his mobile screen! Another trip to the gents, another strange dude in there that had tied off the taps, hmm. Colognes on display again, nothing I recognise, so pulled out my TOGO and did the same darn error I did in the other bar, ffs!! Still, it must have done something, as on returning, Steve was now dancing with a few ladies on the dance floor, Brian and Mike were at the bar and I just thought, “Sod it, going to dance myself!” Seemed to have woken up somewhat from that last bar, anyhow; and now I find myself dancing away to the strangest music going - those singing on the karaoke, lol!! Must of done something right though, had this one woman want to dance near me too. Loads of room on the dance floor, she could of gone anywhere, but she was close up near me, practically on top of me, if I’m honest. Not complaining. Like the hugs I get in work, it’s nice to get some attention for once, interact with someone for once! Then it dawned on me, it could be the hedione! She was close enough to get a hit from it, but I was very conscious of the strong scent, albeit it had died down a considerable amount from application! Oh dear lord, DIHL!! Yep, she’s getting a hit from the hedione!! Okay, well that will explain that then, why she is dancing so close! This must of gone on for at least 30 mins. No close-up contact. I know I have to forget, but didn’t have the ‘X’ feeling, just knew deep down that dancing was as far as this would go with this person. Kind of got this same response from Sophie at the club of EH’s birthday night out, had hedione on then too, so I’m now seeing the same effects all over again. Now I know this stuff works! Gawd knows what may have happened had I of had my other mones on/with me!! Still, in a way, I was glad that I didn’t. Couldn’t of led someone on with no feelings for them, just something I couldn’t and wouldn’t do. I’m not an ONS type of guy! So, Brian says, “Let’s go over the road to Smokey Joe’s!” Okay, so this is the last bar we ended up in last time, the one where I sprayed them all in my mones of mayhem, lol; and outside, Brian is asking me, “There’s just one question I have to ask you, before we go in here. Have you got the ‘stuff’? The juice? The youth liquor of happiness with you?!” Sort of pulled a face, because I only had that potent mess of hell with me, the hedione/TB mix, that is safe to say destined for the nearest waste dump as I type this! Said, “Nope, it’s not due to arrive till next Thursday, sorry!” Could see the disappointment on not just his face, but the other two’s faces too, lol. Sorry guys, next time!! Did pull out the temporary mix and attempt to mention what it was. Brian sniffed the spray nozzle and got a hit of the strong scent; and passed on using it, lol! Did say it was strong didn’t I, lol!! Maybe if he knew what hedione was, he might of taken the plunge, but I don’t blame him on not using it, that scent was just too overpowering, even for me!! Over we went, or at least we tried to! Out came that girl I’d been dancing with, on her own to our group, okay! Started trying to have a conversation with all of us, lol! Okay, this really doesn’t happen, this is deffo a new one to me, lol!! So, she wants to know why we’re all out, what was the occasion? Steve’s birthday! Oh wait, Mike is now saying it was mine too, for last weekend, lol, thanks mate! Here we go again, guess NH’s age, ffs!! Guess what, she also thinks I’m 26, hahaha!! Seriously, I’m 26 from now on, lol, but Mike tells her my actual age; and blow me, she’s a year younger, didn’t think that for one minute. Now she’s telling us she’s a mom of 4 kids, youngest daughter is 20 and she’s a Nana of a 2 year old! Yikes!! …and why yikes?? Because I can still see that DIHL look every time she looked at me, hedione is still hitting her, jeebus!! Now, I’m being asked where we’re off to? “Over the road, Smokey Joe’s.” So, apparently she is on her own?? What?? Has to go back inside to tell the people she was sharing a table with that she was joining us in the next venue!! O-K!!! Got me and the other 3 guys all looking at each other as she goes back inside, with all 4 of us practically coming out with the same thing, lol! “Erm, who goes out on their own, sits with random people then, has to say good-bye to them to join another group of people they’ve never met before?!!” Yep, safe to say Brian was the 1st to head across the road rather quickly, lol. Followed by Mike, then Steve, with me standing there in a drunk state thinking out loudly, “Is this really happening, or am I imagining it?!” Brian is like, “NH, there’s no way she is coming back out of there, not on her own at least, lol!” So, I followed and went to the next venue. Not long after, a few minutes if that, did that lady appear and come over to use again, oh jeebus, but she wasn’t alone, she’d brought two other females with her; and all three ended up moving to a table about 5 metres from where we were, with this one woman keeping a watchful eye on all 4 of us!! Chances are, those two were her kids, who knows, had the same hair colour anyhow, dark brown, long. Still, the guys spot a bucking bronco on a TV screen and we (The guys and I), proceed to head upstairs to take a look. Steve asks to have a go, but is told by the guy running it, that it has finished. Clearly not, as any 20-something year old asks, male or female; and on they go! Now, I know Steve is a big lad, but seriously, saying something has finished being run to then let 8 other people have a go, yeah, let’s just get it right 1st time, you have something against big people having a go - Muppet! I hope one day this guy has a taste of his own medicine of something he really wants, but someone knocks him back for it!! Really hate people that do that, nothing wrong with Steve, a gentle giant, funny, funny guy. Almost as bad as my ‘hater’s’ telling me whom MY TYPE of person will be to go out with. Yeah, never ever going out with that sort of person, don’t do prostitutes!! After that we went back downstairs and well, headed for food. The Lobster Pot to be precise, best place apparently. Tried to decipher what the hell was in the battered products in the hot holding cabinet on display, ‘battered’ probably being the word best to describe it. Probably some poor stray animal wandered in ended up coated in flour mix and deep fried, certainly didn’t resemble the shape of battered fish, lol!! Playing it safe then, jumbo sausage, chips and lashings of curry sauce, all packaged away into a nice brown paper carrier bag - Let’s see me smuggle this into a black hackney cab in a minute, lol!! But, whilst in the queue behind the guys waiting for their whatever it was they ordered, resembling something from the X-Files, lol, a couple of guys stopped me in the queue and said, “Hey, you work in xxxxx?!” Oh great, I’ve been recognised without the uniform on, lol, didn’t know who they were, guys in their early 20’s, still was pleasant, they were pleasant, had a brief moment of acknowledgment and then it was time to order! 