Date: 25 August 2013
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Product: EoW and Instant Sexiness A
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Application: EoW - one spray between my forearms (1ml EoW mixed with 4ml of perfume); and Instant Sexiness A - two sprays to my neck.
Environment: Dinner with ‘R’
Effects: Was feeling really annoyed that ‘R’ had cancelled on me last minute so when I went to have dinner in his house, I wore EoW and Instant Sexiness A. Don’t know what I was trying to achieve really… perhaps part of me wanted to make him jealous. I can’t say for certain that it worked but he was a little frigidity for the evening. When he was sitting beside me, he kept his legs crossed and his hands over the family jewels. Then when I went to leave, he gave me a huge hug but I didn’t hug him back at all. I could see that he was really confused but he didn’t say anything.
Since last week, R has been acting like an ass! Maybe that was my fault for wearing EoW around him again. He says that he wants to be friends but he does what ever he can to push me away. Meant to be meeting him tomorrow evening again… might stick to EST, P74 or Instant Shine.
Date: 22 August 2013
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Product: EoW and P83 (10mcg/spray)
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Application: EoW - one spray between my forearms (1ml EoW mixed with 4ml of perfume); and P83 - two sprays to me neck.
Environment: Called to R’s house and watched a DVD.
Effects: The evening started off as usual, R was friendly and nothing seemed out of place. We watched a DVD, sat beside each other on the couch but were not touching. As the evening wore on though… R seemed uneasy and I just knew something was bothering him. I probably should have guessed what was up straightaway and left but if course I didn’t.
Long story short, it appears my EoW was having the desired effect on him but he was fighting it. As I was getting ready to leave, he asked me to stay the night but he admitted he was a little unsure about what he was doing. He kept saying over and over, how i’m like a drug and how he couldn’t resist me. How he knew he should leave me alone but he just couldn’t help it. As far as I know, he’s still with the new girlfriend so I declined his offer and went home. We did kiss once but I stopped it after that because R still seemed unsure. I knew EoW and P83 were powerful but blimey… I never expected R to be so confused and distraught.
Update:
The following day, R rang me to apologise for his behaviour. He said he would never do that to me again… he didn’t know why he acted the way he did, he hadn’t planned it in advance. He wasn’t concerned about himself but was concerned about messing me around again. Basically I told him he needs to make up his mind about what he wants… that I can’t be picked up and dropped whenever he feels like it.
Don’t think i’ll wear EoW around R again… it just complicates things unnecessarily. Trying to be friends with R is difficult enough at the best of times. I kick myself for wearing EoW the last night, I did it because I was selfish. I wanted to be in control, to torture him a little and remind him of what he was missing… but it did no good at the end of the day. Both of us ended up completely distraught and confused AGAIN.
Meant to be meeting R again tomorrow evening to talk through a few things… definitely going to stick to Instant Shine and Instant Openness! Realistically friendship is our only option now.
Have had lots of success lately with TAA (10mcg/spray - 2 sprays) and P74 (10mcg/spray - 2 sprays) together. My friend M can be a little difficult to talk to, mainly because she’s so opinionated but when I wear this combo… she’s completely different. We’ve had a couple of really profound conversations with this little mix!
Have worn EST (between 25-50mcg) to work a couple of times and guys really seem to dig it… I get lots of eye contact and smiles when I wear it. My boss also seems to respond well to it.
Finally, have been seeing a lot of R lately and we’re getting on really well. There’s obviously still something between us but we’re focusing on being friends. Mainly i’ve been wearing Instant Openness and Instant Shine around him. I’ve worn EST solo around him a couple of days ago and I thought he acted very funny. His sense of humour was really strange and he seemed a little uneasy.
Well that’s it for the moment… Happy Halloween Everyone!!!
‘R’ rang me at 2am this morning to talk… apparently he can’t stop thinking about me! He wants to know if we can give things another go. He said his intention has never been to mess me around but he’s afraid of what he feels for me… he’s afraid of not being able to live without me. He’s been trying to keep his distance from me emotionally to stop us getting hurt if things don’t work out… but realises now that not being with me is hurting him anyway. Or so he says!!!
So i’ve lots to think about… AGAIN! Jaysus life is never dull with R. It appears my experiments with EST, IO, IH, P74 have produced results!
Really enjoy using TAA around the girls! It makes them all chatty but not in a silly way. Usually wear 20mcg, although I have experimented with 10-30mcg. Have worn it around ‘R’ too and he also responds well to it. We were in the car together yesterday and he was in great form. Lots of messing and a little bit of flirting.
Apologies for not keeping my journal updated… i’ve been experimenting though! I’m wearing EST more and more… and I have to say that I love it. Men go out of there way to help me and women genuinely seem friendly. Only today a DHL delivery guy went out of his way to help me move boxes in work so I didn’t have to carry anything heavy myself. It works better with continued exposure too - so I wear it for three or four days consecutively before taking a break from it.
Been wearing TAA a fair bit too, mainly because my IS is running low. I don’t get the same buzz from it myself any-more but I still get good reactions from others. Lots of silly chat and gossiping with the girls when I wear it.
That’s all for now. Hope everyone has a lovely Christmas and New Year x
Hi everyone! Oh how I have missed this place and my pheromones! Since I last reported… myself and ‘R’ have had a beautiful baby boy! Didn’t want to post the news incase I jinxed myself, especially after what happened last time. ‘R’ and myself are still seeing each other but we are not living together. ‘J’ is 4 months old so as soon as he is 6 months old, I’ll be happy to start experimenting with mones again.
Hey Seems to be a beautiful journey. Bless you and your little baby.
I read few posts and seems i too relate to your experience with your men and his confusion to be in a friend zone or to move away or take things further with you.
and i know it too when you say how you miss this place and want to share the experiences here.
mones make your life so beautiful and awesome… let you go thru different experiences and create your own experiences.
Instant Shine: wore one spray of IS on two occasions and ‘J’ (my son) went bonkers. It wasn’t my intention to test IS on him but I ended up holding him for a few minutes before I left the house. He was chatting and laughing, slapping things with his hands and even shouted a few times. Didn’t notice any other hits when out & about but I probably wasn’t paying enough attention. Was so shocked by J’s obvious reaction.