# Thoughts from a Pervert- The Journal **URL:** \ **Category:** Women's Journals\ **Created:** [March 24, 2014, 2:30am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/thoughts-from-a-pervert-the-journal/61458 "2014-03-24T02:30:58Z")\ **Posts on this page:** 20\ **Page:** 1
**Author:** ![LadyScientist](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/l/c57346/32.png) [@LadyScientist](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/LadyScientist)\ **Post date:** [March 24, 2014, 2:30am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/thoughts-from-a-pervert-the-journal/61458/1 "2014-03-24T02:30:58Z")
As I mentioned in the introductory forum- I’m mostly curious to see if I can get my natural chemical signature to have longer effects on a long-term mate. Since I’m not in a LTR, I’m just having fun with these drugs. I’m going to call them drugs because they alter your behavior. and are as much fun 😉 I don’t know if I believe a lot of these are “hits”- mostly because I get these characteristic behaviors all the time. I’m not saying I’m a goddess or a supermodel by any means, I think that I already have some sort of strong natural attractant- and the personality to make things go very smoothly (read: horny ass bitch) 1 spray of IS/A between my breasts Diptyque Volutes Perfume -I went to see a great singer-songwriter, which was like going to a John Mayer concert except in a tiny venue ie, horny love-crazed bitches everywhere eye-fucking the poor singer. There were maybe 5 guys in the whole audience and by 30 min into his set they were all surrounding me. Maybe I was imagining this- but it felt like they just wanted to be closer to me, not necessarily to get my attention. - I notice ppl in NYC don’t smile back often when I smile at them after I make eye contact. But last night it was 10/10 everyone! Men and women smiling in return! I love this- reminds me of CA. - So the fun starts when my friend who recently called off her engagement walks into the bar in this tight pink lace dress with tits and ass galore. (I’m in a jean jacket and white cotton dress that flows to the knees with some boots- ok ok ok it was a country singer that I went to see) Shes’ ready for some rebound action and the dudes at this hour are UGLY. - We sit at a table talking shit, texting boys we want to play with later, and this guy comes to sit down with us with the dumbest pick up line ever “I wanna know how it is possible that you two can sit down to a song like that?” she says “it’s not that good of a song?”- prior to that Karma bites me in the ass because the only reason we looked over at him was because I said “That guy needs to the universe a favor and never dance in public again” - so his other friend joins us at the table and it’s clear that this one is meant for me- thank god bc he is tall and has nice eyes. Now it doesn’t take me very long to make the conversation turn on sexual topics- so that’s where that goes. 15-20 min later, another guy friend joins the table. This is when it starts getting interesting, Mr. Suit (my attended) starts getting visibly frustrated that the friend is interrupting or taking attention away from him. 30 min later, 3 more of their guy friends join us at the table. Even though I’m ignoring the friends and not even looking/talking to them, they all try to move their chairs closer and closer trying to get my attention and interrupt. One of the friends whispers in my ear incoherently “you’re just absolutely beautiful and I’ve been waiting to say something to you all night” - Mr. Suit starts breathing heavy, rubbing his knees, loosening his tie, I notice the body language change. He is is now sitting with he legs really far apart, kind of like they are straddling my chair- he’s got one arm on the back of my chair. My experience with men in groups- when one guy claims a girl- most of the friends back off, especially when he’s the more alpha guy to begin with, as Mr. Suit so obviously is. But if the more alpha guy decides he wants me after I’ve been “claimed” then all bets are off and they just fight it out in front of me. Which I’m not going to lie is fucking hilarious and so much fun! - Mr. Suit walks us out to catch cabs- I ask “aren’t you going to ask me for my number?”- he says “you’re actually going to give it to me?” so I start and another guy friend interrupts and says “Before you go- I need you to know that I just need to get to know you better. Will you let me? Can I have the honor of knowing you some more?” Talk about balls! He was shorter- not as handsome- I wasn’t even looking at him. Mr. Suit won obviously and got my number- and he has been blowing me up all day. I was also really evil and blew him a really sensual kiss from the cab as I drove away. I’m such a fucking tease. A few nights ago: 1 spray of IS/A behind my neck 1 spray of [Molecule C](https://pheromonelabs.com/product/molecule-c/) in my hair I was told this is the orgasm spray. My lover from a few months ago, who is by far one of the hottest lays ever, called it off when he thought I had feelings for him and he didn’t want to “hurt me”- bitch please- I asked you to be my play partner and you didn’t even know what that was. So I knew if I waited long enough and told him to come over and fuck me that he couldn’t say no. I was right. We normally rip it each others clothes off right away- this time was no different. But he also always has a hard time cumming which is probably why I love him so much because we can stop, take a break, and then keep going, AMAZING, stamina. However, this time, it was me who couldn’t orgasm! It felt like I was mid-orgasm the whole time, repeatedly, but I never broke the barrier, if that makes sense? It felt incredible and I def felt the “pee” sensation which means I’m closer and closer to trying to squirt. So the funny thing is, I normally give amazing BJs- but he’s so particular about what he likes and what he wants me to do that it just irritates me and I just make him finish himself. This time he actually let me work my magic- and his WHOLE body was gyrating and arching out of control! He pulled a muscle in his neck during his orgasm! LMFAO! He’s 23 and I broke him like an old man! (no offense love you old men) So I really wanted to test this Mol C orgasm thing out after seeing it work on him. I was on day 4 of my cycle so not extra horny (in fact usually less so) and after he left- I was def really worked up so I brought out the Rabbit. I feel like there are so many variables to a women’s orgasm- the cycle, how she feels about the guy, how much we’ve had to drink, etc. But I know exactly how the Rabbit works- and this time was VERY VERY VERY DIFFERENT. Indeed! I also feel like C’s max effects are closer to 3-4 hours after spraying. - So I’ve also used Desire Me on a few different guys I’ve been dating, because I feel like I can compare their behavior easier since I know how they normally act. So far, these lusty/sexy ones, even IS/A, make men respect me more and want to know all about my future, my views on relationships, how my life has been, as if they actually want to get to the soul of me, genuinely. I know that sounds strange- it’s kinda like what most women dream about to have these serious conversations with men they like. I hate these questions because it means I have to reveal all my red flags. I think that normally my sexual persona is over-powering and with a tiny bit of added sexual prowess, it seems to elicit this alpha nurturing/admiration deep fondness. It doesn’t kill the naughty vibe- but I think they might cross me off the list as a potential wife when they hear that I don’t want kids, don’t want to live in NYC, don’t believe in religion, etc, etc. ---
