# To be less harmless and more polarizing **URL:** \ **Category:** Men's Journals\ **Created:** [June 16, 2009, 3:08pm UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/to-be-less-harmless-and-more-polarizing/29931 "2009-06-16T15:08:28Z")\ **Posts on this page:** 1\ **Showing post:** 38
**Author:** ![metalTree](https://avatars.discourse-cdn.com/v4/letter/m/b38774/32.png) [@metalTree](https://pheromonetalk.com/u/metalTree)\ **Post date:** [June 27, 2009, 7:00am UTC](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/to-be-less-harmless-and-more-polarizing/29931/38 "2009-06-27T07:00:13Z")
Brutal Night Tonight I did an intense weight lifting session at my gym. Then I went home, showered, put on my pheromones and went out. 1 spray Instant Jerk to my throat 1 spray Instant Jerk to my arms 1 drop of A314 to my wrists 1 spray [Instant Openness](https://a314.com/product/instant-openness/) to my left Arm 1 Spray Instant Honesty 2X to my right arm Tonight I did not drink at all. I just ordered Seltzer waters at the bars. Yet I was very incoherent the whole night. This has happened to me occassionally before I started using the pheromones so I can’t blame this on the pheromones. I just get into these funks sometimes. On the other hand I might have ODed on the -none from the Instant Jerk. I’m just not sure. I decided to go to Tribecca which might have been part of my problem. That didn’t seem to be a happening area tonight. So I go to the 1st bar and order a Seltzer water. The I see too girls watching the dance floor area and I walk up to them and open them. I was doing everything wrong, I was pecking in and I was jumbling my words. My body language and tonality were way off too. She just looked at me like I was a complete retard and I felt like a complete retard. I ejected. Then at the other side of the bar I see this girl standing there. I say Hi to her but again I felt somewhat incoherent. She gives me a look like she is not comfortable with me being there so I back off. I hang out for a few minutes and the crowd looks like it’s two huge independent groups. I seem to be the only one solo in the place and that’s kind of awkward. The two girls I opened earlier walk by me to join their group that was behind me and one of the gave me a weird/uncomfortable look. I decided to eject from the venue and I took a 15 minute walk to try to pull myself together. I was trying to get my mind focused on body language, tonality, being relaxed, confident, and Alpha. But I felt totally beta. So I go into the next bar and order a seltzer water in a rock glass. I realized it was a neighboorhood bar when the bartender gave me a confused look. I made a mental note to just suck it up at neighboorhood bars and let them give me my seltzer water in a big awkward soda glass. Better yet, I really should avoid all neighboorhood bars that are not in my neighboorhood. It’s just weird hanging out in a neighboorhood bar in a different neighboorhood by yourself when you really have no good reason to be in that neighboorhood. I observed the crowed for a while and of course everyone seemed to know everyone else. I just left without doing any approaching. Then I went to the lounge at the Tribecca Grand Hotel. There were a ton of hot women outside the place. But it was guest list only and I’m not good looking enough and I wasn’t dressed well enough for them to let me in without being on the guestlist. So they politely denied me entry and I was on my way. I then go to a nearby bar that was pretty crowded. The bar was too busy so I didn’t bother getting a seltzer water. I just hung out in the back and I saw this cute girl sneak a sideways glance at me so I opened her. She was very excited to talk to me and she introduced me to 2 of her friend and her friend was initially excited to talk to me too. We chatted for about 2 minutes. But I was totally not in a flow and still feeling awkward and the just left me standing there after a few minutes. I opened one one other girl but went down in flames so I decided to get the hell out of there. I said bye to the two girls on my way out and they said, “You are leaving?” I said that I had to get going and one of them had a very sad look on her face. WTF? They had no interest in hanging with me so I don’t know why women insist on putting a front up like that. Oh well. So I go to another bar that has a little dance club up stairs. I walk up to the velvet ropes and the bouncer gives me an angry look and says, “Can I help you?” In a very soft/meek voice I ask if there is a cover. The bouncer softens his tone and checks my diver’s license. Then he lets me in. So I go upstairs to the dance floor and dance a bit waiting for something to happen. This really hot blonde girl bumps into me as she walks by and I think it might be an IOI so I open her. For the first 10 seconds she is very receptive but I peck in, jumble my words, and I’m just incapable of having a conversation. So, the conversation ends awkwardly and quickly. I dance for a while and I open up one more girl. I’m still a complete mess and I’m completely incapable of communicating with women tonight. She was initially friendly but after 10 seconds of conversation she gave me a very uncomfortable get the hell away from me look. So I excuse myself. At this point I’m a mental mess so I decided to go home. Just as I get to the station the train is leaving. I missed it by 30 seconds so I had to wait 30 minutes for the next one. ☹ Anyway, I left the bars early so I can regroup for tomorrow night. Maybe I’ll stick to the came combo I did on Thursday night. That seemed to work better for me. I also have to snap out of this little funk I’m in as well before tomorrow night. --- _[View the full topic](https://pheromonetalk.com/t/to-be-less-harmless-and-more-polarizing/29931)._