tinaN's journal

Field Reports & Anecdotal Experience Women's Journals
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@1Alpha & Sillykitty: It’s the B version, spray all the way
@Sarafina: It was a joke lol I thought it was the A314 as well :slight_smile:

Wednesday:
2x A314 (1x front and 1x back) - For some reason I thought I was holding a perfume bottle so I sprayed it on my shirt…
Cover scent: The Dreamer

Environment. Indoor
Cool, windy weather

Self Effects
Again: Lot of self-confident, carefree, a bit numb/bitchy. I don’t think I smiled that much today…

Noticed effects to others.
Sprayed at 12.

12:30 - Drove to the computer shop to check on the RAM to see if they have tested it yet. The guy (Asian) who served me was very polite, he went and checked with the other tech guy for me (he was also polite, held eye-contact the whole time). They asked me to come back later for it.

1 - While parking my car at this street, I saw this guy (~40) on a bicycle and he looked at me as well. When I got out of the car and walked to Chinatown, somehow I walked passed him and he said something to me which I didn’t remember. When I looked back he was just looking at me (in a non-sexual way). When I got to the intersection, waiting for the light, an Asian lady was standing next to me then she quickly walked to the other side of the road, no eye contacts.

I walked into Chinatown and a bunch of teenager girls behind asked me for a cigarette. I think I was giving off a slight threatening vibe because I saw something in their eyes as I turned around and face the girls. Well, I acted pretty friendly toward them so they seemed relaxed later, gave them a cig, they thanked me and walked away straight away.

1:15 - Got to this clothing shop, I’ve got served by this Asian girl. She was very polite, very respectful (she wasn’t smiling that much but held eye-contacts with me whenever I talk to her). She pretty much followed me around the shop even though there were other customers around, made me a bit uncomfortable. When I made the purchase, she showed me to the counter and stood there while her friend served me (this friend was a bit colder, not much eye-contact).

2 - Got to this Japanese shop, as I went to pay for my goods the guy behind me let me go first and smiled at me. The lady at the service didn’t smile though, I think she was a bit pissed at me for getting in front of the line or something. No eye-contacts.

Later did a bit more shopping but didn’t notice other people. I think there were some occasion where some people looked at me accidentally then as they turned away they realized something, turned back and gave me another look :expressionless:

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Couldn’t get a hang of the internet for the last couple of days, but I haven’t really used the mones since Thursday :slight_smile: Gonna test A314 again today :slight_smile:

Thursday:
2x A314 (back and front)
Cover scent: Dreamer

Environment. Indoor + Outdoor
Cool and beautiful weather

Self Effects
Similar self effects I get from the last times I wore A314, however there was an anxious moment when I was in that big shopping centre (gonna mention below)

Noticed effects to others.
Sprayed around 12.
12:30 - To the computer shop to get the RAM, greeted me was an Asian guy (minimal eye-contacts), he checked my receipt then directed me to this tech guy to arrange my pick-up. This tech guy was a Caucasian, he strikes me as a nerdy shy guy, he did not make any eye-contacts whatsoever and he seemed nervous, he worked fast and dropped/missed things :stuck_out_tongue:

1 - Got to the bank to deposit some cash for mum, the guy who served also kept minimal eye-contacts and did not even looked at me when he handed me back my card 0___o

1:15 - Walked to the shop I used to work at, people were friendly but in an awkward kind of way. Met some of my former workmates, they seemed uneasy but were nice and friendly anyway (but then they were working when I was there so it might be one of the factors). I didn’t stay around for long…

2:30 - Got to this big shopping centre, it is located in the wealthy area, people seemed very dressed up and such. I walked into this fragrance shop, there were 2 women and a guy who worked there. They were very ignoring, none of them greeted me nor showed any sign of friendliness. I only stayed for awhile then felt very uncomfortable, I walked outside and just had this massive anxiety attack, sort of felt that everyone was looking at me and criticized. Couldn’t take it so I drove off.

3 - Met a friend for coffee, we went for a walk. There were not much to talk about but she was very friendly (this was the friend that seemed uneasy last time when she was in my car - me wearing A314)

-> Maybe 2 sprays in the front is better for me? The diffusion will be slower and the molecule being released into the air will be less dense? I don’t know, but overall, Thursday wasn’t that good of a day :frowning:

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Haven’t used the mones for so long. I haven’t been going to uni nor going out neither so testing is pretty much impossible. Plus I’m sort of disappointed at the results I have been getting so far. But will continue to find the opportunity to test.

Sunday:
4x I/S (throat/chest)
12 inches of this mixed mone called Possess I just got on Amazon

Environment. Outdoor
Cool and beautiful weather

Self Effects
Happy, a bit tired around 2~3 hours after applying

Noticed effects to others.
Applied around 12
Overall people I’ve met today were very relaxed and friendly.

