# Thoughts from a Pervert- The Journal **URL:** \ **Category:** Women's Journals\ **Created:** [March 24, 2014, 2:30am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/thoughts-from-a-pervert-the-journal/61458 "2014-03-24T02:30:58Z")\ **Posts on this page:** 20\ **Page:** 8
**Author:** ![monesmadedoit](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/monesmadedoit/32/325_2.png) [@monesmadedoit](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/monesmadedoit)\ **Post date:** [August 12, 2014, 5:36pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/thoughts-from-a-pervert-the-journal/61458/142 "2014-08-12T17:36:26Z")
> [@jett](#): > > LS.. Catching up on this post makes me horny. And happy. > > MMDI… 2.5 erone + vanilla + on pillow = calm sweet dreams. p94 too. same dosage..ish…good for PMS fersure That’s what I hear, ladies. Get you some…androstenone nanograms too, Jett. Us guys look forward to the softcore erotica. We just pretend to feign academic interest in mones. 😃 Interesting side note, given that Jett and LadyS both enjoy prolific use of the F’ck Bomb. A study found that females most frequently use “Excited” and “Shopping” in social media posts. Men used “F’ck,” and its various conjugations, and PS2 most often. I don’t doubt that either of you are all girl (God, I really hope so). The popularity of MX135/MX300 (which I presume is TAH heavy) is interesting. Perhaps it balances out more sexual aggressive tendencies? Maybe you’re already pumping out good amounts of androgen metabolites, such that “more delicate” [pheromone sprays](https://a314.com/product-category/spray-pheromones/) balance them. In other words, for a guy pumping out mega -enone, he really doesn’t need more. He needs social moderators. Ultimately, I’d like to develop some sort of a kit for females to use at different cycle points. At certain times, yes, I think erone would be quite good. I think a 1/4 strength IG in grapefruit or something for girls might be an idea. It should feel like a nice manly man hug. ---
**Author:** ![monesmadedoit](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/monesmadedoit/32/325_2.png) [@monesmadedoit](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/monesmadedoit)\ **Post date:** [August 12, 2014, 5:47pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/thoughts-from-a-pervert-the-journal/61458/143 "2014-08-12T17:47:49Z")
> [@girlfriday](#): > > LS… when I read your journal posts it’s almost like I’m reading something the younger version of me wrote. 🙂 > > One thing I notice is that it sounds like your guy really admires you. I TOTALLY get the Marilyn Monroe dominatrix analogy monesmadedoit gave. I see it as admiration, but Marilyn Monroe dominatrix really makes the point stick. > > Looking at the changes you’ve made and the stories you share, the MX300 and enone seems to be the dominatrix part. That gives me some head swirling ideas for MX300! If you drop the TAL from that mix, it would be way more Marilyn sex kitten. Kind of naked Marilyn. Real 50’s pinup girl. Feminine sexy. For women seeking women, the mix she has is what I’d use. If a girl wears that (the full mix including TAL) to a strip club, she’ll get pulled on stage or dragged backstage for some kind of orgy. ---
**Author:** ![LadyScientist](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/l/c57346/32.png) [@LadyScientist](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/LadyScientist)\ **Post date:** [August 12, 2014, 8:22pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/thoughts-from-a-pervert-the-journal/61458/144 "2014-08-12T20:22:49Z")
> [@monesmadedoit](#): > > If you drop the TAL from that mix, it would be way more Marilyn sex kitten. Kind of naked Marilyn. Real 50’s pinup girl. Feminine sexy. For women seeking women, the mix she has is what I’d use. If a girl wears that (the full mix including TAL) to a strip club, she’ll get pulled on stage or dragged backstage for some kind of orgy. well before the enone- a similar mix got the stripper girls all over me, to the point where if I tried to leave, they wouldn’t let me! CP: thanks for bringing my happy cloud back to reality 😕 Yes, I’m not sure if we will be able to be together in the next few years because we are both making huge decisions right now. and yes, he did mention that he would like to have kids someday. MOTHER FUCKER. I guess I’m secretly in denial about this one, because he’s so young that maybe he doesn’t realize the extent of his feelings. I also recognize that a perfect match doesn’t come around often and this might be the one thing I have to budge on. It’s not like I would be an awful mother or that I’d hate my children (the opposite), my main fear for having children is that they would take all my love/energy and there wouldn’t be enough to go around to my other passions, mostly the love of my life. But if children are the one thing I have to do to keep the love of my life-- I can see myself doing it as long as EVERYTHING else I want is there. Let’s cross that battle after I get him to be my BF and we are planning a future together. ---
**Author:** ![CelticPrince](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/celticprince/32/397_2.png) [@CelticPrince](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/CelticPrince)\ **Post date:** [August 14, 2014, 2:01pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/thoughts-from-a-pervert-the-journal/61458/145 "2014-08-14T14:01:13Z")
LS, enjoy your happy cloud, let it roll. There is always time to sort that other shit out. There is no magical timeline here, no deadlines. Women are having kids into their 40’s now, and you are what, 29? That deadline if you want to call it that, is over a decade away. Just let it happen at its own pace my dear. 🙂 ---
