Jnoel Journal

Field Reports & Anecdotal Experience Men's Journals
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just quick report befor bed

wore tuth to school

1 tuth to front of neck
1 p79 to side of neck

nothing at first, but i noticed some stares in first class

after walking around a bit and to other classes, i felt more calm and was making and holding eye contact with numerous people, guys and girls

i felt very nonchalant and it felt like everything was moving a little slow

i had a togo of ij in my pocket, and i accidently sprayed 1. i started to feel irritated in one of my classes

went t the gym at school, but took 1.5 spprays of ij to the neck first

in about 5 minutes i felt hyped and ready to go

i noticed i turned heads on people as soon as i walked in, a few dihl looks and a lot of staring from random girls and guys. the receptionist was really smiley with me after barely looking at the other people there

had a sick workout

thats about it

tested p93 7.5 mcgs at work yesterday

i felt more confident than usual wearing it. this was at work, few girls

my speech was clearer and i wasnt stumbling over words. i also felt more sure about my actions and my voice was louder

conslusions:

im still a bit curios about p93, ive never tried it solo before. i know its supposed to attract white girls, but i didnt see any last night

i will defintiely test solo again

i feel like im beconming more comfortable with tuth every time i wear it. very confident and sexual, i dont mind at all of chicks catch me checking them out (i used to avoid that awkaward “were you staring at my boobs” look)

jerk and ij are like twins to mre, im still trying to figure out which is the evil twin

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just came from a hookah club called “off the hookah” in ft lauderdale

i used a club mix from this thread

this one

2s Ammo 1 to the neck, one to wrists
2s Instant Honesty to either sides of neck
1s Instant Openness to back of neck
1s Turn Up The Heat chest (hour before club)
2s MX297 to napes of neck
2 IS, one to ack of neck, 1 to forearms

it was mostly put one right before entering the club

i went in with two guys, one who was celebrating his birthday. we walked around, ran into some people they knew and girls wished him a happy birthday, some looked my way, no real eye contact or ioi’s

i didnt feel any self effects, no real confidence boost or anything. weird, i figured i would feel something. after the tuth, i did feel a bit sexual though

i was a bt more talkative on the way to the club, nothing serious though.

i felt like talking to a lot of girls, but i felt self conscious again for some reason. i think this is more me fighting myself than mones

we left off the hookah and went to living room. said hi to a chick we all knew on the way up and then i chatted with an old friend from high school. we get in and the chick from outside goes up and says hi to my friends and kinda skips me (same guyanese chick from before) i should have busted her balls again

we run into another girl we all kno, one who my friend kinda likes, but hes not feeling well.

shes with a really cute friend on the dancefloor so my friend is gonna wing for me, all of a suddent they both disappear. the cute friend is know where to be seen of again

i go to catch some air and i sit next to a cute blonde outside, not really my type but whatever. shes wearing these awesome boots which i compliment then we start talking about shoe size and random crap. my body language was awful but she seemed to be enjoying herself

i got her name, but no number. i didnt even attempt a close, i was just being social. it seems the io kicked in to move the convo along since i was a bit drunk

then we left back to off the hooka, i used some spaceland to the face. i immediately started smiling, then i couldnt help laughing/smiling at all the ugly chicks. dunno why, i just found it funny at times

ran into some girls i knew and one said how i smelled good. they were leaving after that

i talked to a shot girl a bit, had her buy the first round and i promised the 2nd. the first time she was receptive to kino, but nothing serious

2nd time she came up and hugged me, kiss on the cheek, a lot more physical

we hung around for a bit, ran into more friends. had some good eye contact with one girl who kinda smiled

nothing serious the whole night, no real dancing with any chicks. every girl i was about to approach had a guy hit on them a second before me, i mean literally A SECOND, so many i didnt even bother

thats my bad, thinking i would strike out just cause some other guy did. i should have known better seing that happen in reverse before

we left at about 3. all the girls were paired up. i again kept running into pairs of chicks, and a few girls with a boyfriend who wasnt there

i didnt notice too much eye contact from girls. i had no trouble holding eye contact

conslusion:
im glad i didnt have an IO vocal diarrhea session like i usually do. conversations flowed, but a lot of times i couldnt hear or be heard in the club

i felt the sexual effects of tuth, but not the super confident effects, just the more than average confident

