PRODUCTS:
P135 (5 mcg per spray) X 3 to neck (11h00 AM)
Cross-referenced posts for solo testings of the same putative in my journal: #93 (15 mcg), #148 (20 mcg).
Location: Home alone and Walm*rt
First Impressions: It smells Neroli (6%), no other fragrance or note being detected. No immediate physiological effects except slower breathing and a feeling of relaxation.
Usage & Application Points: Dosage : 5 mcg per spray applied 3 X to different spots on neck, for a total of 15 mcg.
Most Appropriate Environment: I figured I’d try solo P135 once more and I decided the best time to do this was during the weekend, at home, while the kids and girlfriend were out because of the hypno-focus and irritability effects I had on my last try. I don’t see this working in work setting.
Types of Effects: The summary: Inner peace, hypno-focus (visual and auditive), overthinking, nostalgia, love for arts (music in particular), antisocial/introvert vibe to others, irritability, carelessness for the outside world, tinglings (face and fingers).
After fifteen minutes, my mind started drifting a lot, I was thinking random thoughts, no bad thoughts though, this went on ten minutes until I decided to listen to music on my computer. The music sounded very crisp with the lyrics almost ‘clacking’ (hard to describe).
My first listen was a random from my general playlist, it was Anthrax’s “Who cares wins” and frankly, I was overcome by a general “don’t care” a la don’t-worry-about-life feeling. Got again that extreme focus feeling, but not necessarily a useful focus work-wise… mostly an hypno-focus. For example, I would move my head, but my eyes stayed put wherever they choose to be. The TV was on, at a normal volume, but it was as though it was off, I just didn’t notice it. I caught myself looking at Wind*ws OS clock at the bottom of my computer screen for like a full minute. I was really attentive to lyrics and understood them very clearly, even though I had not fully understood before on previous listenings (english not being my primary language and Anthrax has, well, not the most articulate singer around). Though I must admit I had not really listened to any Anthrax since my teen days, my playlist being very large
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I felt an inner peace vibe. On my first P135 solo try, I had suspected irritability from the P135 with the kids, altough his time, I was alone, I felt smooth… until I got out of the house, which I will talk about later. I felt a numbness at the tip of my fingers maybe thirty minutes into the test it lasted for thirty minutes. I was hitting the keyboard keys and I did not really feel the hits on my fingertips. I was feeling good inside, but not expressing any joy on the outside or anything like that. I got a tingling sensation in my cheeks and face for the next thirty minutes, on and off. I noticed an acute pain at the top of one of my feet I had not felt since then, though this might be coincidential. My jaw was so relaxed, it usually really ain’t the case.
The mp3 playlist went after randomly to Barbra Streisand’s “Memory” (I know I have a weird and eclectic playlist). A very nice song, but it sounded especially glorious on P135. I could feel the same as if I was attending a Streisand concert first-row.
After that, I decided on what to listen to. I tuned in to the late Laura Branigan’s “The power of love”, a song that uplifts me and always gives me goose bumps all over. I just had to try it on P135 after the Streisand experience. I fell in love with an angel, tears came to my eyes, the song emotion was incredibly vivid. That lady made Celine Dion look like an amateur with her version (which existed before, by the way) which is much more heartfelt, poignant and authentic.
Afterwards, I listened to another of my classic favorites “Amsterdam” by belgian 60’s singer Jacques Brel, a crescendoing song in which he nearly spits his heart out near the end. I actually felt I was in the harbour he is describing.
I then tuned in to Labaich’s “B Mashina”, a song that usually gives me strange physiological fascist leader type of vibe (I’m not into that, don’t worry, just a manner of speech) and it induces a light trance in me every time I listen to it. It is a strange and strong song that completely changes direction like ten times during the running time. I listened to it and my whole face was tingling. I got so into it. When the neo-classical finale hit me, it was downright climactic. The hypno-focus I was talking earlier was totally on the songs by that time, if a green polka-dot chihuhaha had crossed my living room at that moment, I probably would have been like: ‘Uh! You seen a dog? What dog?’.
Then I pumped up the volume to other songs from my top-50-ever:
Guerre Froide’s “St Exupery”, a coldwave song that tells the story about the french writer Saint-Exupery whose warplane has been shot down by the germans during WWII. I just didn’t move at all during the whole runtime, I felt like I was seeing the doomed plane, feeling some kind of empathy.
I will not go into the details of the feelings every song gave me, this would probably bore you all to death, but they did hit hard. I was barely moving, even my eyes were blinking like half the usual rate. During Wolfsheim’s “Upstairs”, my whole face was tingling again. Then followed Covenant “Like tears in rain”, Cabaret Voltaire’s “I want you” and Psyche’s “Sanctuary”.
I ended it all with Nine Inch Nails’ “Burn”. I made me want to set the world on fire, NIN style (not like those wusses in the ‘We are yoooooung’ song, lol). NIN did put the inner peace I was feeling before to a pause, but it returned to normal afterwards. I mean, this is no Bobby McFerrin song.
I got a clear “it-takes-you-there” effect on my side as far as music is concerned, so I guess that watching a movie on P135 might be an experience worth trying in the future, it might be outstanding, at the theater, to don’t give a frock about people talking and munching popcorn, while looking at a giant screen in the dark, it would be hard to let the hypno-focus effect (visual and auditive) wander elsewhere from the movie screen.