**Author:** ![LadyScientist](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/l/c57346/32.png) [@LadyScientist](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/LadyScientist)\ **Post date:** [August 14, 2014, 5:03pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/thoughts-from-a-pervert-the-journal/61458/146 "2014-08-14T17:03:14Z")
I got a “Hot”!! 2 sprays MX 300 500 ng enone cleavage 12.5 mcg TAL neck hairline (5 sprays of 2.5) The boy drunk dialed me for a booty call. We were actually supposed to make plans last night but he got carried away “are you mad that I went out drinking??” I wasn’t- it gave me time to clean up. He was WASTED when I showed up to his apt! Lol also didn’t mind Bc he was gushing hard! “I’m so embarrassed your hairs still wet, your breath tastes so sweet and I’m a mess” “That’s what you wear to clinic? Doctor? More like Erection!” Lol this doesn’t even make sense but I love it. We are having naughty steamy sex: “Ugh why are so hot?!” “You are so fucking hot omg” “You fuck like a fucking goddess!” My personal fave Post sex: “What a woman you are!” “I want the lights on so I can see you” “That ass tho!” This morning after he “explodes” all over me: he asks “oh you wanted me to clean that off?” Me: yeah, with your mouth Him: (laughs and wipes me off) Me: apparently other men can detect semen on you and can arouse them Bc it sends the message that you’re desirable and fertile. Him: so you want me to leave it on you just in time for your trip to nola? Me: no I’m going to behave and try to stay out of trouble Him: no don’t! Have fun it’s nola! Go crazy! Um excuse me? Did we just go from dating to casual sex in one night?! WHY?!?!? Last we spoke about this we made it clear that neither of us would sleep with anyone else. 😕 He is walking my dog one day while I’m gone which is more BF territory though. ---
**Author:** ![CelticPrince](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/celticprince/32/397_2.png) [@CelticPrince](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/CelticPrince)\ **Post date:** [August 14, 2014, 8:16pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/thoughts-from-a-pervert-the-journal/61458/147 "2014-08-14T20:16:08Z")
> [@](#): > > Um excuse me? Did we just go from dating to casual sex in one night?! WHY?!?!? > > Last we spoke about this we made it clear that neither of us would sleep with anyone else. 😕 > > He is walking my dog one day while I’m gone which is more BF territory though. Overthinking! Overthinking! Lalalalalalalala… Ok, he was blithering drunk the night before, and now its morning and he is probably still a little drunk, a little hung, a little tired, and a bit punchy. Not a great time to analyze every word. He just wants you to have fun. Thats all. Wow, you got it bad for this guy huh? 🙂 Oh yeah, if it was just a booty call/casual sex, there would be no dog walking from him. See? No worries.. ---
**Author:** ![LadyScientist](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/l/c57346/32.png) [@LadyScientist](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/LadyScientist)\ **Post date:** [August 14, 2014, 9:33pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/thoughts-from-a-pervert-the-journal/61458/148 "2014-08-14T21:33:17Z")
> [@CelticPrince](#): > > Overthinking! Overthinking! Lalalalalalalala… > … > He just wants you to have fun. Thats all. > > Wow, you got it bad for this guy huh? 🙂 UH YEAH, you think?! In the short time you have cyber known me, you gotta have figured out that my standards are ridiculous and most would tell me that I have unrealistic expectations when it comes to qualities in men and relationships. However, I’ve seen these traits in real people so I’m not letting go of them. HENCE----\> I’m going bizerk-0 nut job crazy lady on this guy (only secretly, he has no idea, I have NOOOO IDEA how I manage to keep it cool in front of him). now I just gotta get him to BF Status. ASAP. ---
**Author:** ![monesmadedoit](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/monesmadedoit/32/325_2.png) [@monesmadedoit](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/monesmadedoit)\ **Post date:** [August 24, 2014, 1:18pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/thoughts-from-a-pervert-the-journal/61458/149 "2014-08-24T13:18:34Z")
To test the vagina/nose hypothesis, you can try applying about 250 ng below the belt, under clothes, sort of laterally to the Illium. Around the crest. Note effects. [Transient receptor potential cation channel, member A1 - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia](http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Transient_receptor_potential_cation_channel,_member_A1) [Dimethyl sulfoxide - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia](http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dimethyl_sulfoxide) There is something going on with TAF and [P75](https://a314.com/product/p75/) re. craniofacial nerves. The garlic odor “referred,” if you will, via dermal application of DMSO. Your brain smells without scent. This and two or three other olfactory receptors (non-VNO) best explain mones right now. However, if there is some afferent that affects mood by topical application or if distal, nonolfactory receptors are expressed in other tissues outside the nose, that takes things to a whole other level. It’s not capillary or other absorption of mones. It’s a different nonolfactory system. Just test the 250 ng by itself on what would otherwise be a mones-free day. Frequent breaks are required to prevent tolerance to self effects of MX series anyway. ---
**Author:** ![LadyScientist](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/l/c57346/32.png) [@LadyScientist](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/LadyScientist)\ **Post date:** [August 27, 2014, 3:01am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/thoughts-from-a-pervert-the-journal/61458/150 "2014-08-27T03:01:45Z")
Mones in groups! I went on a week long vacation in 2 different cities with one of my girlfriends and then we met up with my sister at the end. GF: 31 yo white, really pretty, short, petite, fake blonde, extremely skinny/flat chested, crazy persona, also more of a “dude” in a prissy girl way. copper IUD. sister: 33 yo, lighter skinned version of me, brunette, really pretty, HUGE tits and ass, voluptous body, really approachable/goofy and fun, has PCOS so higher testosterone levels, but she’s the only one not on birth control. The first night I was wearing (this is basically what I gave all of us the whole week after that, sometimes 2 sprays MX300) 1 spray MX300 cleavage 5 mcg p78 wrists 12.5 mcg TAL My gf, who has not had sex in 8 months, tells me “I don’t know what it is about being around you, but I’ve been getting so horny! I feel like such a whore!” She ended up having a one night stand after we all went skinny dipping in the pool that night. She can count how many times she’s done that with strangers. Of course she knows about my mone usage and wants to try after hearing that I think her hornyness could be related. This week alone, she had sex with 4 different guys, one of which is married and has been married for 19 years. _GASP_ By the 3rd time of using them, she says she feels like they really affect her because she has more confidence and isn’t afraid to act on her physical arousal (she ALWAYS holds back and finds any reason to NOT like a guy). It also made her more interested in guys bc trust me, she WOULD not have found them attractive otherwise. My sister’s behavior was really interesting because my mother always