I’ve been experimenting with different application points. I applied p83 to the soft flat area right before the ears. I am not really aware of any self feedback from this application point. With my previous batch it seemed like my “that’s not appropriate” filter failed often. I don’t know why but this batch seems a little different .
I get strong feedback from people around me, particularly women.
Last week i applied to my wrists p83. 1 spray to each wrist . Unsure if this particular female worker at toy’s r us is naturally chatty and annoying or if the spray worked on her. She wouldn’t stop following me around and talking to me about toys while laughing nervously. I didn’t have io or any other social on so I assumed it was just her personality. Seeing that she had a whole cart filled with merchandise waiting to be placed, I went to the bathroom and washed my wrists and hands with hot soapy water a couple of times, then stood in an Isle close to Ms Awkward.
I acted like I did during our previous encounters, looking at the toys on the shelf while acting completely disinterested in her. I noticed a few times she would glance at me . Her body language changed. I moved out of view two isles down. Moments later she was right by my side looking at the toy in my hand. It was a stuffed pony. “I really like that one..These toys are so cute but they can be creepy sometimes..like I’m walking by and they all start talking and singing..hahaha (nervous) are you SURE I can’t help you find anything ? Oh I love your necklace , what is that? Amethyst?”
People don’t usually approach me . Not unless I’m wearing a buttload of IO.
"Thanks. It’s garnet actually. And I find that the plastic girl dolls with gaping moving mouths who say “play with me teeeheheee” are the creepiest. "
I’m noticing that washing my hands and wrists didn’t really make a difference.
She steps a little closer , changes her body language from nervous guarded to casual flirty and starts talking about all sorts of things. I feel bad to admit that I tuned her out a little . Tossing in hmm and uhhuh nods..I was more interested in her body language. She kept tilting her head to the right , exposing her neck while looking down occasionally bouncing on her toes.
I go back to listening..
“…which is why I always seem to attract the dominant types…”
I guess I felt a little less patient than normal. (And the fact that I wasn’t paying attention and lost what seemed to be a bit of important info) lol
I wait for a pause before I ask her-
“Are you sexually attracted to women?”
Her mouth opened slightly and she tucked her head in a little, immediately covering her exposed neck. She stammered a little, flustered and tried to find words.
What amazing timing because my friend who arrived at the store with me came up and touched my arm , saying that she couldn’t stand looking at toy’s any longer. Lol
I looked at the worker and while walking away with my friend I said “have a good night”
“Yes…I am…uh okay hope to see you again..”
I have no idea where I was going with that experiment or if it needed to be written here in this journal but there it is !
After a little reflection I think I need to start wearing IO again. But this batch of p83 seems different and I notice that I can’t use it the same way as the previous . Introducing IO might be weird.
Much love-
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