# Somechick's Journal **URL:** \ **Category:** Women's Journals\ **Created:** [October 5, 2011, 8:28pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/somechicks-journal/52679 "2011-10-05T20:28:18Z")\ **Posts on this page:** 20\ **Page:** 21
**Author:** ![somechick03862](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/s/278dde/32.png) [@somechick03862](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/somechick03862)\ **Post date:** [March 13, 2016, 3:33am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/somechicks-journal/52679/402 "2016-03-13T03:33:44Z")
> [@LadyScientist](#): > > I’ve missed you old friend! Sorry for being MIA- I’m being dense but please clarify that Plowboy is indeed Scott 🙂 > > I want to go back to your old thread about chemistry, how friendship wasn’t enough to save your marriage when things got tough and chemistry is more than physical appearance- it’s the conversation that keeps you going. > > Everyone has their different triggers that “spark” their erogenous zones; for me it’s a man who does nice things for me (my most recent ex always washed my dishes, cleaned out my fridge, got my car washed) and someone who makes me laugh/gets my jokes. I have a pretty unique sense of humor so someone I can joke around with is someone I want around all the time. I can talk about thermodynamics with my colleagues til the cows come home, I can talk about feminism and politics with my girl friends, I can talk my sister’s ear off about philosophy and existentialism, but does my my man need to do that to turn me on? Not necessarily. I lust after athletic builds because I admire dedication, I envy people who have discipline and self-control to eat right and exercise regularly ( I ebb and flow with this struggle myself but am not even close to where I want to be). > > My point is: sexual chemistry; whether in the form of intellectual conversation, acts of kindness, physical affection, (or any of the 5 languages of love) is extremely important in keep people together. We all have plenty of friends; what makes a friend a lover and not just another friend? Yes, the Plowboy is Scott…we seem to have had our own miscommunication issues in the past. No matter what happened back then, he has always made sure that I was okay every time it snowed. Even when I told him I was plowing my own yard, he would come by to make sure my plow didn’t break down again. At 1 or 2 in the morning when he was done with his paying customers, he would check on me. I think he was very sweet to look after me, when he was getting nothing out of it. We would always flirt, but I went two YEARS between our first and second times. Last week it snowed, and he came in the store to see me. He said he didn’t think I would need my driveway plowed but he would check on me later. Then he texted and mentioned that it was my kid free weekend. I said it was true and he told me he’d talk to me later. I knew if he came here I would end up having sex with him, and since I hadn’t heard from Rob and we hadn’t had sex in five months, I wanted him bad! To be honest, I want him bad every time I lay eyes on him, and he feels the same way. He texted me last fall and said every time he looks at my face he feels his heart race. Aw! But when he got to the house, I was starting to chicken out, so I went outside to tell him that. He told me to get in his truck( yeah I know…)and then he asked me why I was scared. I told him that he was the only one night stand I ever had, and he said he never wanted that to be a one night thing. I said I didn’t like being good enough to fuck but not good enough for anything else. He told me he wasn’t looking to just fuck, though it was fantastic… Then he reached over, touched my cheek and kissed me. He is the most amazing kisser I have ever kissed…the whole way he is so into it, the way he holds my face like it is some precious thing but kisses me like he is totally lusting after me, is so hot. And so yes, I had sex with him, in his truck, in my driveway, because we didn’t make it to the house. So, limited as we were by the confines of the front seat of his truck, the sex was still fantastic. After I got inside I found something funny and I texted him to tell him. He texted back and said it was really nice seeing me and that ‘hopefully next time we can do something’…ummm, didn’t we just do something?! or did he mean something else…like actually do something besides sex…? I don’t know, if anyone has read this much, you all know I don’t have the faintest clue how to read guys… He came in the store Sunday afternoon briefly. He checked me out, got a big smile on his face and told me he was exhausted because he had his son the night before and didn’t sleep well and the little guy was up at 6 am. He is very devoted to his kids. I ran into him at the mall last fall and he had his little boy with him. He waved and headed over to my table in the food court that I was sitting at with my daughter but his son hid his face and got all bashful so he sat a little ways away. But he was totally willing to meet my daughter and let me meet his son…unlike Rob who has finally met my son but doesn’t seem at all inclined to let me meet his kids. So, I do not have any idea what might happen with Scott, but at least I know he will never need to borrow money and when he says he will call or be here, he is. ---
