Today’s observations are best described using a time scheme, due to added sprays throughout the day.
10:00am
1 spray TUTH to chest under white beater and shirt.
1 spray AMMO to center of neck spread to sides with wrists
4 sprays IS all around neck (front, back, sides)
Self Effects:
I felt happy
. In an overall good mood. The only other time I felt like this after using mones was when I went to the club several weeks ago and used IJ and AMMO. I have a feeling it’s the -none that’s doing it. I don’t think it’s the IS because when used alone, I don’t get the same effects, but AMMO, IJ, and TUTH seem to make me smile. I am contributing this happiness to the mones because it was raining pretty bad when I left my apartment (might have washed a bit of mone off) and usually when it’s rainy out I feel tired, depressed, and annoyed. But for some reason (probably the mones), I felt really upbeat and happy. The rain didn’t bother me at all. Some moron almost hit me on the road and I usually have VERY bad road rage, but this time I just thought to myself that she was an idiot, and that was that. These self effects lasted about 15-20 minutes.
Effects on others:
In the library. Back to my little seccluded corner. Nothing noticed, but this was expected.
12:30pm
1 spray IS added to jaw, spread across jawline with wrists
Self effects:
I could still smell the AMMO and it was nice. But no effects from it after that initial 15 or so minutes after application. No self effects from the added IS.
Effects on others:
This was my first time using mones before a small group meeting. Three times a week, I meet with 6 other students and a doctor group leader and we discuss patient cases. I have a very good rapport with everyone in the group, and we all have a great amount of respect for each other and each other’s opinions. I figured it would be nice to see how they react to a “different me”. Well, we sit around a square table, about 7ft. wide, and the usual seating arrangements are an indian girl on my right, the doctor group leader on my left, and everyone else about 4-7 ft. away from me around the table. Today we had a substitute group leader, which I am very happy about because I probably wouldn’t have seen what I did if we didn’t. Allow me to explain. The substitute sat in the usual seat of a caucasian girl, thus forcing her to sit next to me rather than across the table like she usually does. We will call this girl “A” and the indian girl “B”. As the meeting progressed, I noticed that A started leaning closer to me in her chair. It reached a point that she moved her seat a little bit closer to mine and leaned in so close that her head was almost touching mine, with me leaning back in the center of my chair. I also noticed that she was constantly playing with her hair, rearranging it, playing with it some more. She has always worn it straight down, with it blocking both sides of her face. After fidgeting around with it for quite some time, she brushed her hair to her left, so that her face was completely exposed to me. Definitely calling that a hit. I had also noticed throughout the meeting, that B was doing something similar. She wasn’t playing with her hair, but she was defintely sitting a bit closer to me, and leaning towards me in her seat. Furthermore, she was wearing a sweater over one of those tanktop shirts (i don’t know what it was, im a guy lol), and I noticed in my peripheral vision that she purposely pulled the left side of the sweater down, exposing her shoulder and a bit of her chest to me
. In addition to all of this craziness, I could see that A was turning her head and just looking at me every few minutes. She is also normally pretty quiet during these meetings, but today she was agreeing with everything I said.
6:00pm
1 spray Spaceland to top of head
Self effects:
None. Wasn’t expecting any from adding to the top of my head, and I usually don’t get anything from Spaceland anyways.
Effects on others:
At this point I was back in the library, but as it’s a friday there were less people around so I sat in the center area instead of my seccluded corner. There were still several people around, but didn’t notice anything out of the ordinary, although I was really focused on my books.
Conclusions:
I am really happy I’m starting to see self effects. The only thing that worries me is that it seems only -none gives me them. Just worried that I might get a string of ODs in an effort to get self effects. Some more tweaking is definitely needed to find that right amount and balance. Perhaps just some further buffering to prevent OD.
As for the effects on others, I am so happy I am starting to see the wonderful effects of pheromones. I was getting a little discouraged and this was definitely what I needed to keep me in the pheromone groove. I wasn’t worried about ODing from TUTH and AMMO because at this point, I would have been happy seeing OD effects rather than nothing at all, and had actually planned on purposely ODing and working my way backwards to find the right amount needed. I have an exam on Monday, but after it’s done I’m going to get me some IG and try to find an MX (that’s in stock) or two for me to try out.