**Author:** ![monesmadedoit](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/monesmadedoit/32/325_2.png) [@monesmadedoit](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/monesmadedoit)\ **Post date:** [March 24, 2014, 3:27am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/thoughts-from-a-pervert-the-journal/61458/2 "2014-03-24T03:27:08Z")
You could change the title to “Prevert.” Not too late. I’m willing to call TAC a smooth-muscle relaxant. Women such as yourself are uncommon enough to be not common but not unheard of. Maybe in the 5%? I’d say typically good responses to P75, alpha nol, P83, P103, TAA, [Instant Shine](https://a314.com/product/shine/). Caucasians. They 5% really should wear orange hats or something. Hard to find. Worth the adventure. Forgot TAL. The 5% like TAL. Very responsive. 5 mcg is enough. I would say the 5% have high androgens but are clinically normal. Just as Justin Bieber is clinically male but prolly not what I’d call a high -eNone type. Further complicating things, some women will go for the Biebers (or harbor some occult attraction) but also for the very bad -eNone boys. They’re more likely to skip the middle ground. Not always, but often. I think it’s cyclical but cannot prove. For your LTR experiment. Try 25+ mcg beta nol + TAF 5+ mcg. Aim for a range of 25-50 BNOL and 5-15 TAF. Might attract girls also. Just sayin’. Don’t expect much convo from that combo. It’s stealthy. Or just two sprays of 2X IH. The IH is more proven than my experimental. Needs more work. You might like nanograms of P75. ---
**Author:** ![LadyScientist](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/l/c57346/32.png) [@LadyScientist](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/LadyScientist)\ **Post date:** [March 24, 2014, 4:04am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/thoughts-from-a-pervert-the-journal/61458/3 "2014-03-24T04:04:53Z")
> [@monesmadedoit](#): > > You could change the title to “Prevert.” Not too late. I’m willing to call TAC a smooth-muscle relaxant. Women such as yourself are uncommon enough to be not common but not unheard of. Maybe in the 5%? I’d say typically good responses to P75, alpha nol, P83, P103, TAA, Instant Shine. Caucasians. They 5% really should wear orange hats or something. Hard to find. Worth the adventure. Forgot TAL. The 5% like TAL. Very responsive. 5 mcg is enough. I would say the 5% have high androgens but are clinically normal. Just as Justin Bieber is clinically male but prolly not what I’d call a high -eNone type. Further complicating things, some women will go for the Biebers (or harbor some occult attraction) but also for the very bad -eNone boys. They’re more likely to skip the middle ground. Not always, but often. I think it’s cyclical but cannot prove. I had to look up “prevert” in the Urban Dictionary! haha! Smooth muscle- bladder control and the muscles to “release” are voluntary even if the organs themselves are smooth? OMG. You just gave me an idea! I could try a very small dose of the drugs used for Benign Prostatic Hyperplasia (alpha blockers)! I’m quite determined. clearly. Can you clarify if by responsive you mean when men are wearing them around us? Or some self-effects? I am still trying to determine what is the difference and how much it changes. And also- what do you mean by skipping the middle ground? And THANK YOU for so many valuable suggestions. \<3 ---
**Author:** ![monesmadedoit](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/monesmadedoit/32/325_2.png) [@monesmadedoit](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/monesmadedoit)\ **Post date:** [March 24, 2014, 6:02am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/thoughts-from-a-pervert-the-journal/61458/4 "2014-03-24T06:02:13Z")
> [@LadyScientist](#): > > I had to look up “prevert” in the Urban Dictionary! haha! Smooth muscle- bladder control and the muscles to “release” are voluntary even if the organs themselves are smooth? OMG. You just gave me an idea! I could try a very small dose of the drugs used for Benign Prostatic Hyperplasia (alpha blockers)! I’m quite determined. clearly. > > Can you clarify if by responsive you mean when men are wearing them around us? Or some self-effects? I am still trying to determine what is the difference and how much it changes. And also- what do you mean by skipping the middle ground? And THANK YOU for so many valuable suggestions. \<3 In the physiology context, TAC caused marked sedation and I think smooth muscle relaxation. P75 reversed, almost right away, the sedation. It also seemed to cause concomitant vasodilation and urinary retention. P75 and TAF also cause facial tics. There are some complex muscarinic and nicotinic effects going on with that combo. I’m still not clear on how it affects women, because my mone-vs-non-mone and alcohol “social” “performance” is inconsistent. Except here, the parasympathetic agonist/anatagonist effects will be different in women and men, owing to different pelvic anatomy and so on. I speculated some time ago about whether propranolol would block some TAF or P75 effects. These are testable ideas with selective and non-selective blockers. I continue to be very interested also in the potential for P80 and P96 as mood stabilizers due to menstrual effects upon GABA A regulation. A prophylactic dose of TAC, P96 or P80 for several days per month could tame a number of physical and mental issues. The middle ground are baby mommas. Nothing wrong with the Western, heterosexual nuclear household with baby momma as the matriarch. These are the middle. The 5% require only that I be **interesting** and not gay. The interesting part requires a surprising amount of effort. As does excluding the other 47 cards in the deck. I only want the correct 3. Not easy to work a room that way. Mones help with the interesting part. I will also need a fractional Powerball prize to purchase one of the ubiquitous marginal gentleman’s clubs in my state. Could care less if it makes money. [Pheromone](https://a314.com/shop/) lab. This is where some of the 5% work. The others don’t wear distinctive uniforms in ordinary life. Looks, within reason, are flexible. Boldness is an absolute prerequisite. However, they always seem to be thin, good looking (too good at times), North and West European 2-1 blonde (not always). Slightly above average height. Blue eyes, notwithstanding hair color. Height and thin build are standouts. Something genetic going on here. Usefully aggressive, occasionally to the point of being almost masculine, but in all respects not lesbian (in the exclusive sense). Percenters will also usually admit looking at actual or pics of naked women. May not have ever done the deed. Women who honestly outright reject any interest in the naked female form are usually disqualified from being in the 5%. Again, however, this does not make them bi or les necessarily. ---
