Lol, thanks! Actually, when Fangirl told Boring Dude that she’d invited me, she described me by saying that I “like to make trouble”! That cracked me up, because in guy language, that basically means I’m kinky and sexy! And I know she didn’t mean it that way, LOL!
OMG, I feel so ridiculous! The hottie brother wasn’t the one I jumped a car with!! Apparently, the next younger brother (who had been slightly overweight) just lost 20 lbs, and now looks freakishly similar to the oldest brother!! I’d like to think that my oversight should be excused because we were all bundled up in the freezing cold, but he was right next to me! Charm powers wasted on the wrong brother, yet again! I’m apparently going to make them all fall in love with me except for the correct brother!
But at least the one in the house whose body I was admiring was DEFINITELY the oldest brother. He’s the only one who works out regularly.
Well.. I can’t wait to hear what happens !! Lol
Me too! 
Oh gosh. This is getting really annoying.
So, I was supposed to have my final interview today. They’ve been putting me on the back burner for the past few weeks. It seems like they really don’t care if they fill this position or not. It’s been vacant for quite a while before I showed up. I’m still certain they will hire me, but goodness knows when they’ll get around to it!
I showed up perfectly on time, everything exactly perfect. No snags with my outfit, my commute, my breakfast, or anything. Well, except for the fact that I didn’t get much sleep the night before. Damn, why didn’t I think to use some p130? Oh well, hindsight.
I was ridiculously tired, to the point that I was considering calling in sick to the interview. But this interview had already been delayed so much, I decided to just man up and kick today’s ass. Just before walking in, I put on 2 sprays IH, 2 sprays IO, and 4 sprays IS. My heart started pounding rapidly as soon as I put on the IS. I don’t think I can handle that high of a dose. It started to stir up anxiety. I briefly thought about countering it with p130, but decided against it because I was short on time.
During the walk down the hallway toward the office, I gave myself a little coaching session and told myself to rally NOW, and put on my A-game. Tiredness be damned! I was having a hard time focusing, but at least I succeeded in putting on a super pleasant face and attitude. That would have to carry me until I could engage with the people I was meeting with. Problem is, nobody could find them. 2 different receptionists and another random employee ran around looking for my people while they had me wait in a lounge. I waited for about a half hour before someone finally came in. It was one of the people I’d been corresponding with, the one who had set up this meeting. She had completely forgotten she’d scheduled me! Turns out, the VP was at home taking care of a sick child, and I had been overlooked when her appointments were being cancelled for the day. She felt so bad, she cracked open a box and gave me a few promotional gifts. Hey, that’s pretty cool. I tried to seem completely okay with the situation, and easily rolling with the punches. Hope I was convincing!
Oh, well. I’m a little glad that I didn’t have to give an interview while I was feeling cruddy. And this experience got me thinking that I want to find a substitute for IS in this combo. I’m thinking maybe MX335, but I don’t want to seem beta. It’s possible that the IH might compensate for any potential beta vibe, and I might up the IH to 3 sprays. I was also thinking maybe p74, but I’m not sure if it’s already in IO or not.
Any other suggestions?
I’m gonna go wash these app points before the crash hits, and replace it with p130. I’ve earned it.
Isn’t TAA in IS ? I thougt I read that somewhere, that it also doesn’t have the same crash that IS has either. Maybe it would be softer ?
Yes, TAA is the main molecule in IS. I haven’t tried TAA solo yet, because I was nervous about experiencing negative effects more strongly. But if you say you don’t experience a crash, then maybe I’ll give it a try.
I haven’t experienced a crash , headache or anything negative from TAA. (Except for the burning from the spray..which for some reason I don’t feel anymore ) i only wear a couple sprays at 2.5 mcg usually. One time I sprayed myself 20 times (lol) and didn’t have any negative results.
20 times??? Lol!! What was that like?
It felt the same as if I was wearing only two sprays. Then about 45 minutes later when I was with friends I noticed that everyone seemed to be in really good moods, happy, dancing a lot, silly - as if they had been drinking just a little , and they were laughing (hysterically) at things which weren’t really funny at all ( like an empty soda can falling over..lol) They also said that I stink and they (lovingly in their way..) made fun of me the rest of the evening , holding their noses and imitating Ludo from the movie Labrynth , saying “smell bad”. ( 20 sprays of chocolatini … I don’t recommend it) even though I “smelled bad” they stuck close to me wherever I stood. It felt a little like a high school party. Lol overall everyone seemed to be very happy. Looking at my notes from that day- I wrote that I felt slightly spacey for about 30 minutes after application, but it went away shortly after.