described her as a quiet independent kid that didn’t talk much or get into any trouble, very “follow the leader” type of girl. But when we get together, we are LOUD, laugh constantly, and act really bossy with boys (she can be really rude sometimes). However, my gf is an EXTREMLY bossy girl who has the whole “NYer” thing down cold and it can be awfully rude (embarrassingly so!) I noticed my sister had a much more subdued personality around us with mones, she was willing to do anything, didn’t get mad at anything, and was very “go with the flow” instead of her normal “I’m the princess I want I want I want” I can’t help but think that something about this mix made my bossy gf the alpha and my sister followed second. I actually really enjoyed my sister this way, she is normally so hard to please and makes me do so many things for her, but she was much calmer and easy going! When we were all out together, in a city where everyone is pretty good- looking and dressed the same, we got stared at so hard, at first my sister and gf felt subconscious of their outfits or appearance. Seriously, you could burn holes through our clothes with everyone’s stares. I had to warn them that those looks are to be expected. Once I pointed out what to look for in other people’s behaviors, they were able to notice it right away. I like to take advantage of the free drinks. If a guy approached us, I would make them buy us all drinks. Interestingly enough, they both got hit on WAY more than me. I was really happy about this because they’ve both been struggling with self-esteem issues recently and I’d rather they get hit on than me, bc I was trying to be loyal to the #1crush. The guy I did hook up with (sorry #1 crush is in the dog house after ignoring me for 3 days despite a sensitive subject being reached), claimed that I was the prettiest in the whole group and he thinks guys were avoiding me because I may have been intimidating (yeah right.) My sister and I joined a bachelor party in their 3 bedroom hotel suite to smoke the green, while my gf was off with some dude. All the guys ignored me and harassed my sister to try to get her to show them her tits. She insisted that she wanted to see ALL of their dicks before she would show them her tits. Since only 3/5 guys dropped their pants, she refused. They threw a tantrum so finally I interjected, “what would I get if I showed you all my ass?” One guy said he’d give me a huge Magnum size bottle of champagne off their room service options that was just sitting on the table. So I made them line up against a wall, dropped my shorts and they all screamed. Retail for that bottle ended up being $350, so I’m sure room service must have cost them $2,500. I have a nice ass? LS’s harem update: 1. #1 crush is in the dog house. He warned me he would be really busy this week and the past week, but I’m not being understanding. I of all people should know that work gets crazy, but I also know that it takes a few seconds to respond to texts or to be open about certain things. I can’t help but wonder if he met someone while I was gone. I am being overly sensitive here bc I clearly like him in a dangerous way. He has apologized profusely about being MIA, called me back instantly when I said I wanted to catch up, and hasn’t been less “flirty” or anything. Just not available, which I was warned about, bc he is fucking busy. Girl heart doesn’t understand logic, hence DOG HOUSE. 2. Traveling love bunny is going to be in town in a couple of weeks! Just in time to repair my broken heart from #1 crush. We facetimed each other a few times while I was on vacation and he told me he still loves me and would move with me to the town I’m interested in relocating. (obvi this is part of that joke but not joke thing) Either way- I’m excited to see him. If things between #1 crush and I work out or even themselves out, I’m going to be honest with him about wanting to see Traveling Love Bunny while he is in town. ---
**Author:** ![LadyScientist](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/l/c57346/32.png) [@LadyScientist](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/LadyScientist)\ **Post date:** [August 30, 2014, 6:05am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/thoughts-from-a-pervert-the-journal/61458/151 "2014-08-30T06:05:06Z")
more success with #1crush! 2 sprays MX274 10 mcg TAL 2 mcg p75 Jeans, white halter top, black leather pumps, brown leather jacket So I called him out on his bullshit (ignoring me/neglecting me for about a week), we talked about it, I forgave him, and we moved on. I got to meet his best friend ever who is visiting from out of town last night and he got to meet one of my best girl friends. On the subway ride over, this drop dead gorgeous, tall, tan, insanely buff man with great hair sits next to me and smiles. I smile back and suddenly I’m all flustered and shy. I can see him trying to make eye contact with me and talk to me, but I can’t handle his hotness so I pretend like I’m not trying to look at him either. This nonsense goes on until his stop, he gets up and says “I absolutely love your shoes. You look fucking phenomenal. Seriously, Love it.” He keeps turning back around to look at me and smile and we both have this “Oh I wish I didn’t have to go yet” look- super longingly. It was the biggest ego boost ever. If I ever feel bad about my looks, I’m going to think about this hot man who clearly wanted to fuck me to no end. Anyway, I hug his friend when he introduces me to him so that the friend gets a whiff of my products (and I also want to make a good impression). Our friends get along well, and it’s really great because you can tell that both of us are trying really hard to connect with each others’ besties (awwwwww) So first chance he gets to pull me aside he apologizes again for his behavior (the majority of our little “tiff” was through texting, I’d prefer phone or in person, but when you’re in clinic all day it’s impossible to avoid). We have a real heart to heart about how he feels about me, tells me he knows I have guys lined up, and tells me how bad he feels about giving me the impression that he’s over me. I appreciated that he felt the need to confirm this with me as I definitely pulled back and had changed my mind about him a little bit. That talk put us right back to where we were and I was floating on cloud 9. We held hands as we walked down the street and I’ve never felt prouder in my life. The drunker we get, the more affectionate and sexual he gets (I’m impressed bc I don’t initiate PDA, especially around friends because I hate being that annoyingly cute couple). He refers to me as his “lady”-- getting my attention by calling out “My lady!” I responded with “My man!” Somehow we talk about how bad we want each other and he looks right into my eyes and says, “We have the hottest sex ever. Like the best sex of my life, seriously.” !!! At one point, we are flirting across the table or teasing each other or something cute, and we both lean in at the same time across the table to give each other a quick kiss and his friend says as he shakes his head in disbelief, “You two are ridiculous- you guys have crazy chemistry” My gf had to go home and the rest of us went back to my house to smoke and listen to records. I pour us some shots and his friend says “This girl is fucking rad, why didn’t we party with you last night?” I say, “Ask him!” My boo says “I fucking Love this girl! but it was your first night in town, wanted to spend alone time with you.” HE SAID HE LOVES ME! okay not for realsies but I’ll take it!! and can I get a pat on the back for getting the friend to like me? We all know boys do whatever their guy friends say, so if his bestie thinks we are a great match- I’m IN. When it was time for them to leave, the friend kept insisting that he stay, but he had clinic early this morning (I didn’t). The friend waited outside while my boo pushed me against the wall and we make out like crazy for a few minutes. Both totally wanting each other more than anything (it’s only been 2 weeks since we’ve seen each other) He finally leaves, texts me as soon as he gets home “miss youuuuuu” I wake up to him calling me (he never calls) at 11 am saying he wants to come over, his shift is almost over. Oh how I Love half day Fridays!!! I put on: 10 mcg Mol C 250 ng Enone 1 spray MX 300 I feel like enone is hitting me quicker and quicker with each time I use it. I worried that like other drugs, it would stop working before he got there so I put on another 250 ng enone seconds before he rang the bell. My crotch was EXPLODING. We barely had the chance to say hi because our tongues and hands were on each before we could even get any words out. He picked me up, slammed me on my bed and we hot naughty hangover sober sex that was mind blowing. omg Can I please KEEP THIS ONE?!??!!? He can last soooooo long and releases so much… stuff. ugh it’s the hottest thing ever. We fall asleep for an hour completely wrapped up in each other and I give him a present I brought back my trip ( a t shirt I thought would look hot on him). He totally loved it. While fucked up last night, he asked me over and over and over again if I’d go to Ezoo with him tomorrow. It’s expensive and totally not my scene, but all his friends are going and they are having a big BBQ before. I recognized that a) I don’t want him doing drugs without me at a big festival b) I want to meet his friends c) he wants to show me off and d) I’ve been hoping he’d ask me to go this whole time and I preemptively already bought clothes for it. This morning when I said I’d see him tomorrow, he acted like he didn’t remember what I was talking about. FUCK. so I texted him “sooo you asked me a million times to go tomorrow but you seemed like you didn’t know what I was talk about- do you still want me to come?” no response. 3 hours later, he calls me (wow twice in one day? Maybe I scared the shit out of him) and says he is buying the tickets now and wants to make sure I still want to go. so I would say we are on a track to being coupled up in no time. It’ll be 3 months in a little over a week. I have to be completely honest (when am I not?) that I’m totally losing my head over this guy. It is absolutely terrifying to like someone this much. and CP we talked about how my gf’s ex-boyfriend left her after 5 years to go make a baby with someone else 3 months later because he really wanted kids, and he said “I can’t relate to that, I can’t even imagine what that feels like” PHEW! no but seriously, I think he’s perfect for me and I think we are perfect together. Maybe it isn’t worth the risk fucking it up to see traveling love bunny. I thought that maybe it would give him the push to say “no don’t go see this guy, I want to be your boyfriend” while reminding him that I have options. But I think he’s seen enough guys hit on me in front of him to realize that I do get to have my pick and I won’t put up with BS. I think this little tiff scared him into stepping up his game with me. Bringing up another guy could send the message that I’m not as into him as I am and make him angry jealous- not good jealous. I was thinking of saying something along the lines of: “So, since you’re not my boyfriend I don’t feel like I have to ask for your permission, but I like you and respect you so I just wanna check in with you about something. I have a friend coming into town who I’ve been intimate with in the past, but we haven’t lived in the same town in a long time and probably never will. I’d like to see him and catch up with him, if that’s something you’re comfortable with.” I imagine he’ll ask whether I plan on sleeping with him or if we have real feelings for each other. This is where it gets tricky. I’m so into #1 crush I don’t feel the drive/crushing feeling with traveling love bunny. But I have a very special place in my heart for him and I know that he’s struggling with a very close loved one who is dying. I think I could resist the temptation of sleeping with him if we saw each other, but I also just miss him and don’t know if I’ll get a chance to see him again for a very long time. We have been purely friends this whole time until May of this year. Can anyone give me some feedback about what you think I should do about this? I have about 2 weeks until he gets into town. ---
**Author:** ![somechick03862](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/s/278dde/32.png) [@somechick03862](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/somechick03862)\ **Post date:** [August 30, 2014, 12:57pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/thoughts-from-a-pervert-the-journal/61458/152 "2014-08-30T12:57:55Z")
I think the guys will be better able to help you with this, but I am going to weigh in with my thoughts regarding traveling love bunny. I think if you can see him without it being sexual, that it would be fine. You seem to really like Crush #1, and that should give you the ability to resist temptation with tlb…You can see him as just friends, if it could be years before you see him again, and he is going through some difficulties, it seems reasonable that you would want to be there for him. You and your crush seem to be at a place in your relationship where it’s going to get real. I know it’s already real, but he seems like he realizes that he needs to make some kind of commitment, or he could lose you to one of the hordes of men who would take you in a heartbeat. I am rooting for you! He seems like a wonderful match for you. If you explain the situation, maybe soon , so as to give your crush some time to think about it, I think he will be understanding. Anyone with feelings should understand that you want to be a good friend. Good and thoughtful friends are hard to find, we should keep them when we do. I love your journal. Sometimes I wish I could be as ballsy as you. Like last night when my psycho ex texted me…anyway, good luck with it all. I look forward to hearing how it goes. ---
