dont know which one did it tho lol.
hit myself with 1x shine (maybe 2?) 1 shot IH, 1x IO, and 1x AMMO.
went outside to meet my sister, her boyfriend, and their friend from work.
i’ve met her once before, no signs of attraction from her, however i did like how she looked.
sat down outside with them. the first thing anyone says to me is my sisters bofriend. “you asshole I can smell it!” this kinda pissed me off cuz i was about to get my spot blown up. I responded with huh? and luckily it moved on.time was 1:00 am and I had to work at 8 so i declined drinking and that changed fast.
I saw her eyeing me here and there. Its very weird because it almost feels different to me too. When i see girls looking at me its not like they are just looking, it seems to be a very curious and intimate look. I laugh when i see it because at that point you know its all over haha.
anyways she is very smart and quirky for sure. I figured this when I sprayed up but I wanted to test it first. I was right and after about 30 minutes I went to take a piss and hit myself with 1 shot of IJ. things seemed to flow more smoothly after that. I prolly sprayed openess too. Things were steering in the right direction after that. her and my sister went for a dip in the pool and i got to observe her body. Much better looking than I had remembered. eventually I was 4 beers in and it was now 3:30. this is where i went to bed after drinking 2 nights in a row (sometimes later) and had been late over an hour both days. It was now or never. sleep or target. everyone was cold so they went inside (my house has an inlaw apartment in it) my sister lives there with her bf an i live in my house. so i went my way they went theirs. I hit myself with 1 or 2 ammo and and 1 shot (2?) of IJ
I walked downstairs and into their apartment and started to take off my shoes. my sister was like “why are you taking off your shoes we are going to bed”. that sucked. my mood changed and i was like ok fine well thanks for getting me drunk (i pounded those 4 i had) so i was very buzzed and fuckin had to work at 8. now i was ditched for the night. i went into my room feelin like shit wishing i was sober so i could just sleep. I sat around for a while even went back outside texting my sis to come out for 1 last cig but got no response. 15 minutes or more went by and i gave up. i went upstairs again to my room now in a really bad mood and feeling very raged up. I didnt like it and assumed it was the shot of IJ so I took a wet ones wipe and wiped the shit off my neck. what a waste of product. I put my head against my screen window and thought for a minute. I built up courage closed my eyes and yelled to the window below me “are you still awake down there?” immediatly she resoponded “yes why.”
the room directly below me is the spare bedroom in the inlaw apartment, which is ontop of our garages and she thought i was in the driveway i said i was above her and that we needed to be window friends. she said she would come outside again but she didnt have a hoodie. i told her i had one. she then said “ill meet you outside”
I walked out, she was already there lol, we talked for like 20 minutes. I learned she was only 1 year older than me which i didnt know. i poked fun at her a bit and eventually asked if she wanted to go watch a movie.
you know where the story ends.
Im not going to say that this wouldnt have happened anyways because it may have. however I didnt have to try at all. normally theres a good amount of close contact before anything can happen. kino, kino excliation etc. This was straight simple. I was a few feet away from her all night. and then rubbing together without even trying. i wish i had gotten up at some point to do something and hit myself with tuth. oh well. 
