OK, second day I tried Perception again. I wore less this time, applying it behind my ears and a little to my wrists. I went to get some coffee and noticed no particular reactions out of the ordinary. I was wearing cologne over my wrists and the back of my ears- not much, just a little.
I put on a touch more on my arms near the pulse points in the elbow, and went out to eat with somebody (male) and noticed the wierdest thing happen in years. He semed very chatty (he just got back from out of town) but I couldn’t focus on much he was saying. I was leaning on my elbow with my head in my hand and was inhaling the cologne I was wearing (Old Spice Pure Sport- somewhat heavy, smells sort of like Axe Kilo), and pheros, nonchalantly, not paying much attention to it, and the more I did this, the wierder things got. I admit I was feeling a little tired (I don’t always have regular diurnal hours and sometimes I experience jetlag) ,but anything he said, I forgot. I have experimented with hypnosis and auto-hypnosis/trance, and the feeling was very similar, a definite altered state of consciousness. Time seemed to crawl.
He was talking and talking about stuff that happened, yet it wasn’t sinking in, he just seemed to be rambling but I acted like I was paying attention and making lots of eye contact, and it didn’t bother me like it usually did, for some reason. I told him, “hey, you seem like you are rambling on and on… what’s your point?” He said “oh yeah, I am rambling… I forgot what I was talking about”, then he thought a bit and remembered. I also was making alot of eye contact and this person said “dude… what’s up? You are staring at my mouth. It’s like you are looking through me”. I said “Oh sorry, just feeling a little spacey”. He said “yeah, me too”. My hair stood up on end. I kept figuring he’d ask if I was on drugs- my behavior was so bizarre compared to usual- I felt a little giddy. It took forever for the meal to get there, business was understaffed and we kept talking and talking, but I had trouble concentrating and kept feeling slightly buzzed.
I went to the bathroom and immediately washed off half the Perception, I was so freaked out. VERY SPOOKY. I don’t know if it was pheromones or not, but it just seemed like I was communicating the same things I was feeling to him. Also, the waiter was being extra nice to me. It turned out that the place was having financial troubles because of the economy and they were kissing our butts for even comming, giving us free VIP passes, etc. I was freaking out over this until the guy I was with told me about it. Maybe pheros were behind that, maybe they weren’t. I do know the male waiter seemed to focus most of his attention on me and he seemed to treat me extra special, lots of respect and for some reason I made alot of eye contact with him- I didn’t look down on him but for some reason I felt “close” to him. I also found myself looking at the women around me alot more often, for some reason- they seemed to capture my attention more.
We went shopping briefly at a big box store and looked around and we were talking about various hobby stuff and the conversations started getting a little deeper and I could follow along more, but it was very talkative. The funniest thing was I kept pacing around, we bought nothing and I looked for nothing in particular. I kept forgetting what I was looking for and we just made very small talk, nothing important. I felt sort of “out of it”. It was a real chore to focus on anything in particular.
This has given me alot to think about for sure. The experience sure wasn’t subtle, I don’t know if it was due at all, or in part due to pheros but it was creepy and has given me alot to think about. Especially the ethics of me using pheros. I think if I told him “dude, I was wearing pheros, that’s why I was spacing out”, he might have been angry or perplexed. No real harm came out of it, just makes me feel bad. It is something for me to think about.
So, what do you all think of that? Wierd? Pheros? Jetlag?