**Author:** ![somechick03862](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/s/278dde/32.png) [@somechick03862](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/somechick03862)\ **Post date:** [August 30, 2014, 1:18pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/thoughts-from-a-pervert-the-journal/61458/153 "2014-08-30T13:18:03Z")
> [@LadyScientist](#): > > well before the enone- a similar mix got the stripper girls all over me, to the point where if I tried to leave, they wouldn’t let me! > > CP: thanks for bringing my happy cloud back to reality 😕 Yes, I’m not sure if we will be able to be together in the next few years because we are both making huge decisions right now. and yes, he did mention that he would like to have kids someday. MOTHER FUCKER. I guess I’m secretly in denial about this one, because he’s so young that maybe he doesn’t realize the extent of his feelings. I also recognize that a perfect match doesn’t come around often and this might be the one thing I have to budge on. It’s not like I would be an awful mother or that I’d hate my children (the opposite), my main fear for having children is that they would take all my love/energy and there wouldn’t be enough to go around to my other passions, mostly the love of my life. But if children are the one thing I have to do to keep the love of my life-- I can see myself doing it as long as EVERYTHING else I want is there. Let’s cross that battle after I get him to be my BF and we are planning a future together. I just re-read this and remembered that I had wanted to reply to it. My ex pushed for kids, hard. He claimed he was going to be the most amazing father, all about the kids, do everything with them, play sports, snuggle babies, change diapers, etc…I was not as ready, but knew that I had a biological clock ticking, so I gave in and had kids. The minute my son was born, my ex stopped all love and affection. My son screamed all day and night, for 2.5 years. I walked the floors with him, I rocked in a chair and cried with him, I was trapped in the house with him because he hated the car, while my ex stalked Ebay. We had my daughter because I wanted another child, and I wanted them to have the same father. I am not a girl who jumps from one relationship to the next, so had I divorced my husband, it would have been a while before I had the chance for another baby anyway. So, my kids are 17 months apart. I have been divorced for 6 years. Having kids was something he wanted more than I did, but he sees them 4 days a month and I freaking ADORE them. We are so close, and have so much fun, and laugh, and play and enjoy each other so much! I don’t feel like I have missed out on anything to be their mom. Now that they are a little older (11 and 13) we can do pretty much anything we want. We have been on vacations, we have climbed mountains, we have gone to concerts and plays and museums, and ridden rollercoasters and trains, gone to baseball games and the beach. We have had an awesome time. Their asscrack of a father doesn’t even know how amazing his kids are. Their teachers email me to tell me what fantastic kids I have, how smart, funny and thoughtful they are. They get great grades, and are welcome wherever they go. I know you aren’t contemplating being a single mom. I am telling you this because if you have a family with your man, and you are a team, there is no reason that you can’t have it all. I am a single mom and I feel incredibly blessed. Every new stage in their lives brings joys and challenges. My daughter is the sweetest, most stubborn, contrary female I have ever know! But I wouldn’t trade her for anything. That assertiveness will take her places one day, so I deal with her spiritedness. She is wonderful. I sometimes stop and think about how amazing it is that I grew this little person deep down inside me, under my heart. That I made her. It’s quite an awe-inspiring feeling. My son is so smart! He told me in kindergarten that ‘school is too easy, it needs to be more challenging’. I told his teachers and we bumped him up to first grade work and he just soaked it up. His math skills are out of this world. He is a pain in the ass to his sister sometimes, but he loves her. He is sweet and affectionate to me. His teachers email me and tell me how he helps kids in class. There was one kid who got really upset and was crying about something and my son was so calming and empathetic that the teacher was really impressed and had to let me know. She stopped me in the grocery store after that and I told me what an amazing job I am doing with my kids. This means the world to me, because I feel like a shitty mom. My body will never be the same, I hate that I have stretch marks, but when I think that this body was the first home of my two kids, it makes those body changes easier to take. I know this is long and maybe you aren’t even thinking about this anymore, but I wanted you to know that sometimes when you don’t think you want something, or are not sure, it can turn into the best thing you ever did. Imagine how awesomely smart and gifted your kids would be!? ---