**Author:** ![justintime469](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/justintime469/32/1402_2.png) [@justintime469](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/justintime469)\ **Post date:** [March 13, 2016, 12:24pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/somechicks-journal/52679/403 "2016-03-13T12:24:39Z")
Sounds great if you ask me. There are nice guys out there, maybe just a few but they are there and this guy sounds like he has a lot of potential. I would just go with it if you like him and see where it goes. Whatever you do just don’t carry the Rob baggage into the relationship if it turns into one. My wife and I have been together 3 years and feel we both have brought previous baggage into the marriage and it really has been a challenge to deal with. I say if the spark is there go for it he seems very nice. Just take it slow and see where it goes. ---
**Author:** ![somechick03862](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/s/278dde/32.png) [@somechick03862](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/somechick03862)\ **Post date:** [March 14, 2016, 1:45pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/somechicks-journal/52679/404 "2016-03-14T13:45:10Z")
Okay, there were a couple of things about Scott that I forgot to mention. His birthday is 3 days before mine, though he is 5 years younger. I don’t know if that is the reason for some of the personality similarities but whatever, there are things about him that remind me of myself, and I like that, because it feels really comfortable. The night we did it in my driveway, he told me that he hasn’t had sex in two years! He told me last year that he hadn’t had sex since me. When I asked why, he said “You know why. Because you felt so…” and I cut him off because it was embarrassing me(at the time! but now? Go ahead tell me how amazing it felt!) Knowing him the way I do, the friendship we have developed, the ridiculous chemistry we have, I have never had any reason to doubt a word he says( though I probably have because I overthink and second guess everything!). With Rob, I felt that he was mostly truthful and I was doubting him because I was making him pay for Mr W’s mistakes. With Scott, I don’t feel any need to doubt him when he tells me something. Is this my gut talking?! Oh, and Rob texted me all day Saturday telling me how much he missed me. I answered him some of the time, but continued on with my cleaning and packing. He wanted to come help me. I didn’t reply. Going to look at a house. Wish me luck! We close on this one on Friday! ---
**Author:** ![Conjurator](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/conjurator/32/410_2.png) [@Conjurator](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/Conjurator)\ **Post date:** [March 14, 2016, 2:40pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/somechicks-journal/52679/405 "2016-03-14T14:40:33Z")
Good luck 🙂! ---
**Author:** ![Dee\_A](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/d/7bcc69/32.png) [@Dee\_A](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/Dee_A)\ **Post date:** [March 15, 2016, 6:03am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/somechicks-journal/52679/406 "2016-03-15T06:03:17Z")
Good luck, 'chick! 🙂 ---
**Author:** ![Lillian](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/lillian/32/1269_2.png) [@Lillian](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/Lillian)\ **Post date:** [March 16, 2016, 12:11am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/somechicks-journal/52679/407 "2016-03-16T00:11:46Z")
Luuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck!!! ---
**Author:** ![justintime469](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/justintime469/32/1402_2.png) [@justintime469](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/justintime469)\ **Post date:** [March 16, 2016, 2:22am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/somechicks-journal/52679/408 "2016-03-16T02:22:15Z")
Yes Good Luck Hun ---
**Author:** ![somechick03862](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/s/278dde/32.png) [@somechick03862](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/somechick03862)\ **Post date:** [March 20, 2016, 12:08pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/somechicks-journal/52679/409 "2016-03-20T12:08:05Z")
Eventful day yesterday…but first! This week was a very upbeat week for the first part of the week. Still using my IS/IO mix and loving it. We were supposed to close on the house I live in on Friday but there was something wrong with the way the title company worded the deed, so it has been delayed. That’s fine. It was absolutely killing me anyway… Friday morning I was getting out of my Tahoe at Dunkin Donuts and I saw Scott pull into the drive through line, so I told the guy inside, that knows me well, that I wanted to pay for whatever he got. I always buy for whoever is behind me, so even though he wasn’t, I still wanted to do it. I was hoping that I could be out and gone by the time he realized, so it would be a nice surprise. He pulled around the corner just as I was getting in my truck, so he pulled up to thank me. It was nice to see him. He has been working 90 miles away, so