I have discovered that I am very sensitive to what goes unseen and unsaid. So now is mid-day, earlier I’m sitting down and my neighbor, an acquaintance, whom normally makes chit chat, is chit chatting a little more, and a little more compulsively (that’s the key word)… so he digs up what he knows about me to fulfill his chatting desire. My job for example which I mentioned in passing two weeks ago, he asks about. I want to talk more, he does too but class begins… I sense it’s repressed now.
The air between you and others almost beckons for something to be said… you can feel your throat trying to and desiring to bring something up… I think they feel a similar pull. The air creates a tension, but not bad tension, just chatting tension. People won’t come out of the blue and talk to you like a magnet but they would welcome it if -you- did. I want to learn how to be fearless in approaching and making chit chat, wearing CTTM makes me know that it won’t be awkward.
So think of this ‘air’ on a larger scale, sitting in a crowded cafeteria, everyone around you is sensing something subconsciously… in the past when facing the cold jungle you get a distinctly ‘closed’ feeling from everyone else, and you yourself are closed. Well CTTM opens this up completely, suddenly your ‘aura’ is completely & totally open and you can absolutely sense everyone else around you’s aura is now open as well. I could easily approach any of them… With A314 you get a similar response from your surroundings, however it is more of that aura of ‘respect’ as if you’re totally in charge… so sitting down in the cafeteria suddenly my neck shoots up, across the room I happen to make eyes with a random person… course nothing comes of it, he is a stranger at the other end of the café, but weirdly it feels like I, or him, want to say something.
My solitary routine however leaves me ‘wanting’ because as I said it’s not a magnet, and if you don’t have enough regular ‘chit chatters’ in your day that you want to ‘exploit’ in terms of socializing, it won’t be as good… but it will improve every single interaction … but if you’re a quiet mouse like me, then the aura is very much repressed and it’s like, you just want to get it out. Maybe over the weeks I’ll change my manner to match this particular spray.
How many sprays and where too was this? i’m very interested in this product, it sounds like just what i need… And i know what you mean about that urge for someone to say something to you as i witnessed a girl in town today do acting liek she was dying to say something. But that was just IH though
I used this for school today (university), three classes, two stints in the library and one in the cafeteria. Only used one spray this morning to the head after showering.
The one experience I had which CTTM shined most was at work yesterday, used three sprays (ahhh) lots of chatter with my boss, jittery, and fast chatter as well, jumping from topic to topic, both of us wanting to say everything… like cocaine… not that I’m a user and definitely not as manic as that but the ‘buzz’ is there, it really exploits the human conversation knob… what is fun for me is learning about how I and other people work. It does feel almost like hypnotizing those around you… even hypnotizing yourself, it’s downright surreal. Makes me wonder if anyone I’ve known have ever used pheromones and if knowing this would be like a light swithc going off “ohhhh that’s why they’re like that”
Today I was wearing a314, and a 50/50 mix of ih/is which I understand approximates cttm pretty closely. My wife and I went out to a crowded restraunt for lunch. The waitress was nice and talkative. In one of our interactions she reached out as if to put her hand on my shoulder or back, but then her hand stopped before touching me as if it hit an invisible glass wall surrounding me. It was an unusual gesture, and my wife noticed it also.
The “glass bubble” could have been the a314 effect, or it could have been due to the presence of my wife at the table.