Cookie Scent
Lately I’ve been using p130 in cookie scent. So here’s my official commentary on the fragrance. Honestly, it’s more like what I expected chocolatini to smell like. At the onset, it has a sort of artificial chocolate smell. Like tootsie rolls, or chocolate hard candies. I like it. It’s nice. Then it starts to fade into more of a chocolate chip cookie. The chocolate smell tends to wear off after a little while, and I’m left with a sugar cookie smell.
I do like it, but I wish it were a little more stable. I wouldn’t mind any of the 3 phases of scent, but i do wish it would stay consistent instead of changing over time.
The fragrance is a little weak. I’m not very confident in its ability to be a good carrier for pheros. It would be a nice mild standalone fragrance, but I’m not so sure it carries very far. I’ll have to try the fragrance paired with a more hitting phero mix in order to really test its diffusion.
IS/A
Things have been pretty crazy for me lately, so I haven’t done much phero experimenting. Also, I’ve been in a funk. I didn’t get that job I was lined up for. I didn’t know that it was down to me and one other person, and apparently the final decision was need-based, for whatever reason. They thought the other person could benefit more from the position, and that I had a better chance of finding a good position elsewhere. Gee, thanks.
So I’ve been laying low, licking my wounds, and coping with the rest of my life as well. But the past couple of days, I busted out good ol’ IS/A! Solo, of course. I first decided to do it because I knew I’d be hanging with Fangirl on St. Patty’s, and I thought her hottie brother might be around. I was right! 
But we didn’t actually go out, which was strange. I was ready to hit the bars. Fangirl decided to have a night in, and we were gonna experiment with some fun beverage recipes. Her bro was staying home too, so that was just fine with me! We ended up barely drinking, which was a bummer. She made me a whiskey toddy single, and that was it. Not even enough to get buzzed from. She said she was tired, and if she did any more drinking, she’d just fall asleep on me. I certainly didn’t want that. And drinking alone is lame, so it wasn’t a very liquidy night. We mostly watched Pulp Fiction.
But the most important part is hottie brother! So let’s get to that.
Just before walking in, I applied 3 sprays to my chest and neck. As soon as I walked in, her too-young brother (18, and has a crush on me) was sitting nearby, and turned toward me with this “hello there little lady” grin on his face! Lol, my MX335 bathroom bombing maneuver must’ve really worked! It was pretty funny, and I can only imagine what a reinforcement of IS/A must’ve done! I think it mildly intimidated him, though. He was admiring, yet not real social. The next morning (I slept over), he seemed like he wanted to be in my presence, yet he engaged mostly with others and minimally with me. Not what I would’ve preferred, but oh well. The rest of her siblings were a tad nicer than they’ve been before. For whatever reason, their family is a bit suspicious of people, and it takes time for them to warm up to someone.
We were gonna all watch the season premier of Community together, and I was happy to be participating. Mostly because Hottie Brother would be there, of course! He arrived home pretty late, because he was at the gym. Mmm yes, definitely an acceptable reason to be late! I didn’t get much opportunity to interact with him when he came in and settled down, because Fangirl was actively trying to converse with me. But he sat rather close to me, maybe 3 feet away! 
I had the IS/A in my pocket, and I casually excused myself to the bathroom and applied 2 more sprays. I’d been wearing the first batch for maybe 2 hours, and in that time Fangirl and I had taken a very windy walk around outside, so I wasn’t sure how much it had weakened. I didn’t want to take any chances, and I really wanted to bomb this guy with my cloud for the next hour. Yeah, I came back to the group freshly sprayed, and there was no way to be subtle about that fact. But who cares, because the ends justify the means!
Keep in mind, I can’t recall if this guy and I have ever spoken 2 words directly to each other before, so I am starting from complete scratch, and in a challenging situation! I can’t just go for the guy, because Fangirl would feel used. And I only see him in the presence of his family, so I’ve got influential spectators there to judge me if I do anything they don’t like. So I’ve got to use subtle and non-obvious means to break the ice socially, and see if I can get him to pay some interest in me that I could reciprocate. So yeah, it’s the long game, but I’m up for the challenge. I look at it like instituting change in an organizational culture. You have to first spend time understanding the culture so that you can figure out how to make change in a way that synergies with established values and relationships.
