Starting a journal, finally

Wow that is cute, but could have potentially turned ugly really quick. I would recommend being careful of picking up anyone’s kid in the future :wink:.

Yeah, I noted that AFTER picking up the kid, haha.

At a bank I had a hit I think. The multiple smiles I got from the teller was interesting, and my friend is the one that banks there. I was dressed up some and I had 2 drops a314, 1 spray tuth, and 2 sprays 2x IS. It was about five hours after application.

Luckily he wasn’t a crazy :slight_smile:

Luckily

I think I should avoid enone, I seem to crash and feel extremely down afterwards, even with just one spray of regular tuth.

Played with TAC @ 5mcg some. I think it has a calming or mellowing effect on my emotions. I may also be sensitive/allergic to it. My neck turned reddish where I sprayed it. I’ll be spot testing it some more to check on that.

I’ve been wanting to report more, but I’ve been an emotional wreck. I haven’t been able to make observations clearly. So far I am liking TAC as a whole though.

It does have a way about it when combo’d with enone. Really plays an integral part in buffering it :wink:.

I have issues

In the spirit of keeping active with this.

My life feels like it’s falling apart, I’ve developed a gambling problem and gone through $2600 in less than a week.

I think that’s just been my way of trying to cope with having fallen in love with one of my best friends, a lesbian. She’s hooked up with a girl. Then there is this other girl that I’ve been interested in, whenever I do end up seeing her, which is rare, I end up feeling like shit. This happened earlier tonight.

I think I should cut the one girl off from my life, everything goes toxic with her near.

Onto my best friend, how can I make my feelings exclusively platonic? She’s too precious to drive away.

P.S. Sorry for posting something like this, I just wanted to somewhat explain why I haven’t reported much recently, and I need somewhere to express my pain before it consumes me.

P.P.S. I wish I was better at using pheromones. I’ve dropped over a grand into them, and the only effect that I truly appreciate is having been able to become so close to the one I now love. I’ve been careful with the IH I have left.

sigh I think I’m just ranting now. Thank you in advance for reading! I’m already feeling a little better getting that off my chest.

P102 @5mcg, 2 sprays, one wrist, one neck. Initial self effects, seems to make me feel more alert. For reference, I haven’t really managed to get much sleep. Forcing myself up so I don’t sulk. Another possible effect, possible cold resolve/determination to get things done? Hard to tell with how my emotional state has been.

One drop a314 to jaw line. Self effects, calming my anxiety some.

Edit: sprayed IS 2x onto neck for more mood lifting

TAC @5mcg, two sprays, wrist and neck. IH two sprays, wrist and back of neck.

Heya

I had some kind of adverse reaction to TAC in akuto on the neck as well, took a week to die down. Funny as nothing with any of my other stash, although that is the only one I have in akuto.

What scent was it?

It was in Neroli scent, which is the only scent I have. Other than a314 of course.

TUTH, p75 @15mcg, and p79 @12.5mcg to chest/neck. p83 @20mcg and IO to wrists. TAC @5mcg to hair. I think I also had a second spray of IO to back of neck.

I met up with a girl that I contacted on the net. Second meeting, initially it was awkward since I didn’t really know what I was doing. I sat down next to her so the mones could do their work better. She started touching my hand and arm. I started touching back, we kissed, went further. Once the touch was initiated, it was my game. It ended in her bed.

The mones helped me get to the bed. I was the one to get her off, over and over again. Shame that I couldn’t get into it. Either way, good as a confidence boost.

I would say I got to her place about fifteen minutes after application. About fifteen from then, or five from sitting next to her, things escalated away from awkward. I was there about two hours, so I don’t know how long in terms of duration the stuff lasted.

On Friday night I met her, both on the net and in person. Had TUTH and p83 @20mcg on. About two hours after application. Right before posting ways, she became more sensual after a hug. She loved the application spot. She’s 28. If I new what I was doing, I could have bedded her then probably, as the meetup was for ons with potential fwb status.

Wow, I’ve been gone for two months, not having a reliable source of internet bites. On another note, I’ve cut back on pheromone use, as I can’t really afford it.

Well that sukz! Is the Internet just a money problem? Sometimes, with stuff like mones you see as an entertainment expense, you just have to make a decision: food/rent or mones? I understand and are pretty sure most, if not all, of us have been there. However with most products AD carries they can be used to better your financial resources. Take A314 for instance; many people have actually elevated themselves to a higher paying position with it. On the other hand you have rent and bills. Its not always easy to make a decision like that.

I will say that it gets better and in time, with a little self-determination and effort, you’ll be right back on top. Perseverance and setting priorities are excellent traits to have.

The internet is a money problem, although more to do with the fact that it was running $70, with no realistic options. I haven’t bought any pheromones recently due to money issues as well, I’ve been wanting to get IH again.

I’ve managed to lose my a314, which was over 3/4 full. Add IH being out, and I don’t really use anything regularly anymore. I also lost my TUTH, but I never really used it much.

Thanks for the reply by the way :slight_smile:

Things will get better.