🙂 Time to go home and I’m standing in a lovely cold wind with Steve waiting to get a cab home, he apparently lives near me, so logical to share a cab, only he used to be a Private hire driver and somehow spots an old friend parked up on the opposite side of the road. Yep, we got in, hid my curry dinner as best I could, lol, well, I was kinda starving; and home for bed, just after 4am, lol, quite a night with great company and oh my word, lots and lots of drinking! Hedione, deffo works then, kind of finally seen that it does, 2nd time I’ve used it in the club environment, at least those application points are pretty much spot on. Just need to try it again with the PMM2/3, lol!! Anyhow, Sunday, oh my. 9am start, I’d set my alarm for 8am, or so I thought, forgot to slide the switch over to activate it, 8:37am I jumped up, half asleep, stumbling around to find my uniform, badge, shoes, lol. Yeah, that was fun, still, somehow I made it in on time!! On with my young friends, happy days! Busy as hell, but then it was a bank holiday weekend, not surprised one bit. Ended up working everywhere, front counter, drive-thru, order taker, even got to go into the kitchen to help out/cover breaks, case of having to they were up the wall! Grumpy’s shift, no mones on, only wearing my Lynx spray, but still she seemed to be fine with me. Actually, they were all giving me positive comments over my nice hair cut, lol, okay?! Shift went reasonably well, was over really quickly. Monday, ha. Was expecting hell, got the total opposite!! Was in for bang on 6am, ‘LK’ smiling saying nothing. Good, let’s keep it that way. ‘AC’ had been on the night shift and was awaiting the morning team to start, didn’t look her usual happy self, but said they had been battered all weekend with drunken customers! Poor girl, nothing worse than having a bunch of drunk idiots making your job even harder! Still, on I cracked with the machine. Kept everything in plain view sight of the cameras, lessons learnt on that from previous weeks, not letting anything out of my sight again! Set up in the corner again, under the camera, anyone coming to tamper with anything is gonna be caught red-handed, but today, it was different. ‘AM’ had clearly warned them all, (Well, apart from ‘SK’, but we’ll come to him in a mo, with his childish remarks). Got this cleaning lark down to two hours and 30 minutes to strip down and reassemble the shake machine, not bad really, had it all done by 9:30am, lol; and just before I went to move onto the smoothie machine did ‘SK’ start with the, “NH, when’s shakey gonna be ready?” Here we go!! ‘LK’ was stood next to him, big smirk on his face, watching, waiting to see if I took the bait. Nope, sorry, don’t care! Fun thing was within 20 mins of me starting to strip down the smoothie machine, he was on his break and wanting one - UNLUCKY!! Told him he could have a shake or ice cream; and he was like, “What, you’ve done it already?!” Was like, “Yeah, funny how when people don’t start messing how quick it can get done!” Look on his face, lol, yeah, you know I know your Brother has been messing about for these past few weeks, don’t know what they’re playing at, but seriously need to get a grip and act their age. This endless harassment directed at me has to stop at some point. Actually, up until ‘SK’ opened his mouth, I thought it had stopped, then realised that it was really too good to be true!! Still, everything was done by 11:30am; and I’m supposed to be working till 2pm, yeah I can see me going on an early dart any time soon!! Completed my Fire Logs, as I’m the stores Fire Officer. Showed the BM a few new things that we now need to complete (Well me), regarding the fire suppression system, but all in all, I was done and dusted and out of there by 12:30pm; and heading into the City centre for a little bit of ‘me time’ and shopping, lol. So, it’s Wednesday now, I’m on my 2nd rest day and as of tomorrow, I’m on the 1st of 4 night shifts, yay!! Don’t know who I’m on with, haven’t looked that far ahead, but still, will be armed with PMM2, IJ and A314, along with my Lynx Black. Let the research trials begin once more, hehe!! Speak later, NH. ---
**Author:** ![Night\_Hawk](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/n/3bc359/32.png) [@Night\_Hawk](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/Night_Hawk)\ **Post date:** [May 4, 2017, 8:55pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/night_hawks-pheremone-journal/43688/395 "2017-05-04T20:55:00Z")
Well, I’m in work an hour early and already had to deal with the kids from hell outside!! Pmm2 and IJ to either side of my neck and a shot of A314 to both wrists. Jeebus, could of told me this stuff makes you feel brave!! Got them threatening me outside, got them threatening my team through the windows, got a girl telling me in front of me that she’s going to be waiting for a female manager at the bus stop when she leaves! Yeah another fun night! And why is it the police take forever to appear?? One girl hid in the bushes and the others took off, lovely!! Police went in the wrong direction to find them, great!! One lad on a bike going the wrong way around the drive-thru lane past the cars, yeah that was clever!! Got confronted by the male youths threatening me, before the police arrived, told them not to or threaten my team/staff as one lad said the “Blonde one over there is gonna get killed when she comes out!” Said “who are you threatening? Don’t you dare threaten to kill my team!” Got them come closer and say, “what are you gonna do? Nothing. Not scared of you!” Said “touch me and I’ll go for you, don’t you dare threaten me! Who do you think you are?” Next this girl jumps in front of me going off in a rage, “who are you threatening to kill?” What?!! Where, when did I say the word ‘kill’?? Go for, yes, kill no! they might be kids but they smash up the store every night, they take knives to the seats, smoke cannabis on the premises, if they were adults they’d go to jail!! Anyhow back to work pick this up later!! NH. ---