**Author:** ![lwatkins](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/lwatkins/32/472_2.png) [@lwatkins](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/lwatkins)\ **Post date:** [March 24, 2014, 2:48pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/thoughts-from-a-pervert-the-journal/61458/5 "2014-03-24T14:48:26Z")
> [@monesmadedoit](#): > > They 5% really should wear orange hats or something. Hard to find. Worth the adventure. Ah yes, I know the type. I consider Red hair dye over blonde a reasonably successful indicator. ---
**Author:** ![LadyScientist](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/l/c57346/32.png) [@LadyScientist](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/LadyScientist)\ **Post date:** [March 26, 2014, 6:38pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/thoughts-from-a-pervert-the-journal/61458/6 "2014-03-26T18:38:44Z")
2 sprays of to go IS/A Volutes perfurme (this is apparently my MO until I order more fun stuff) I went on a date last night, or in my head it was a date because I’ve been crushing on this guy for a while. We had never met in real life yet (friends of friends through FB) and have been talking for about a month bc we have the same taste in music. So the date is going really well, he’s laughing at all my jokes, great eye contact, standing/sitting close to me, etc. It’s a concert and we’re dancing and smiling at each other, but no actual flirting or physical contact has happened. By the last band, a random guy started singing behind me really into the song that I was also singing to. Being a fan, I never let ppl in the crowd enjoy a moment alone, so I sang along with him. Thought that was it, but no, rando decides to tell me how perfect and cute I am. I insist I’m with someone else but he keeps trying to put his arm around me and flirt like crazy. I grab my date, let’s call him B, “hey B this is C.” B says “hey” and goes back to watching the band. C asks if he’s my boyfriend, he’s not, then insists that he obviously does not like me, so he tries to kiss me! I block my lips with one hand and push him away with the other. At first, this is harmless, everyone’s drinking, it’s flattering, okay. fine. Then he tries 3-4 times to kiss me again, each time, me blocking my face and pushing him away. B is getting annoyed and I try to get his attention and he says “You can leave with that guy if you want.” \_AGH! “No I do not want to! I’m here with you, I’ve been trying to tell him that” So after the show, B is over me, I go to close my tab, he leaves to go the bathroom. C approaches me seconds later and I insist that he fuck off. No more nice girl. B returns immediately, and C walks away, finally. The date is totally ruined and we spent 30 minutes arguing about why I “encouraged” him and why he didn’t step up and it was a total disaster. BUT- the reason I’m telling this long story- the previous night the similar thing happened. The guy I’m clearly with, who I clearly like, who I’m obviously flirting with, is threatened by some random nobody? Who I’m not provoking, who I’m NOT interested in? I can’t explain this. I think this has something to do with my already very intimidating factor- coupled with mones attracting other people to me, the target can’t step up to compete?! And how do these randos get so much balls for wanting to fight for me in the first place when I’m clearly taken?! Do I need to do more reassuring? I’m pretty sure nothing scares guys away faster than a girl who is ALL about them. Luckily an old lover booty called and came over. (Who I drunkenly said out loud to having too small of a dick to be a booty call and he’s only worth it if we’re actually dating, to which he said “I know” OH SHIT!) Conclusion: Mol C does not work on the drunks or the hangovers. (except mine, bc my hangover orgasms are already a million times more fun than normal- but fucking forgot to charge Rabbit! stupid stupid stupid) ---
**Author:** ![LadyScientist](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/l/c57346/32.png) [@LadyScientist](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/LadyScientist)\ **Post date:** [March 28, 2014, 3:47pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/thoughts-from-a-pervert-the-journal/61458/7 "2014-03-28T15:47:22Z")
Typical IS/A and More Mol C confirmation First half of the night: 1 spray to go IS/A no perfume Attended a birthday party with some hot lesbos- didn’t realize it was a sit down dinner so no chance to mingle with boys at the bar (there weren’t any good ones anyway). Wearing a plain white zip up fleece, jeans, and boots. (BTW Monesmadedoit hit the nail on the head- labeling me as the type that is attracted to women, I am, and have had my fair share but would never date them- it’s just the kink of it) – this stuff gives me a splitting headache on an empty stomach 45 min after application. I’m sensitive to headaches/migraines from intense stimuli (flashing lights/certain odors) but the ultimate recipe is PMS, stress, irregular sleep, and neck tension. I take prophylactic migraine meds and have been headache free since! It’s magic. – I think I’m slightly getting addicted to this scent. I love fragrances but I think it’s a positive association thing (like certain lovers deodorant). I got whiffs of it on my pillow and was huffing everywhere looking for it. – People have mentioned the enhancement of certain characteristics you already possess. Well my family and I have what I call a “commanding presence” where we demand respect simply by walking into a room. My mother is not good looking, but the second she walks into a room, people sit up straight, nod their heads, smile, make way for her, etc. I take full of advantage of this the first moment I enter a bar/club or party. But the other way I’ve seen it effect me the most is at dinners. I will usually be talking to 1-2 people but by 5-10 min the entire table of 15 people is glued to me and listening attentively. So last night- this happens as usual, but it is amplified. It’s as if they love me so much and want to believe everything I’m saying that I could tell them to drink some magic kool aid to prove themselves (if anyone wants to PM me about the Jamestown Massacre- I will gladly entertain this topic. The last sermon is the creepiest thing I have ever heard and used it in one of my art installations) ^anyway good to remember for the future, if I need to convince people of an idea or get them to give me money for grants/sponsorships. Last time I wore IS/A around a group of friends in a non-sexual way, everyone commented on how “happy” everyone is to be around me. That is also something I do normally so maybe that is also amplified. After Party: 2 sprays Mol C free