Hi, my name is Carol,
My blood type is B+ and I am hormone depleted due to chemotherapy. I am cancer free! but the lymphatic cancer, radiation and chemo left me with chronic health issues and low immunity, and the health issues interfere with my groove, I would like to get those glances from my husband, as well as ‘feel good, happy, trusting’ responses from strangers. I will start with one product at a time for a week.
I am also very interested in how I will respond to the pheromones and hope to find a group of products that will assist me in feeling more attractive and outgoing. I hope to establish a “positive feedback loop” within myself.
My personality according to Meyers/Briggs is INFJ
Goals: To have more fun socializing, be a little more outgoing, have a great time when my husband is home, motivate myself to exercize on crummy and cold days, stick to my diet, have people charmed by me at work, to feel pretty and healthy and to feel happier when I am lonely for my husband when he is deployed. Also I think I could use a little "alpha female"vibe, people always seem to trust and like me but treat me as someone to be protected and who is sweet, not as someone who is tough! I am married to an wonderful man who is loving and protective of me. We have a rare relationship, we are still in love after all these years!
Yeppers, page one!
I will report
type:Instant Honesty 2x version 1.1 to go spray
amount/ two sprays at 7 am
date/ location July 3, on neck, torso, rubbed with hands to spread
My reaction during the first 1/2 hour: ( because I do not have hormonal shifts at all which can cause emotional responses in women( like PMS), and I usually have a mellow disposition, I think my physical/emotional responses to the way I smell will be more consistant, lets see!)
I wake usually in about the same mood, slightly sleepy, mildly content. After I spray the honesty I feel same as usual. At 8:30 while walking the dog I checked my feelings, calm, content, peaceful. Smell is strong to me but not unpleasant.
body language/chat ups from other people:
It is 10:30 AM now, feeling calm, contented. I would however like to get out and go someplace! My husband and I spent some lazy hours in bed this morning, gently lovemaking and sleep after. He was as interested as ever, but a bit more gentle and affectionate than usual. He is now out getting us some coffee, while I made some breakfast. Hopefully I will have some more to report when we go out today, I want to go for a long walk.
personal reactions after the first four hours:
I would say I am a bit more reflective. I am also more cautious with my words. Several times I wanted to talk about personal things and thought better of it, best to let a lovely day pass and allow us all to be content. Some things are best left to tomorrow! I am receptive and open to conversation but not at all chatty.
11:30 Getting 'antsy" and want to go out for a walk, husband still puttering about. Really want to get going, feeling a bit impatient. I will go out and garden till he is ready to go .
3:48 back from a long walk along the ocean, I feel relaxed, we walked about two miles. We stopped at the 'way way" a local tradition, it is a candy store owned by three elderly ladies who very patiently and kindly waited as local children brought their pennies and bought penny candy. They closed down for several years as the ladies went into nursing homes,I was so delighted to see an elderly couple and some young boy scouts have reopened. Of course the penny candy makes them no money, it was just a way for the ladies and local people to socialize. Now this lovely couple have taken over and local boy scouts help them keep the place up. They also have boats to rent. May they stay open! Called the 'way way" because it was miles of walking to get there, a lovely ol building with shelves full of antique items and little dollies and paper airplanes, delightful.
We ran into many vacationers who came to enjoy the beach. Not much chat with strangers, just grins that people have on lovely days, and some small talk with my husband about what size couch to get, as for me, I am not feeling particularly outgoing or chatty, just receptive, calm and relaxed. Perhaps that is what this pheremone is about
for me,
6:00 had dinner, long involved conversation about the trade route in South American and American Native tribes and early pueblos. For us, good conversation,
sprayed on one last Instant Honesty to go spray, torso/arms and snuggled up in bed, he is reading and I am typing and surfing on laptop. Will see if we have more communication.