I think IJ would have suited me better, it took me a while to approach at first. i was more self conscious than id like to be at a club

i agan had the problem of opening with “would you like to dance”? BIG mistake on so many PUA levels, i should know better

i dont think i od’d at all. i think i was not as congruent as i should have been with my mones, and spaceland may have thrown off my signature a bit. especially with the alphanol in IO

next time i will alter the mix with some IJ, i will also either bring girls or meet them outside before getting into the club.

i think i need to read some more pua material to work on my club game.

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aother friends birthday today, went to his house and threw on

10 mcg p79 to right nape of neck
15 mcg p74 left nape
2 ammo, one to chest, one to neck
1IH to side of neck

i got there as soon as a couple girls did. chatted a bit, nothing too flirty, all of a sudden we hear a giant crash and one of the girls broke the bottle of rum

ran for a bottle and caught up with my friend whose bday it was and another guy

got back to the party, and another girl showed up. she was also at some of the previous house parties, i think shes dominican and has a ridiculous body

i talked to the other 3 girls a bit, they didnt seem standoffish or closed to talking, but i was using stupid conversation threads

more of my old friends show up and were all taking shots and having a good timr.

the 3 girls leave, no solid ioi’s from them. the dominican chick, lets call her K, is hanging and taking shots with the guys

she calls me a p####y for not taking a shot (mind u it was my 5th) so i give into the peer pressure

we were all gonna head downtown, but she cant due to work in the morrow. my friend wont let her leave easily so they go outside and she chases him and some other crap

heres the weird part

i threw on her bag around my neck, and when she reaches for it i say “why are you trying to grab my sack?”

she said “i didnt know it was al the way up there, i thought it was down here” and kinda nut checks me

:open_mouth:

i was a bit taken back at that poitn, a wtf moment for sure. im guessing thats a hit, we only met once before and barely talked

the rest of us head to off the hookah again

its been about 4-5 hrs so i apply

2 ammo to neck
2 a314a one to each ear and rubbed across chin
2 mx297 to napes of neck
2 IO to either sides of neck
1 spaceland later on

it was dead compared to last night, plus getting there at 1, most girls were with guys.

we all danced a bit, i never ran into any girls i was intereted in who didnt have a guy dancing with tem.

i noticed less eye contact than usual, it may be a slight OD. But on the other hand, people were aware i was present and were stepping ovr me

we grab some hookah and chill

i talked to a shot girl for a bit, nothing serious due to her being at work.

conclusion-

i need to take a day off of mones, im startng to notice less self effects

i also need to work on my conversation skills, especially opening. i need to be more social and open groups im not interested in.

people were responsive when i talked, and i talked louder and clearer than usual.

i seem to be testing heavy mixrs in the club, i think ill go with a positive mix for me, then use it in everything

now to pass out later

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i tried 3x ammo today - two to neck, 1 to wrists
30mcg p74 to napes of neck
30mcg p79 to napes of neck

i noticed some self effects at first, but nothing much

at school i felt self conscious for some reason. i think i used too much ammo for my age and non levels. next time ill try 2 shots of ammo, or maybe spread everything out

my voice was deeper during class, and i had little trouble or shyness about speaking loud and confidently.

i noticed a lot of stares from girls, but they would break eye contact as soon as i looked at them.

i used 1 spray of tuth about 6 hrs later

i felt confident as usual, tonality higher and i felt less sexual than i usually do on tuth. i went to the dermatologist, and all the ladies were smiling and saying hi, no real hits

i went to sit down and a girl with her boyfriend stared dead at me

for some reason i felt more playful and confident than anything. not my usual super sexual confidence

it was probably part me being me, but the tuth definitely chipped in to confidence

next time i will try less ammo with the p79 and p74

i want to start testing mx301 again, im contemplating mixing it with 1 spray of tuth and something to buffer like A-1 or IO

