Okay. Today I finally had an excuse to leave the office, so I applied 3 sprays of MX-292 to my forearms and went. Car windows up… looking for self effects. First I went to the pizzeria. The door was open, wind was blowing air through quite well, and the effect was effectively nothing I could see in the ten minutes I was there, with the possible exception of one guy glancing at me a different way, and my body language (which was very straight, tall, and effectively broadcasting self respect and authority).
I found this body language interesting because I felt no “attitude” or ego, as I do when I usually get this result from A314. It was as if that had been masked out, and just the results were left.
Went to bank. Bank closed. “Oookay.” Get back in car, unphased, and that struck me as interesting, as sleep deprived as I have been. Calm and cool as a cucumber.
Go to the store. Looking around. I grab a garden hose, a chose sprayer nozzle while I’m in the garden section. Gotta wash my car and kayak, yanno. Can’t have the girlies seeing me in a dirty car. Which… is… also odd… because I have no time to be washing my car and I never drive lately anyway… and normally I just couldn’t care less, since the rain takes care of it quite well in most cases. But now I am caring, and it’s worth $10 for the hose and sprayer. Okay, this is cool, I’m liking this… nice effect.
So I am wandering around looking for the sprayer nozzle and I pass this father and son twice. The father is in his late 20’s, early 30’s, and the son appears to be about 4-5. Son takes immediate notice of me, and stares at me with wide eyes, not afraid, but just very aware, as if I was shining with my own light. father only notices because son notices so obviously.
I wander off to the candies section, which is the original reason I came here - Dove chocolates. Don’t usually buy chocolates, but I have to spend so damned much time sitting in the office, why not. so I’m looking over the chocolates when I notice this middle aged woman overing behind me. Like she’s not sure she dares pass me. She actually seems to be awaiting my departure before she starts looking at the chocolates for herself… very odd. Not really noticing me, per se, but very much deferring to my ownership of the whole chocolate aisle, it seems. I have to chuckle to myself, and as I leave, chocolates in hand, I see she starts browsing for herself.
Now what else was I here for? Hmmm, oh yeah. Photo printing paper. Hammermil satin finish ceramic coated premium. That stuff rocks… and it’s amazingly cheap for the quality, at just $13 a pack for 50 sheets. But it’s nowhere to be found. Maybe in the photo section at the back of the store.
So I head to the back of the store and I have the hose and spray nozzle and chocolates in hand, and the man behind the register sees me and asks what I meed. I tell him photo paper. So he stops what he’s doing, and comes around to lead me to it, and then explains what grades they have. WTF? Never seen this before. Then he sees that they don’t have what I am looking for and leads me to the photo department, looking for more. Upon finding none, he rings me up, and seems very attentive and almost defferent. he is easily 15 years my senior, but is deferring and almost submissive. Going out of his way to be helpful in ways I do not often see from this store’s employees at all. Very interesting.
So I’m walking to the front of the store, exaining my awareness of what the pheromones are doing, and I notice I cannot sense the pheromones themselves… just a sort of negative space, and an umbra of effect. I notice that I am carrying myself straight and tall, and walking more slowly, but there’s no aggression, impatience, nastiness, ego or attitude.
Negative space? This feels like… Molecule K! I am betting that there’s a significant dose of Molecule K in this mix.
Get home, and I’m working, and multitasking, and I notice that I am slightly aroused. That’s also unusual.
Now the day is done. My mind is shot. I’m going to bed. Maybe I’ll have interesting dreams, too. This experiment has been going on since around 5 hours ago, btw.