Hello, ok today i was going to try 50mcg of TAC from togo at 50mcg but only got half spray first time around but second was full so had on about 75 mcg.
I have tried this at lower doses, 12mcg but was not taking proper notes as i do now but do remember it being calming. I suffer with social anxiety so my test are primarily aimed at helping with this so sometimes need higher doses to get self effect rather than just an effect on others.
The weekend i was away at dance weekender and so i am tired, stiff and sore. Had bath and applied the 50mcg at about 4pm. Unlike the 12mcg with this i got gentle rush and heady feeling, felt intense but at same time calm. In youth i tried some MDMA and i can liken it to the initial feeling that gave but not as strong or long lasting, more just the very start of MDMA high.
Shortly after i got an email from a woman i have become friends with from dancing, think she may want more but 100% sure. Anyway it seem that every time do a self test this happens and i end up sending her a flirty email, this one involved handcuffs 
The reply contained the text “my life is spiraling at the moment and I need someone to step in and take control!” umm know the TAC is not affecting her but i sure was not phased about sending the email.
Thirty min later i am very chilled, never going to get any work done, my head has a pressure behind the eyes, not an unpleasant one though.
I go out for a walk and bite to eat at the shopping center, the walk there is… it just is! I am not in a rush or have a great purpose, or walking on top of the world, but then i am not labored or walking with head down. I do feel this smile on my face that i can’t get rid of and notice couple of women catching my eye, no big deal just walking to where i am going.
Get to food place and stand behind woman in late forties who fit for her age, she is with school girl who different colour and from the way they interact i think she is teacher or mentor. Stood behind for couple of minutes, no effects seen.
Sat down at table next to these two so about 6ft away for about 20min. Nothing really obvious, though the woman did seem to be leaning towards me more with her upper body as time went by, even though her legs were pointed away, though if they were pointing towards me that would have been awkward as a chair was in the way.
The other thing i felt about self effect was that my eyes seemed wider, like i am seeing more, taking in more detail?
The walk home was the same, and once home i had not intention of doing anything except some stretching as thought my calm feeling would help this.
During my this time my thoughts drifted to my ex who recently broke up with, was painful for me, but it seemed easier to deal with, not like did not care but more a “nothing you do to change things, best just to enjoy good memories but move on”. Almost an acceptance of how things were.
Is now 8.30pm and although still feeling chilled, am now feeling like going to bed, maybe not sleep but just getting under the warm blankets and chill. I have the a slight feeling of headach, no more a tension in head front of head behind eyes.
Would really need to test in situation that gives me SA bad, such as going up and talking to people, will try that soon.