**Author:** ![CelticPrince](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/celticprince/32/397_2.png) [@CelticPrince](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/CelticPrince)\ **Post date:** [August 30, 2014, 4:28pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/thoughts-from-a-pervert-the-journal/61458/154 "2014-08-30T16:28:47Z")
> [@LadyScientist](#): > > 2 sprays MX274 > 10 mcg TAL > 2 mcg p75 > Jeans, white halter top, black leather pumps, brown leather jacket > > So I called him out on his bullshit (ignoring me/neglecting me for about a week), we talked about it, I forgave him, and we moved on. > > I got to meet his best friend ever who is visiting from out of town last night and he got to meet one of my best girl friends. > > On the subway ride over, this drop dead gorgeous, tall, tan, insanely buff man with great hair sits next to me and smiles. I smile back and suddenly I’m all flustered and shy. I can see him trying to make eye contact with me and talk to me, but I can’t handle his hotness so I pretend like I’m not trying to look at him either. This nonsense goes on until his stop, he gets up and says “I absolutely love your shoes. You look fucking phenomenal. Seriously, Love it.” He keeps turning back around to look at me and smile and we both have this “Oh I wish I didn’t have to go yet” look- super longingly. It was the biggest ego boost ever. If I ever feel bad about my looks, I’m going to think about this hot man who clearly wanted to fuck me to no end. > > Anyway, I hug his friend when he introduces me to him so that the friend gets a whiff of my products (and I also want to make a good impression). Our friends get along well, and it’s really great because you can tell that both of us are trying really hard to connect with each others’ besties (awwwwww) > > So first chance he gets to pull me aside he apologizes again for his behavior (the majority of our little “tiff” was through texting, I’d prefer phone or in person, but when you’re in clinic all day it’s impossible to avoid). We have a real heart to heart about how he feels about me, tells me he knows I have guys lined up, and tells me how bad he feels about giving me the impression that he’s over me. I appreciated that he felt the need to confirm this with me as I definitely pulled back and had changed my mind about him a little bit. That talk put us right back to where we were and I was floating on cloud 9. We held hands as we walked down the street and I’ve never felt prouder in my life. > > The drunker we get, the more affectionate and sexual he gets (I’m impressed bc I don’t initiate PDA, especially around friends because I hate being that annoyingly cute couple). He refers to me as his “lady”-- getting my attention by calling out “My lady!” I responded with “My man!” Somehow we talk about how bad we want each other and he looks right into my eyes and says, “We have the hottest sex ever. Like the best sex of my life, seriously.” !!! > > At one point, we are flirting across the table or teasing each other or something cute, and we both lean in at the same time across the table to give each other a quick kiss and his friend says as he shakes his head in disbelief, “You two are ridiculous- you guys have crazy chemistry” > > My gf had to go home and the rest of us went back to my house to smoke and listen to records. I pour us some shots and his friend says “This girl is fucking rad, why didn’t we party with you last night?” I say, “Ask him!” My boo says “I fucking Love this girl! but it was your first night in town, wanted to spend alone time with you.” > > HE SAID HE LOVES ME! okay not for realsies but I’ll take it!! > > and can I get a pat on the back for getting the friend to like me? We all know boys do whatever their guy friends say, so if his bestie thinks we are a great match- I’m IN. > > When it was time for them to leave, the friend kept insisting that he stay, but he had clinic early this morning (I didn’t). The friend waited outside while my boo pushed me against the wall and we make out like crazy for a few minutes. Both totally wanting each other more than anything (it’s only been 2 weeks since we’ve seen each other) He finally leaves, texts me as soon as he gets home “miss youuuuuu” > > I wake up to him calling me (he never calls) at 11 am saying he wants to come over, his shift is almost over. Oh how I Love half day Fridays!!! > > I put on: > 10 mcg Mol C > 250 ng Enone > 1 spray MX 300 > > I feel like enone is hitting me quicker and quicker with each time I use it. I worried that like other drugs, it would stop working before he got there so I put on another 250 ng enone seconds before he rang the bell. My crotch was EXPLODING. > > We barely had the chance to say hi because our tongues and hands were on each before we could even get any words out. He picked me up, slammed me on my bed and we hot naughty hangover sober sex that was mind blowing. omg Can I please KEEP THIS ONE?!??!!? > > He can last soooooo long and releases so much… stuff. ugh it’s the hottest thing ever. We fall asleep for an hour completely wrapped up in each other and I give him a present I brought back my trip ( a t shirt I thought would look hot on him). He totally loved it. > > While fucked up last night, he asked me over and over and over again if I’d go to Ezoo with him tomorrow. It’s expensive and totally not my scene, but all his friends are going and they are having a big BBQ before. I recognized that a) I don’t want him doing drugs without me at a big festival b) I want to meet his friends c) he wants to show me off and d) I’ve been hoping he’d ask me to go this whole time and I preemptively already bought clothes for it. This morning when I said I’d see him tomorrow, he acted like he didn’t remember what I was talking about. FUCK. so I texted him “sooo you asked me a million times to go tomorrow but you seemed like you didn’t know what I was talk about- do you still want me to come?” no response. 3 hours later, he calls me (wow twice in one day? Maybe I scared the shit out of him) and says he is buying the tickets now and wants to make sure I still want to go. > > so I would say we are on a track to being coupled up in no time. It’ll be 3 months in a little over a week. I have to be completely honest (when am I not?) that I’m totally losing my head over this guy. It is absolutely terrifying to like someone this much. and CP we talked about how my gf’s ex-boyfriend left her after 5 years to go make a baby with someone else 3 months later because he really wanted kids, and he said “I can’t relate to that, I can’t even imagine what that feels like” PHEW! > > no but seriously, I think he’s perfect for me and I think we are perfect together. Maybe it isn’t worth the risk fucking it up to see traveling love bunny. I thought that maybe it would give him the push to say “no don’t go see this guy, I want to be your boyfriend” while reminding him that I have options. But I think he’s seen enough guys hit on me in front of him to realize that I do get to have my pick and I won’t put up with BS. I think this little tiff scared him into stepping up his game with me. Bringing up another guy could send the message that I’m not as into him as I am and make him angry jealous- not good jealous. I was thinking of saying something along the lines of: > > “So, since you’re not my boyfriend I don’t feel like I have to ask for your permission, but I like you and respect you so I just wanna check in with you about something. I have a friend coming into town who I’ve been intimate with in the past, but we haven’t lived in the same town in a long time and probably never