he is beat at night. Scott came in to see me for a few minutes while I was at work yesterday. He was going to pick up his son for the night and he stopped to thank me again, and tell me that he thinks I am sweet and that I looked good…he checks me out and still is happy to see me, but we will just take it as it comes…we obviously like each other, according to everyone around us. Yesterday , Rob texted me and asked how I was. We small talked a little bit and he asked if he could see me. I told him I was going to look at a house after work but had plans last night, so he could go look at the house if he wanted to. I DID NOT think he would go for it. He actually did…It was a little odd to me that he hasn’t come around for 6 weeks, but he made time to go look with me. While we were looking, he told me that he had to harass me all day to get to see me. So, after we parted, I texted him and basically told him that I wasn’t going to play his game anymore. I doubt I will hear from him any time soon. He knows he can’t pull his shit with me now. The house I looked at Monday was a shit hole but has a ton of potential and I love the location. But it’s a foreclosure and there were two offers on it, I was the higher offer by 25k bucks. The bank countered at something that was $900 less than asking price, and 59k more than my offer! LOL, they need to put down the crack pipe! It isn’t anywhere near worth what they are asking, and they have been sitting on it a long while. Then my sister came and told me she had a house for me, super cheap, but she didn’t know any details…I looked it up…it’s 606 square feet…and in below average condition..yeah, NO! Last night it was all too much, the estate stuff, trying to buy a house, lyme pain, Rob, Scott, etc so I had to go for 12.5 mcg TAK just to get myself relaxed. I am glad I had it. I usually use [P130](https://pheromonelabs.com/product/p130/) for anxiety, but this was beyond that. Some days I just really hate being single. Last night would have been a good night to climb into bed with someone who cared… ---
**Author:** ![Conjurator](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/conjurator/32/410_2.png) [@Conjurator](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/Conjurator)\ **Post date:** [March 20, 2016, 2:38pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/somechicks-journal/52679/410 "2016-03-20T14:38:46Z")
I really hope your real estate issues resolve soon. Good thing that you don’t let Rob mess with your mind anymore. That "had to harass you to get to see you’’ is complete BS and bad possessive behavior on his part. ---
**Author:** ![somechick03862](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/s/278dde/32.png) [@somechick03862](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/somechick03862)\ **Post date:** [April 28, 2016, 1:41am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/somechicks-journal/52679/411 "2016-04-28T01:41:24Z")
It’s been a while and I have mostly played with my own mix of 3:1 Shine/IO, with different P’s…usually 2 sprays my mix with 2 sprays P74, but last week I wore 20 mcg P74, 20 mcg [P83](https://pheromonelabs.com/product/p83/) and 2 sprays of my experimental mix. It was a great work mix. Everyone told me I looked good, young, had great hair, etc. Scott stopped in and then texted me and told me he was enjoying looking at me while he was there. I asked if he meant me or my boobs, he said ‘both, of course!’ With this combination my bitchy co-worker was not bitchy, even when the new girl no call/no showed…that was not good and she still remained calm and didn’t take it out on us. She also sang along to the radio a lot. That is very unlike her, usually she will do it once, catch herself and clam up. She sang a lot and didn’t seem to mind that people noticed. The MX that I am trying to recreate the effects of made me want to sing a lot. Whenever I wore it, I would really get into my drive music. I didn’t even care if people saw me rocking out with my bad self…so maybe I am on to something. I wore 20 mcg P74, 20 mcg P96 and my mix a couple of times and people reeeeeeaaaaaallllllly liked how I smelled then. My number one stalker at work was all about how good I smelled. I wasn’t wearing any cover scent, either. I almost never do. Just the neroli… I am not having much luck with housing. I made an offer on the last house I posted about looking at, but the bank and I were off by about 54K. I left my offer on the table and continued to look. Yesterday they dropped their price, so I am going to make a small increase in my offer and see if I can get something going. I need something to change for me, because if I don’t find something I may have to send my kids to live with their dad for a while. I refuse to have them live in some crappy sleazeball hotel. I DO NOT want to do that. My mom couldn’t give me a home once upon a time, so my dad raised me and she always felt guilty. I never blamed her, though, and we were super close. I really think we would be good in this house, too. It needs everything cosmetic but it has a great yard, a nice private, quiet location and it’s only a mile from where we live now. I know that Rob and I haven’t been together in a while. I have had coffee with him twice in the past couple of months, but no sex, or