# Tigerlilly's Reports **URL:** \ **Category:** Women's Journals\ **Created:** [March 2, 2009, 7:48pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/tigerlillys-reports/26666 "2009-03-02T19:48:32Z")\ **Posts on this page:** 20\ **Page:** 17
**Author:** ![Tigerlilly](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/tigerlilly/32/2257_2.png) [@Tigerlilly](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/Tigerlilly)\ **Post date:** [May 25, 2009, 8:33pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/tigerlillys-reports/26666/321 "2009-05-25T20:33:38Z")
Ahhh, gotcha. šŸ˜‰ Me thinks someone likes to play with fireā€¦ hey - I just noticedā€¦ you have mx292 in your stash? Howā€™s it working for you? What have you been able to get off of it? ---
**Author:** ![Xiphoid](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/xiphoid/32/1852_2.png) [@Xiphoid](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/Xiphoid)\ **Post date:** [May 25, 2009, 9:00pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/tigerlillys-reports/26666/322 "2009-05-25T21:00:22Z")
> [@Tigerlilly](#): > > Ahhh, gotcha. šŸ˜‰ Me thinks someone likes to play with fireā€¦ > > hey - I just noticedā€¦ you have mx292 in your stash? Howā€™s it working for you? What have you been able to get off of it? I donā€™t play with fireā€¦ Iā€™ve got those flames very well controlled šŸ˜ƒ Itā€™s the bitch in me wanting to drive him nutzā€¦Whatā€™s that they say ā€œHell has no fury like a woman scornedā€ šŸ˜› I havenā€™t tried the Mx292 yetā€¦TUTH is very potent in the ā€œhappy sauceā€ department for me & I donā€™t need any help there when I have noone to take it out ā€¦if Mx292 is anything like TUTHā€¦well, I think Iā€™ll leave that for when I find myself a new victim šŸ™„ ---
**Author:** ![Tigerlilly](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/tigerlilly/32/2257_2.png) [@Tigerlilly](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/Tigerlilly)\ **Post date:** [May 27, 2009, 6:24pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/tigerlillys-reports/26666/323 "2009-05-27T18:24:11Z")
Out at dinner last night (not with him), I realized that I really, _really_ like Texas McBluesā€¦ I really like him. A lot. I wanted to be with him, right then. I like his humor, his outlook on life. I like his personality. I like his smile. I like his wicked teasing. I like his constant yearning for more meaning and purpose to life. I like his view of the ā€œbigger picture.ā€ I _really_ like him. Though we arenā€™t ā€œa coupleā€ or ā€œexclusiveā€ or anything of the sortā€¦ we just go on very fun datesā€¦ and enjoy our time togetherā€¦ I realize that I like him enough to where I want to give all of my time and energy to him. I dont want to date anyone else. I only want to be with him, right now. ---
**Author:** ![bosshank](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/b/91b2a8/32.png) [@bosshank](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/bosshank)\ **Post date:** [May 28, 2009, 12:08pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/tigerlillys-reports/26666/324 "2009-05-28T12:08:15Z")
> [@Tigerlilly](#): > > Out at dinner last night (not with him), I realized that I really, _really_ like Texas McBluesā€¦ > > I dont want to date anyone else. I only want to be with him, right now. Sounds like Tex has some pheromones of his own ā€¦ lol. šŸ˜ƒ ---
**Author:** ![Lor](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/lor/32/759_2.png) [@Lor](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/Lor)\ **Post date:** [May 28, 2009, 12:50pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/tigerlillys-reports/26666/325 "2009-05-28T12:50:40Z")
> [@Tigerlilly](#): > > Out at dinner last night (not with him), I realized that I really, _really_ like Texas McBluesā€¦ > > I really like him. A lot. > > I wanted to be with him, right then. > > I like his humor, his outlook on life. I like his personality. I like his smile. I like his wicked teasing. I like his constant yearning for more meaning and purpose to life. I like his view of the ā€œbigger picture.ā€ > > I _really_ like him. > > Though we arenā€™t ā€œa coupleā€ or ā€œexclusiveā€ or anything of the sortā€¦ we just go on very fun datesā€¦ and enjoy our time togetherā€¦ I realize that I like him enough to where I want to give all of my time and energy to him. > > I dont want to date anyone else. I only want to be with him, right now. ohh my _gawdddd._ _disgusting_. _slaps Tigerlily across face_ SNAP OUT OF IT WOMAN ! you have caught that disgusting love thing. you have the gear, couldnt you have worn a mask??? _sigh_ we need to get you help,stat. šŸ™‚ ---
**Author:** ![bosshank](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/b/91b2a8/32.png) [@bosshank](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/bosshank)\ **Post date:** [May 28, 2009, 2:35pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/tigerlillys-reports/26666/326 "2009-05-28T14:35:28Z")
> [@Lor](#): > > ohh my _gawdddd._ > > _disgusting_. > > you have the gear, couldnt you have worn a mask??? > > we need to get you help,stat. LOL. šŸ™„ Make her watch alternating runs of Bridezillas and those shows where they show babies being born for24 hours. That should help fix things. šŸ˜› ---