8:30 PM and we are still relaxing and talking, actually I am doing a lot of listening and occasionally talking, but it is comfortable and I enjoy his ideas. I think the most important effect on me is that I seem to be more relaxed and able to simply listen and be receptive. My husband seems to be happy to just talk off and on about various subjects and I am content just surfing and talking when he wants to. Instant Honesty did not have a large effect upon me, just seemed to relax me and allow me to listen instead of interjecting my opinion. I do not feel any need to blurt out things as some have reported, however I am a private person and think that blurting out information is usually a bad idea.
duration of effects: scent is fading away at 4: PM but still strong enough for me to notice. I smell a musky scent when ever a breeze passes by me, still not much of a change in my behavior or the behavior of others, I am just calm and perhaps more receptive to conversation, and reflective. I will try again tomorrow, using two sprays.
10: pm, end of this days report. Theory? It is possible that the pheremones caused me to behave in a more receptive and relaxed way. Will continue tomorrow.
July 4
5:30 am, Instant Honesty to go 2x version 1.1
2 sprays on torso, neck, arms
Goodly amount of conversation with my sweet husband, from 5:30-7, some gentle lovemaking, nap until 8:30. Accompanied my husband to airport. He is deployed to work, and we only see each other when we can, we had a lovely visit. I try to keep it upbeat, why make the time sad, but it always breaks my heart a little to see him go.I sat chatting with him till the plane left and brought home lunch for my son, now it is 1:30 and I am trying to get happier so I can take my son and daughter to fireworks tonight. Until he is home no need for ‘feeling sexy’ sprays, but I will continue my interest in the social pheremones. Perhaps they will get me out more often, I do get lonely and miss him!
self evaluation: We had some lovely but certainly not deep conversation for hours before he left, both of us keeping it light and carefree. I could tell he was worried about me, I have surgery coming up while he is gone and he worries I will not be able to get around well without him. I aim to surprise him by getting strong while he is gone and willl use my legs as much as the doctors allow until I am running circles again. So, I am of course a little blue but resigned to do the best I can to make a good home for him to come back to. The best way to do that is to make him proud of me! When I got home our two dogs and one cat all crowd into the bedroom where I am typing on my laptop to console me, They were all making themselves scarce when my husband was home, somehow understanding our need to be alone together, or simply seeing me as a sucker who allows them underfoot in the bedroom perhaps. Who knows. I have a strong sense of smell and two sprays seem overpowering to me, but I will try three sprays around three oclock out of curiosity.
OK, three sprays, torso, Instant Honesty, 2:30.going out with kids soon, feeling sad and lazy, will report back!
4. feeling good, want to get outdoors and waiting for the heat of the day to ease so I can go out for the fourth, not blue or wanting to hibernate, which is how I usually feel when my husband leaves. Really in the mood for exercize, didnt get enough today. I really need a few miles of a fast walk at least. Sort of twitching and shaking my legs waiting for everyone I will walk with to get themselves ready! LOL. Some people need daily exercize and I am one of them. interesting turn around from a few hours ago.
Went out for the fourth of July celebrations, back at 10:30, in better mood. Had fun and look forward to tomorrow. I think if there was an impact it was simply an improvement of my mood, but that is good enough.
I got up at 5:30, still blue because I miss my husband. I think I will go to the ocean today, or take the ferry to the islands and explore. I used Instant Honesty 2x version 1.1 three sprays. I think three is my max, it is too strong smelling although because I am using 2x it doubles the dose. I will stick to two sprays in the future.
Self effects:Feeling calm, centrered, a little anxious to go out and do something, not bored exactly just anxious for adventure. Usually I am a stay at home when he leaves because I miss him, but today I just want to go out and have some fun. My idea of fun is to take the ferry out to an island and hike about, I love exploring the coast here, we have sea otters and puffins, whales. I will bring my sketch pad and get some new ideas., camera too. perhaps paint the lighthouse and collect some sea urchin shells. I live in one of the most beautiful places, rocky coast, blue sky, lots of water and pines. Hate to go it alone, but today is too lovely to be wasted. It is less fun to go alone however. The islands are a bit of a distance I will need a backpack, water, art supplies. Hopefully a fun day with interesting chance encounters of an upbeat nature, but enough quiet time to paint and draw.
