# Thoughts from a Pervert- The Journal **URL:** \ **Category:** Women's Journals\ **Created:** [March 24, 2014, 2:30am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/thoughts-from-a-pervert-the-journal/61458 "2014-03-24T02:30:58Z")\ **Posts on this page:** 10\ **Page:** 16
**Author:** ![Dee\_A](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/d/7bcc69/32.png) [@Dee\_A](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/Dee_A)\ **Post date:** [October 15, 2016, 6:56am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/thoughts-from-a-pervert-the-journal/61458/302 "2016-10-15T06:56:00Z")
It’s best not to over-analyze others then and focus instead on self soul searching. It’s a better way of “self-regulation”, having controlled expectations, to avoid bigger emotional setbacks. ---
**Author:** ![LadyScientist](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/l/c57346/32.png) [@LadyScientist](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/LadyScientist)\ **Post date:** [October 20, 2016, 8:49am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/thoughts-from-a-pervert-the-journal/61458/303 "2016-10-20T08:49:39Z")
Dee- I know you mean well but that comment sounds an awful lot like victim blaming. And let’s be real- aren’t we here to analyze behaviors? I get that you’re trying to say you can only change yourself and not others, but you’re implying I’m the one that was wrong. He’s the one that did the jerky thing. So if you think my behavior warrants asshole treatment then say so- but in my opinion- no one does. This is a classic male manipulative gas-lighting move- that this guy did to me following the incident. I decided to open the door for peace and let him know that I may have dismissed him too quickly without giving him the chance to share his side and that I was sorry- if he still wanted to talk I was open to it. He basically responded with something like “I was with my friends and you knew that- but instead you insulted my character which you know nothing about and I can assure its fine- while I was planning something fun for us so next time maybe you should ask the person how they’re feeling” Really guy? You’re not going to recognize for a second that you stood me up and that’s rude or hurtful? That I had every right to judge you for saying you were going to meet me and then you didn’t? Instead I’m the crazy girl that got upset for nothing- oh how dare I question a male’s character when he does something fucked up-- lets just all let good looking men get away with whatever they want. I’m sorry- I don’t know what country raised you- but in America- when you say you’re gonna meet a girl- and then you don’t without an apology or explanation- that’s a dick move. And if you don’t understand that- then there’s no one in the fuckin planet who can teach you manners. ---
**Author:** ![Dee\_A](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/d/7bcc69/32.png) [@Dee\_A](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/Dee_A)\ **Post date:** [October 22, 2016, 7:34am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/thoughts-from-a-pervert-the-journal/61458/304 "2016-10-22T07:34:43Z")
Sorry if it sounded like that. ☹ My intent is to pat your back and say “forget about that man, there are plenty fish in the pond. Bigger, brighter, yummier.” 🙂 He’s a jerk indeed and he’s only out gaming. The best way to deal with those gamers is to make them think that their targets simply enjoyed him and then let him take the extra moves/steps to elevate your level of relationship. If he did not bother to drop a call, don’t call him and move on to the next lucky guy on the list. I know that some might say it’s easier said than done but, I’ve done it, based on my own experience. 🙂 ---
**Author:** ![LadyScientist](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/l/c57346/32.png) [@LadyScientist](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/LadyScientist)\ **Post date:** [January 1, 2017, 9:29pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/thoughts-from-a-pervert-the-journal/61458/305 "2017-01-01T21:29:21Z")
Dating with and without mones I know it’s been a while! I never got over the guy who said he’d meet me at a huge event and then didn’t.. I decided to reach out to him a few times and try to keep him as a friend. He didn’t come to my opening and I asked him upfront if he was reluctant to reconnect with me. He said he would love to see me over the winter break and that he is still my friend. It’s pathetic- that I don’t give up easily when I feel this strong of a connection. I can count on my hand how often I have felt this- and it always ends the same. It’s never as reciprocated as it feels. Maybe I’ll eventually learn to play the game- but I just don’t give a shit enough. I tried to test out the theory that mones mimic the feeling of something real but when you’re not around, that feeling fades. I had just gotten out of the metal shop and wanted to show my local bartender my new metal casting. I was disgusting, dirt on my face, no bra, stretchy pants and flip flops. I didn’t realize there was a big game going on and the bar was full of cuties and no girls. Great- bc I looked so stunning… I sat at the bar and two guys sitting next to me starting