Attittude is everything!
I wanted to write something about how pheromones have improved my life. I hope it doesn’t sound too cheesy.
After I had my son 10.5 years ago I seemed to hit an extended bumpy patch of life. My son didn’t sleep through the night until he was 4.5 and he screamed all day long. Sometimes for five hours straight. I have the video to prove it!
I lost the horse I had had for 24 years, then my dog died a month later. I lost contact with the brother I had been close to, I had a complicated recovery from my second c-section and almost died, my ex lost his job and we fell into debt.My mother, whom I was freakishly close to, passed away at 59. It goes on, but you get the picture.
I had battled post partum depression and tried anti-depressants, which didn’t turn out well. I spiraled into a period of negative energy and I couldn’t seem to find my way out. I met and lost the love of my life. He is reported here as Mr Wonderful, we are in contact now, he has asked me to marry him, but there is so much drama in our past, that until I wear his ring, I am not counting on anything.
I have been so low at times that I wasn’t sure I would make it. I walked the beach, every day, no matter the weather, sometimes in the water, even in winter, daring the sea to come take me, so my pain would go away.
Last summer I found AD and bought a few products to try. I originally bought IO, IH and IS/B, then I Shine. I have since branched into the Putatives and some of the Experimones, and the free MXs.
I have come to realize that the days of me being negative and depressed are gone. I know the pheromones didn’t do that alone. What they did do, is help me break the cycle. Some days when I was down, a couple of sprays of Instant Shine would perk me up. Other Days, some IS/B would have me feeling I could take on the world. MX397 made me feel powerful, vibrant and alive. My co-workers also benefitted, they they didn’t all know it! My bitchy co-worker is so much more pleasant now! I like to wear TAA and B-nol around her, it is my anti-bitch spray.
I have used P83 and TAC with Mr W and WOW! Amazing bonding, amazing sex. amazing conversations…
Because I have used the pheromones to bring myself up, I am much more able to shake off the blues. Yes, they still happen, but I have gotten so good at being happy, that it has become my natural state. I have lost that negative vibe. It has been a long time coming. I felt like I was under a dark cloud, but now I have found the rainbow. I know that even if I couldn’t use these anymore, I know how to be okay now.
There are still difficult times, I just found out one of my best friends is dating my ex-husband and that broke my heart. Not because of him, but because she knows how horrible he is to me, and how he is only a father when it is convenient, or someone is looking. She knows the truly awful things he has done, and yet she decided that our friendship meant less than him. She is still married and hasn’t even started her divorce, but they are now sleeping together. Honestly, I kind of feel for her, because I think there are better things she could do with 6 minutes of her time, but hey, some people are desperate!
I needed help to get myself up off the floor and I found it in a little spray bottle from AD. It’s all up from here! As long as I keep my positive attitude, I will be fine, and from here, it is looking good!