**Author:** ![Night\_Hawk](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/n/3bc359/32.png) [@Night\_Hawk](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/Night_Hawk)\ **Post date:** [May 5, 2017, 6:21pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/night_hawks-pheremone-journal/43688/396 "2017-05-05T18:21:41Z")
Back. Shift is over!! …and I’ve just woken up after ‘crashing’ to sleep on getting home!! Actually, I went to sleep again on the train platform, waiting 17 minutes for my train to arrive, headphones in, listening to a bit of Hardstyle! Shows how tired I was, cos’ who can sleep through that fast beat of music - 150BPM, lol?!! Pretty certain I said at the bottom of Page #26 that May, is my worst month for things to happen to me, looks like 2017 is going to be no different!! So, turns out the girl confronting me, less than a metre away from me screaming at me, had been into the store 4 times already yesterday night, threatening the Manager that she would be attacked/killed when she left the premises and went for the bus! She doesn’t get a bus, she drives a car, but still, this girl is adamant that she’s going to “Get,” the manager when she leaves! What a lovely child!! Next, the 5 males begin to disperse, but she still wants to argue, cannot help herself, kinda making it worse for herself, but then from out of nowhere, I now have the male lobby staff member screaming from behind me, “Don’t you dare hit him!” Hit who? Me?!! I’m thinking why the hell is he even out there. Makes the girl go absolutely mental!! “Who are you screaming at?!!” She turns to me, “Did I hit you? No!” Had to say, “No you didn’t touch me.” Because well, she didn’t, don’t know why ‘AW’ was even there, what made him come out to defend me for something that never happened! Kind of made it worse though, as she started up with the, “How dare you threaten to kill him!” What? Open your ears girl, get your facts right! But then this little male kid decides to join in. He’d been standing out the way when it all kicked off, so now he’s decided to be brave; and said, “Yes you did, you said you were going to kill him!” Erm, no I didn’t! 😠 One of the guys said, “Just leave it! I’m getting my cookies from Dominoes, then we’ll all go!” Dominoes is opposite our store. They go to it if we don’t let them through the door, then sit outside and shout at the staff through the glass, then this is when they start wrecking the place outside, stopping staff/customers leaving/enter the premises, riding their bikes the wrong way around the drive-thru lane!! Their actions literally bring the operation to a halt; and they do it every single day, Monday to Sunday! As for the Police, either they don’t turn up, arrive after they have left, let them run away from them, or phone us 6 hours later to ask if we still need them! These people can dial into our CCTV, they can see what we’re doing, surely they don’t have to ask us stupid questions, as the teenagers/20-somethings, have taken to waiting for the Police, then running off. It’s like a game to them; and whilst they wait, they make our lives hell. I was threatened a couple of years back, two youths in the male customer toilets. Both being around 16 years of age, one pulled a knife as he went to leave the toilet, all caught on the CCTV, the other shouting, “Stick him, stick him!” Whom was still in the toilet. Guy with the knife said in a low chilling voice, “I will!” Safe to say, I got out of that confined area, but at the time, the shift manager ‘SK’ didn’t want to know, didn’t do anything, ended up saying, “If you want to press the button (The panic button to the Police Control Centre), then that’s up to you. I’m too busy!” Yeah, no concern about staff safety. Had it been him whom had been threatened, bet he’d of done something then!! 😠 Got interviewed by a Police officer for that incident; and my Franchisee walked in, put his hand on my shoulder, held it tightly with a strong grip and said, “We have to learn to deal with these things!” What?!! I come to work, do a job, not have to stop multiple times a day to deal with unruly teenagers/youths hell bent on harming us and the store! Those two even followed me home, attempted multiple times to put our windows in of our house, threatened my Mom in the street, attempted (With a larger gang) to throw rocks at her as she walked down the street; and for why? Because I was told by a manager at the time, “Those two are barred, go tell them to leave the toilet/premises, or the Police will be called!” That memory stays with me, it doesn’t go; and every single time there’s trouble it recalls said events. That’s what happened last night; and with this girl in my face screaming, I’m not actually looking at her, I’m recalling, yet again, every single moment from those previous years. What snapped me out of it was when ‘AW’ screamed from behind me!! As he’s stood there; and I’m trying now to calm him down as he’s now in full swing arguing with this girl and I’m trying to gently push him back, more staff come out! Jeebus, do they not learn anything?!! I know, safety in numbers, but I was dealing with it, getting it to calm down, even though two idiots, were trying to make out more than what had happened, as for the girl, she decided to join in, she was present at the time. But now she’s sanding at my name badge, saying my name out loud, telling me about how my tie is tied, lol, telling my how I look in my uniform to try and get some further response out of me! I’m now calm, in a low, slow speaking manner; and she is now telling me, “You don’t know me, you don’t know my name, if you call the Police, they can’f ind out who I am, you can’t do anything; and I’ll come back; and still there will be nothing you can do about it!!” Then she made the mother of all ‘f -ups’!! “How dare you shout at my cousin!” That got my attention. “Cousin, that’s your cousin is it?” Her response, “Yes; and I’m not having you or anyone else tell him what he can do, we’ll do what we want; and you won’t find out who I am to stop it!” That put a smile on my face, as I replied with, “Really! You’ve just told me he’s your cousin, so when the Police come, when they finally catch up with him, take him to the Police station or home, have his parents present, they can ask his parents whom, you are! Now we have a means to find out your name, where you live, everything! You’ve just given us a way to identify you, thank you!” The silence, lol, oh the silence was golden; and in a good way, as the look on her face, you could see her thoughts, “Oh heck, they can now find out who I am!” Yep, that’s our key to finding you! 