will. I’d like to see him and catch up with him, if that’s something you’re comfortable with.” > > I imagine he’ll ask whether I plan on sleeping with him or if we have real feelings for each other. This is where it gets tricky. I’m so into #1 crush I don’t feel the drive/crushing feeling with traveling love bunny. But I have a very special place in my heart for him and I know that he’s struggling with a very close loved one who is dying. I think I could resist the temptation of sleeping with him if we saw each other, but I also just miss him and don’t know if I’ll get a chance to see him again for a very long time. We have been purely friends this whole time until May of this year. > > Can anyone give me some feedback about what you think I should do about this? I have about 2 weeks until he gets into town. LS, Regarding LoveBunny, of course you can go see him. From what you have written, you guys are not exclusive boyfriend/girlfriend yet. Close…but not official yet?? I would go see him, but I would not necessarily mention it to Crushboy, as no matter how cool he is, he won’t like it. As far as hooking up with Bunnyboy, that is your deal. Your decision. Obviously you don’t have to if he wants to, but since you’re not exclusive yet with Crushy, all bets are off IMO. Plus Bunny will be hopping off again soon, so it may be the only chance to see him again for a while. Just lay off the sexual pheros if you decide to go see him plutonically. Is that even a word??🙂 ---
**Author:** ![monesmadedoit](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/monesmadedoit/32/325_2.png) [@monesmadedoit](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/monesmadedoit)\ **Post date:** [August 31, 2014, 2:35pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/thoughts-from-a-pervert-the-journal/61458/155 "2014-08-31T14:35:45Z")
> [@](#): > > Can anyone give me some feedback about what you think I should do about this? I have about 2 weeks until he gets into town. General feedback. It’s OK to use TAH-based mixes here. A touch of -enone is OK. A man can project a player vibe, and so can a woman. P96, for example, doesn’t seem to favor high -enone. Are you signalling pair bonding or flings? You must choose a signature. If it’s bonding, IH, P74, P96, etc. + TAH MX’s and a dash of -enone. Adding TAL or [P75](https://pheromonelabs.com/product/p75/) will confuse it. IH tends to be more mental bonding than emotional. It gets people thinking on the same wave. Use the TAH MX + -enone + 1-2 sprays of 2X IH TOGO. The benefit of IH is the raw insight into true motives and honest answers. Because men, frankly, lie often. Use perfumer’s alcohol to cut that -enone strength and get greater control. 75-250 nano is the difference between slight arousal and f’ck me now on the subway platform. Since the dudes aren’t wearing mones…evolution and genetics will find Mr. Right, based upon his mone signature. Don’t allow your own to perturb nature. Also, whether you share core values. If you are a traveler and he is a housefrau, it doesn’t work. This combination social science and biology works. You are mixing prowl/alpha mixes and nesting ones. Choose one or the other. Do me a favor and recap what you have. I have to look up the MX’s since these are reboots of older formulas. I’m going to say IH should work with about any TAH formula, e.g. IS/B, etc. You can experiment with IS/B or the TAH products + IH + -enone. Those are your variables. Use fine tuning of the -enone and IH. Key Point: TAH products really don’t signal clubbing/single and looking. TAL does. It’s very hard for me to test some things. My signature is mostly 314. Throwing aggressive stuff on it confuses people. It kills the alpha attraction. 314 is not a jerk. You can use -enone, but not jerk molecules, which is what P75 is. It’s spins peoples’ heads in circles. You are going to have to choose a single-looking or couple-not looking sig. and one for business/professional. A314 + high -enone hits a home run, if it hits. But it will prolly fail 90%, since the alpha provider conflicts with the -enone player. Women want either husband or f’ck buddy. Not both. They don’t want baby daddy banging random lays. They want daddy’s paycheck and penis at home in a drawer–and they have the only key. ---
**Author:** ![LadyScientist](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/l/c57346/32.png) [@LadyScientist](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/LadyScientist)\ **Post date:** [September 2, 2014, 1:04am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/thoughts-from-a-pervert-the-journal/61458/156 "2014-09-02T01:04:21Z")
Met the friends! Before I report, just a few things: somechick: thank you for taking the time to write such a well thought response to my whole not wanting children thing. I truly appreciate all that you said, it means a lot to me that you opened and shared so much. Also, you are totally living my alter fantasy life, a huge barn on a lot of land, dogs, trucks, it’s the American dream. MMDI: I trust you with everything and I always heed your advice/suggestions, but I’m sorry I disagree with you a little. I think I’ve beaten this topic to the ground with the whole dichotomy of a sexual woman not being marriage material. Which is kinda what you are saying, that you can’t be both and using the opposite “vibes” in mones can confuse the target and send no message if not a wrong one. However, I personally believe that mones can enhance your natural signature and you should pick ones that emphasize certain qualities about yourself that already exist. I am two very different things: kinda slutty player and kinda super wifey material. I think this works for me because the guy that’s going to be ok with that is the only guy I can have any real potential with. Also, I’m still experimenting with what these products actually do; I don’t think it’s a be all end all black and white game-- there is a science to it but I don’t think it is that predictable. I’d like to see for myself how they affect each other and my “fingerprint”. Sure, is it risky with my #1crush? absolutely; but I don’t think I’m capable of creating irreversible damage. But then again, I could be underestimating the power of these things. 