For the first hour at the party, I noticed unusual behavior from those who had never met me. A wariness to my warm and outgoing nature. Almost like they felt I was being false. Eventually this calmed into a natural state, and I went on an adventure to a rooftop patio with two cute girls and one guy. We shot the shit, chatted and I was reveling in humour, non stop jabs puns and sexual innuendo that they enjoyed.
After these girls left I sprayed one spray of ammo and met with a friend. We went out to meet girls, and he opened a set. Again the girls were vocal, loudly describing sexual topics with humour. However when sexually initiated they were guarded. I did initiate sexual escalation quickly, I think the P83 had a self effect stronger than physical external effects. This mix certainly allowed for vocal sexual displays.
I sprayed three sprays of IO:83 and hung out with these girls for a bit. They had asked if we were gay on meeting them, and we joked about it. However, they did not let it go and kept referring to it the whole interaction. Later I was walking home and met three girls going the same direction as me. We walked to a diner and had cheeseburgers these girls were talking and joking endlessly. I walked them home, and again all sexual escalation was guarded against. I think that the mix was telegraphing the sexual escalation too far in advance and made the manuevers seem cheap. This is why something like MEO-EST may be useful in mix with P83.
I also noticed that the girls who were sexually guarded were making negative comments and teases about my appearance. They would point out if I had holes in my clothing, moles on my face, etc. This is not something that usually happens, and I can attribute it to a quality mentioned by Diane in her description of P83 that I had never noticed before this test. A minimal form of anxiety. I am curious to try out P86, as I seem to recall it having “attractive” making characteristics, and i’m wondering what the difference between the two putatives are. Understanding of course, that no number has anything to do with another.
For the last week I had stopped my regular morning drink of Greens+ Extra Energy. I am feeling lethargic and miss the boost that gave me extra motivation to go about my day. Time to restock!!!