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went to the gym

1 spray tuth to the neck
1 s p79 10 mcg to left of neck
1s A-1 10mcg right of neck (to buffer tuth)

didnt really come in close contact to many girls so i dont know if the A-1 had any effects

i was super hyper in the car getting there. super confident on the road, louder than usual, kept tapping my foot. i sped faster than usual, just cause i could. walked with a bit of swagger in the gym.

had a decent shoulder routine, nothing out of the ordinary. i broke 1000 on the leg press, which i hadnt done in a while, my legs felt a lot stronger.

one of the receptionists came up to talk to me while i was working out. we usually mess around, nothing sexual on my end but she is alwyas flirting. shes got a great body but not my type

there was a new receptionist there as well, she stared a couple times

i noticed eye contact from some girls further away, as i got closer they perked up and would stare a bit

one of the best workouts ive had in a while

conclusion: tuth + p79 gets me consistent dihl looks whereever i go. i have used them at the gym before, but ive never felt this hyper. im not sure if the A-1 had anything to do with it

i usually chat with the receptionist at when im leaving or getting to the gym, but shes never com up to me and started talking before.

i wasnt in a rage workout mood like i usually am with IJ, i was in a more calm “i can do whatever i want cus im that good” which felt awesome.

i will definitely try A-1 by itself at some point to see its effects. i plan on using tuth and p79 tomorrow at the gym again. im tempted to add some IJ but i fear i may OD or pop a blood vessel working out too hard lol

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yesterday i used

1s of tuth front of neck
1s p79 side of neck
soemthing else, curse my memory

went to school to study then take a test

got to the computer lab and 1 chick was staring from the time i came in.

i was trying to focus and study since i had a test in 1 hour, i may have used p74 as well since i felt really focused.

one really cute blonde walked in and we had a bit of a staring contest, but she didnt smile or anything, weird

later on yesterday:

gym time. call it suicide, but i used

2s IJ to front of neck
1s p79 to side of neck
1s spaceland to my face

the spaceland was cus i hadnt used it in a while and i felt like being silly :stuck_out_tongue:

i drove to my friends house, even though someone said you shouldnt drive with spaceland on (they were right)

i foudn my self laughing at everything, plus i was listening to a new eminem album with some hilarious lyrics.

i found myself smiling and not caring about what happened on the road. my friend knows about mones so i told him about the spaceland (it doesnt effect him as much, but hes been high before, i havent)

i get to the gym and have a sick routine. people all over were staring at me, especially one girl who was there with her boyfriend

people were compliant with things i asked for, like using machines. one guy apologized when i went to use his machine cus of a minor misunderstanding

i felt a bit arrogant and very in control. everywhere i walked, it felt like i was running things

i was also showing my friend some routines, everytime i pointed to something, people in that spot would perk up and stare dead at me like i was talking to them, even from about 10 feet away

while i worked out, i didnt feel super silly from the spaceland, but i was still smiling a lot

as soon as i finihed, i went back to acting silly and laughing a lot. i flirted a bit with my friend who works there, then with her friend who came in

the friend i brought to work out (a guy) comments that my friend at the desk (girl) liked me as soon as we left the gym.

i was being stupid on the way home as well, singing loud and laughing at everything, good times

conclusion-

1s of IJ makes me not give a damn and a bit cocky.

2s make me feel really arrogant and strong, and a little agitated.