anything. We talked. He tells me I am wrong about him, and maybe I am, but it’s obviously never going to work. But it still hurts like a motherfucker when he tells me he is moving away. I always keep my ex’s as friends, except the crazy as fuck Mr W, so I figured we would stay friends. Maybe we will, but he won’t be anywhere near by, so I imagine we won’t stay in touch for long. No matter what happened with us, no one else has ever understood how my crazy brain works like him. There was always something between us, even for those five years before we ever got together. I feel like I will always wish it had worked with him. Scott has been nice, happy to see me, and very complimentary when I see him, but he hasn’t called. Everyone tells me to call him, because he is probably waiting for me to make a move and I keep resisting because I don’t want to bother him. But when I look back on this whole thing with him, he has never been the one to make the move, he always follows my lead. He seems to want to see me, but he just won’t ask. Even my boss said so! He did say that ‘next time maybe we can do something..’ and when I gave him a thank you card for taking care of my driveway, I said I was going to offer to cook him dinner, but I didn’t know if he’d be interested. He said he would take me up on it some time. Sooooo I think the ball is in his court but all my peeps tell me it’s not and that I need to get with the times and call him. I think I will order some Vanilia so next time I see him, he will be unable to resist me! I am going to keep wearing my Shine/IO mix because it is pretty awesome. I have gotten a lot of people to stop being so grumpy when I wear it. And everyone thinks I am 32…LOL, that’s been the age everyone has guessed lately! I think if something can make me look 15 years younger, I need a giant barrel of it. ---
**Author:** ![Conjurator](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/conjurator/32/410_2.png) [@Conjurator](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/Conjurator)\ **Post date:** [April 28, 2016, 2:16am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/somechicks-journal/52679/412 "2016-04-28T02:16:40Z")
Good to see you found a man who treats you like a lady 🙂. You deserve it all the way. ---
**Author:** ![somechick03862](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/s/278dde/32.png) [@somechick03862](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/somechick03862)\ **Post date:** [May 4, 2016, 12:25pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/somechicks-journal/52679/413 "2016-05-04T12:25:53Z")
This morning I couldn’t find my P74, so I wore 20 mcg [P83](https://pheromonelabs.com/product/p83/) with my experimental mix. OMG, was my bitchy co-worker calm! I would not have thought that she would react that way. I don’t know if it was the P83 with my mix or not, so I am going to try it again on Friday morning when I am in early with her, before we open. That is when I get my best reads on her reaction to what I am wearing. I am curious to see what this combo does for the rest of the day, with my other co-worker and with customers. Should be interesting. My real estate saga continues…we are supposed to FINALLY be closing on the house I live in this Friday. I don’t have any place to go. This is a ridiculously expensive area for a single mom. Or really anyone in a lower income bracket. I did get a raise today, but I am still not making a ton of money. Although, once we close on this place, I will have a big check to make a nice down payment with. I am actually very anxious about this whole thing. This is one of those times when I hate being single. I have been so stressed lately that I am ready for a nervous breakdown and I have no one to lean on. I don’t need someone to take care of me, but it would be nice to have someone who cared about me. I really need some good old stress relieving sex! a LOT of sex! I have talked to Scott and he says he is interested, but he is busy. I know he is because he works 7 days a week and has his son overnights on weekends, but if he were truly interested, don’t you think he would make some effort? I am not needy or clingy, I don’t ask for much, and I won’t get all possessive and crazy on someone. I just want someone to complement my life. And I don’t want to settle for someone that I am not attracted to. Maybe I am wrong, but I know I wouldn’t like to be settled for. I want someone who wants me as much as I want him. I am just giving up hope of finding that . I think I am alone for good. I know there are people who would encourage me to date just anybody, but I don’t think that is fair to anyone. There is a guy on Facebook right now who keeps asking me to come visit, tells me he will come help me move, etc, etc…and he is a super nice person, but we are not attracted to each other. he is divorced and lonely and he is looking for something and willing to be with just anybody. I don’t want that. We have known each other for 30 years. We are almost like family. I won’t date just so I’m not lonely but he will. It seems like a waste of both of our time to try to force an old friendship into a relationship. Anyway, I just needed to vent because I don’t have anyone I can talk to right now about this. My friends all tell me how pretty I am, and how great I am and how any guy should be so lucky, blah blah blah, but they are biased and they are all married. So, thanks for putting up with my whining about being lonely. I am going to go pack some more boxes. ---