sampler between my breasts Diptyque Rose Perfume Seriously guys, if any of you actually read this, you need to invest in a Diptyque candle (Rose, Baies, Tuberose are some faves). Probably the most money you will ever want to spend on a candle ever- but your house will smell so amazing that she will want to take off her clothes instantly and come back over all the time just to smell it. Their olfactory researchers know A LOT. So this guy wants to see me and I’m not even wasted, but he knows how to score because he tells me he’s got his 45s and a fatty blunt on him. I’m not going to turn away a private dj session, knowing his rare collection is incredible and that he rolls amazing blunts. (see-- short average looking guys win sometimes! he is endowed so there’s that too) I “dick-damned” him last time for being a 2 pump wonder, so knew that he was going to have to work extra hard to get anything from me this time. I made him give me an incredible massage, finally got that awful awful knot out of my shoulder, and was not going to except anything less that full service. He let me down as usual (seriously am I fucking cursed? Or do I have a Super-Pussy?! I had a really beautiful sexy rotation of men May-Nov, but winter is like a black hole in NYC, everyone couples up, hibernates, and gets fat- it’s slim pickings out here) Maybe I’m the only female that gets this way, but getting really close to climax and not getting to finish requires all of my restraint to not act like a 5 year old kicking, screaming, crying, and punching the floor in a toy store aisle not getting what I want. I can never adequately describe how angry, frustrated and sad this makes me, and I have def cried about it- “I just wanna go! wahhh!” lol So 3 hrs later, I wake up to him touching me and it’s incredible. It’s a really magnified sense of touch (like X-T-C, not the band if you catch my drift) and it’s an explosion of senses. The O is more intense for sure, but for me personally it takes longer and more concentration to get there (damn everything I was reading said the opposite) I think I’m rare because I also notice stimulants make my Os more intense and easier to reach (a lot of caffeine). But I’m still replaying it in my mind. I guess he redeemed himself. Conclusion: Mol C is not 420 friendly either. Def hits me best 3 hrs later (sexually at least- I wasn’t really paying attention to anything but myself so I don’t know how to comment on dude) I need to pair it with something more stimulating without losing it’s relaxing effects. The learning curve on this shit is annoying, nothing like rowing/crew that’s for sure. ---
**Author:** ![CelticPrince](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/celticprince/32/397_2.png) [@CelticPrince](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/CelticPrince)\ **Post date:** [March 28, 2014, 7:55pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/thoughts-from-a-pervert-the-journal/61458/8 "2014-03-28T19:55:14Z")
This is tricky for me, as ive only been doing mones for a couple of years, and I have focused more on what to use for business effects and female attraction. So maybe some others more phero experienced could comment. But my initial thoughts were that maybe the weed mellowed you out too much, which made it harder to climax. Maybe if you had something with none in it to either spray on him, or maybe spray a little tuth somewhere and drag your finger through it and wipe on your upper lip so you could get a whiff. Tuth, it is arousing for women causing sensation intensity and focus during sex. Im sure there are some putatives that would work as well. Someone else can suggest some for you. Sounds like the boyo’s better be on their game when they enter your boudoir. Tough crowd. Holy performance anxiety Batman! 😮 ---
**Author:** ![jett](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/jett/32/438_2.png) [@jett](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/jett)\ **Post date:** [March 29, 2014, 3:44am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/thoughts-from-a-pervert-the-journal/61458/9 "2014-03-29T03:44:09Z")
girl, lasso yourself some stinky europeans and your pussy won’t be lonely. nyc sucks during the romantic winter! that is the time you are supposed to visit ibiza, you know… 🙂 and noooo no no no i too get really pissy if my man rolls over and dissolves into that stupid smile, and i’m still staring at him with my dripping lady-ness saying W T F ARE YOU FUCKING 15?! TWO PEOPLE HERE, JACKASS. i LIT ER ALLY start punching pillows and going full on bitch fit. i love my vagina. love it love it love it. it is your manly duty to respect the pussy. that should be my new name now. respect.the.pussy. pussy has power your rod isn’t wet with sultry stink for nothing !!! anyway.. i haven’t tried tac in ages. you’ve inspired me! ---
**Author:** ![LadyScientist](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/l/c57346/32.png) [@LadyScientist](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/LadyScientist)\ **Post date:** [March 29, 2014, 6:47am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/thoughts-from-a-pervert-the-journal/61458/10 "2014-03-29T06:47:12Z")
RESPECT THE PUSSY. bitches. word lol love it ---
**Author:** ![LadyScientist](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/l/c57346/32.png) [@LadyScientist](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/LadyScientist)\ **Post date:** [March 29, 2014, 7:11pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/thoughts-from-a-pervert-the-journal/61458/11 "2014-03-29T19:11:18Z")
No Products- control test night No perfume No make up No [pheromones](https://a314.com/) Sweater, jeans, boots, did not even do my hair I haven’t gone “out” without using any products in a while so I really needed something to compare to, I truly can’t remember. I had a 10 pm massage on a Fri night, it was the only appt I could get, and I know what you’re gonna ask, and yes the only happy ending was the one I gave myself when the lady leaves to let me “gather myself” and get dressed. I can’t help it- massages get me 99% there. I look like shit, but my body feels great and I’m in the area where my first GF I made in NYC bartends. So I decided to say hi since I haven’t seen her for a while. The place was packed and figured this would be a good control for the testing experiment. - This bar is ideal because it’s not a “pick up” bar. It’s good for dates. There are rows of picnic tables and you order at the bar and then sit down. Since I wanna chat with my girl, I sit at the bar where no one is sitting. Guys have to stand next to me to order on either side, but not close enough to randomly start conversation. –I’m really relaxed, not feeling sexy, tired after a long week, alone, just chilling. (something I Need to determine is if IS/A gives me extra confidence or it’s because I’m usually dressed up and lookin smokin that makes me feel hot) – Well hello first tall handsome man I’ve seen in a long while. He smiles and says hi, I respond the same way. He signs with his black AmEx- ooooh where are you going and can I come