2s of IJ + spaceland (im guessing the spaceland balanced me) i felt strong and in control, more “top of the world” than “i want to take over the world”

the p79 probably boosted the spaceland effects. ive used 1s of spaceland before, and its made me feel great and smiley, but i never cracked as much as using it this time

AD please start making spaceland again, maybe even mix it with IJ and create a new mx :slight_smile:

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Jnoel best thing I have found for clubs is to just walk up to a random girl smile. Introduce your self and give her a high 5 or just walk up and grab her by the hand and walk and say dance with me. This gives the Vibe that you are a Go Getta. Listen to the song by Young Jeezy. Definitely what I base my game off of for club approachs. For the first 10-15minutes just make sure you are enjoying yourself. Make sure you are in a club with music you enjoy. It will put you more at ease, also it is hard to enjoy yourself with music you do not like. 98% of men at the club are not really dancing so if you are just chilling having a good time it will work for you. Just have a I dont care what happens mentalty and you cannot lose. When you expect and outcome you do not get one. When you do not expect an outcome you usually get one. Hope that helped man.

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thanks a lot jabez, btw i love the new eminem mixtape, he should have released that instead of recovery

i had a feeling that i need to stop asking permission. btw that sounds like “badboy” game, the pick up artist badboy

i definitely started feeling more self conscious when i went out looking for an outcome. well tomorrow im going out with 5 girls, and one guy, plus the guy is with one of the girls. let the social proof do some work, the mones do some more, and ill step in to put it all into action

ill use some spaceland too to make sure i hav a good time. the walking up, grabbig her hand and saying dance with me is a ballsy move. i know i need to use it, the best break throughs come from outside your comfort zone

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I have ben reading PUA material for a long while. A lot of it is a bunch of whoey. Like to ignore your target. Mystery or Vince Neil i think his name is or vince strauss? Idk but The Game is overrated by a long shot. As far as pick up artists go. Carlos Xuma is Legit, David Deangelo,Christian Hudson, Race Idk his lastname but he is usually in a lot of things with Hudson, Bobby Rio, Kevin Space,Mack Tight.But there are a few guys right there who are legit. Carlos Xuma has podcasts that are legit so does bobby rio and the Podcasts are free. Carlos Xuma is big into not using anything canned. Personally I do not use anything canned if I can avoid it. Like one line I like to use that is canned is. "What are you doing to make the world a better place? And what makes you so special that I should take time out of my life to talk with you?) Both are canned,but work well if done right with confidence and smile. Make Sure that you Smile. Most Important part of all. But just Maintain the idea that you are the prize to be sought after,and that the women or chick should try to impress you not the other way around.

But Jnoel sounds to me like you struggle with approach anxiety a bit? Like in some of your posts you said you needed to stop making excuses. My father always said Every shot not taken is a shot missed. When you see a girl you are attracted to or want to talk to use the 3 second rule. Do not wait any longer otherwise you will psych yourself out and be afraid to go talk to her. What is the worst thing that can happen? She says no. Not the end of the world. Her loss right? She does not realize you are the shit and she is just dog shit. Having a care free approach really helps it come along. The thing that I used to struggle the most with when approaching was what other people were going to think of me, when I went to flirt with the girl. Truth is people do not pay as much attention to you as you make think they do. People are so often caught up in what others think, that they are wondering what you are thinking to yourself. Chances are that they will not even notice. Even if they do, Who cares? You are you own person and you are the one that should be the person who determines your value and your success.

So In closing, I guess to summarize it all up. Keep your shoulders back, Head straight,stand up straight. Always smile. Have fun and do not worry about the outcome. Worry about the things you can control not the ones you cannot. So just go out and show em who the Man is. Anything worth anything requires effort. Oh and PS spaceland is a good approach anxiety killer in a bottle. Hope that helped Jnoel.

And Eminem’s new Mixtape is dope. Favorite Track on it? Mine is The Apple and Balling Do Me.