Things went well, given that we were surrounded by his family. He was the most animated and loose I’ve seen him yet! He was having a lot of fun, and I really enjoyed seeing him that way. He even responded to a couple comments I made, though he was watching the TV as he spoke. But that’s ok, it’s a start! After the show, the rest of the siblings wanted to keep hanging out, but he reminded them of an obligation they’d all made with their dad, and he insisted that everyone stick to it. I took that as a negative sign at first, because he was choosing to leave my presence. But given that he was enforcing that everyone keep a promise, it’s possible that he was alpha posturing, which would be a positive sign. Too early to tell. He definitely has the alpha role among the family (not including his dad, because I haven’t seen the two of them interact) including Fangirl, even though he’s slightly younger than her! Yum, I sure do like me an alpha!
So the next day, I decided to retry the bathroom phero-planting idea again, but in the bathroom I know he uses, rather than the one that is only used by too-young bro. Unfortunately, I know that he also shares this bathroom with 3 other guys, so it would hit all of them rather than targeting him. And he usually comes home from work the latest, so he might be the last person to be exposed when diffusion is the weakest. And the only way for him to know it was from me is if the signature reminded him of me from the night before. But hey, it’s still worth a try. I went into the bathroom, and to my dismay, it was also the laundry room. And laundry was running. So, pretty much, their mom will be in and out of there all day, getting the brunt of my pheros. It will be a complete shot in the dark if he gets any effect at all. Oh well, it was worth a try. Too bad I don’t have some excuse to use something he owns, and have him know I’m using it. Like his bed, lol! So I went into too-young bro’s bathroom and sprayed some IS/A. Couldn’t hurt to reinforce that a little bit. I don’t remember what it’s called, but I’m seeing if I can leverage that psychological concept where one person finds you attractive, and their affections cause another person to find you attractive as well.
So on the second evening, I hung out with some friends, and Mr. Know-it-all was there, too. 4 of us ended up hunched over a map of London, collectively strategizing during a new game we were figuring out. Our faces were roughly a foot away from each other, and so I decided to have some fun. I excused myself momentarily and put 2 sprays on my neck and chest. Mr. Know-it-all didn’t change his demeanor quickly, but there was a gradual shift. He became a little more confident, and there was a little more sass in his attitude. It was fun!
We all eventually decided that we hated the game, and were glad when it ended so we could just watch a movie. Here’s the really funny part. I was setting up the movie, and I left it up to everyone else to figure out their seating. The TV was broken, so we were going to be watching it from a widescreen computer. Once I had it set up, I turned around and saw that Mr. K-i-a had sprawled himself out on the 2-seater couch at an angle where a second person wouldn’t even be able to see the movie! The other 2 girls were shoved off to the side, in a way that neither of them would have a good view, and Fangirl was in a chair that wasn’t the most comfortable! I scolded Mr. K-i-a, and told him that he should move the couch to a better angle, and sit up so that somebody else could sit there too. He gave me a bratty look and said, “whoever moves it without me getting up can sit in it with me!” I playfully reamed him out for being lazy, but then I gave the couch a solid shove in the right direction and sat next to him. Then I made sure the other girls could reposition in a more comfortable way.
This was really strange behavior for him, because he usually doesn’t invite others into his space in any way. The only times I’ve seen him sit so close to someone where when they were already seated and he came over and sat. He usually is the one to sit off by himself, never in the central location! During the movie, his body positioning was pointed toward me, even though the movie was on the other side of him. And he kept engaging me during the movie, trying to impress me with facts about it. We had a bit of a one-upsman thing going, because I was trying to prove to him how unimpressed I was, because I already knew most of the things he was telling me. Lol, I had a lot of fun.
That sure sounds yummy ! Interesting that its weak . Chocolatini knocks everyone out of the room and cookie scent has multiple personality disorder. Have you tried the copulin pack yet ? I think you would love the scent. I know they call it vanilla but there is something else in there too that is slightly flowery like jasmin and musk. But flowers are not my first thoughts when I smell it. It’s multilayered but doesn’t change after time. Vanilla Sweet , musk, and floral. I don’t like flower scents , (at all!) and when I wear the cops I feel like an insane addict sniffing every chance I get lol and the scent stays all day!
No, I haven’t tried the cops yet. I really should, I’m getting a little restless for an alternative to neroli that I completely approve of. Is the cops pack the same scent as the love pack? Floral and musk notes sound nice, especially since I’m not a big lover of vanilla fragrances in general. I’m not a big fan of the love pack scent, it smells a bit plasticky to me. But people seem to be giving great feedback on the smell of the cops.
