Hello, i was planning to update my journal but felt i just had to pass last nights experience on.
First off i will give a quick brief of my background in case you don’t to read my intro and journal.
My main reason for getting on the phero bandwagon is to help with my social anxiety which had affected me to varying degree my whole life In my youth when had it under control i had success with HB 9/10s but now HB 9/10 leaves me in mess either talking gibberish or unable to speak and intense SA feelings.
I am i getter better with CBT/NLP and if opened by women i am not to bad, social events are less traumatic which why i have started going to local pub.
Pheros have help in this journey but something was missing from using the socials or -none products, i tried IG but had mixed results, MX292 is very good and more like i expected from IG but still something missing so eventually got A314.
I tried this with my dance night mix
3x MX292
3x IO
1x IH
2x IS x2
2 drops A314
The self effects were great, no SA feelings, felt confident and up for a good night. I had good response from women and was opened by a number as well doing some opening myself.
Now this not the reason for post and will go into more detail in journal.
So now to the Booster hit.
After the dance night i did some work form home and began looking for course as i plan a change of career, i found that the cost of course was high and finding the funds would be hard.
By the time the evening came i was feeling pretty low, i was toying with going out or staying in but could not make my mind up.
By 9.30 i decided that dam i needed to get out and see if could get a really good hit to perk me up, i did not want a nice social hit i wanted a good sexual hit so went with.
2x MX2932
2x TUTH
1x IS x2
1x IO
2 drops A314
Not a lot of socials but dam i want sexual hit.
I had two choice, the closest pub has barmaid who HB 8 and have good IOI last couple visits but the pub does not attract a lot women, got there had quick look and saw she was not there so headed for nest choice about 10 min walk.
Second choice pub is more lively and attracts mainly younger crowd, with few of us oldies. It has 2 main barmaids 1 HB 5 the other HB 8 with a third when busy who is HB 6. All these in late 20s early 30s
The HB8 is standoffish and just gets on with her job with not a lot of interaction with clients, in past this would have been challenge.
The HB5 is more outing and mixes with clients, the HB6 is in between.
In the few visits i have had very little response from HB8, the HB5 a little more like a shared laugh over someone’s efforts on karaoke. My first time there with MX292 saw the HB6 open me by asking if i needed to rent a room!! where did that come from? but then closed it by saying that her boy friend ran housing agency that was not doing well, she did not ask anyone else that i saw.
So with all this background i head into this pub, it quite with just the HB5 at bar and group of drunk guys playing pool at end of bar.
I order my pint and when handing over the money the HB5 double takes me and with slight DIHL look, a hit i think. I got lot more eye contact from her during the night and smile and wave when i left.
When HB8 arrived and got served by her i had the same double take as HB5 and although not as much eye contact during evening, she was more attentive checking that i was ok for drink.
Another interesting one was when women in mid 30s came to bar, i stood at bar all night, to buy drink. She was about 4 feet away and as waited she started playing with hair and sort of looking out of corner of eye at me. She got her drinks and went.
About 30min later she appears at bar in front of me with boy friend who looked younger and was plying her with drink even though she told him she was driving. He was all over her, lot of hands on and cuddling but she did not respond in same way. Again the corner of the eye look, and body leaning towards me. Although the karaoke had started she did not turn her back to me but faced bar so could see me. After 10min the boy friend seemed unhappy with all this and dragged her away.
Now that was nice hit but wanted better.
As if to answer my thoughts a HB 9 1/2 arrives with BF who does not look in her league, but hey who knows.
She is about 3 feet away looking at singers and BF, after couple of min i notice she moving backwards and getting closer. I am also looking at their body language and can see this only the 1st or 2nd date, he is into her but she looks like she has him in the friend zone. He keeps putting his hands on her but when he tries putting his arm around her neck it is always gentle but quickly removed. When she touches him it with the palm of hers on his chest as keeping him at arms length.
By this time i can see the pheros are working on her good, she fidgety she has faced the bar and again i am getting the look out of the corner of her eye but no direct eye contact.
When she does turn her back on me to keep BF happy she keeps lifting her hair to show me the back of her neck. She is also very close by now, i mean right in the personal zone, she has had move a few feet to do this. She is so close my left hand that is resting on bar is in front of her and her head just few inches from my nose.
Ok time to go to the loo and add couple more sprays of MX292 and 1 of my custom social mix IS IH IO from togo bottle.
I return and stand couple of feet behind her but again she moves backwards so she is close to me.
She has started to brush gentle up against me, at one point she does a 180 to face away from the bar and her hand touches the the inside top of my inner thigh, she look me in the eye and says sorry, this was the only direct eye contact.
Now i thinking, THIS IS HIT 
She is so close now the BF must see it but he just goes off to the loo.
Now it is just the two of us, my head is spinning a bit but no SA feelings, i am feeling chilled and just enjoying it. There is voice in my head saying ‘OPEN HER, OPEN HER’ but my 3 seconds have gone and although have no SA i am not ready for this big step.
Why, well i was not looking my best and know this is mainly the pheros doing their work, plus she was in late 20s i am mid 40s.
Anyway i am enjoying this even it is bit cruel on her, the BF is taking his time and i can see him chatting to some guys.
The HB 9 1/2 is stll the same and ohh so very close, at one point she reaches into her bag hanging under bar and instead of moving forward she just bends slightly so her lovely bum gentle brushes my crutch 
After few min more and the BF still not returning plus me not opening her the sexual energy gets too much for her, she moves off grabs the BF and goes to other side of bar to sit down.
Now i am sure all you other guys with better game would have been in there like a rat up a drain pipe, but i got what i went for and that was ‘Booster Hit’ and i am still boosted
I know i should have opened her but the experience has sent me another rung up the ladder in my battle with SA.
The feeling of terror doing an open is receding and think A314 is going to help. I think a mix that attracts women but requires me to open is going to be good as can see they are interested but know i am going to have to make the first move, hopefully this will force me to take the chance,
The mix i used works real good on the right women, but does require i open. I think a few more socials maybe some IH would be good.
Will try it again.