Do it up big and good luck. Time for me to get some sleep. I have a big dance party/ club coming up tomorrow and I need to get a lot done before tomorrow at 7pm, Peace

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dude you have to start a journal, sounds like you have tons of fun and results

personally i was raised really sheltered by my parents, but thats no excuse so im changing that now. im too old to fall back on childhood insecurities

i smile a lot, and girls always compliment me on my smile and my white teeth (i dont smoke or drink coffee at all). one problem for me is transitioning after the opener im reviewing some mystery material and i plan on going into push pull or something after the opener

im going on a cruise next week. last cruise i went on was great. i met lots of people and i had no expectations, but had the time of my life. i was also really social. im gonna make the best of spring break and put aside all my inhibitions

thanks a lot jabez. im definitely gonna take the “3 second rule” from mystery and the “what are you doin to make the world a better place” line

for the eminem album, i love “apple”. he should produce more of his own tracks. the whole album reminds me of classic em, the good stuff like his second and third albums. i also love G.O.A.T. and the 2.0 boys

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Yah I do. Tonight was a blast lol. One of these days I will.

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so interesting day/night

i used mones during the day, nothing major to report so lets fast forward

i was supposed to meet up with a bunch of girls to grab a party bus, turns out it was free for girls and $50 for guys, then i find out the club is free to get in so i end up driving solo

before that i threw on some:

1s mx 301 3x strength - to the neck
1-2s IO - to side of neck
1s mx297 - nape of neck
1 ammo - to chest

and i brought everything but the ammo with me + spaceland to the club

i get tomy friends house to pregame, shes walking around half naked with her parents in the house, funny as hell

im talking with her dad, and i meet her friend. tall skinny black girl, shes pretty but not my type. shes like 2 inches taller than me in heels

we pregame a bit then my other friend (another girl) comes in with her friend

OMG this chick was bad! about 5’7" in heels, petite spanish chick, long curlyblack hair, and amazing eyes. not the color, but the look and vibe she gave off. she looked at me once then turned away, a bit weird

my friends sister also showed up, we talked a little then all left. i dropped the black girl off to the bus, aong theway we have a nce smooth convo. nothing forced or any awkward silence. shes pretty cool, only weird thing was that she had her hands crossed the entire time

i drop em off for the bus then find out im driving their myself, im still a bit self conscious in clubs so i didnt wanna go alone. i get to the parking garage and run into some friends of mne so we head out to “club euro”

free drinks for guys till 1am, im liking this place

we grb some drinks, and im just walking around. some people start talking to me randomly, short convos

out of nowhere, theres 6 girls dancing on the bar, 1 was ridiculously cute, but she was grabbed by some guy as soon as she got down

i continue walking around, had eye contact from girls i wasnt attracted to. i need to start makin friends instead of just going after targets

i had a quick cnversation with a cute waittress and some random guy, then i chill a bit to sit off the alcohol as i wait for my friends on the bus to arrive

the girls finally get there and im sitting as my friends sister picks me up to dance wth her, we bs dance a little (im not atracted to her at all) then she starts to grind on me

thischick has been anywhere from cold, to slightly friendly before, im guessing she had some of the mones at this point. i keep brushing her off sayin im too drunk to dance and she keeps trying

we all dance around a bit, then they get into vip (girls get all the free stuff) and i manage to sneak in

the spanish chick, lets call her C, she seems shy at first, but she gets a bit more comfortable and starts to dance, im likin her more.

my friends sis is still trying to rape me, lets call her S, and i manage to get away. well im in the vip dancing while surrounded by like 6 girls, not doin too bad :slight_smile:

S dances with some random drunk guy, i think to grab my attention, then pushes him away. same guy tries to dance with all of my other friends before i have to get rid of him

C is dancing with my friend N, away from guys because they both have boyfriends. and N is like a sister to me so i have to get rid of a couple more guys as im there

another girl J was there, i met her once before, we danced a bit. again i kept having to swat guys off of her too. she was dtf though, she kept talking about how she needed to get laid lol

I have a seat and S starts dancing over my leg, getting too close, she starts complaining that i wont dance with her. out of nowhere she grabs me and kisses me on the cheek, narrowly missing my mouth, i go on unfazed

we go further into vip and i grab a seat as the girls continue to dance around me, its like 4 and im ready to go, but i gotta make sure they get home safe

out of nowhere, someone hands me a bottle (the alcohol fairy must have gotten my tooth) and we kill the bottle