1 spray MX300 10 mcg P74 7.5 mcg Mol L 2 mcg p75 Pink halter open in the front exposing pink sequin bikini top, blue shorts, sneakers. Going to Ezoo with all his friends for the first time. I was def dressed way too slutty to meet his friends for the first time. But this party is like a rave with chicks walking around half-naked, so even though I looked really sexy, I was still more sophisticated slutty than the other girls (if that’s even possible). I was a hit, I think maybe his friends liked me too much bc they were openly flirting with me and I had to say “You know I’m with (name) right?” I was also the ONLY girl in his friend circle of 10 guys. The music festival was def a sausage fest. Only one of his friends teased me about being older than him, but it was pretty subtle. One of the friends said immediately after meeting me “You’re (name)? So good to finally meet you! I’ve heard so much about you. (Name) talks about you all the time!” This kinda floored me! I wasn’t expecting his friends to know about me. So sweet, my heart melted a little. We all got along perfectly and we both talked about trying really hard not to let one of his friends feel like a third wheel. I was on a mission and got 2 smoking hot girls to dance/party with us so his best friend was def entertained. (so much easier to pick up girls with mones) We even tried to meet up the next day which would have made it 3 days of hanging out in one weekend (most ever). I feel like since he introduced me to all his friends, we’ve reached a deeper level in our relationship. The next day I went to one of my favorite outdoor parties and forgot to spray any products. OMG- hit me like a ton of bricks. NO ONE hit on me. NOT ONE PERSON. I’m usually a hit at these parties, the people are so good looking and everyone I smiled at/tried to talk to, did NOT LIKE me back- AT ALL. I looked super hot too, brand new outfit, super fashionable. Guys straight up ignored me after I was nice to them. One guy who did respond, joined up with my gf and I, then went straight to flirting with her like crazy. WTF. I’m not used to not getting all the attention. It hit my ego really hard. I guess sometimes you just have off days. (I did just get my favorite time of the month, so it’s possible that no amount of fake pheromones could have hid my lack off fertility. ---
**Author:** ![monesmadedoit](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/monesmadedoit/32/325_2.png) [@monesmadedoit](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/monesmadedoit)\ **Post date:** [September 2, 2014, 5:55am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/thoughts-from-a-pervert-the-journal/61458/157 "2014-09-02T05:55:24Z")
Informative report. Thanks. ---
**Author:** ![CelticPrince](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/celticprince/32/397_2.png) [@CelticPrince](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/CelticPrince)\ **Post date:** [September 2, 2014, 4:20pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/thoughts-from-a-pervert-the-journal/61458/158 "2014-09-02T16:20:57Z")
> [@](#): > > Also, I’m still experimenting with what these products actually do; I don’t think it’s a be all end all black and white game-- there is a science to it but I don’t think it is that predictable. I’d like to see for myself how they affect each other and my “fingerprint”. Sure, is it risky with my #1crush? absolutely; but I don’t think I’m capable of creating irreversible damage. But then again, I could be underestimating the power of these things. LS, I agree wholeheartedly with what you said here. It can be quite unpredictable, probably because there are so many “moving parts”, or variables. There are lots of things you can control, but there are many that you cannot, such as your target’s moods, and environmental situations like the “sausagefest” that you mentioned. If there are way less people of the opposite sex in the place you are, there are less chances to interact with them and have your mones help you out. Another variable is weather. Are you inside or outside? Is it windy? Etc. Does that mean that wearing pheromones is futile? Oh hell no. It just means that you need to stay flexible in your approach. In some ways, wearing pheros is like fishing. If one bait is not working, try a different color, or a different size, or a completely different lure. If none of that works, try fishing in a new location. But the key is to know what has worked in the past in the same situation, to stack the deck so to speak, so that you have good outcomes more often than not. You also use the right bait for the type of fishing you are doing. You dont use salmon lures if you are fishing for bass. Same with mones. Stay flexible, dont be afraid to switch it up if it is not working, keep track of what is working (journals, reports) and dont be afraid to try something brand new. ---
**Author:** ![monesmadedoit](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/monesmadedoit/32/325_2.png) [@monesmadedoit](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/monesmadedoit)\ **Post date:** [September 3, 2014, 1:23am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/thoughts-from-a-pervert-the-journal/61458/159 "2014-09-03T01:23:40Z")
[Reporting standards for the ladies: why detailed research reports matter](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/reporting-standards/49122) E.g. MX300 + enone 50 nanograms = ? MX300 + P75 250 nanograms = ? New Test MX ? = MX800 ? = MX300 + enone 50 nanograms ? MX801 = Grapefruit, MX802 = [Blue Summer](https://a314.com/product-category/scented/blue-summer/), MX803 = Neroli. MX 803 + Success = New Consumer Product. Androtics = happy. Girls = happy. Guys = laid. World = good. ---
**Author:** ![LadyScientist](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/l/c57346/32.png) [@LadyScientist](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/LadyScientist)\ **Post date:** [September 3, 2014, 2:46am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/thoughts-from-a-pervert-the-journal/61458/160 "2014-09-03T02:46:25Z")
> [@monesmadedoit](#): > > [Reporting standards for men: detailed reports, and what still needs testing - #7 by John\_Sebastian](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/reporting-standards/49123/7) > > E.g. > > MX300 + enone 50 nanograms = ? > MX300 + P75 250 nanograms = ? > New Test MX ? = MX800 ? = MX300 + enone 50 nanograms ? > MX801 = Grapefruit, MX802 = Blue Summer, MX803 = Neroli. > > MX 803 + Success = New Consumer Product. > > Androtics = happy. > > Girls = happy. > > Guys = laid. > > World = good. point taken- will write more on those isolated mixes for more concrete evidence. Thank you! ---
**Author:** ![monesmadedoit](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/monesmadedoit/32/325_2.png) [@monesmadedoit](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/monesmadedoit)\ **Post date:** [September 4, 2014, 5:39am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/thoughts-from-a-pervert-the-journal/61458/161 "2014-09-04T05:39:04Z")
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