talking to me. They said they were 23 and just graduated. One of them was pretty cute and offered to go to an art show with me the next day. I didn’t think a young sports kid would give a shit, but he showed up on time in a button up with a flask as promised. We hung out everyday for 4 weeks. He helped me pick out a Christmas tree, get my house ready for the holidays and dinner parties, took my trash out, cleaned tables, drove me to and from the airport, spent 9 hours helping me install my sculpture, the whole boyfriend 9. I eventually had to ask him how he felt about us spending so much time together and if he thought it would be ok for us to still sleep with other people. He said he wasn’t sure and I told him he didn’t have to tell me right away- he could think about it- I would be ok with it either way. I also mentioned that I wanted him to come to my opening but that there might be other guys interested in me attending as well. I reassured him that I wasn’t interested in them but wanted him to be aware- not thrown off. He then decided to confess that he was only 20 years old and would be turning 21 that weekend. (WHAT THE FUCK DO I REALLY LOOK THIS YOUNG) And then asked me if I would I go with him and his friends To a football game to celebrate. After teasing him super hard about being a baby, I agreed and figured that if his age hadn’t come between us this long then it would be worth it to keep seeing him. Well… apparently I didn’t have a choice. He no-showed my opening a few days later, claimed the next day that he was sick in bed all day (so sick that you can’t text and say you can’t come?) and then uninvited me to the game because his friends girls wanted to go instead and would need the ticket he was gonna give me. I was royally pissed. I let him have it and ended it. Thank god I didn’t pay for the hotel or take a day off from work. His only response was “on my birthday???” Yes fucker, if you act like an asshole you get dumped on your birthday via text message. I started missing him and asked him to explain why he had a change of heart and acted so inconsiderately. He said he didn’t have an explanation he was just drunk. Ok so I know this is a hard control test to compare because he’s just a fucking kid- but let’s be real- men of every age have behaved the same way with me in the past. My very cocky theory that has been supported by a few very intelligent men in my life is: most men can’t handle me. It goes beyond intimidation- it’s about me somehow making men feeling insecure about everything, their intelligence, careers, creativity, and sexual capacity-- despite me thinking that they are “good enough” for me. I’m a girl that most ppl would describe as “having it all”- the brains, beauty, sexual appetite, warm heart, and down to earth easy going fun personality. (Humility is clearly not listed, but what’s wrong with powerful independent women knowing what they are worth and not being afraid to be proud of it?!) [Men still aren’t comfortable with ambitious women.](http://www.slate.com/articles/news_and_politics/the_dismal_science/2016/12/men_still_aren_t_comfortable_with_ambitious_women.html) Most men are so shocked by my ability to comfortably talk about sex and how we should respect each other’s wishes, that they either start assuming I’m a slut (a picky one) or panic that they don’t know how to articulate their own desires and wants as well as I can. Then when they figure out that nothing’s really wrong with me, the reality of “oh fuck I could have something real with this person” Sets in and they run. I know- I did this in my twenties forever. I only dated guys that I would never marry so there would be no pressure of actually doing it. So Is there really a difference between my 21 yr old baby and the perfect bachelor that kinda sorta stood me up? No, the baby is scared bc he’s a baby, the perfect bachelor is scared bc he just ended an engagement last year. I didn’t use products with the baby but I did with my bachelor and they both ran after they both were so serious about me. Did mones have anything to do with it? I dunno but I think I’m attracting way more women than men with P78 and p96. Women have said “omg you smell so amazing I can’t get enough” then become my best friends and have quickly bonded with me. I really don’t mind this- I’m in a new city and I need friends- I’ve made SO many awesome friends this year. Sure, it’s easier in certain places than others, but I have always had no problems making friends! The difference is, this town is big enough that you don’t always see the same ppl but big enough that the scenes are very interconnected. I truly believe mones have helped me settle into this city 5x faster than other cities I’ve lived in. I’m so popular _hair flip_! Funny story about the p78- I went out with a guy who is my technician assistant’s brother in law. We’ve been talking a while and he’s a very proper polite southern gent. He got a hotel room to visit me but we both knew I wouldn’t be sleeping there. We got drunk and decided I would, we changed into our pjs in the bathroom, went to sleep, and didn’t even cuddle. Eventually he put his arm around me and 30 min later we kissed for the first time. So we are making out, with our clothes on, kinda sorta dry humping like teenagers in their parents house, when I go to pull his dick out, touch it for less than 30 seconds before he throws me off of him and runs to the bathroom. He comes back and apologizes that it’s been so long he’s out of practice. He left to go bust a nut in the bathroom! So in the morning- we try again, he’s on top of me, my shirts off, he’s fingering me, and I go to rub him and he runs out again! I got two hand strokes in there- up/down… up down and BAM! That p78 is no joke 😉 ---
