I went to college again today, (with ANOTHER black eye, this time below my left eye, not too bad, but noticeable, and the old one in the other eye is gone already) and I went into the cafeteria at 11:15 with 4x IS to the neck, 4x IO to the neck (layered, of course), 1x AMMO to the upper abs, and 30mcg of P83 split between both sides of my neck.
When I went into the cafeteria, the girl from last time, J, wasn’t there. I went around trying to socialize, but it was hard to find things to talk about, and I was feeling kinda anxious at first. Probably adderall. I took 10mg in the morning before going to my first school, which still may be too much for me, because I was feeling a little bit on edge, I get that with adderall sometimes. It was a little bit harder to talk to people, but I still socialized. One guy just kept talking to me while I watched him play Assassins Creed on one of the TVs.
At 1:30 I had to go to class. I went in and sat down at a table at the right front of the room. When I sat down, I noticed that this girl an 8, that looked at me a few times last Wednesday kept playing with her hair and looking at me. I noted the hit, but had to pay attention to the instructor. Eventually, the instructor started a class discussion, and I turned my body to listen to what the other people were saying. And I saw it. The same girl was giving me the DIHL look, wide eyes and everything, and stared at me for a few seconds and then looked down at her table when I looked at her. But I had to join the class discussion a bit, and when I talked, I saw out of the corner of my eye that she was smiling, but if I glanced over, she would look away. I only saw her glance at me a few times after, and she didn’t contribute to the class discussion at all.
Class ended, and I could not talk to her because I had to ask the teacher about homework. She was nowhere to be found afterwards. I went down to the cafeteria from before, and pretty much nobody I felt like talking to was there, so I called my friend and told him I’d be over, and left. But as I was leaving, a different girl I talked to a few times before, and met without mones, stopped me and told me that I looked different today. I asked her if that was in a good way or a bad way, and she said good. She maintained eye contact with me the whole time we conversed. I had to go, though, and went on my way.
I think I like this mix. I’ll have to try it again though, without taking anything in the morning, so I’ll be more normalized. Thoughts?