**Author:** ![Xiphoid](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/xiphoid/32/1852_2.png) [@Xiphoid](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/Xiphoid)\ **Post date:** [May 28, 2009, 4:23pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/tigerlillys-reports/26666/327 "2009-05-28T16:23:16Z")
> [@Tigerlilly](#): > > Out at dinner last night (not with him), I realized that I really, _really_ like Texas McBluesā€¦ > > I really like him. A lot. > > I like his humor, his outlook on life. I like his personality. I like his smile. I like his wicked teasing. I like his constant yearning for more meaning and purpose to life. I like his view of the ā€œbigger picture.ā€ > > I _really_ like him. > > I dont want to date anyone else. I only want to be with him, right now. You go girl!!! šŸ˜ƒ ---
**Author:** ![Tigerlilly](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/tigerlilly/32/2257_2.png) [@Tigerlilly](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/Tigerlilly)\ **Post date:** [May 28, 2009, 4:29pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/tigerlillys-reports/26666/328 "2009-05-28T16:29:18Z")
GAAAAHHH!!! šŸ˜® šŸ˜® šŸ˜® BOSSHANK! Whyā€™d you have to go and ruin my day like that! Ack - I think I am going to be nauseousā€¦ No babies! Never! Never!! _moans_ I knooowwwwwā€¦ I knooowwwwā€¦ Iā€™ve caught the one thing I didnā€™t want to catch! Ugh, I do though - I really like him. Itā€™s most disquieting. I didnā€™t really care if I got a crackberry message nightly or not - it was a great pick me up and made me smile before. Now, I find myself waiting for it, a nightly reminder that I am on his mind like heā€™s on mine. I didnā€™t plan my week(ends) around his homework schedule. Now, I try to schedule my busy stuff to the times I know he is also busy, so best to maximize our other times together. When did I start keeping a schedule of his work week? When did I start checking in with his big presentations and conferences? When did I become his champion and cheerleader for his masters thesis? _sigh_ Crap. Iā€™ve definitely fallen for him. Things are still swirling in a high wind, so Iā€™m not quite sure how it will all play out. Still have to take it day by day, still have to let it unfold. ---
**Author:** ![Lor](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/lor/32/759_2.png) [@Lor](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/Lor)\ **Post date:** [May 29, 2009, 3:49pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/tigerlillys-reports/26666/329 "2009-05-29T15:49:09Z")
just enjoy it. its going to be this awesome for atleast another few years. at about year 6, youā€™ll be holding a pillow over his head saying ā€œshould i or shouldnt i ???ā€ for now, just enjoy it. šŸ˜ƒ ---
**Author:** ![bosshank](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/b/91b2a8/32.png) [@bosshank](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/bosshank)\ **Post date:** [May 29, 2009, 3:54pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/tigerlillys-reports/26666/330 "2009-05-29T15:54:09Z")
> [@Lor](#): > > at about year 6, > youā€™ll be holding a pillow over his head saying > ā€œshould i or shouldnt i ???ā€ LOL. The cold blast of reality ā€¦ šŸ˜®šŸ˜› ---
**Author:** ![Tigerlilly](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/tigerlilly/32/2257_2.png) [@Tigerlilly](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/Tigerlilly)\ **Post date:** [May 29, 2009, 5:23pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/tigerlillys-reports/26666/331 "2009-05-29T17:23:51Z")
Meh - Iā€™m divorced. Iā€™ve been through the spiking his dinner with arsenic phase. šŸ˜‰ Learned a lot about what to do and not do, and how to keep the _love that you want to stick around_ alive. And how to walk away when itā€™s not. ---
**Author:** ![Lor](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/lor/32/759_2.png) [@Lor](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/Lor)\ **Post date:** [May 29, 2009, 5:45pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/tigerlillys-reports/26666/332 "2009-05-29T17:45:50Z")
> [@](#): > > Learned a lot about what to do and not do, and how to keep the _love that you want to stick around_ alive. > > And how to walk away when itā€™s not. ::in Mc Coy-like voice:: heā€™s dead, Jim. ---
**Author:** ![Tigerlilly](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/tigerlilly/32/2257_2.png) [@Tigerlilly](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/Tigerlilly)\ **Post date:** [May 29, 2009, 6:05pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/tigerlillys-reports/26666/333 "2009-05-29T18:05:43Z")
LOLOLOLOLOL Ahahahaha!!! šŸ˜ƒ most definitely!! ---
**Author:** ![Flirtatious](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/flirtatious/32/2270_2.png) [@Flirtatious](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/Flirtatious)\ **Post date:** [May 29, 2009, 8:05pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/tigerlillys-reports/26666/334 "2009-05-29T20:05:19Z")
Actually it sounds quite great šŸ™‚ Just have fun šŸ˜‰ ---
