hey everyone, name is matayo n. cardenas , im 23
let me say this is great forum, good depth alot of information and nothing fake, only straight forward comments, Good discussions and alot of intersting things to look at here. Im
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I live in san jose, california. I was your typical shy, short, quiet person even though i was deep in creativity and potential.for the longst time i simply believed i would never become anything better my perception of life was bleak,until one night during a intense psychedelic mushroom ancestral ceremony. when this rite of passage was complete i changed from the inside out. the feeling felt i like insane my whole life and i felt like i was waking up from this negative loony toon perspective. if reality is just a dream then i can make what i want of it, i dont have to live this little bs of a drone life. i made great effort and it was damn hard since i was sociable as a rock, i got out into the world, lots of trial and error but after patience and observation and growing some balls i was finally becoming what i wanted to be a cheap imatation bootleg of brad pitt hahaha nahh j.k but i got cute and handsome
i found a super cheap gym that fit my budget, and i did research online on how to get where i wanted to,with out the help of fancy pants over priced instructors. i learned how to talk to girls at,clubs,resturants, library or where ever a nice lady may be. i got into a yoga class to correct my posture and add to my height (also where i learned how to flirt
) and after 6 years i cut my superlong hair and got a nice snappy looking haircut. I keep in mind to not become one of those inflated ego jerks that all they care is about, sex, money and goodlooks. to be that is like being hollow and empty and on your day of death you will have nothing but feelings of shame in your final breaths.
pheromones are a new concept for me so im getting as much info as i can, i want to see if i have better luck trying to get job because the employment here sucks hard, every interview i go to now their is a parade for a line,
so i need to stick out from the sea of bodies in formal uniforms