with? I try to keep track of where he goes to sit down but the place is huge and I lose him in the crowd. DAMN! – busser gets off shift, sits next to me and is by far the ugliest, weirdest acting person I’ve come across in a long time. Takes him all of 2 min to buy me a shot, I agree. (I’m friendly if you haven’t noticed) –the other bartender, short guy, glasses, maybe latin mix ?, introduces himself to me, buys me a drink also. (oh so nice of ya’ll- not having to pay at all, didn’t even want to come out tonight) – random customer, longish curly hair, musician looking, can’t decided what he wants, orders “sure I’ll take the southern tier IPA- sounds good” I blurt out “Don’t worry it’s good- it’s my favorite east coast IPA” he says “What do you know about IPA? you’re drinking Whiskey! West coast girl? let me guess CA” I nod, he asks “where in CA?” I insist he keep guessing since he’s on a roll, and he nails it again. So we talk about this shitty winter and he invites me to sit outside. I say I’m going to chat with my girl but I’ll join them later, his friend is HOT, did not see his fucking ring at the time and totally pegged friend for gay. Oops. – another busser keeps smiling at me, I smile back. He gets off shift and sits a the corner of the bar- still smiling at me. – I join curly haired dude outside, they seem embarrassed so I ask if I’m interrupting. They say they’re talking about evolutionary urges to reproduce versus conscious control---- eeeee! One of my favorite topics and I don’t have to be the pervert to start talking about sex first. – We talk for 45 min about sex in long term relationships and the relationships they are in and my previous relationships. Hot gay friend leaves bc he’s offended I mentioned that I thought he was gay (turns out everyone does so maybe he should consider it?) – Curly dude and I talk for a few more min and finally he just blurts out “I really want to take you home and fuck you right now”- KINDA OUT OF NO WHERE. No flirting or touching or anything has been happening. – I just smile “but you can’t you have a girl” and he says “yeah and I really love her” so we just hug and say goodnight. Weird! I kinda expected him to try to kiss me. I’ve been hit on by many guys in a relationship (one was about to get married and wanted to fuck me before as his “free pass” ewww) and I never let them go through with it- no matter how much they want to. I usually have to make them feel really guilty about it- for even considering it (I HATE CHEATERS- just don’t commit if you want to fuck it’s not a hard concept to understand) Conclusion: There is a certain level of restraint and self-control with guys who hit on me when I’m not wearing products. They are not physical unless prompted. They don’t have that “I’m in a trance by your face and eyes” look in their eyes-- total love potion #9 type of thing. They are not aggressive with their flirtation- more friendly and casual. It’s not as much a competition as it is, “well everyone’s talking to her so she must be approachable and friendly so I’ll talk to her too” versus with pheromones it feels like “I need to be the winner! get that guy out of my way!” ---
**Author:** ![LadyScientist](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/l/c57346/32.png) [@LadyScientist](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/LadyScientist)\ **Post date:** [March 30, 2014, 7:50pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/thoughts-from-a-pervert-the-journal/61458/12 "2014-03-30T19:50:48Z")
IS/A= wife interview & mol C needs stimulant 1 spray of Desire Me for the cops behind my neck (eww do I even need this I’m almost ovulating) 1 spray IS/A to go under chin Diptyque Rose Perfume On a date with a 6’6" personal trainer (can we say YUMMMM) who I’ve been talking to for a couple weeks. (do other cities do this whole texting for a few weeks before going out? It’s boring and exhausting) It’s pouring rain, but he’s so tall I get to wear my sexy heels,skin tight jeans, white t-shirt, and brown leather jacket (my favorite date outfit). – he is obviously a sexual man, and we are sitting next to each other, but he is not making any moves. Southern charm ?. He lets me lean on him, sit close to him, our legs are touching, but nothing flirty or sensual. Not even his comments. – Instead, I get the “What are your life goals?”, “where are you going to open your practice?” “Why do you want to marry a cowboy?”, “how much would you be willing to commute?” Even makes a few jokes about us working together and mentions how much he LOVES the cities I’m considering. I’m very convinced that guys I’m dating react differently to IS/A and cops than randos. It makes them take me seriously and opens the door for “future” questions. Like I said, I kinda hate this, b/c they might not like to hear my answers. Later on, it gets heated and I know I’m ovulating soon with patients scheduled like crazy for the next 3 days, so It’s now or never (2 sprays of Mol C to the chest). And thank you Phero Gods because all my bitching and moaning about guys that don’t last- was worth it b/c this man. Oh. To the Em. GEE muther fucker. He said “you’re not sleeping tonight” and I didn’t believe him until he literally did NOT let me sleep. Something like more than 10 times? I’m impressed. How did he have anything left in there? (and before you judge me, know that I’ve been pent up in my house for the last 3 months studying for the Boards-- so getting to see boys again is like releasing a Catholic School girl on a field trip) – same thing with C though- takes me longer and more concentration but way more intense. I was half-asleep the other times so I really need a stimulant with this. Weed and booze mask the effects and really shines for me 3-5 hrs later (is this even possible??) Okay I’m ready to try more stuff, I’m pretty sure I know what these can do for me. (you see how quickly I get bored? this is bad) ---
**Author:** ![monesmadedoit](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/monesmadedoit/32/325_2.png) [@monesmadedoit](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/monesmadedoit)\ **Post date:** [April 3, 2014, 2:28am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/thoughts-from-a-pervert-the-journal/61458/13 "2014-04-03T02:28:32Z")
Brief “benevolent” hijacking: I just had a clever idea about Sexiness A vs. Sexiness B or TAL vs TAH girls. It would be best if a woman started this poll or thread. The girls I would call androgenic are typically thin, thin-waisted, somewhat above average female height. Not what I would call estrogenic or Reubenesque. Not the delicate features or “softness” usually attributed to estrogen. Not big eaters. Very pretty, like female athlete pretty. The question: what is the height, weight, (and/or BMI), eye color, ethnicity, hair color, number of children and self-described sex drive of self-described TAL or TAH girls/Sexiness A or B girls. Are any self-described bi-sexual, hetero or gay? _Have they ever looked at and enjoyed pictures of nude females_, even if they have never been intimate with a woman? I think you would find a correlation somewhere. The data can be anonymous. In the lounge or wherever. I regret I’ve never actually tested mones in a strip club. Although back in the day, I used to ask that italics as a qualifying question. A substantial number of the “entertainers” really had little interest in men, making money or the job. They seemed to be there because they were bi-curious. They wanted the eye candy. Or just to meet women. It’s better a woman post this, but I can help you structure the poll questions. It may help women, especially bi females (or men seeking them) to select products. Bi-curious are my target audience. Tough, but worth every drop. ---
