Yesterday, I decided to test MX329 first. This is, I believe, Dancing Joker’s “Love Boat” mix.
I applied what I estimate to be 1.75 sprays at first, and enjoying the scent, I rather huffed it a bit… but the effects were elusive, and if there, were very subtle. I went to visit my grandfather and take him to the hardware store, during which time I noted that I had a definite admirer in a girl who couldn’t have been older than 15 years old… as to whether that was pheromones or not, I can’t say I know. Nobody else responded with interest.
In fact I can’t say I got anything that was a definitive hit… another possible hit was the floor salesman being a little more positive and gracious than I would expect, but that could simply be a good employee.
So after that I went home and applied two more sprays to my neck. This time, I started noticing that I was becoming slightly irritable/impatient/critical on the way over to pick up my ex. It was very frustrating to me that I had not simply told her to wait until tomorrow nstead of trying to go out to a movie at 10:40, when I was arriving at her house at 10:40 and the movie theater was 45 minutes away. What was I thinking? What a waste of time, and gas… I’m not paying for a movie I won’t get to see all of! grumble grumble
But with some effort, I calmed that down, and she found on her phone that there was the same movie playing at 11 PM at a theater that was close enough to get to in time, so we went there. I was feeling rather touchy feely, in a caring way, so I was caressing her shoulders while we watched the movie… and she was enjoying the attention, but it was decidedly non-sexual for both of us.
After the movie, we would normally have made out and maybe shared pleasures, but this evening was completely non-sexual again… I was happy, enjoying her company, but no desire for sex. Usually we can’t keep our hands off each other… it’s as if she was designed to turn me on, and vice versa. Not this night. So we went to IHOP, and the conversation quickly turned deep and personal, with her explaining what she wants from a man she’s going to spend the rest of her life with…
Uh… hello? We broke up for a reason… and now we’re getting to know eachother again… slooooowly… okay, I fully understand her not wanting sex all the time because a relationship based on nothing but is no relationship at all, but previously it had been the path to shared emotional intimacy… and where did we get back to marriage negotiations again? She sounded as if she was almost scolding me about what I need to do to be worthy of her…
Now given why we broke up, this was more than a little upsetting to me, and as the night wore on, became more and more offensive. We ended up in a complete deadlock squared off at 180 degrees opposition, right back where we came from before we broke up.
I don’t know how much of all this was the influence of the MX, but the nonsexuality was odd and the way she was treating me during dinner was odd… I will have to use this mix in alternating patterns with a known quantity to understand it better.
I suspect I sense androstenone and beta androstenol, though.