**Author:** ![Tigerlilly](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/tigerlilly/32/2257_2.png) [@Tigerlilly](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/Tigerlilly)\ **Post date:** [May 30, 2009, 8:31pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/tigerlillys-reports/26666/335 "2009-05-30T20:31:55Z")
Well, fuck. Had a great brunch this morning with Texas McBlues. Laughing, fun, great seeing him again. Good times. Wore 4 sprays I/Honesty x2 šŸ˜® , EST + P86 Somewhere around here recently, we were talking about betanol being a emotional connecter - brings out your emotional states and can highlight them for you. As if the Clue Bus suddenly swings to a halt outside the movie theater, lights shining on the headline feature, ā€œYouā€™re fallen for him, dumbass!!ā€ Or, errr, is that just me? šŸ™„ He was as _happy_ and _bouncy_ and _fun_ as I have seen him in a long time. He was fun, friendly, connected and very happy. talked at length about his week, his work, his schooling. Chatted back and forth about our respective consulting thingys - very seriously, for the first time, mentioned linking up professionally, in a more permanent arena. Asked to talk a long weekend getaway with me - sometime very soon. Betanol = happy?? Or _in touch_ with your inner happy?? Heā€™s a great investigator. (no joke - really is top notch.) So I teased him about refusing to ā€œreadā€ me, as ā€œapparentlyā€ heā€™s ace at that. He veers off suddenly, saying that he refuses to ā€œreadā€ anyone he has a personal relationship with, etc. I laugh in his face - what, like you arenā€™t releasing your ā€œsuper powersā€ or something? It gets very deep, very quick - No, he says - he just likes to let everything unfold as it naturally can, as it naturally should. let it progress organically, grow on its own. Donā€™t pressure, force, expect, etc. Just let it _be._ Let people come to _you_ with their ā€œstuffā€ when theyā€™re ready to reveal it - dont ā€œreadā€ it out of them. (considering Iā€™ve been reading him like a paperback book, that was a bit of a small slap in the faceā€¦) Let things unfold. See where they go. He then leaned forward, looked me in the eye, and told me, ā€œIā€™m a very good listener, too.ā€ šŸ˜• Crap. So now, the betanol is hitting me, and I am reeling a bit - ā€œthingsā€ have unfolded for me in such a way that _I_ care for him, kinda alot. Iā€™m wondering how ā€œthingsā€ have unfolded for him, as well. I say nothing. Iā€™m not about to get into ā€œThe Talk.ā€ We have not yet been _intimate._ Iā€™ve been pondering that - _that_ occurrence will now _mean_ a significant thing to meā€¦ Wonder how it will ā€œplay out/unfoldā€ for him too. šŸ™„ ---
**Author:** ![diamond](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/diamond/32/859_2.png) [@diamond](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/diamond)\ **Post date:** [May 30, 2009, 10:51pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/tigerlillys-reports/26666/336 "2009-05-30T22:51:00Z")
Right Miss analyst, switch off the brain and forget what you do day to day.Put the manuals and books away. Start thinking like a woman and plan your strategy based on feminine wiles ( ably assisted by the magic blue bottles of course šŸ˜ƒ) Time to face facts, youā€™ve fallen, heā€™s fallen and, seeing as you are both lying down already I reckon itā€™s time to test the structural integrity of that little tent of yours. Have fun girl, youā€™ve earnt it! ---
**Author:** ![Lor](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/lor/32/759_2.png) [@Lor](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/Lor)\ **Post date:** [May 30, 2009, 11:05pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/tigerlillys-reports/26666/337 "2009-05-30T23:05:06Z")
at some point in his life he has realized that we are more than our skills and our jobs. heā€™s lost his label, and has decided he is a human trying to get to know another human. cool. more than this he is obviously taking his time with you, which only equates to _no_ games and _no_ quickies. id mimick his strategy if _you_ want what i think _he_ wants (some permanancy to the relationship?) ---
**Author:** ![Tigerlilly](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/tigerlilly/32/2257_2.png) [@Tigerlilly](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/Tigerlilly)\ **Post date:** [May 31, 2009, 12:35am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/tigerlillys-reports/26666/338 "2009-05-31T00:35:34Z")
> [@diamond](#): > > Right Miss analyst, switch off the brain and forget what you do day to day.Put the manuals and books away. > > Start thinking like a woman and plan your strategy based on feminine wiles ( ably assisted by the magic blue bottles of course šŸ˜ƒ) > [@Lor](#): > > at some point in his life he has realized that we are more than our skills and our jobs. > heā€™s lost his label, > and has decided he is a human trying to get to know another human. > cool. I think you both missed the point of the post above - it wasnā€™t to showcase my analytical skills, or his desires for