**Author:** ![LadyScientist](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/l/c57346/32.png) [@LadyScientist](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/LadyScientist)\ **Post date:** [April 12, 2014, 7:26pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/thoughts-from-a-pervert-the-journal/61458/14 "2014-04-12T19:26:47Z")
The Bi-girl To be honest Monesmademedoit, I do not believe the questions you asked will help you find the androgenic almost sorta bi-girl. While there is a genetic component, based on my large circle of these women I’ve surrounded myself with over the years, I can tell you that they are all different heights, ethnicities, hair color, etc. The other characteristics you pointed out, are indeed kinda true. Thin, not Rubenesque features, (a lot I know are actually mixed races, including myself), struggled with back/chest acne at some point, feminine acting but in a direct confident fierce almost masculine way. Coincidentally, your reply ties in with my next post. 1 spray Desire Me behind the neck 3 sprays IS/A to the chest (went more bc the target uses inhaled substances, which I know disrupts olfactory responses) Costume Party: basically half-naked outfit I met a guy at a party a few months ago who came on to me really strong. We exchanged numbers, but never hung out (turns out he is mini famous and tours a lot). I saw him at another party a month later, me being casual, my normal friendly self with everyone, and he flat out rejected/humiliated me out of no where: “I want to make sure you know I don’t see you in a more than friend way- I am interested in your work and just want to be friends” This fucking annoyed the shit out of me! Mr. Ego over hear assumed I wanted him? What was I doing to give him the need to reject me? So this last weekend, I knew he was going to be at this party and I planned on phero-bombing the shit out of him so HE would feel stupid about rejecting me. The plan was to hang out near him, but ignore him and impress the shit out of all his friends so they would talk about how awesome and beautiful and amazing I am. Totally worked. I didn’t even acknowledge him entering, he finally made his way to greet me and hugged me inappropriately long (yess you sniff that shit baby). The rest of the night, he found any excuse to make eye contact with me/smile, whisper in my ear telling me how proud he is of me and congratulating me, dancing with me, kisses on the cheek, etc. WIN. but the best news: I haven’t kissed a girl the entire time I’ve been in NYC, and I have to admit I am known to drunkenly make out with girls quite often. Girls here are just not as lesbo as CA girls. Every hot girl that my guy friends were chasing, ended up coming on to me instead!!! I have never been so flattered in my life. I could have chosen any one of them. So I guess 3 sprays gets the girls after me? It’s def not this scene alone (even though more conducive) bc I’ve been to plenty of these parties before and did not have female success. (For the erotic curious minds: one of my favorite repeat offenders ended up getting bad news while high and I had to go save him from a bad trip- so no girl action for me, but still really hot) Last night: 2 sprays MX135 between ear and under chin (first time) 7.5 mcg mol C to the chest I’m not a big fan of this coconut/chocolate scent- but I can see how boys can dig it bc it reminds them of chicks in bikinis at the beach (yay our first warm weekend!! laying in my bikini on my roof typing this right now). My big 6’7" all night wonder boy and I had a dinner date. We started off with wine at my house and obviously never left. Ok wonder boy is great bc he is always ready to go- but he was having the same problem as everyone else last night- going too fast!!! Right as I was getting into it- he would finish, then we’d start up again, but re-building the momentum made it IMPOSSIBLE for me to go. But seriously, thank the universe for men like him who are perpetually rock hard. (I didn’t notice C’s effects- maybe bc he ended up leaving by the time it usually starts kicking in for me (3-4 hrs after application, I didn’t realize he wasn’t going to sleep over 😠). Any theories about my delayed response? I am on Wellbutrin (NE-dopa reuptake inhibitor, grief depression over a year ago, but now the neurologist wants to keep me on it since I started Topiramate; Na+ channel blocker- migraine prophylaxis) so my neurotransmitters are kinda already being toyed with. I went out to the bar to eat since I was already all dressed up and hungry. Boys hit on me instantly but nothing unusual. Very respectful. No physical flirtations. The boys talking to me ended up splitting my bill (so nice of them- wasn’t expecting it, NYC boys do not like to pay for girls sometimes out of sheer principle since so many women expect it) I let them crash on my couch after listening to records. I had been really friendly (NOT flirty) with them all night, letting them know I had a date earlier so neither of them are gonna score. People who are worrying about me bringing strangers back to my house, trust that I have a great sense of judgement and if anything goes awry, my mean scary pitbull will eat them alive (not really- she is friendly as shit, but I like to believe she would protect me if anything happened). Conclusion: is 3 sprays IS/A the magic dose for girl-girl action? too early to comment on MX135, but so far none of that inability to control themselves around me stuff. Maybe even the opposite- respect and admiration. But to be honest- everything seemed normal. And if this is the culprit that made him go fast- it’s not going to be my favorite. \*for the record: hijack away! I love hearing your responses- truly don’t mind if anything I say triggers a discussion- in fact would LOVE it. ---
**Author:** ![monesmadedoit](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/monesmadedoit/32/325_2.png) [@monesmadedoit](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/monesmadedoit)\ **Post date:** [April 12, 2014, 7:49pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/thoughts-from-a-pervert-the-journal/61458/15 "2014-04-12T19:49:09Z")
> [@Adding Science & Sanity to Pheromones](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/adding-science-sanity-to-pheromones/18): > > There’s a large creneau, I think, for science and sanity in [pheromones](https://pheromonelabs.com/). On the one hand, you have the researchers with their tunnel vision, and less than breathtaking studies. They prove boring (but important) points in spectacular, expensive ways. On the other, you have the hypesters who write their ads first, and make their products second. I was just reading the ad copy for Primal Instinct, for instance, and it claims that it’ll make you a “hit” at work. Use a few drops, sure, it’ll do you… ---