**Author:** ![Conjurator](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/conjurator/32/410_2.png) [@Conjurator](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/Conjurator)\ **Post date:** [May 4, 2016, 1:43pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/somechicks-journal/52679/414 "2016-05-04T13:43:18Z")
He’s busy?! Where there’s a will, there’s a way. That’s what I got in my chinese biscuit yesterday. So I tend to agree that he should manage to see you at least a few times each week if he really wanted to. I’m lost for words Somechick. I just really hope you find Mr. Right soon. Your friends are right , you deserve it. And I’m not biased. ---
**Author:** ![somechick03862](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/s/278dde/32.png) [@somechick03862](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/somechick03862)\ **Post date:** [May 5, 2016, 1:42am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/somechicks-journal/52679/415 "2016-05-05T01:42:25Z")
> [@Conjurator](#): > > He’s busy?! Where there’s a will, there’s a way. That’s what I got in my chinese biscuit yesterday. So I tend to agree that he should manage to see you at least a few times each week if he really wanted to. > > I’m lost for words Somechick. I just really hope you find Mr. Right soon. Your friends are right , you deserve it. And I’m not biased. I know it sounds lame, and it is. But in his defense, he does leave for work by five AM five days a week and is back about 12 hours later and then he goes to see his little boy. He told me that he usually falls asleep in his chair before he even finishes his dinner. Weekends he usually works local. He’s just not that interested… I just give up. ---
**Author:** ![somechick03862](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/s/278dde/32.png) [@somechick03862](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/somechick03862)\ **Post date:** [May 5, 2016, 1:55am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/somechicks-journal/52679/416 "2016-05-05T01:55:57Z")
My real estate issues are getting bad. The buyer of this house has said I have to be out by the 31st, even though I have no place to go…long story, too many boring details, etc…but it put me in a bad mood. Which made me think that I needed a little stress relief, which made me wish I weren’t so picky, because neither of the people I am interested in are showing any interest at the present moment, so…I was bemoaning my lack of sex life to my co worker who is kind of a slut. She says I should just bone anyone, but she knows I won’t. So we were JUST done talking about it today, and I hear this obnoxiously loud, but really good sounding car pull in, and I knew right away it was Scott. I spent too many years working in a garage not to be able to tell a car by the way it sounds. So I told her I quit! She laughed, asked why, and then burst out into hysterical laughter when she saw who came in. Scott picked up the tail end of the conversation, he asked why I quit and I basically told him that he is driving me nuts! This lead to some more conversation, with him saying that I act like he is avoiding me and he swears he is not. Anyway, it ended up being a very amusing conversation and then we talked about his car. He just bought it, it’s a Firebird, and I called it his chick magnet car. He says no chick would want to ride in it because it is too loud. Of course I had to remind him that I am a car chick and that I love a nice throaty sounding exhaust system…anyway, the car talk was practically foreplay..especially when we talked about how fun it is to drive a stick…LOL…but I still know he won’t call. He said he would have to take me for a ride, then he winked at me and left. I’m not holding my breath, but it was fun to flirt with him and it took my mind off the fact that I am probably going to be homeless in a couple of weeks… ---
**Author:** ![somechick03862](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/s/278dde/32.png) [@somechick03862](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/somechick03862)\ **Post date:** [May 7, 2016, 11:13pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/somechicks-journal/52679/417 "2016-05-07T23:13:22Z")
I have decided that I have too much to offer to be a random, meaningless hookup. So anyone interested has to step up their game! Let’s see how long I hold out! LOL ([https://www.facebook.com/melissa.h.kidd?fref=nf](https://www.facebook.com/melissa.h.kidd?fref=nf))Last night I had to TAK myself, because I couldn’t take anymore. I posted this yesterday on Facebook. You won’t know who the people are, but you get the idea Today my home is being sold. And with the house goes 106 years of family heritage, memories, good times, bad times, tears of joy and of sorrow. This is where my grandfather brought my grandmother as a new bride and raised a family. Where my dad grew up and brought his own bride, Where my mom brought me home from the hospital after I was born. My dad was in Viet Nam, he met me three weeks later. I ate my first Oreo in the