4:30 What a great time! Arrived home sweaty,dirty and salty from the ocean and hiking the woods and trails. Gotta take a much needed shower and tend to a little sunburn. Saw a lovely set of pines dwarfed by the sand and wind and sat to draw. park ranger was overtly friendly and chatted as long as he could till joined by another ranger who insisted on showing me a path, and then on to the beach where I walked several miles in the waves along the shore. Lots of screaming kiddies, crowded and friendly beach. On the way out the same park ranger offered me a handful of pamphlets and an extremely frendly goodbye, when I started to drive away he reminded me to visit again soon and sounded like he meant it. Stopped for lunch and noticed the Casey Anthony trial verdict was coming in. The owner, teens working in the store and all customers gathered around ME ( much closer than I am usually comfortable with, and culturally VERY unusual for the people here ) and we all watched the verdict come in, and talked about it for about a half hour. Many smiles from the shop girls, all about 16 years old, smiles from the teen men there too, and especially affectionate male shop owner around my age who made some cheerful advances and who was just flirting shamelessly without the expectation of being accepted, and two elderly women sat right next to me and started talking as well. One man who worked there mirrored everything I said, agreeing and nodding. (The people all agreed that she killed her child) and the average Mainer that I have talked to is just disgusted at her being found not guilty. I know the trial for people here is like the OJ trial, every one thinks she did it, however coastal Maine people are legendary for their quiet dispositions and it is simply unusual to talk to people from 'away" (" from away" means someone who was not born in Maine, you are from away even if you have lived here ten years and had been born in another state.) So a combination between the trial and the pheremones I suspect. This was the first blatent encounter I had that was unusual for me, usually people are very polite and friendly with me but not as interactive when I am simply going for lunch. However it was the trial that was the focal point.
Self effects: I can still smell it on me. at 5:PM. It seems to give me a sense of calm, receptivity and a mellow outlook. When I was a bit confused on the hike instead of worry that I may get lost I was relaxed and just listened until I could hear the wind and find the coast. Instead of getting focused in keeping a strong pace to get a better workout I enjoyed the greenery. When mosquitoes found me I just went a new higher route and found some direct sunlight or wind to discourage them and didnt get as annoyed. This pheremone seems to simply allow me to relax a bit and be myself, thats all. I think it is time to try something new now though.
that sounds like a BEAUTIFUL day - i love when that happens, a group of strangers all bonding over something that could be awful (like your experience today) or trivial or whatever, but everyone is just feeling the vibes and talking like they’re old friends… thank god for IH bringing more of those lovely moments
also, you could be an ad for visiting Maine right now, your description of your hike makes me want to see Maine soooo bad!
Thanks for reading! It was a great moment. Yes, Maine is lovely, well worth visiting, just avoid winter, unless you are prepared! People who live here like to feel smug about how we weather storms so well compared to people in other states! I have been to California, I drove by LA and it seemed overwhelmingly huge to me, I was scared driving so fast on such large highways. I thought San Francisco was so pretty! Even the largest city here is so very small compared to where you live. It is a lot less expensive here if you do ever decide to visit.
Salt Lake winters are enough for me, I think I will steer clear of Maine in the winter There’s a reason I moved to LA and it wasn’t the traffic, ha! Never thought of it until you spoke of Maine’s pride in weathering storms, but wow, I never hear of people freaking out over feet of snow there. Even upstate New York gets a little scared at 3+ feet!
LA is pretty overwhelmingly huge! From downtown LA, you can easily drive 1.5 hours without traffic in any direction (except west, because you’ll find the ocean in about 25 minutes!) and still be in the LA-area. I went to an event that one would say is in the “LA area” on Saturday and it was a 2.5 hour drive from downtown with mild-to-moderate traffic. And yes, I am sure you are right on the price… it still bums me out to see my friends back in my hometown renting out a bedroom twice the size of my (2-bedroom) apartment for half the price of my slice of the rent! Right now, lighthouses and coastal wildlife sound like a much needed vacation.