😃 So, the guys begin to disperse, one in glasses, the one that usually starts off the mouthing when they all arrive; and then trows in the treats is off to get his cookies, the girl, slightly quieter, but still wanting to voice herself nonetheless tries to start up again, so as I’m still trying to back ‘AW’ towards the front of the store out of the way, another 2 staff members’ come out, FFS!! 🙄 Seriously! It’s being handled, don’t need more people joining in, making the matter flair up again!! So, I say to them, with the teenagers listening, “It’s finished, go back inside, it’s being dealt with, go back inside, I’m fine, go back inside!” As I also go to go back inside, the girl starts up again, “I’ll get you arrested for shouting at my cousin, I’ll have you put in jail, telling him what to do, we’ll do what we want; and you and no one else, not even the Police will tell us what we can do!” Turned around on the corner of the store, didn’t go back to her, as I was still trying to usher the staff back inside, now stopping behind me, with a possibility of it all flaring up again, so I said; “…and yes, we now know that that is your cousin; and how to find out whom YOU are. You’ve been to this store 5 times now tonight, threatening the manager and staff, my staff. You’ve threatened to go to a bus stop and way to attack my manager, no problem, that will be something the Police can speak to you about, have you go to court about, have them deal with you, threatening to attack and kill staff when they leave their work!” Cousin told her to “Leave it, let’s go! The Police will be here soon; and we don’t want to be, let’s just go!” Oh now they want to go, cos they know the Police are likely to be around the corner! So, we went back inside. I was still on my break, clocked off, so made tea for myself. Shift manager ‘AJ’ was on the phone to the Police control room trying to say what had gone on - they can see it, they’d of seen we’d all come back in, they’d of seen the make youths going off-camera as they dispersed, went into Dominoes! Well, low and behold, a Police car with it’s lights on, comes into the car park! Male youths head for the main road, girl that had been doing all the shouting, all the threatening jumps literally into a bush to hide, lol, so much for being the hard one!! But what do the Police do, turn off their lights, do a U-turn and exit without coming into the store, went the wrong flippin’ way on leaving too, otherwise they would have spotted the males leaving in the opposite direction. …and this is the problem, they don’t get stopped, they don’t catch them, they let them get away; and usually they’re back 10 minutes or so after the Police have gone to start up again!! Last night was different though, they never came back!! Probably because it was the 1st time someone had screamed at them in the manner that I did, stood up to their endless threats. Had any of them gone for me, it would literally have had to be a case of self defense as I was out-numbered; and you hear all the time on the news of people being attacked/stabbed by youths when they have confronted them, so that is always in the back of your mind, and in my case, the even that took place a couple of years ago! Still, after that, I went and sat down in the crew room, started my last post above and had another crew member ‘RA’ come in to see if I was alright and ask me a question regarding the job, her job. I’m fine, calm if I’m honest, adrenaline pumping, so wide awake. Seriously though, something has got to be done about this, otherwise it’s going to go too far and either the staff will leave on mass like December, or we’ll be shut down, because someone will be attacked/hurt to the point that the Local Authority says, “Enough is enough!” Came back onto the floor to work an hour or so in the kitchen; and discover that we’re busy, limited staff, for some reason, not enough scheduled in, the night manager ‘DH’ is telling me he might have to go to Alderhey children’s hospital as he’d gotten a phone call that his baby was sick at home, meaning I’d be acting shift manager, great! 🙄 Yet, he didn’t go, didn’t want to wake up the store manager! What?? If you have to go, you have to go!! 😕 Still, had to then cook the food, stop and serve it to the DT customer, as the front counter staff member couldn’t cope doing it all. Then ‘DT’ took me out of the kitchen, gave me a till, as we had another member of staff till 3m working in kitchen, if you can call it that?!! Guy kept wondering off, so we couldn’t find him, so I’d be serving on counter, cooking the food and from both counter and drive-thru and then back to trying to serve it again, nightmare!! Ended up saying to ‘DT’ whom was sat in the office on his phone, “Seriously need help out here, not enough staff, trying to do the whole operation on our own!” He was like, “Where’s the other one, the kitchen lad?!” Yeah, good question, as he kept going missing as I said, and you just couldn’t find him!! This went on for pretty much the night, the two girls went home around 3 am, leaving just me, the shift manager and our crew member that kept wandering off to gawd knows where!! Should of finished at 6am, was nearer 7am by the time I had gotten all the work I couldn’t do through the night, done. Close team, due to all the mayhem of the teenagers, the constant calling of the Police, hadn’t done a lot of their own tasks, so those jobs were added onto my own list of tings to do! That’s why I ended up staying, despite the two girls on the open team telling me to leave, sorry girls, but I go when everything is done! Not going to leave you with my work; and expect you to do it, just not going to happen!! ‘AC’, ‘PoV’ and ‘LK’ came through the drive-thru just before 5am, mind, hope she (AC) got home safe, after everything that has gone on over these past few months! They were out for ‘SK’s’ birthday, on the town, in the bars/clubs till the early hours, all living on the same route home, ‘AC’ being the last to get dropped off. Still, the look on ‘LK’s’ face when he saw me, yeah, that was one hell of a look!! I guess, time will tell if that matter has been resolved or not. His brother, certainly thinks he can carry it on, so I’m guessing not! But we’ll see! 