This is going to be a bit of a different report today.
2xA314, 1xAmmo, 1xIS, 1xIO
Today was my first day of using the oil version, the weather was mainly rain, wind, rain but warm.
After reading several forum posts from other members regarding the effects of A314, I decided not to really pay attention to hits or self-effect, I had no idea what was going to happen. Instead I decided just to focus on being in the present and going with the flow.
By not focusing on the hits, instead I noticed something more profound. I felt I could sense peoples vibe, confidence levels(and fake bravado) even more clearly than before. I did not realise how many people there truly are who have low confidence(bit of generalisation as I do not know what else people are going through today or what is on their minds). Even with the very attractive women from a distance I could sense a slight shyness, and as if something is on their minds.
The biggest profound thing that occurred was the self-realisation that I was so far removed from the ideals of an alpha individual. I thought I was about average but I now felt like somewhere in the gutter. This was more like a deep understanding that I had no one to blame, or excuses. All the sum total of where I am today(not good) is because of me. I did not feel like god like some people have with A314, I felt more human, a human with a lot of mistakes.
Right now it feels like there is a conflict happening within me, on one side I know that I can do and become extraordinary things, one the other side and consequences of my past actions pushing me down.
This has probably being brewing within me for a while, but it seems A314 has made it more visible.
I wonder what will happen tomorrow with A314?