Excellent writing and insight Atool. Your profile name is in jest because you have shared some very thought provoking ideas, that are not at all, shallow, or “tool” like.
I’m feeling like I’m at a crossroads as well.
I have always been active and kept in shape, and kept a good positive outlook as much as I can.
Unfortunately when intimacy stops on one side, and I’m not blameless in this respect, than the heart, ego, whatever starts to seek another avenue.
Life, relationships, can be so complicated, and it’s hard to figure out what is going on.
Even now, with raising girls, I can’t say I understand women. I sometimes get a little idea, but never that ahaha moment when I can say, 'by jove, I think hes got it ".