🙄 So, recap. PMM2 (P96 12.5mcg, TUTH 2.5mcg and IS 5mcg), IJ 2.5mcg and A314 2.5mcg all applied. Started with 60mcg total mones wearing. After my break, added aother 2 sprays to either side of my neck of the PMM2 (40mcg total), making me now wearing 100mcg’s of mones. Throughout the night, I got a slight ‘drop’ feeling and did another 2 prays of PMM2, now wearing a new total of 140mcg’s. On waking up, just before the train arrived, I sprayed yet another two shots to either side of my neck of PMM2 and that seemed to keep me awake, give me the desired energy boost until I got home (Total mones on skin in a 9-hour period - 180mcg). A hell of a lot there, but it seemed to work, no shouting comments from the morning staff as to why everything wasn’t done. If anything, I saw one girl come to speak; and her head jolted backwards, looked like shock, lol, but something I was wearing was putting the break on her thoughts; and she too ended up being nice! 🙂 So yeah, that was last night, got another 3 of these hellish night shifts, tonight and tomorrow with a new salaried manager, throwing his weight around, but shadowing our 2nd assistant, soon to leave for his job in the civil service, lucky man!! 5pm-12am Monday - No shake machine, woohoo!! ‘AJ’ is getting to do it, yes. I suppose having night shifts, scheduled properly means that every now and then, I won’t be doing that shake machine!! So, I leave it for now, will bound to be back in here come 10pm-ish tonight. Got to get the thoughts out of my head, written down soon after they occur. Okay, so I see them endlessly, for all time, but whatever these passed few months have done, what with me writing everything in here, it seems to put me at ease, stop me from seeing the nightmare before me go on loop, making my head go mental. Sure it still is looping and yep, all those other images from December/people’s mobiles are still before me, forever present, but I’m fine with it, I’ve put it in here, come to terms with the fact that it will NEVER be resolved. I mean, how can it be, will never see ‘X’ again, not unless I’m out with ‘RW’ at some event/night out and our paths cross, as ‘RW’ is best of friends with ‘X’; and who wouldn’t be, she’s a nice girl, come to think of it, so is ‘RW’, just don’t get those feelings, not with anyone, seriously wondering if I ever will! Anyhow, speak later. NH. 🙂 ---
**Author:** ![Night\_Hawk](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/n/3bc359/32.png) [@Night\_Hawk](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/Night_Hawk)\ **Post date:** [May 6, 2017, 7:04pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/night_hawks-pheremone-journal/43688/397 "2017-05-06T19:04:09Z")
So, last night I dropped the use of the IJ and went with ‘PMM2’ to either side of my neck and a shot of A314 to both wrists on arrival at work. With this mix I get the happy, wide-awake, party vibe, but what I’ve noticed on wearing the A314 on my wrists, I’m getting people to do more, a little bit more respect thrown my way. When I apply the A314 to my neck, I see people come up to me and literally throw on the breaks! They got to say something negative, they just can’t! It’s great to see, makes me smile somewhat as I know what is going on, but applying it to my wrists, I don’t know?!! I’m not seeing the slamming of the breaks, it’s more of a controlled action that I’m seeing. Could be because I’m moving my hands/arms about, could be that I’m doing so through body language. People are still affected by it, but it seems to take effect, ie have a hit rate up to the 3 metre mark when on my wrists, that when it’s on my neck. Could be that I’m have the A314 on it’s own on my wrists, whereas it is mix with other mones when on my neck, so they’re getting hit with different things when they come close to talk. Anyhow, going to try the same mixes, same application points tonight (Neck/wrists), see if I get the same results. Thankfully I’m off the floor, so to speak, working in the kitchen, so giving out commands is kind of a big deal, getting staff to listen, follow instructions and deliver is what they have to when, as if they don’t listen, don’t follow, when it gets busy, things can begin to go wrong, orders can go out wrong, and from what I saw last night with the new application point for the A314, it was more of a controlled, listen and follow night of staff doing as asked. ‘SK’ even seemed to be better behaved, can’t complain then! When I wore the A314 to my neck, he did the ‘break slamming’ and effectively would back away, last night, he came close, but seemed to interact better. Tonight, he’s not in, but we’ll see how it goes. In other news, if you can call it news, lol, before all of the above, before I’d even found out where I would be working, on walking onto the shift, I had a nice exchange from ‘RW’. Didn’t know she was in, usually only see her on day shifts, so that was me in a happy mood right there, but she said to the effect of “Here’s my man!” lol, okay, so not on the same scale as when we had my stalker ‘DHen’ say it, this was different, different tone of voice, sounded like she meant it, lol, nah, probably kidding, but for that brief moment I responded in a nice way right back at her. She really is my favourite manager to work with, nicest personality (albeit ‘SK’ kinda said the opposite when I brought it up later - remember they dated; and let’s not forget the negative comments he had in the back of that taxi - From what I’ve seen over the last few months, he should of considered himself lucky to go out with ‘RW’ in the 1st place, the guy can be one nasty person at times, both he and his brother, I’ve certainly been the brunt of it for quite some time, so, yeah, ‘RW’ didn’t deserve the hassle he gave her!). So, in saying that, I was happy, even told another female colleague that I get on with, 'AB’how much I like working on ‘RW’s’ shift; and she said the same. You just have a blast, even when it gets busy. Strange thing was when I mentioned it later on to ‘SK’ dope said I should ask her out, just can’t do that, she made it clear a couple of years how she felt towards me, that, I won’t forget, didn’t even hint at the time I wanted to go out with her, thought was in my mind though, lol, but from that day to this, I’ve always respected her decision; and I’m more than happy to have her as a friend, call her my friend, as that to me is exactly what she is! 🙂 Well, no idea what tonight shall bring! Saturday night from hell, with the new salaried manager probably wanting everyone to crawl around the floor cleaning, not exactly the best thing to do when you’re serving food and drink! This new guy I’ve worked with before in another store, think ‘male version of Grumpy’!! Yep, we now have two of them in there - God help us!! 🙄 Will see whom I’m working with, but I think PMM2 and A314 will be worn in some form. Speak later. NH. ---
