Just introducing myself.
So first off, my name is Erick, I am 18 years old of Asian descent (Filipino/Chinese) and I go to St. Johns University to be a future legal drug dealer. AKA, a pharmacist. Okay okay, lame joke haha, I guess that’s only funny to pharmacists. Anyways, because of classes, it’s really hard to be social, but whenever I can i try to put myself out there (to girls), but the problem is, I have a big emotional scar. My ex girlfriend really left a big hole in my heart. And because of the failing of that relationship (she was my first girlfriend, first love, and we were together for more than 2 years) I have a really hard time talking to girls. Well, let me think of a better way of rephrasing that. I have a hard time talking to girls to get to the NEXT level.
You see, I’m the typical “nice guy” to them. The guy they say they wished the would find, the guy that they want to be in a long term relationship with; I’M RIGHT HERE goshdarnit. Sigh. But I can never seem to bring my confidence out enough to say “hey, if you really wanna go out with someone like me, I’m right here” and it irks me every. single. time. That’s when a friend of mine recommended for me to look at this forum. He’s kind of a player (he uses pheromones for the Dark Side [yay for Star Wars references, yes, I am a total nerd]). But I am glad he steered me into this site, I’ve been reading up on the forums and I’m quite excited to see if there are any results (but I am gonna be honest, I’m kind of a skeptic, sorry, but time and results will tell if I’ll change my views on pheromones).
Speaking of nerdiness. Yes, I am a “typical” nerd. I put typical in quotes because I’m a nerd on the inside but on the outside I am quite handsome (hopefully I didn’t come off as conceited with that statement) or so I’ve heard.
I guess what I’m looking for in pheromones are just to have self confidence (I have heard that pheromones has some self effecting attributes too, and not just to others). Be able to open up to girls more, and vice versa so they see that I CAN be the perfect guy for them too, and not just wishful thinking (stupid friend zone, it can just go die). Also, not to sound like a prick, but also looking for sexual relations? I haven’t had sex in months (oh, please don’t judge me, guys too have needs sometimes) andddd I kind of miss it.
Well, that’s me in a nutshell, and I did kind of realize I went a bit overboard with my introduction. I’m pretty sure I’m gonna stick around these here forums for a long long LONG time, so you guys might as well know a bit (lot) about me :]
Cheers,
Erick