So after applying, I got in the car with some friends, we are going on a long road trip. There were three of us, I know one of the girl (T) but never met the other (H). I said hi and acted really friendly toward H

12:15 - To the bakery, I’ve got some eye contacts with two of the guys waiting there. I haven’t talked to H but she seems pretty friendly, standing really close to me. When we got back in the car, throughout 1 hour driving I have noticed the girls were relaxed and comfortable, very talkative.

1:15 - We’ve got to this waterfall, T was very friendly, stood very close to me and was pretty touchy. We took some photos then the girls took off to the other side of the waterfall to take photo. I noticed a couple of elders stood behind me. They seemed very nice so I strike a conversation with them, they were very relaxed, we maintained good eye-contacts. Later there were another two couple came up close to me, we made some small talks as well. Most of the people who walked passed me and my friends said hello to us, it was nice.

We drove to this playground around 2 but it was so huge I didn’t have a chance to get close to any strangers so no more comments about the playground.

3 - We have got to this shopping mall, I went and got some cigs, the staff who served me was a woman. She did seem to be too friendly at first but later she smiled and looked at me in a very very friendly way which kind of weird me out. I got back to the beer garden to meet up with T and H, had a nice chat then we went home.

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Thursday:

3x MX423[ (chest)
Cover scent: Grey Vetiver

Environment. Outdoor
Warm weather

Self Effects
A few minutes after spraying, my mind was much clearer, I felt pleasant and calm. A bit anxious around half an hour later when I walked into a big crowd but it went away quickly. The affect lasts around 3 hours

Noticed effects to others.
People were very pleasant around me, a received a few eye contacts, when I looked back at them, they didn’t turn their eyes away quickly (maybe this mix makes me a bit less intimidating?)

Met a friend for coffee, he was nice and warm. Acted very gentleman-like around me, we had a very good talk, it seemed like he didn’t want me to go :slight_smile:

12:30 - (A314 Classic Edition – Trust & Respect Pheromone for Men - Alpha A314)

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How’s it going Tina? Did your friendly gentleman friend ask you out for another cup of coffee?

Wish you well!

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Loving your journal Tina. Wondering if you have a favourite yet and if so what is it and why?

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Sorry guys, I’m going through some terrible things recently, just wasn’t in the mood to test nor update my journal.

I think at the moment, my fav mix is A314, because it is one of the mixes that brought me some obvious “hits”, I still need to test more with it, want to get a chance to test P83 as well, probably tonight when I come over my friend’s house, just to see what it’s like. Will definitely write a report afterward :slight_smile:

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Every challenge, every person (especially the difficult ones) are invited into our lives by us, so that we may learn from them and grow stronger. :slight_smile:

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Thanks Steve, it’s just that I keep trusting, let people in then get disappointed. Every single person that I’m allowed in has only proved that I was right not trusting them in the first place. Oh, I’m talking about romantic relationships, not friendships, I’m lucky to have so many good friends but just having friends isn’t enough sometimes (if you know what I mean). Plus been having a few family/uni/personal issues, you think they are nothing, leave it there until you realize that they actually eating you slowly…

Saturday (6/1):
4 x P83 (2x Sides of neck, chest and back neck)
Cover scent: Versace Eau Fraische

Environment. Indoor
Cold and windy weather but indoor wasn’t that bad

Self Effects
I didn’t notice any self-effect from it.

Noticed effects to others.
Went to my friend’s place (E) to spend the night, watching movies, talk and such. We had a few good convos, even though sitting on the same couch, we kept our distances. At one point we went out for cigarettes I did notice that we started to stand a bit closer to each other, went we got back inside we were sitting closer.

Oh and when I got home, E followed me all the way to my car (which was a pretty long walk), she rarely does this, plus the weather was cold and E doesn’t like the cold weather so it was a pretty good sign that we had a good time.

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I know exactly what you mean. Doubly worrying is the knowledge that my inhibitions might trigger their change of heart, too. I’m a bit disgusted that so many guys are like “We’ve never met, I’ve never done anything to you, why should you doubt me?” And then they act hurt. Really? What guy goes around automatically trusting every woman. Honestly, do guys think “I know I’m not a PUA, I don’t take advantage of women (anymore, unless she lets me), how come SHE can’t tell the difference?” (Did guys get ACTUAL dating lessons in high school and they don’t give comparable classes to the gals? /sarcasm) :stuck_out_tongue:

Caution is not the same as distrust!

Rational, honest, people take it slowly with each other, and over time trust (or distrust) develops as a result of accumulated experiences. When there’s never been any doubt about that your actions and feelings are above-board and moving in a positive direction, trust develops. If you go about harping “You SHOULD trust me, you have no reason not to,” you might plant the seed of distrust. The old bardage, “The lady doth protest too much,” is all too true, as it is usually the overly-suspicious ones who are hiding the bad behavior.