**Author:** ![Night\_Hawk](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/n/3bc359/32.png) [@Night\_Hawk](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/Night_Hawk)\ **Post date:** [May 7, 2017, 4:12pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/night_hawks-pheremone-journal/43688/398 "2017-05-07T16:12:40Z")
Oh jeebus, my stalker ‘DHen’ has posted on my social media a/c with one of those timeshop things that says we have been friends for a year! Might not seem bad, until I saw she had written, “Can we get married now?” Arghhhh!! Never gonna escape am I?!! Responded with, “Sorry Demi, can’t. For the time being, I have to stay single.” Safe to say, as I’ve said so many times over, this is one person I could never go out with; and I have a feeling with my response, she will reply, possibly along with a few of my lovely ‘hate’ club. Anyhow, how the heck would one go out with someone so far away?? Why do I feel that a flight ticket is being bought, lol?!! 😮 Oh yes, here we go! That didn’t take long… ‘DHen’ “You’ve hurt my feelings.” ‘NH’ “Sorry. But I cannot go out with anyone.” …I’m waiting for the, “You know I’m only messing, you know I don’t like you!” Message to drop into my PM box. If it does, it’s going straight out to the post! This girl hasn’t even shared it with ‘friends’ she’s shared it with the general public, anyone and everyone can see it!! Maybe I should extract the parts in here over the past few months, where she kisses two people whilst being in a year long relationship with someone else, or the two managers she kissed whilst claiming all the time how she loved me, oh wait. No she doesn’t!! 😉 Anyhow, as I type and await another reply…in other news, the PMM2 and A314 does appear to give a happy vibe, along with a bit of respect from those you ask to do things. Seems to give a 3 metre radius when the A314 is applied directly to my wrists. Might try out the ‘stealth’ togo tonight, haven’t tried that yet. Shame, for most of my shift the new salaried manager had me up to my eye balls in grease, scrubbing all kinds of things that really should be done by everyone every day!! That meant yet another shift where I’m taken away from my area of responsibility. Almost late getting the breakfast set up, as with 20 minutes to go, he’s still giving me things to clean!! 🙄 Ended up saying, “Sorry, got to stop and cook/set up breakfast, otherwise we won’t have any!” Got this guy again tonight, can’t wait! Sure, these are jobs that need doing; and in a perfect World, if we were quiet we’d get them done, but when it’s busy, when there’s only a handful of staff on, it’s the last thing you want to do, or even should be doing, as it has a knock-on effect to the service! In further other news, lol. Remember my night out last Saturday for the double birthday celebration? Well the two guys actor/director were mentioning my mix (mones), that I usually take out with me, remember it came a few days later, pah, not to worry. One of the guys said just now on our social media page, after posting a picture of the 4 of us together before the drunk mayhem began, lol, “We should write a play about " that stuff” Mr Hollywood!" lol, wonder how that would turn out, doing a play on AD’s mones and all the different journeys it takes us on, good and bad, lol! They’ve never seen this journal, gawd knows what they’d do if they did, turn it into a movie probably, lol, but I did respond to my friend’s comment with, "Well, considering it’s made in Beverley Hills, lol! 😃 " Ah, who knows what the future has install for us?!! So, I bid you a farewell until later. Got to go and code my website. Forgot what with all the fun on my media a/c with friends and the stalker posting and my late night shift work, that as of midnight last night/this morning my new track was released to the World. Another without vocals, gonna have to try and produce something with vocals in at some point, can’t keep putting it off, got lots of thoughts (and yes), will keep going till something comes out, lol. Plus I have my Live Streaming of my DJ mixes kicking off this week too. Actually, after last weeks test, I’m looking forward to that. Might do a little mix when I get home in the early hours of Tuesday morning after work, hehe. Speak later, NH. ---
**Author:** ![Night\_Hawk](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/n/3bc359/32.png) [@Night\_Hawk](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/Night_Hawk)\ **Post date:** [May 9, 2017, 10:16am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/night_hawks-pheremone-journal/43688/399 "2017-05-09T10:16:36Z")
Some of the things I see on my social media news feed cracks me up!! ‘RW’ again, posting that she sings the words TLC - Waterfalls as, “Don’t go Jason Waterfalls.” Who the heck is ‘Jason’, lmao?? Seriously, she cracks me up, best friend anyone could ever ask for, one day I’ll get around to explaining it better to her, never ever comes out right when I try. Story of my life, really. 🙄 In other news. Night shifts now out of the way, last night had on ‘PMM2’, P132 (stealth) and A314 (B). A314 was applied to both wrists, PMM2 and P132 was applied to either side of my neck. I was in a happy mood similar to when I went to ‘EH’s’ birthday party. Everyone around me seemed to be in a similar mood. One girl, ‘TR’ whom was also at the same party was working with me Saturday/Sunday; and I noticed the ‘Party vibe’ social interaction going on with her too. Made for a fun night, even though it was a long night of dismantling equipment, cleaning it and putting it back together. Yep, our new ‘Grumpy’ male manager was on shift. 