That is huge! I would feel intimidated, people must spend a lot of time and money on their vehicles there! I live in Southern Maine. Even the largest city here, Portland, is just a quick twenty minute drive, although there is little nightlife here unless you are willing to go into the city. My town is very small, we have six places to eat out, one grocery store, although two gas stations carry groceries, and two tiny post offices, both of which rent space in buildings, and both postal workers know us all by name. We dont need two but no one wants them to lose their jobs so we voted to cut hours at each one.There are a few businesses. The largest commercial building is the feed store, where they sell baby chicks, feed, farm stock and plants. We still have town meetings where people raise their hands to vote on issues, a classic Maine tradition.
Every winter I lose power for at least a week from downed lines and rely on wood to cook and heat and hauling water, but many old people have a generator and when I feel old enough I will get one. If I want to walk in my back yard in winter I need snowshoes! People have skis and jetskis, a week or so of extra water and food set aside during winter. We built the house partally underground on the lower level so even when it gets cold the ground would keep us warmer in winter and cooler in summer, but I am rural. If you are active and dressed right winter is lovely, just so very much snow and ice it interferes with life.
If you ever visit, and want to save lots of money, come before early June or after late September. The parking meters on most beachs are all taken down after tourist season and the rental rates plummet, You will also save money on food and rentals if you are willing to stay inland a little, just fifteen minutes or so, Late September the water is still warmer. It does get chilly here though, and you wouldnt be basking on the beach but wearing light jackets and exploring. I think spring and fall are the most beautiful here. you know the colors of the midwest sky-the blur of the wind and the cornflower blue skys- the yellow/golden light there? The sun here has a bright, still white light to it that makes everything seem crisp and settled, still, as if each leaf on each tree is somehow glowing. The blue tones are cooler, At night the sky is pitch dark, sort of the maxfield blue with so many stars, more than I ever saw before.
Woke at 5, still tired and still a little blue, sprayed torso with Instant Shine 2x version 1.1 three times. Very musky smell, a bit too much for me but it tones down over time. Feeling better now, pheremones or placebo,it really does not matter. Feeling active and I want to go out again. I am sort of trapped here at home a bit, I am getting some major construction work done on the house and I need to stick around to keep an eye on it and give feedback, let them in to use restroom and when a breaker is tripped, ask them to change stuff when it needs to be done, because I have no blueprint and we are winging it. I can not leave for more than a day. I am staying here most of the summer because of this project, and although I am very glad and very fortunate that it is getting done I feel trapped.Usually summers are off for me and I am out of town . I have no work to do right now, no classes, no summer work besides the work for my gallery. I need something else to focus on and really hate staying home this long, it is great to relax for a week or two and then the 'now what to do" phase sets in. I know I am lucky, that many people would love to have the time I have right now but I feel like getting away!
Yeah! freedom to leave at 11: I want to go to lunch and then for a long exploration.
Long story short, today was a bust , although I felt energised and ready, I had to work over some construction issues and by the time that was done the day was over, it is 9 and I am going to sleep, have a headache. tomorrow is another day.
Thanks, Clintx2! Heh! I am so proud of graduating! (Note, I brag, the highest honors cord ) Now I have to get a new goal. I like reading your journal too.
A lot of time, especially I spend at least an hour in my car per day - that’s if I only drive to work & home again - with errands or meetings with friends, easily 2+… and I have a “short” commute! There are people who easily spend 3 hours per day just driving to and from work (my boss does). I like to drive alone, gives me time to collect thoughts, sing at the top of my lungs, etc… but maybe more hellish for those who don’t. If you’ve seen the movie “Crash” a lot of the concepts there really ring true. I didn’t really get it until I moved to LA.
WOW! I can’t imagine living in such a small town - I did not grow up in LA and my hometown was much smaller but definitely not even close to that small. Yet, as I read your description, it sounds like a very nice place to be right about now Good tip on the tourist season. Maybe a future memorial day holds Maine? Though I’m sure that doesn’t avoid crowds well either, haha. Blue skies, how I miss thee! The midwest always shocked me with how vivid all the colors were. I’ve lived on the west coast my whole life and nowhere here (except the pacific northwest) can you find color like that. Either too dry or too urban. I miss their thunderstorms too… those were magnificent. There’s a lot of love in your description of Maine
Now it’s stuck in my head Congrats to you, Carol!!!