I then decided to look at the social effects by going out. Honestly, it was nothing pleasant however. I went to Walm*rt. I got irritated at least four times very easily by people blocking the aisles, either they put their cart in the middle while looking for an item, or they just stalled in the middle of an aisle to chat with another person… I felt I was going to turn into the Larry David of “Curb your Enthusiasm” because I was so annoyed…
I saw some very fine looking girls, but I was like a ghost to them. Generally, people were not courteous with me at all. At a time, I turned a corner in the store just after thinking to myself, “socially, this mone is so bad”. It was like a conspiration, ten to twelve very cute girls 18 to 30 came out from every aisle, in the main hallway in every direction almost all at once, I gave them all a look when I was quick enough to do so, quick glances which stuck a second on their side, I was feeling a drive inside me, but it was like an all-out attack and I just didn’t know where to follow, my radar was going AWOL. I saw no smiles however since I could not focus on any single girl.
I checked out with the same cashier as a few days back, the one that wouldn’t stop talking to me, she barely said hello and goodbye this time, altough I greeted her with a big smile and a “Happy to see you again (her first name), how are you today?”. On my way out, I held a door for an old lady, I had been waiting in place like fifteen seconds for her to finally arrive, she went through and did not even say thanks: how rude to do that to such a nice guy!
I have mixed feelings about that putative, do i love it or not? With P135, I guess I’d be the crazy weirdo that’s so into the music on the dance floor that girls would either be scared or find ridiculous, so it’s not a party molecule. For an evening of philosophic discussions with litterate friends, it might be something to try if the irritability can be controlled. This is definitely not for using at work because of the hypno-focus effect and irritability. This is not a flirting or a sexual molecule either because it gives me a strong introvert vibe and gives out a potentially antisocial vibe as well. For introspection and killing spare time listening to music alone at home, I rate the product as outstanding! For listening to music while driving a car, I would never dare try based on this experience, I see it as a definite hazard, at least at the 15 mcg dose. It makes internal emotions vivid especially when those are tied with some form of souvenir or nostalgia. It makes one don’t care much about the outside everyday-life emotions however. I will probably try p135 again in public, on a week-end, to verifiy the antisocial vibe. After that, I might decide to keep what’s left in my bottle to enhance artistic appreciation on rainy days, because, for this purpose, if confirmed, the molecule absolutely rocks. Listening to Beethoven’s ninth on this must be something!
Strength: Irritability 4/10 (confirmed), hypno-focus 10/10 (confirmed), eye-stalling effect 8/10 (confirmed), overthinking 8/10 (to be confirmed), flabbergasted by music and it-takes-you-there effect 10/10 (both to be confirmed), tinglings (fingers and face) 4/10 (to be confirmed), antisocial vibe to others 8/10 (to be confirmed), nostalgia (7/10) (to be confirmed), palate freezing 0/10 (did not happen at all this time around at even higher dose, and I did get a good whiff of the product, so, discarded).
Length of Effects and/or Tenacity: Most effects, except the tinglings, lasted like 3-4 hours. The tinglings were on and off but lasted one hour at the most. The eye-stalling effect continued up to the evening after that, but none of the other effects did last that long.
Effectiveness & Consistency: The irritability, hypno-focus and eye-stalling effects have all been confirmed and are consistant on my side. This is the strongest dose I have tried yet for P135, new effects have been detected and will need to be verified: overthinking, flabbergasted by music (it-takes-you-there feeling), tinglings, antisocial vibe and nostalgia. The light palate freezing effect (P77-style) I got on one of my tries did no reoccur this time, as said before, I discard that effect as coincidential.
Diffusion/Sillage: I was alone at home, so no sillage could be observed there. At the store, a sillage was present, but that sillage was not to my social or sexual advantage, that’s for sure. The sillage seemed rather short since I noticed negatives only from persons I was very close to (like 2 feet or less).
If it had a texture, what would it feel like? Silk on one side, sandpaper on the other.
If it were edible or drinkable, what would it taste like? Any homemade comfort food
What celebrity or public figure is it most like? Arthur Rimbaud, a french poet
If it were music, what would it sound like? :
I made an extensive review of music in the ‘effects’ section, for the curious and/or adventurous ones, here are youtube links to the songs mentionned in this report, but remember, during my experience, I had audio only (mp3s), no video whatsoever, I was basically staring at the Wind*ws Player kaleidoscope animations or elsewhere randomly on the screen.
Laura Branigan: youtube.com/watch?v=WaMlojYHkf0
Laibach: youtube.com/watch?v=UgqjnzkYPnA
Guerre Froide: youtube.com/watch?v=oYqA6QW0jlw
Covenant: youtube.com/watch?v=Qpyd_pJY3GI
Cabaret Voltaire: youtube.com/watch?v=juligEIi3Sg&list=RDjuligEIi3Sg
Psyche: youtube.com/watch?v=k7S8FqJB7pw
Nine Inch Nails: youtube.com/watch?v=APvaP86BzCc
Anthrax : youtube.com/watch?v=gtD_GUvu-wc
Barbra Streisand: youtube.com/watch?v=78Ruh0ewBVo
Jacques Brel: youtube.com/watch?v=n2kkr0e_dTQ