**Author:** ![LadyScientist](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/l/c57346/32.png) [@LadyScientist](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/LadyScientist)\ **Post date:** [April 13, 2014, 4:02pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/thoughts-from-a-pervert-the-journal/61458/16 "2014-04-13T16:02:05Z")
oral factor? 3 sprays MX274 between ear and and under chin 1.25 mcg p75 between my breasts Day 25 of my cycle (pretty bad PMS symptoms 2 days prior:extreme sadness/apathy/lethargy, currently bloated, no breast tenderness yet, mild cramping) Had a blind date with someone I knew NOTHING about. I honestly was very hesitant- Saturday nights are valuable prime time and taking a gamble with someone I’m not sure I’m going to like is very risky. I made sure I had back up plans if it sucked. I was going to cancel 1 hr before but decided that it’s good research for these products and went ahead (SCIENCE!) Wore a tight knee-length pencil skirt, black lacy tank top (great cleavage), and brown heels. Thank goodness he was tall, buff, and better looking than the 2 photos I saw of him. He hugs me, we walk close together to the bar, and this guy seriously has CRAZY intense eye contact. He NEVER stopped looking into my soul. Turns out we had a lot in common, made great conversation, laughed a lot, he paid for everything (girls totally notice this and I usually take it as a sign of how interested he is). But I can’t think of anything unusual ? No extra compliments, no trying to touch me, no overtly sexual conversational topics, pretty run of the mill great date. The only thing I can think of is as he sat across from me at the table, I noticed he would reach over with his arm hoping to maybe touch mine, after we had a “moment” but I was being reserved on purpose to see how crazy I could drive him (he did this quite a few times). He invites me back to his place, we open a bottle of wine, he has a really nice apartment, we sit on opposite couches, telling stories. He gets up for no reason, obviously so he can return to sit on the couch I’m sitting on. 2 minutes later he reaches over to touch my hair/side of my face and it’s all over from there. Not like I have to apologize for TMI, but I typically can’t release unless I’ve been with someone a couple times, which is why I’d rather go out with a repeat offender than a brand new person (another big difference between men and women). This guy was either just really fucking good at head or somehow I was able to un-block this mental lock I have- because let me say that it was probably the best O I have had in YEARS. Like back arching, body trembling, can’t breathe, think I’m going to die O. and can we talk about how awesome it is that he even did this long enough for me to go??? I will wear whatever product that gets guys to go down on me all the time. (obvi I’ve been with my fair share of men, and most are not oral friendly) I try to return the favor and it’s going well, but after 15 minutes he’s not a happy member anymore (this is what happens with most of my dates over 30, now you see why you like my 23 yo babies). I ask him what he wants me to do differently or what he wants and no luck. This is an absolute first for me, my mouth is usually the winner. I try not to take these things personally bc I know 9/10 times it usually isn’t about me- and I doubt a guy would go down on me if he didn’t find me attractive/interesting. Conclusion: Oral win for me, loss for him. (repeatability yet to be tested) \*side note. I botched my dose of p78 and ordered 125 nanograms (don’t order from AD hungover) but sprayed 125 nanograms into the cap (small bubble formed at the bottom) and sniffed it like crazy off/on for 15 min to see if I could get any self-effects. I was having some pretty terrible PMS a few days prior that were lingering and 30 min later of this cap huffing (granted I did talk on the phone with someone who cheered me up) and felt happy! I was singing in the shower, excited about getting ready, back to my usual self. So who knows, maybe this small dose, in a vat that can’t evaporate as much, can still produce some effects. ---
**Author:** ![LadyScientist](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/l/c57346/32.png) [@LadyScientist](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/LadyScientist)\ **Post date:** [April 14, 2014, 10:28pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/thoughts-from-a-pervert-the-journal/61458/17 "2014-04-14T22:28:45Z")
MX274 hits be like cray, p75= girls gone wild. 2 sprays MX274 either side of neck 1.25 mcg p75 between my breasts Warm sunny day, short dress, wedge pumps, looked BOMB Day 27 of my cycle, really bloated (could not find an outfit to hide the tummy) this is when sex is painful because it gives me really bad cramps when it feels good (this is also only a symptom I’ve developed once getting the IUD) Met my girls for Bloody Marys on Stone St (cobbled stone street near Wall st with a bunch of restaurants/bars and communal tables outside). I honestly think I just looked really hot yesterday because I was turning heads left and right. A sweet old man playing chess at a park took off his hat and bowed “hats off to you young lady”- it was really precious. -Guys were starring at me, almost uncomfortably. All of them. If I walked past a table, they stopped talking to stare. - a guy tried to get my attention and introduce me to his huge fat friend, but couldn’t get any words out of his mouth. Totally stumbling, not making any sense, and finally just said “I give up- I can’t even talk to you, I can’t even keep a straight face”- this was the most obvious hit I’ve gotten so far. - I noticed when guys locked eyes with me, they were unable to pull away (normally in NYC, ppl get embarrassed and look away really fast) and they would repeat stare. I don’t know how it’s possible for people to detect who the scent is coming from in a crowded place like this? - every guy in the lower east side would follow me or make some remark. The starring is the most obvious thing, because it’s a trance. They would just stop what they are doing (smoking/talking) and stare like I’m a ghost or an angel or something unbelievable. I can’t describe it really. - the guys that approached us to share our table were mostly hitting on my girlfriend. But within 10 min (he was really cute and I totally wanted him) I was able to steal his attention and he was ALL over me. Introducing me to his friends (he knows everyone super popular handsome guy), parading me around, never ignoring me for long periods of time, making sure I was comfortable, really affectionate (I really like him, but he is a total player so it’s not happening. He has had relationships in the past, so