I’ve been beaten down by the IS/a and b. I find it hysterical that the Instant line kicks my butt, but I’m doing well with the Experimones and Putatives. 
I ditched the instants and got some bottles of TAH and TAL. Yesterday I wore
37.5 mcg of TAH, applied at 12:45pm. For the next 3 hours, nothing really was different. In terms of self effects, there was a minor internal softening and a small boost in contentment.
I added 2 sprays, total dose now 62.5mcg TAH, around 4:30pm. This is when I started feeling some definite self effects.
For me, the TAH was actually profound in what was absent. I am a naturally very aggressive person. I am direct, forward, confrontational - but very happy about it, so I dont come off as a total bitch day to day. I can go to authoritative bitch vibe in about .3 seconds flat though. People describe me as though I have “FBI/Cop” written across my forehead. I walk with a swagger (sometimes justified, more often than not, just because I’m arrogant), and know that there isn’t a situation in life that I cannot overcome or work through. I’m not afraid of much, and certaintly not afraid of other people - I (now) live in a transitional neighborhood, and many people I work with are shocked that I moved there. “Aren’t you scared of the crime??” I told them I’m never scared of other people - there’s no reason to be scared of people when you can kill/maim them if they start something.
With all of this, I am a VERY happy individual. I have a great life and love myself. I am very self-aware and know myself in and out. When not pumped up and working, when totally relaxed, I have a super mellow, super relaxed, super happy vibe. At those times, I’m described as “one of those surfer dudes.” (Yes, I’m a chick, but I have a very calm, laid back masculinity to my personality. Comes from working with all men. 
But for those who are curious, pic is in my profile.) I also regularly wear flow-y dresses and skirts, pumps and high heels, doll myself up and have long, wavy hair that I wear loose and free flowing most days.
So just a background on MY personality for ya’ll. Now, adding TAL or IS/a to that mix has resulted in a super-sexy, psychotically confident, to the crazy way overboard point of arrogance, completely unapproachable person. I fell great. I feel like Wonder Woman. But the vibe I am sure I am giving out has been one of “I will whip you, I will fcuk you, then I will feed you to my lions. And you will LIKE it. Down on your knees - NOW.” (Works great for work, though.)
The TAH, once I hit the 5 sprays/62.5 mcg dose was different. I didn’t notice it right away, and I was disappointed for the first hour. Then I forgot about it and went on with my day.
As the hours ticked by, I realized there WAS something different. I was behaving/feeling/acting as I do when I am super relaxed. When I am ME. When I am happy, content, and perfectly happy in my own skin. There was an absence of killer assertiveness. An absence of determination. This is not to say I was lazy, or complacent, or anything of the sort. But where there is normally a strong internal drive and push towards competitive assertive aggression, now there was just peace and tranquility. A powerful calm and happiness within myself, towards myself. (Now I know what Lor means about it being a “falling in love with the world” phero.)
Around 7pm I went grocery shopping. The calm, content, inner peace feeling was still there. I was happy with my being alive, and it showed. I could feel a glow. I felt “congruent” in every sense of the word. I was who I was meant to be, all the time.
Holy Hits, Batman!
(Many) Men would take double or triple looks at me as I passed by with my shopping trolley. They would stop, eyes would widen, and a few mouths dropped open. Their eyes would soften. It was like when they saw me, they saw a glow. Several stopped to say hi, or ask how I was doing. A few would reply with something cute when I said I was fine, or good. There wasn’t a sexual edge to it, but a happy/beautiful tinge to it. When checking out, the checker gave me a double take, then his eyes softened and he smiled very gently at me. He made small talk with me and asked if I had been there before (nope). He wanted to help me out, wanted to keep talking to me.
Remember, normally I am unapproachable - I naturally give off a “Fcuk You” vibe. See Catlord’s sig block for a quote on how I generally am. For this many guys to notice something “soft” about me was VERY unusual.
But it was GOOD. I felt great.
My questions, for those better than me are thus:
- is that a high TAH dosage?
- The initial dosage was applied at 12:45pm. The second was applied at 4:30pmish. I had a total of 62.5 mcg on at that time. I received the most powerful external hits around 7pm. Normally, pheros wear off me pretty quickly. 4-6 hours has been my window. I was wearing a cover/diffusion agent (a cheap, but very nice perfume called Secret; mix of musk, deep french vanilla undertones and a small bit of sugary top). Do you think that the initial sprays had “worn off” or was I still walking around with a huge phero dose on? I’m not sure, but I dont recall TAH being that long lasting…
As always, advice and tips/hints are appreciated! THANKS!!
Could use it for going out, or for work I suppose…