Re-posted from journal
So I had an interview for a position at a firesquad today after dealing with a whole mess of bullshit from my more local one. Anyways, I decided to go with 3 drops of A314 to come across as real dependable. Unfortunately, due to the difficult nature of the stupid bottle that liquid gold comes in, I ended up with a whole mess of oil that is equal to about 5 drops on my arms. Well I figured, what the hell. I threw in a spray of IH 2x to my hair and rubbed my A314 all around. First of all, the self effects were incredibly strong. For about a half hour I felt the strongest effects I think I have ever gotten. It was a very dark aspect of A314- I felt in control, but utterly serious. I actually tried cracking a smile and it felt weird. I also noticed that somewhere deep down my mind was operating as normal- analyzing, even in some ways laughing at myself for being so damn serious. It was a very odd state of being, I felt like one person who was in complete control of everything- possessing the normal, lighter-hearted me’s body. It sounds terrible now that i re-read that, but it was actually quite a good feeling. I was so in charge of the world I felt ready to conquer anything.
At any rate, after a half hour these effects subsided. On the ride over (about 10 minutes after the previous effects stopped), I first noticed myself feeling very tired. I had a mega-crash, and had a lot of trouble keeping my eyes open. It hit me very hard- I felt very very far from the man I had been ten minutes ago. Then I began to feel a headache that went in and out, mostly behind the eyes, and very annoying. Finally I arrived at the station
Pretty quickly, in the midst of actual action, my bad self effects went away. Everyone at the station warmed up to me instantly and showed me quite a bit of respect, especially for a 16 year old. One of the most interesting hits was when someone, through the window of an apparatus, apparently thought I looked 11 (I don’t even look young for my age…) but afterwards kept saying how he didn’t understand how he thought I was so young. After about 3 hours the effects of strong respect and liking seemed to subside. I think that unbuffered, the 5-ish drops of A314 were too much for people without the IH. I’ll have to be more careful next time when applying, but at least it was a very eye-opening experience.