1st time I ran the kitchen on an overnight on my own, that was fun. No problems, it went smoothly, remembered everything that needed to be done anyway. Not exactly hard to forget, just rolled everything I’ve done on other night shifts with other staff/managers, then rolled it out as one long sequence of visuals. Spoke with ‘TR’ on my break, as we were laughing that she said, “I’m still hungry, must be pregnant - Joke, I’m not, NH!” Still, somehow as I went to get up to go back to work, I kind of quietly explained why I keep saying to everyone that I’m staying single. That being that I keep seeing ‘X’ from December’s night out and the two mobile images ‘ST’ and ‘JPoV’ showed me, plus ‘JPov’s’ voice saying ‘X’ is in town and I should go and find her on loop, night and day. She said, “You must of really loved her!” Said back, “I still do, just know that I will never see her again. But I just don’t understand why I’m still replaying all these images as I can usually move them, forget them by moving them to an area I don’t tend to look at; and for some reason, this time my head just won’t let me!” Got the response of, “Yeah, that’s love, that’s why you can’t forget her!” Went on to say, “Wish I’d spoken to her months ago, but the small group of ‘haters’ in here prevented me from going anywhere near her, ended up hiding away from her every shift, just so that they didn’t harass her. Really wish I’d ignored them and spoken to ‘X’, but that’s never going to happen now, can’t turn back the clock and start over! But now you know why I keep saying to everyone why I keep saying I cannot go out with anyone, have to stay single, because it would be wrong of me to go out with anyone else whilst I still have these feelings inside of me, still keep seeing ‘X’. I don’t want to attempt to go out with someone else, as in my mind, I would be using them, and that just isn’t me, cannot do it, so yeah, got to, for the time being, remain single. If I’m honest ‘TR’, I don’t know if I’ll ever end these feelings, it’s just something I’ve never experienced before; and I’m looking at everyone for the exact same feeling; and not getting it! Nope, got to stay single!” …and with that I left and returned back to work. ‘TR’ by the way, was the person who said they were ‘gutted’ that ‘X’ was leaving on news in December that she was going to BT. I guess this is going to take a while. ☹ So, off to work I go. 12pm to 8pm, can’t even clock in at 12pm as I worked an extra 20 mins last night; and get this, the salaried team are handing out reprimands for staff that clock-in and the computer flags up on the screen, “Denied - not enough rest hours!” Yeah, that goes to head office, the salaried team then get told off for it; and now, even though we stay on to help them out, or most of the time, they don’t let you leave because it is too busy to go, you now get a reprimand/warning for it, that goes on your personal file! 😠 Can see people looking for alternative employment at this rate. Anyhow, off to work I go. Speak later. NH. ---
**Author:** ![Night\_Hawk](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/n/3bc359/32.png) [@Night\_Hawk](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/Night_Hawk)\ **Post date:** [May 10, 2017, 7:12am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/night_hawks-pheremone-journal/43688/400 "2017-05-10T07:12:29Z")
So, yesterday I went with the PMM2 and P131 (Stealth) and bounced everywhere the whole shift!! Haven’t done that in ages, lol, but I was in a right proper happy mood. Had my break around an hour and a half into my shift, time to put in the ear pods and listen to some Hardstyle!! To be fair, I played two tracks on loop, for the whole 45 minutes… Soundcloud: [https://soundcloud.com/digitalearthquake/hardwell-ft-jonathan-mendelsohn-echo-deq-bootleg](https://soundcloud.com/digitalearthquake/hardwell-ft-jonathan-mendelsohn-echo-deq-bootleg) YouTube: [https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hdDPh9W\_tF8](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hdDPh9W_tF8) Yeah, you tell me you can’t sit down to those, lol!! If they saw me on the camera in the Crew Room they would of seen me effectively dancing in my seat, haha!! 😃 Busy, busy day with limited staff, hardly surprising. Got those two tracks playing in my head on loop, so I’m bouncing off of everything, lol, dancing everywhere in beat to the above music!! 😃 Franchisee and Ops Consultant is in, along with all the architects/other Heads from the different companies rebuilding our store. Yeah, someone did a boo-boo on the plans and missed off the relocation of the electrical box, lol. Oh dear!! Our refurb has been put back to August/September due to the Planning Dept. rejecting the rebuild plans! Saw 5 different groups of new staff for the new store (Still to be built a few miles away), come in all day at various times to have their ‘Welcome’ meeting, meaning lots of managers I’ve not seen before. Losing our Admin Officer ‘RhW’ to a new job, pah, nice lady I’ve come to know from working in that other store I go to pretty often. A lot of the staff I came to know up there though, have left, moved on to pastures new, but still, there’s a few that have remained. 🙂 Well 30 mins before the end of my shift and my Business Manager leans over the Drive-Thru table and tells me, “I have something to tell you!” Okie?? So I ask, “Is it good or bad news, lol?!” Got the response of, “Well, it depends on how you take it?” Ha, okay, what’s the news in my mind. “Go on, tell me?” BM responds with, “Mark (My Ex-BM, before this person got promoted), has specifically asked for you to go to the new store when it opens. How do you feel about that?” Oh yes, bring it on!! 