P96, Day 5
P96, Day 5 (Wednesday)
50 mcg to the neck and jaw (4 sprays of 12.5 mcg)
Chocolatini
2 different social environments: social meeting with 6 good acquaintances and 1 close friend; later on, hanging out with 11 friends
Wednesdays are usually my best testing days. Went a week between testing, due to midterms and crazy homework load. Also didn’t get to test on my BEST test subject, “ukulele friend”. This is the third Wednesday in a row that our plans got cancelled. Not having him around really screws up my testing. But honestly, I don’t know whether or not he’ll give me the time of day any more like he used to. He’s my favorite friend, and hanging out with him is really special to me. He just started seeing a girl last week, and it’s probably gonna turn exclusive pretty soon. I’m sure she’s wonderful, and I really do want him to be happy, but I’m kinda pissed off about it because I know this will change things between him and me. Boys are stupid.
Another note on Chocolatini: I noticed a scent note at this high dosage that I hadn’t noticed before. There was a prominent spiciness, like clove-cinnamon. I love clove, so that was a pleasant surprise. I applied the 50 mcg (4 sprays) twice tonight, one at 6:15 pm and then again at 9 pm. I only noticed the spice during the first application. During the second, it was back to that coconut smell. I got complimented twice about the “tropical coconutty” smell after the second application, so at least there are others who like it. Not me so much, I only like coconut when I’m eating a macaroon.
First application was around 6:15 pm. I rode with 2 friends (a good friend and her husband) to a small meeting of 8 people. Didn’t notice much until around 7 pm. There’s a college girl who was there, and she’s a little developmentally impaired. I noticed that I had started admiring her hair. Why does p96 always make me admire hair??? She doesn’t have particularly nice hair, it just sort of flops where it wants to. But at the moment, it seemed incredibly sweet and endearing. The girl usually looks up to me anyway, but tonight she was extra eager to please me. I had asked her mother if I could borrow a book, but the girl, with lightning reflexes, grabbed her own book off the floor and thrust it at me with gusto! (this happened around the 2-hour mark, I think)
Around the 45 minute mark, I realized that I felt a bit calm and blissful. Thinking back, this has been a common feeling any time p96 was working at its peak. I think this molecule takes a while to build itself up (45 min to an hour), but then it really explodes, and starts a slow decline until roughly the 3-hour mark.
The group seemed particularly cozy. The environment seemed very safe and open. I felt very connected to everyone there, and a little extra chatty. My good friend and her husband have been having marital problems for a while, but I noticed him rubbing her shoulders and being a bit more affectionate than usual. That’s a great sign, and I’m glad that my mones could help someone else who really needs it.
Second application, 9 pm, usual hangout at my friend’s place. A lot of people showed up, roughly 11 total. Not all at the same time, some came and some left. The lap-sitting girl was there, but she didn’t sit on my lap. I did catch her mirroring my mannerisms, though. And my personal space was very invaded. Whenever someone stood near me, they were practically on top of me! It’s a big house, and there’s plenty of space, but I was being crowded a good deal of the time! I wasn’t sure what to do with myself, I’m not used to being smothered by more than one person at a time! ALSO: (almost forgot about this!) kino! In my previous report, I mentioned a girl named Angela, whom I’ve just sorta been socially coexisting with. She reached out and gave me a warm stroke on my upper arm! She gravitated right to me and updated me on her life, like it was the most natural thing in the world! When exactly did we develop an actual friendship? I don’t think I was around for the process! Man, this girl absolutely eats up p96. She’s 25, white, and blonde, if that helps anyone with their studies. Same for lap girl, only she’s 19.
I have a new fanboy, and I think he’s developing a crush. I’ve only met him one other time, and that was New Year’s Eve/Day. 6 of us played a 12-hour board game called Twilight Imperium. It was torture, I lost my cool a few times. But I won, I kicked everone’s asses! Anyway, that was my first meeting of said guy. We really hit it off, we roll with each other’s humor really well. Didn’t see him for a month and a half until now. But tonight, he was practically doting on me! Looking into my eyes a lot, cracking new jokes with me, joining me with whatever I was doing (fixing a plate of food, making a fire in the fireplace, making tea, whatever), etc. He wasn’t intentionally forward (no obvious verbal affection, kino, etc), which I was glad of. That would have been a bit much, and I would have been uncomfortable. I enjoy this dude’s company, but I’m not really into him. Besides, he’s 7 years younger than me, and I’ve learned my lesson! This is the second time that a young 20’s black guy has gotten crushy with me while I was wearing pheros. Is there p96 in IS/A?
I’m still really bummed that I didn’t get a one-on-one test with ukulele friend. But I’m not gonna wait around, I think I’m ready to start testing this paired with other things. I’ll probably pause and go for the solo test if he stops cancelling on me!