Strangely enough, I got a whiff of the neroli and cookie at the same time, and it made me weak in the knees! I haven’t yet been able to duplicate the smell when wearing them, so I’ll have to play around a bit.
I have no idea if the cop pack is the same scent as the love pack, I haven’t tried love pack yet.. I know how you feel about neroli, it’s actually been one of my least favorite scents - it seems to get old very quick. But still better than chocolatini. Lol.
Hm do let us know how it goes with your playing around. I have yet to experience the cookie scent.
Much love~
Lol, neroli is actually the scent that I prefer from the available options! But yeah, it can get old. Surprisingly, I’m becoming more picky about what pheros it’s with. In IS, it gets some sort of candy orange smell that I really dislike. It’s more musky with p130, and I like that.
But yes, anything is better than schizophrenic chocolatini!
Interviews, Asians, and offenses.
So…apparently that wasn’t the end of the story with the job situation! I got an email from the VP, informing me that she’d recommended me for a position that had opened up in a different department. I certainly didn’t expect that, and I felt quite honored! That same day, I got an email from that department head, saying that she’d heard so much about me, and wanted to interview me right away!
So the interview was yesterday, and I wore my tried-and-true interview combo. I didn’t switch the IS to MX335, because I didn’t have time to test it out, and I didn’t want to take any chances. But when I walked in, my interviewer was surrounded by tissues because she had a nasty cold! She wouldn’t even shake my hand for fear of spreading germs! She even made me sit roughly 10 feet away from her! My first thought was, “oh no, my pheros are rendered useless!” I can just imagine them getting trapped in her boogers and blown out into her kleenexes. Drat. I just hope at least 1 or 2 of them managed to sneak into her brain. But really, I didn’t have to worry. After a 45 min interview, she hired me on the spot! And get this, the pay is 50% better than the other position would’ve been! The work seems like it will be more enjoyable for me, too.
I used up the last of my IS, so I guess it’s finally time to put in a new order. It wasn’t completely wasted, though, because I decided to stop in at the Chinese market after the interview. I love seeing the live frogs and eels, I feel like I’m at the zoo! Well, as I walked around, I got LOTS of doting, adoring prolonged eye contact from the male Asian employees! Nice ego boost, especially after a successful interview! One guy was working at the back of the store with the live animals (he gazed into my eyes for an almost uncomfortably long time), and when he saw me at the checkout, he came up to the front and started bagging! When we locked eyes again, I got the feeling he was about to burst into song! Lol! If I ever get the hots for an Asian dude, I know what combo to use!
I think I’ve decided to give up on Fangirl’s bro. Not that he’s not still hot, and not that I’m bored of the challenge. But I saw a side of him the other day that is not appealing. I was over at their house, and Fangirl and I were in the kitchen talking. Most of her brothers and her dad were in the living room, watching a movie. The kitchen and living room are separated by a wall, but no doors. So you can freely walk around the wall to get between the rooms. Their movie was up really loudly, and I assumed that Fangirl and I were talking at an appropriate volume. I don’t know how sound carries in their house. All of a sudden, a chorus of disgruntled male voices rose up in the living room. I assumed they were reacting to something that happened in the movie, so she and I carried on. But the clamor didn’t stop, and I heard a few scattered phrases of “shut up!” It finally dawned on me that this was their way of communicating to us that they would like us to please try to keep our voices down. I was so insulted. This is the way they talk to a guest and a lady? I’m not a wild animal, it’s not appropriate to shout at me. Nothing is stopping them from sending one person over to communicate with me like a human being. I’m pretty sure I heard Hottie Brother’s voice amid the clamor. Anybody who thinks they can treat me like that is off my list. Only an apology would change my mind, and I don’t think I’m gonna get it, because I’m not planning to bring it up to them. I certainly let Fangirl know my thoughts, but I don’t think she’d have the courage to scold them on her own. I certainly would if I were her, but she’s far more beta than me.
No worries, though. There’s someone else I’ve kept on the back burner for a while. Maybe I’ll see if I can revisit things with him.
Congrats on the new job! That is awesome!
Thanks, CP!
Hi Miss Dragon,
Just completed reading through your journal in between reading through some others. Just wanted to thank you one more time for help getting me started here, and let you know I completed your journal first! It was a great read, and I learn a lot out of your testing of the punitives. This helped me understand methods for the testing, which will help make sure I get all the proper information needed to describe tests in a journal of my own.
Looking forward to receiving my newbie kit from Fedex today; wish me luck!
Congratulations on the new job, I look forward to reading more.
pudleduk