interpersonal communication - Nope, mostly just confusion over whether or not the betanol was an instigator for that. it certainly sent my emotional state into a doozy this afternoon. I definitely got in touch _my_ feelings on the issue. And, sometimes, our skills and our jobs are what keeps us alive - makes it very hard to shake that. When you dont truly know if the person you are meeting will kill you on sight or shake your hand with a smile - you learn to apply it to everyone, at all times, no exceptions. Also, wtf with the ā€œgood listenerā€ bit? šŸ˜• > [@Diamond](#): > > Time to face facts, youā€™ve fallen, heā€™s fallen and, seeing as you are both lying down already I reckon itā€™s time to test the structural integrity of that little tent of yours. You, sir, should know that I do _not_ actually know this. yes, i have fallen for him. his emotional state is still unknown. There are _other factors_ at work here. I do not want to drag them out into the public forum. All i will say is - I refuse to be someones plaything. Or a distraction. Emotional entanglements with a previous relationship must be dealt with prior to engaging in another one. End of. The fact that that is a question here.. šŸ˜  ā˜¹ šŸ˜• > [@Lor](#): > > more than this > he is obviously taking his time with you, > which only equates to _no_ games and _no_ quickies. > > id mimick his strategy if _you_ want what i think _he_ wants > (some permanancy to the relationship?) I do not play games. I am very up front and open. I say exactly what is on my mind. (literally - Iā€™ve been accused of being an info dump before.) SO no feminine wiles, either. At times, it takes me a while to find out what is on my mind. ie, this morning - had an emotional (internal) reaction to his words. Didnā€™t reveal it externally. Took the time (and the betanol trip!) to figure out _what I was feeling._ Now, I feel I understand my emotions to an extent to where I can share them. If _thats_ a game ā€¦ šŸ™„ I donā€™t know what I want, with him, in all honesty. I want to take it slow. I _really_ want to know what he thinks/wants. Iā€™m at a precipice over a ledge - could fall one way or the other. Will this betanol wear OFF already?? šŸ™„ ---
**Author:** ![Lor](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/lor/32/759_2.png) [@Lor](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/Lor)\ **Post date:** [May 31, 2009, 1:05am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/tigerlillys-reports/26666/339 "2009-05-31T01:05:47Z")
> [@](#): > > I think you both missed the point of the post above - it wasnā€™t to showcase my analytical skills, or his desires for interpersonal communication - > > Nope, mostly just confusion over whether or not the betanol was an instigator for that. i cant speak for anyone else, but you cant separate whether or not betanol instigated something that had started _prior_ to you using it ! šŸ˜‰ did betanol instigate it? it was in a process that didnt start _that_ day ā€¦ did betanol instigate a _particular_ moment? maybe that day betanol _exaggerated_ it. to instigate to me would mean there wasnt _that_ before. maybe all betanol did was to show you what was already happening? focussed your attention to what was in a process? all i know for sure is that betanol is one of my best friends. i have it in 25mu. LOVE IT. i havent found an instance where it was NOT complimentary to everything i have ever worn. personally, when i read others having issues with betanol causing too much talk, all i can think is that they havent found their sweet spot with it yet. it does more intimacy-creating for me than too much talk. it causes _quality_ over _quantity_. just my opinion. ---
**Author:** ![Lor](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/pheromonetalk.com/lor/32/759_2.png) [@Lor](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/Lor)\ **Post date:** [May 31, 2009, 1:22am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/tigerlillys-reports/26666/340 "2009-05-31T01:22:20Z")
> [@](#): > > And, sometimes, our skills and our jobs are what keeps us alive - makes it very hard to shake that. When you dont truly know if the person you are meeting will kill you on sight or shake your hand with a smile - you learn to apply it to everyone, at all times, no exceptions. i cant qualify who i am with a job.ā˜¹ this is probably why i dont keep one for more than a few years before i move on.šŸ™„ i dont think anyone truely knows what tomorow plans for them but they can know what their _own_ intentions are. i cant relate to someone else having a say in my day, but i can relate to someone not treating me well and knowing that my belief that someone CAN do that to me helped to inspire it. i guess if i believed a job or skill would keep me alive id learn martial arts or medicine. many do. the only way i can take this is if i say my job gives me money i buy the food and my skill to cook it keeps me alive šŸ˜ƒ [Previous page](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/tigerlillys-reports/26666.md?page=16) [Next page](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/tigerlillys-reports/26666.md?page=18)