kitchen of this house, I have the picture to prove it… My mom was so happy to be able to give M-- his first Oreo in the same kitchen, she could not wait! She didn’t get to give J— one,because J-- wasn’t old enough to have one when she died. I spent my childhood climbing trees, and building tree forts with J–, riding ponies with L-- and riding snowmobiles and ATCs and dirtbikes a million miles around the loop with B–and M– It’s where T-- stuck up for me when a kid was picking on me in the third grade. That kid would never come here again, even years after T-- moved away. I grew up with my dad and my grandmother, and my kids grew up with their mom and their grandfather. That multi-generational thing is pretty normal in this family, or it was. My pony is buried under the apple trees she loved so much and every bit of this land is precious to me. There is a memory attached to it all. The house has seen countless first baby steps, kids going off to school, girls learning to cook, boys learning to drive, and fix cars. I have climbed on the roof and shoveled the snow off, chipped off the ice dams, plowed the driveway, and mowed the back field. I wil miss my woodshed, for it was a place of solitude and a place where I felt close to my dad. It’s my favorite room after the kitchen, because it has a great view of the backyard and I love the post and beam construction and the rough hewn wood floors. I can’t even talk about my love for the barn. I have stood watching the deer in the backyard and considered it the finest backyard around for watching a sunset. I watched the deer - in the backyard with my dad the morning he died. I could go on, but this has probaly already lost a lot of people. To say that my heart is broken is a gross understatement. My heart, and indeed my soul, will never be the same again. ---
**Author:** ![Conjurator](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/conjurator/32/410_2.png) [@Conjurator](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/Conjurator)\ **Post date:** [May 8, 2016, 4:06am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/somechicks-journal/52679/418 "2016-05-08T04:06:44Z")
I read it to the end, nicely written open-hearted text. Moving on this way can cause quite a turmoil of memories that can leave very mixed emotions. Thanks for sharing. I hope to my heart that the best is ahead of you. But save these precious memories for they live forever in your heart, not only in that physical place. ---
**Author:** ![somechick03862](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/s/278dde/32.png) [@somechick03862](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/somechick03862)\ **Post date:** [May 8, 2016, 9:44pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/somechicks-journal/52679/419 "2016-05-08T21:44:34Z")
> [@Conjurator](#): > > I read it to the end, nicely written open-hearted text. Moving on this way can cause quite a turmoil of memories that can leave very mixed emotions. Thanks for sharing. I hope to my heart that the best is ahead of you. But save these precious memories for they live forever in your heart, not only in that physical place. Thanks, Conj I hope the best is ahead, too. My kids deserve a good life! I just spent the last hour helping my ex-husband get some of his stuff out of the barn, and reminiscing. It was nice to have someone that appreciates the place to talk to. He loves it more than my sister and brother. And ironically, while we were out there, Rob texted me to see if the house closed and see if I was okay…LOL ---
**Author:** ![somechick03862](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/s/278dde/32.png) [@somechick03862](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/somechick03862)\ **Post date:** [May 10, 2016, 4:40pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/somechicks-journal/52679/420 "2016-05-10T16:40:01Z")
Yesterday I worked on my day off, and I knew it could be a rough day with Bitchy Co-Worker, so I wore 20 mcg P74, 20 mcg P83, 20 mcg P130 for my anxiety, and two sprays of my mix 3:1 [Instant Shine](https://a314.com/product/shine/)/Openness. I know that is a lot, but it made for a very smoooooooth day at work. I am not sure why she is so mellow and easy going with the P74 and P83 added to my mix, but she really is almost unflappable, and it was a zoo yesterday. I am going in now for a couple of hours and I am going to wear the same thing. It really seems to round off any rough edges with people. Even people who are normally very abrasive. In other news, the bank approved my offer on a house. It is way more than I want to pay, so I will likely be unable to afford much here anymore, and I will be eating Ramen and mac and cheese for the rest of my life, but if all goes well( and I have been under contract before, so it isn’t a sure thing until I have keys) the kids and I will have our own little dump to look forward to! Yay us! ---
**Author:** ![Conjurator](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/conjurator/32/410_2.png) [@Conjurator](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/Conjurator)\ **Post date:** [May 10, 2016, 7:04pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/somechicks-journal/52679/421 "2016-05-10T19:04:36Z")
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