Thanks! I am proud to graduate but I really miss school too. I would like a masters but can not afford it, I will need to pay for one class at a time like my undergraduate degree. I can’t imagine life without night school somehow, although it took so much time! My entire adult life revolved around family, work and school. I feel adrift.
Im going to going to find crash on netflicks and watch it. Your world seems fast paced, sophisticated, complex, I read that crowds of people act differently than small groups. I think the amount of people there may be so large, too large to be aquainted with each other, that there would not be a sense of community among them- is it true, or do native LA people look out for each other in your neighborhood? I bet there is always something to do there, a party or event to go to. I would like that. I know you moved from out of town, do you have any family there? Do you get lonely in such a big place or is it more fun to be there? Do you miss your hometown?
Yes, I love it here for several reasons. Many of the people here are able to balance between the involvement and civility of small town people, (the smaller the town the more involved people become with each other and take care of each other ) and the civility of big town people ( acceptance of differences, liberal values,letting people be) There is also a sense of level headed frugality- because it is so cold, local people dress in what works, so you see adults ( not teens, who still want to fit in) not very impacted by media- you don’t need to dress to impress, be skinny, or be young, to be OK here.
On the negative side, although many people try so hard to welcome new people, the area where I live is amost completely white looking and at least half are conservatively Christian style religious, Catholic or Protestant which makes it less acceptable to be otherwise. But cultural values prevent nagging about it. There are few families of color here except local Penobskot and Abenaki folk, most of whom intermarried over the generations and visually and culturally blend in as “white,” my husband included so the idea of race is flexible here, and gay folk tend to not “come out” to their families and friends here( the high school music teacher is gay and so well loved he is a local hero, takes all the kids out for weekend events and has the biggest Christmas party where we all sing the entire Messiah together, which is unusual in itself because that means that there are hundreds of people who can read music and sing well enough to do the Messiah!)
but I think that some kids feel overwhelmed in the schools with all those white faces and gay kids may be scared because of the amount of conservative religious folk. But in general, even among conservative people there is a strong Yankee style acceptance here deeply inbedded in the culture-people have to be nice and accepting, it is just the right way to be, and how could they be otherwise!
I am a intercultural and multiracial mix and I doubt most people care one iota here but people read me as very “white” so I don’t know. I have always had the relative safety of blending in visually, and the unfortunate lack of family that genocide produces. Worst racial stuff that ever happened to me was outside of Maine.
Woke sick, went back to sleep and slept late till 9. Stuffy head, headache, and typical signs of sickness in people with weak immunities, sucks . Drs apt at 2, I get ready the way I used to look like for job interviews, I want to look well and together even when I am pretending. However, new addition to my sickly feelings, I added four sprays of Instant Sexiness B just to try to get my groove back at 12:40.
Self effects: Does not smell bad or musky to me at all yet. No noticable effects immediately but the trial is not during a healthy day for me. Lets eee how I feel later. Cause I can hardly use my nose to smell with I give myself good sniff from the to go bottle..not bad at all, actually I really like the scent. Keep sniffing. very nice, I sort of get a baby powder feel from it. I walk around sniffing my hands a few minutes. Really as pretty as perfume can be.:)Really really like
Sprayed myself again! Went to lunch, on the drive my son pointed out that I was actually speeding- so not like me, and I slowed down, got giggly and made some jokes. Waitress was friendly, Went out and bought a new bicycle! schwinn. Although I felt sick I was also upbeat and able to go out and about today.
6:46-9:30 two more sprays, out with friends, the entire table was laughing about the silliest things, the waitress and the manager were both smiling too. I just kept on cracking up over any joke. Still wide awake and want to have fun although I can feel a fever. It really does effect me but I do not feel sexy, just happy and outgoing and healthy, a little silly. Stayed up till 11 jokes and laughing, off to bed now, till tomorrow. Going to go for a long bike ride up a hill and enjoy the sunshine tomorrow
Woke sick, dosed myself with medical and herbal concoctions. Hobbling around cleaning and degerming. I have decided no more raw veggies when out to eat, just steaming hot cooked food because apparently my immunity is not up to it any longer.
