home alone today, decided to see what a fat dose of P81 does to me.
six sprays @ 12.5 mcg from a togo. total applied = 75 mcg. two to wrist, rest applied to sides and front of neck. No cover.
No phero rush, no flushing like I get from a high -none. But some tension on the sides and back of my neck.
huffed the app points for a bit ![]()
went for a drive.
feel… slow. and strong. Hasn’t changed my mood… not happier or any more upbeat. Nor the converse. Not down or anything… just even.
More of the feeling of being like a bulldozer. I’m moving slow and fluid. My focus is pretty close to me. Not really seeing much past the first few car lengths while driving. Not tunnel vision per se, I’m still aware of my full surroundings, but only really taking note of those immediately in my path of interest.
I feel I have alot of patience right now. Time not really regestering.
I don’t feel any sexual urges latently, but listening to a song while driving, I began to fantasize about a certain someone… and I could almost feel pushing them up against a wall, slowly. Burning my eyes into theirs, and taking them. Methodically. Forward. No jackrabbit heat energy, just the feeling that I could, or would, push into them and they couldn’t do anything about it, nor would they want to.
I feel like I could, if I wanted to, just push into a wall and it would yield.
slow. strong. focused but not buzzy. not spacey, maybe a bit dreamy. quiet.
I really really WANT to listen to someone right now. don’t feel much like talking… but would love to have a one-on-one.
I’m thinking this high dose, with maybe a shot of P78 may be good for a quiet dinner for two?
Been an hour… so I’ll let this simmer for a bit.