I approach each new person with caution, not distrust, but if I don’t throw myself in headlong, I’m “bitter.” If I DO throw myself in willy-nilly, I’m “relationship-grubbing” or “desperate.” :open_mouth:

It’s a damned fine line to walk. Take some tightrope lessons and don’t give up your net! :slight_smile:

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Wow that was such a great post. I think the pain we feel normally haunt us longer than other feelings because great pain that you feel normally come from the people that you love (the more we love someone the more painful it is when they hurt you). I guess that’s what keep us from trusting people, because we all got hurt before by the people we care about.

I think being cautious is totally fine, but no matter how slow you take to trust a person, at some point they are going to hurt you (intentionally or not). I hate it when people say “Oh I’ve been hurt before so I’m not going to trust anyone anymore” and usually they are the ones I’m interested to. It’s hard because I feel like “Why is it when it’s my turn, you are not available!”.

Friday:
4 x IS (chest)

Environment. Indoor

Self Effects
Had a massive crash the day before, woke up today feeling alright, kept having naps throughout the day not wanting to do anything. Anyway, I had 2 sprays of IS (2x) just then. Immediately after spraying I felt very refreshed, noticeable mood lifts. Still, not that happy I want to run around and dance but calm and relaxing :slight_smile:

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I mean cautious like “sensible” not "paranoid! :stuck_out_tongue:
Cautious like I don’t make out with someone on a first date, unless it’s phenomenal–one of those ones that goes on for HOURS. But even then, “more” can wait. And my thoughts are, if they actually like ME that much, they don’t mind waiting a bit. Part of it is I LIKE the mental foreplay, the build up of anticipation. :open_mouth::smiley:

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Back to uni! Please stay tune for more journal entries from me from now on :smiley:

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There you are!!! Good to see you’re doing well, as Uni is normally a step in the right direction! :wink:

Keepin’ an eye on your upcoming posts!

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^Me too^ :slight_smile:

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Saturday:
So, after a whole week of forgetting to put on the mones, I had an idea about the level of communication and closeness between me and my uni friends. Just decided to put on some for Saturday because I was going to this Photography class and I don’t know anyone there.

4 x IH (forearms)
1 x IO (Hair)
Environment. Indoor

Self Effects
I notice me being really outgoing, happy and friendly. The class was pretty fulled when I came in, instead of sitting at the back like I would always do I went and sat in the middle of this two girls.

Noticed effects to others
I wasn’t nervous nor felt uncomfortable, at one point I started to talk with one of the girls on the left. Even though we haven’t met, she seemed to be pretty talkative, tried to come up with conversation. She talked a lot about herself and asked about me (maybe I seemed really friendly and honest?). Well we talked a little then my tutor came in and started to talk about the course and such. He seemed very friendly and really talkative (he admitted during his talk that sometimes he talks a bit too much and told us a little about his new baby boy). Afterward we went out for a tour around the Photography lab. No one said a word to anyone (we all strangers to another).

I finished class a little over 4 hours (it was 12:30) of putting on the mones, went for a walk. I visited an old friend and we went for a bit of shopping. We had some pretty full on conversation then.

1:00 - Went and met my friend J for lunch, we haven’t caught up in about 2 or 3 weeks. It was a good catch up even though I did most of the talking.

2:30 - J and I went to this organic cafe to catch up with some friends. There were about 5 people, 3 I’ve never met. They all seemed a bit quiet when I got there, I noticed me being right at home and got pretty chatty. We all had a pretty good time.

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Monday:

5x P83 (2x forearms, 1x hair, 1x front shirt and 1x neck)
Sprayed at 8

Environment. Indoor
Cool and windy outside

Self Effects
Despite only been in the class for around 2 days, I felt pretty comfortable and confident.

Noticed effects to others
Well people seemed to listen to me when I talk (not that they normally don’t). I have a friend from last year in my class and she seemed pretty comfortable with me, she strike a few jokes and such. I don’t know, everything seems pretty “normal” (will try to wear it a few times in that class. She seemed to wanna hang with me while we were on breaks but it could be because she only knew me in the class.

12:30 - One of my new friends (K) in the class wanted me to go for lunch with her and her friends, I told her I was waiting for my friend A. K waited for awhile with me but I told her to go with her friends because I don’t know when A was going to come out of her class.

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In the evening

4x IS (forearms)

Environment. Indoor + outdoor
Cool and windy outside

Self Effects
Confident, happy frizzy

Noticed effects to others
I was going to meet up with this friend of mine. We knew each other on fb for ages but never really met. She got the ticket for this stand up comedy but no one wanted to come with her so I did. I noticed she talked a lot during our catch up, we were pretty comfortable even if it was our first meet (strikes jokes and stuffs). Had a pretty good night actually.

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Ishine will definitely make things fun :slight_smile:.

How many P83 were you wearing?

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5 sprays at 12.5mcg :expressionless:

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WOW that’s a lot of P83. I think I recall most members getting their best results at 20-30 mcg. What were your experiences at lower dosages?