😃 🆒 Safe to say I was slightly shocked, but replied with, “Yeah, sure. If he wants me to go then fine. But how are you with that? You did say I couldn’t get promoted unless I stayed here, so how’s that going to work out?” Her face, lol, she replied with, “Yes, I know I said that, but it’s your choice. I don’t know if he wants you to permanently move, or if it’s like what you’ve done with the other store and gone there for a month or so to help get them set-up and running!” Replied with, “Well, I grew up in the Armed Forces, you kind of get used to moving; not to mention when I was at my base store, I would volunteer to cover in other stores on a regular basis, kind of gets you out, see how other stores operate, make new friends!” I don’t think she wants me to go, but she went on to say, “Well, ‘ST’ and ‘CD’ are going to be there, so you won’t be on your own!” To be fair, it doesn’t bother me if I’m on my own or with a group of new people, I’ve gotten used to adapting over the years, had that many jobs, done that many courses, that you just get used to the moving/travelling and meeting new people, taking up new challenges. I mean, after 13 schools, 3 colleges and 2 Universities from being moved when my parents were in the Forces, you kind of just expect to not stay in one place for long. This would be my first move (If permanent) in almost 5 years, so it’s the 2nd job I’ve had that I have stayed put for more than a few months!! Saying that though I continued with, “Can I take ‘RW’ with me, as she is my favourite manager to work with, makes my shifts feel really energetic, love working on her shifts?!” Safe to say I got a straight, “NO!” on that one, lol, but it was worth a try; and if I am to move permanently, then I might just start pestering the heck out of the boss to get ‘RW’ transferred too, as she would be a great asset to any store, especially ours!! 🆒 So, around 3pm, I grabbed my bag out of the crew room, took it to the Office; and threw on a spray of A314 (1.32B) to my left wrist and rubbed it in with my right wrist, reason being, ‘SK’ was taking over the shift and I felt the need to make him do the ‘Whoa’ thing that we seem to get out of it! Indeed, it certainly worked, when he came on to shift, could see the effect working nicely, hehe! 😃 Love that stuff, was a good choice to get it again! IJ, I’m not too sure about. Not seen those teenagers I had a few words with last week, think the message may have gotten through not to cross me, lol. Well I did say my staff shall always come first; and they will! No one is going to threaten them or harm them when I’m on duty; and God help them if they take a swing for me, as it with be ‘game-on’ time and they’ll discover very quickly that I may be thin and young looking, but by chr\*\*t, do I still remember all the training I’ve done over the years, both in the military and my martial arts that I thoroughly enjoyed as a kid (Karate, Taekwondo, Jujitsu, Judo and Ken-do). Yep, not much to do on a Military base in the middle of forest in Germany, apart from maybe go under the fence from time to time during curfew hours and head over the Dutch Border for half glasses of Cider and black, lol, but martial arts was what we all seemed to do, until they opened up the Youth Club! 😃 Anyhow, 1st rest day of 2 and I have to go venture up into the attic to see if I have a new family of wasps moved in above my room!! 🙄 Lil’ critters went into the air brick/water tank overflow a couple of days ago, climbed a ladder and sprayed wasp spray at the wall, lol, here’s hoping it had some sort of effect. Think I’ll just move the cover into the attic, shove my hand through the gap and spray a can into the area to kill off anything up there before I brave climbing up myself, lol!! If there’s a nest, I have a fair idea where it might be, just not looking forward to tackling things with wings and a sting that look beyond that of an inch in length, lol!! 🙄 Ah well, will have my epi-pen to hand, if I need a shot of adrenaline!! Here’s hoping not, as I hate needles, lol! 🙂 Ah well, speak later. 8:10am and I’m drinking cider having been awake since 4am, getting myself ready for that attic investigation. Well, nothing better than having no feeling due to alcohol consumption, than possibly getting stung and feeling every one; and after what happened at Xmas, I do not want to have that ‘stinging’ feeling at all!! Speak later (If I survive). 😉 NH. ---
**Author:** ![Night\_Hawk](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/n/3bc359/32.png) [@Night\_Hawk](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/Night_Hawk)\ **Post date:** [May 11, 2017, 4:51pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/night_hawks-pheremone-journal/43688/401 "2017-05-11T16:51:41Z")
2nd rest day and I have “Jason Waterfalls” remixes running through my head! Seriously need to stop drinking this cider I think, lol, making my head far too active!! Actually it triggered off with ‘RW’s’ mom still taking the mick out of her daughter, my friend, and damn, don’t know what happened, but as you know, I’ve been shying away from writing anything with vocals in, but that track from TLC, just kicked in the thought of lyrics, haha. Sat here in a kind altered state, no N.I.T. sprays on and I’m rapping away to myself thinking of one guy in work that would be pretty good to sing out what I’m thinking, lol, safe to say, the shed where we keep stock might turn into a temporary recording booth if these thoughts keep going, lol!! Sat here, sad in a way after what was said to me 2 days ago by the BM on leaving. As much as I want to go (Even though I don’t know if it is permanent or temporary), I’m having second thoughts on missing my favourite manager and great friend, ‘RW’. As much as I see her maybe once a week, if I’m lucky, she just keeps me smiling, makes my shifts complete and full of energy. I don’t get the ‘X’ feeling around her, my heart seems dead with everyone, unless some Muppet shows me their phone with ‘X’s’ picture on it, but I don’t know, I know ‘RW’ and ‘X’ are best of friends, it could be a link, she’s the one I could only ever give that USB drive to, yep, still have that! Ah man, what to do?!! ☹ I know I’ve come to grow up in the Forces, lose friends all the time because of it, but at some point, we’ve always met up again, either at other bases or as chance should happen our social media sites, but ‘RW’ is one friend I do not want to lose!! ☹ …and yeah, we speak on our social media site. Everything she posts either puts a smile on my face or I think, “Damn, you have the same thoughts as me on that!” How do you tell someone that you regard them as a ‘Best friend’ without freaking them out?!! 😕 Ah, what the heck, gonna fire up the DAW and see if I can knock out something of these lyrics, lol, got the ACapella a few minutes ago. It keeps playing through my head, whilst I STILL stare at these images from December, January, February and March of ‘X’!! I give up on when they will move/disappear, beginning to think they won’t! 🙄 Speak later. NH. ---
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