I sit here writing this and I have a smile on my face. Its different, its nothing like it has been in the past. Self improvement and development isn’t easy. Its hard when you try to do it yourself without support. Its easier with pheromones, namely A314, and it even gets easier when you read stories about peoples improvements and the help you get from them.
I believe I’ve hit a milestone during my short time here. I didn’t think it was going to be as profound as I realize now. Having pheromones help you get laid would seem more like an accomplishment, it works! Its great! This stuff is amazing! I realized this morning that it wasn’t about the act, it wasn’t all about the super mix I used, it was ABOUT ME. Yes these things help, pheromones + you is like a ferrari fine tuned well built machine. The pheromones are the body, and you are the engine, the heart and soul of everything built around it.
Backstory: reading steves interpretation on his thboughts of MX297 made me want to test out his theory. Quite frankly I still thought MX297 had a great initial kick because I wasn’t getting the obvious blatant hits I get with MX297. I decided to try A314+P83+P86+P75+IH and went out. I was socializing with everyone since it was a birthday gathering, we were all there and with my previous post I ended up talking to a hottie and exchanged numbers and talked during the week.
As soon as I got there, her face lit up. I said hi and mingled with friends and just was doing things on my own. At the car ride there I was thinking to myself, this girl is hot, all my friends say so, why am I not attached, why am I not being clingy and constantly thinking about her, she’s hotter than the last girl I dated but nothing emotionally comes up. A small amount of interest is in there but not like how I was used to. Am I emotionally scarred? Do I have new commitment issues? Is there something left from my past I’m harboring? I never thought those questions would get answered in one fell swoop. We were having fun and enjoying the time with friends, people can tell something electric is between us and were just not doing anything about it. First test of the night, a guy hits on her, well a lot of guys were, but this is the first one who aggressively makes a move. I think to myself, no biggie, and it really is no biggie at that point. Fast forward a few minutes, body language is off. She gave the guy the number, jealousy sets in, but it leaves. Normally back then I would have shut down and started acting beta. I say to myself, she’s with you, and you offered and was your best and yourself, if she doesn’t like it then it wasn’t meant to happen. I shrugged it off and moved on and kept having fun with her, she was very receptive and we went to talk a walk. We ended up in my car and one thing led to another. Does my body look good? Am I doing it right? Is my penis big enough? Is she enjoying this? Nope, I savored in the moment and enjoyed it for what it was, this is who I am and that is that.
I had fun and an awesome time, I woke up this morning happy. But not the excited “I got laid” excited, but because my mentality, my actions, and my state of mind were truths of how things really are. Its not perfect, nor will it ever be, but the strive to improve and do better each day is worth it alone.
Thanks to all of you who have given input and supported.