it’s not a total long shot but he’s also going no where in life- so better to keep him as a lover) - some guys interrupted us to congratulate him on being with me, but when they found out he wasn’t my boyfriend, they tried to steal me. (ugly guys but still flattering) - this guy was really cocky (rightfully so, his package is HUGE, and he can get anyone he wants, really fashionable, hot, funny, great personality, easy-going)- but I was also in a trance by him. I think this is the first of the p75 I’m noticing. He got me to do things I would normally not do- really embarrassed to admit this but here goes: like write his name with marker on my tits and take a picture of it (I was only a little wasted- super college girl thing to do), give him a ton of $ to go in on some substances we won’t talk about, almost banged him in his friends living room while they were asleep (luckily refrained and dragged him to my place, longest cab ride ever) and call in sick today even though I had a full schedule so I could stay in bed with him. and that is so specific that if he reads this he’ll know who I am so, well hey baby what’s up, you’re hot and I totally dig you. Conclusion: I do not have enough self-control to keep up with the p75 testing. But I will do it for you, Monesmademedoit. \*if there were an emoji for flashing tits, that’s what the icon for this post would be. ---
**Author:** ![CelticPrince](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/celticprince/32/397_2.png) [@CelticPrince](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/CelticPrince)\ **Post date:** [April 15, 2014, 3:42pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/thoughts-from-a-pervert-the-journal/61458/18 "2014-04-15T15:42:54Z")
You do realize that your “signature” rack is going to be up on the interwebs soon.. LOL Im really liking the hits you are getting with the [P75](https://pheromonelabs.com/product/p75/). Am I reading into this too much to say that guys get possessive with you when you are wearing P75?? You also mention being in a trance with your photographer boy a couple times. I definitely think that is the P75 working on you (self effects). This is the stuff that gets ladies following me around in the grocery store like zombies. Perhaps try different doses of P75, like cut it in half, or by 1/4 and see what your effects are. You seem to be getting good results in general, but maybe by dropping the dose down you can eliminate the “girls gone wild” vibe but still get decent self effects? Or maybe you dont want to 🙂 ---
**Author:** ![monesmadedoit](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/monesmadedoit/32/325_2.png) [@monesmadedoit](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/monesmadedoit)\ **Post date:** [April 15, 2014, 3:56pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/thoughts-from-a-pervert-the-journal/61458/19 "2014-04-15T15:56:31Z")
Try spraying it on a guy. ---
**Author:** ![LadyScientist](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/l/c57346/32.png) [@LadyScientist](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/LadyScientist)\ **Post date:** [April 16, 2014, 3:47pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/thoughts-from-a-pervert-the-journal/61458/20 "2014-04-16T15:47:01Z")
p75 on a guy friend 375 ng p78 neck 2 sprays Mx274 cleavage Day 28 breast tenderness, big time cramping/bloated, any day now you big RED Went to a super secret burlesque party with a guy I’ve grown up with and know really well. We went to grab food before the party and when I took off my coat (it was fucking snowing!!) he said “wow you’re so dressed up, anyone checking us out would think you’re an escort because you’re way too hot to be with me.” I’ve known him 17 years and he has never complimented me, we are truly just good friends. Even at the party he basically confirmed that when some random guy complimented me and mistook me for one of the models/dancers/working girls at the event, he said “yeah right? I’ve known her for over 15 years and never seen her look like this”- it’s a lie, he totally has. so yes Monesmademedoit, I’m trying! I know you think girls like me can get boys to do whatever we want and that is usually the case, but everyday that I’ve attempted I get the “what do you think?? I smell?” or “I prefer my own man smell” boys are crazy hesitant about me spraying them. (and are you getting paranoid editing out all of your replies- leave them!) So my buddy was totally game, even though a non-believer, and I was hoping it would get the dancers to give him more attention. 1.875 mg P75 split in 3 sprays 625 ng/ spray(one on either side of his neck, and then under chin) Kinda average on the shorter side, good looking, fit, well dressed asian man applied right before getting into the cab en route to party (after dinner) He was worried he wouldn’t like the smell, but he did (6% Neroli- it’s the only smell I like too, but whatever is in MX274 I’m starting to like as well) No it didn’t make me find him more attractive or turned on, I already know him so this is a block in the first place. But that puppy dog eye following him around and making sure I knew where he was at all times was def present. When I lost him for a moment, I had small ache of panic that he left without me. (I am normally not protective over my friends, and we normally split up to give ppl the opportunity to hit on us) Even funnier, is he normally cracks me up (c’mon we’re besties and did our homework together growing up, we have the same sense of humor), but I was only one beer deep and I was intently listening to his every line and giggling like a little girl. When I realized I had a non-stop cheesy smile I pointed it out to him “see this? I’m not even tipsy and I have this shit eating grin- totally pheromones” He recognized my change in behavior and is willing to try it again when we go out Thursday night. \*side note: MX274 makes me talk fast and brings out my AWFUL interrupting habit- MissDragon mentioned her mix MX335 made her less tired/chatty- I’m thinking this is related to some stimulant in either. Does anyone know if these mixes are similar just different scents (I can’t remember)? If it is a stimulant, this could be the perfect thing I’ve been looking for to pair with C! also Re: Celticprince I don’t know if it was possessive? I guess more so than other guys who hit on me for the first time. For example, when the guys congratulated him for being with me, and found out he wasn’t my boyfriend, he discreetly asked me to walk over to the other side of the bar where his friends were (if only the guy I liked from the concert would have done that!!) and the randos responded “awwww please don’t take the pretty girl away from us!” but interestingly enough- he def had that “bad boy” vibe and I was getting my period so really funny how that correlation has been shown in a few different studies I’ve been reading up on. oh and let him post my tits on IG- my face isn’t in it- no one will know! [Next page](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/thoughts-from-a-pervert-the-journal/61458.md?page=2)