C is acting a bit weird, she stays behind the chair im on while all the girls are either dancing on it, or on the floor around me

the club starts to die down and we begin to leave, some lesbian grabs the tall black chick out of nowhere n i start cracking up

i have to grab the girls away from some more unwanted guy attention and they head out for the bus.

instead they decide to ride with me, now i get to drive buzzed with 7 people in the car, Yay -_-

S keeps complaining that i wouldnt dance with her as shes walking with C who keeps staring at me and smiling. she talks occasionally but is so freaking quiet

we get in the car, S forces her way to shotgun and she tries to grab my hand as im driving, i cut that ish out bc i dont want her! wtf is it that hard to understand

we get to denny’s and C stays in the car, which sucks cus i finally would have gotten to talk to her.

the tall black girl, K, starts the convo about when sex is best. some say when you wake up, some say when youre high etc. ive never really seen this side of a group of girls before, its entertaining

S eye rapes me throughout the convos, and J keeps calling guys to try and get laid. shes actually really cute, but desperation doesnt look good on anyone

i get looks and eye contact from about every girl in there, probably from the social proof and the extra shot of mx301

we start eating, then this chick at another table calls out to me and asks me how euro was. im like wtf, then i realize its my friend who invited me to nocturnal earlier. call her H

i sit at H’s table, with my friend whose a guy and two other people. turns out the other guy i went to school with in new york, way back in middle school. smal world, we all chat a bit and the girls from my table get up to leave

as H realizes i came here with a giant group of girls, i see her eyes light up and she invites me to the beach with them wednesday. i get the customary pimp comment and we head out

all in all it was a good night. i really did wanna hang out with H so that worked out in a strange way

conclusion:

i used spaceland, for some reason it didnt feel like my AA was gone. i need to focus more and drink less if i plan on meeting girls at clubs.

it seems like the mx301 made the girls really comfortable around me, especially cus i just met most of them. i did get the gentleman comment from one of the girls

i got a LOT of eye contact from girls i wasnt interested in. the club was pretty packed with unattractive girls. there was a spanish side, but it was really dark and i could barely make out people’s faces

i thought my AA was getting better, dunno what happened, but i have to fix it. i also found out this morning about C’s boyfriend, which probably explains why she didnt seem too comfortable at times in the club

something i wore drove S crazy, probably the mx301. im gonna try and stay far away from her next time. she wants to go out with me to off the hookah thursday, im gonna do my best to make sure she forgets about it

well im a work in progress guys. mones are definitely helping, but i need to put in more work on my end. thanks for the tips and comments, especially jabez and steve

btw jabes, im stealing some of your lines. youre gonna hear how they work on friday

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bro, your reports have became insanely long to read :smiley:
GOOD JOB!

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lol it was a long night, its a good thing i left out the rest of the day. ill try to cut it down a bit to just the mones stuff instead of everything that happned, but i like to paint a picture

its like exact opposite of yours pherojack, you have 1 paragraph and gt right to the point. i hope mine are at least interesting so people are willin to read them. i prescribe to the thought that your writing can never be too long, only too boring :slight_smile:

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Very interesting :slight_smile:. I enjoy reading them

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Ha alright man sounds good which ones?

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thanks steve, im glad you guys are enjoying my adventures. steve you have some of the craziest posts ive ever read, always entertaining

jabez, im stealing the “hey whats you name” routne, well its kind of like a routine. it flows really well and conveys a lot of confidence and masculinity

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Sounds good another good 1 is hey I am so and so we have not met yet? Or fuck me if I’m wrong but I think I know you?

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lmao that second one is ballsy gold. i need to train my cahones before i try that one

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You can say it a bunch of different ways. Like fuck me if I am wrong but have we met yet? Or hey I am so and so we have met yet , but fuck me if I am wrong hut it looks like you need a dance partner.