**Author:** ![LadyScientist](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/l/c57346/32.png) [@LadyScientist](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/LadyScientist)\ **Post date:** [January 1, 2017, 9:30pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/thoughts-from-a-pervert-the-journal/61458/306 "2017-01-01T21:30:40Z")
Oh last night with the p96 and p78 one girl said to me, “you’re the prettiest girl in all of (our town)!” ---
**Author:** ![justintime469](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/justintime469/32/1402_2.png) [@justintime469](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/justintime469)\ **Post date:** [January 2, 2017, 12:14am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/thoughts-from-a-pervert-the-journal/61458/307 "2017-01-02T00:14:03Z")
Great story as usual! What is up with these guys and getting off when you touch there dicks? You must have hands of magic! ---
**Author:** ![CelticPrince](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/celticprince/32/397_2.png) [@CelticPrince](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/CelticPrince)\ **Post date:** [January 3, 2017, 8:30pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/thoughts-from-a-pervert-the-journal/61458/308 "2017-01-03T20:30:10Z")
Hi LS, Was reading this and had to laugh…whats the deal with the guy going to the bathroom to blow his load? Shy? Too shy to blow in front (or back!😉 ) of you?? Am I reading this right? You bring him to the edge then he runs off to bathroom to finish?? I will admit Ive come prematurely a few times over the years. One time I was enduring a 2 month dry spell then I hooked up with an absolute beauty-- 10 out of 10…OK 11…and she was attacking me the minute we got into her apartment, tearing off her clothes, talking dirty to me, telling me what she is going to do to me, and she barely got it out of my pants and then POP! Uhhhh…sorry about that. Reload..Shit happens.. But I never heard of a guy finishing in the next room before… I know you like him, but maybe you dodged a bullet with this guy? Or maybe the P78 is the premature ejac molecule?? lol 🆒 ---
**Author:** ![bosshank](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/b/91b2a8/32.png) [@bosshank](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/bosshank)\ **Post date:** [January 3, 2017, 11:48pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/thoughts-from-a-pervert-the-journal/61458/309 "2017-01-03T23:48:06Z")
Seriously, what is wrong with these guys? Running away from a morning “wake me up”? Beating off in the bathroom when you have a real, live, willing girl waiting in bed? ---
**Author:** ![LadyScientist](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/l/c57346/32.png) [@LadyScientist](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/LadyScientist)\ **Post date:** [January 4, 2017, 3:13am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/thoughts-from-a-pervert-the-journal/61458/310 "2017-01-04T03:13:13Z")
No he didn’t run away to beat off! You guys missed the part where he is an overly polite southern gent, he didn’t want to cum all over me or the sheets, so he ran into the bathroom to cum in the sink? toilet paper? toilet? I dunno I didn’t follow him in there. I even said, “well, it’s not OUR bed to mess…” (referring to the hotel room) And JustinTime- I’m going to go with magical pussy, because both guys were fingering ME when they prematurely came. But not magical enough because I don’t ever get to keep the good ones \>:{ ---
**Author:** ![justintime469](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/justintime469/32/1402_2.png) [@justintime469](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/justintime469)\ **Post date:** [September 9, 2017, 2:34pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/thoughts-from-a-pervert-the-journal/61458/311 "2017-09-09T14:34:39Z")
> [@LadyScientist](#): > > No he didn’t run away to beat off! You guys missed the part where he is an overly polite southern gent, he didn’t want to cum all over me or the sheets, so he ran into the bathroom to cum in the sink? toilet paper? toilet? I dunno I didn’t follow him in there. I even said, “well, it’s not OUR bed to mess…” (referring to the hotel room) > > And JustinTime- I’m going to go with magical pussy, because both guys were fingering ME when they prematurely came. But not magical enough because I don’t ever get to keep the good ones \>:{ I miss reading this great journal and hope to see you around soon! I just had some ideas for women’s Olympic events like **Nut Buster** LOL I will think of some more! [Previous page](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/thoughts-from-a-pervert-the-journal/61458.md?page=15)