I am home from work today. I have no real plan for the day. Just hanging out cleaning here and there and playing on the computer. Gearing up for the big god awful storm thats coming tomorrow so I thought I would do a little live testing. I am just gonna use it and report during the day what I feel.
OK 12:30 PM
P103 10MCG 30 ML
I spray on 3 sprays total of 10mcg in 10 min intervals, First 10 mcg, then I wait 10 minutes nothing… Another 10mcg, wait 10 minutes… maybe a little contentedness
Nothing exciting in the first 20 minutes
One more spray…
Smells funny, sort of like buttery Biscuits. I immediately think of tator and have a fit of giggles. You know the kind I dont know why I am laughing its just funny and the more I try to figure out whats funny the more I giggle.
Ahhhhhh It felt good at least.
2:00 PM
Ok I thought this was gonna help me get things done but I just sort of want to veg out. Maybe do a little meditating. I sort of feel heavy like I smoked a bone. I dont do that a lot by the way, smoke a bone that is. Its been years but I have that same heavy stupid feeling. I keep asking myself Jeez what did I do in the last hour. Its sort of like I am missing some time.
My Boys have popped in a few times asking whats for dinner. Hell I dont care (snort) OK now I am giggling again. They just rolled their eyes at me and that made it worse.
2:30 PM
Oh my god I feel stupid, I have the mindless part that Steve told me about but no drive LOL I feel like I can just happily sit still and look at the screen. I dont really want to move. I find I have to force myself.
I am supposed to be doing intros (snort) its gonna be a long night. I find this funny to. I have to really push myself to concentrate but I am getting things done. Slower then normal though. I was gonna work out today but thats not gonna happen ![]()
3:30 PM
Went out in the living room for a while to sit with my hubby and watch the war channel woohooo go Patton.
He likes the war channel alot. Me not so much and again I begin to giggle. He wants to know whats so funny and whats for dinner
I think I am annoying him, he cant hear the war on TV. Ok what to do, what to do. Jeez I could just sit here and type what to do for a hour LOL
4 PM
I am gonna try to open up another page and do a intro, I will be back to finish this,
4:37 PM
Ok I am back, I did it LOL I find it hard to concentrate though. I had to read it 3 times to really connect with the person. Steve called me and I think I annoyed him cause he said call him back tonight when I am not on drugs LOL snort ![]()
I feel like blurting things out that have nothing to do with anything . I noticed when on the phone with Steve I was doing this.
Oh I ate cheerios for dinner LOL I dont feel like cooking. Every man for himself LOL
I kinda feel better now that I ate. I had cramps before but I dont think it had anything to do with the P103.
I dont think I can drive using this. My mind sort of wanders. Good thing I didnt test it at work. I could have sworn I tested this before and I dont remember feeling this. I checked all my notes though and I didnt.
Ok I will continue in a bit. I am going to try to focus . How long does this one last ???
If I sound like a retard I am sorry. I will probably be mortified when the fog clears.
Tisha