9: shower, 2 sprays Instant Shine 2x and 2 Instant Sexiness B, which gave me giggles yesterday and cheered me considerably. Hope to go out in the world regardless, even if it is to see something pretty. Feel a little trapped/claustrophobic.
Scrubbed and degermed for a few hours,( I am a germaphobe from low immunity) went out, washed car, went to eat lunch with my son, lovely long conversation with her where we both became friendly. I think this combo of shine and IS/B makes me ditzy, like the cartoon character of “dumb blonde”. I don’t usually do such ditzy things but was washing car in a automated car wash and had to be rescued twice , once when I drove in and the sign kept on saying back up, I backed up to enterence, pulled forward, backed up, and finally some one ccame anf guided me to the right spot, then when the dryer was going off where my car was not- I was supposed to drive up to dryer and the written “drive forward” sign did not light up, so I wound up staying in the same spot, and then some tire buffers came out and I was worried that they were too close to my tires to pull up into and I stayed where I was, honked the horn and had the same guy wave me forward, eyes rolling and lots of laughter from guys at car wash who acted like I was an adorable and confused child. Ugh. felt like idiot. Both the car wash and my brain were malfunctioning. The same 'foggy" feeling I had when I was nursing my kids, just ditzy, not as clear headed to problem solve. I can understand why IS/B is compared to Marlyn Monroe in some posts, although I read that she was actually very bright and created the persona. I want to try the IS/A just to see, but think the shine/IS/B and illness and medications are all to blame for my lack of awareness at the moment.
2:00 replenish pheremones, ( decide to be self aware and not over do) 2 sprays IS/B, no added shine.
Feel very energetic, not as ditzy as several hours ago, interesting I have lost hunger signals today, it could be because I am sick, or the pheremones, but I am usually hungry around now, 3:00 and no hunger pangs, and had just a bowl of soup today. Of course, I am sick, could be that but not my usual reaction even when I am ill I would eat a few crackers or nuts or an orange now, but the thought of food makes me feel nauseated. Hey, thats OK with me I have some weight to lose any way- IS/B as diet aide? Cool. Rode my mountain bike ( or rather coasted) down out hill and then rode/walked back up again, tired and sweaty and it was so much fun to feel the speed and wind downhill. I will try to go further tomorrow. Went to target with a coupon for a new bike helmet for 10% off. A very large coupon, clearly marked. First cashier tried to give me 10 dollars off, and rang it up. I noticed, and told her it was 10% off helmet. She than gave me 10% off entire order, and I said, no, it is for 10% off helmet!Finally she got it right, but seemed as ditzy as I had felt before. She was so silly, and so giggly, was it pheremones or just a silly cashier? I have not noticed any spacy feelings now, just feeling OK. It is 5:30, time to cook some dinner and finish chores.
Woke a bit less sick! , showered,
10:30
sprayed 4x IS/B to go spray torso, arms, then decided
1 shine 2x to neck
1 openess neck
1 honety neck
I am going to bike instead of drive and felt like mixing but kept the additions to one spray, as I was worried I would feel 'ditzy" Still a safe mix for a very small town and bike ride. The hill/mountain I live on is a tough ride back up, I will plan a few hours around gtown having fun and a tiring sweaty and slow return in gear 1,
Self effects:
smell OK, strong to me, too strong but not bad. cat loves scent, jumped up to smell me.
11:30, grocery store, some mild attention from several guys my age, just mild flirtation on their part and one guy followed me and chatted me up a little, I went on my merry way, glad to be noticed but obviously no interest in attracting someone. I was just feelng OK and attractive.
1: long bike ride with my family, two hours. Stopped at the lake and rode around.
3:00 video fest with my family and friends, pizza, stayed out till 9. Relaxed and happy. No obvious influence of pheremones at this point on myself or others except for relaxed and happy behavior.
And yes, I am sure you are right on the price… it still bums me out to see my friends back in my hometown renting out a bedroom twice the size of my (2-bedroom) apartment for half the price of my slice of the rent! Right now, lighthouses and coastal wildlife sound like a much needed vacation. 
Great descriptions and tips!