Folks
Just completed some days ago my order, still to arrive but that should happen soon.
What’s in the mix?
A314 (that’s why I’m here!)
IS (regular strength)
P79 (to go, 37.5mg dose)
IO (regular strength)
AMMO (regular stregth as well)
Status signals: late 40’s male, pretty Alpha although with Beta slippages (more on this below), good job and economic position, and high respect in my trade amongst peers.
What’s all this for? Regaining someone back.
Situation: been divorced for over a year and early in 2010 a new bird flew past my nest that rocked the boat, and I mean seriously rocked it. Lots of congruence, she has an Alpha signature but some of her behavior was of the deep Beta type (e.g., emotionally weakness with slight hints of depression at times). She’s also coming from a LTR. So we hit the road running, slowly intitally and later building full rapport. Not quite in a relationship (hope you get me here) but working towards it.
Issue: as it happens even to the best, when you see a prize you really want to grab you backslide and start engaging into compliance mode. It wasn’t overt but you get me. From the outside it might have looked as a pull-push behavior, but on the inside I knew I was conceding territory and spaces and taking too much of her shit. I knew it yet I was doing it. Happens. Like becoming her therapist (!) Part of it I think comes from my status, she was seeing in me the dude you would look into for advice (the been there, done that thing) but it was not right. I felt uncomfy yet got dragged by the fact that I knew, deep inside, that she is (or was?) the one. Simple as that. You know it the instant you see it.
So at some stage later in July things came to a halt. She kinda hit me with the shit of some chemistry not being there, like fuck we just synergise to such a degree, never feel with someone before like with you, I feel this deep connection, I’m so glad that we met… yet boom, all went bust. Her take is that us 2 are a high-risk strategy and my take is that she kind-of closed herself in her doubts, and the best way is to acknowledge you don’t tick a box. Made artificially, of course, a box you would never tick.
I know there have been elements into this outcome due to my internal circuitry going bust, not keeping my cool. I’m not that fool or a schoolboy not to accept my share of the cake. Can understand why that happened.
Game plan, as said, is to get her back to me. I know many of you will say (with reason) it’s almost an impossible task, but we keep on seeing each other regularly, there is this connection but fuck, it’s like not clicking anymore on her side. I’m back to my usual game since the breakdown and want to check-out whether the mones element can help walk that extra, final mile. I will post a journo here to keep you in the loop and share my experience. It’s gonna be a tough one.
Now, would like even before I start experimenting this week the dosages/combos out in the wild (target is off visiting some friends abroad) to get your views on application, dosage and mixes. If anyone here has been through the same dilemma, know your results and how they were achieved. I’ll do my bit by posting feedback.
Let the game begin..!