Background Info:
alright finally decided to get moving and start my own journal. I’m a college student in my mid-20s, and just got my mones a few days back.
in recent months i have been eating much much healthier (something like a vegetarian-paleo diet) and it seems like this has positively impacted my sense of well-being ever since i got back to college.
also been exercising and strength training, and all these has been doing wonders for me. i am so much more at ease, relaxed and confident. my social anxiety is all but gone, and i feel vibrant and sometimes even a little euphoria.
just few days back, two white girls noticed me, one of which even stared. i mention white because i am asian, and this has never happened before. my guess was because i was looking radiant from a run (or was it because i was perspiring slightly and producing natural pheromones…)
i feel more alpha, certain, and assured, and i think people (girls in particular) can sense that. there is no cockiness, nor is there a need for that - i feel i have nothing to prove, and i feel very much at ease.
because of this, friends may be more drawn to me, and girls may notice me more, but the best part of it is, i do not care. not so much a “i couldn’t care less”, but a “i feel great and well and as such i do not need to impress anyone to feel good about myself”. very freeing!
i can become real among people - i do not constantly analyze situations, nor try to act in a certain way. i enjoy my friends and become interested in their lives - when i laugh it’s genuine, and when i crack jokes it’s spontaneous.
also, few days back i was talking to this girl i was interested in, and she mentioned a less flattering trait of mine, but i felt no need to defend myself, and neither did i feel my self-esteem lower (whereas i would have previously). even when i went home i didn’t bother to consider what she had said, when normally i would have.
it’s amazing what having a solid sense of well-being can do, and all these without mones! to be honest i have less of a desire now to experiment with mones, considering that i find it fun to hang out with friends and enjoy them, rather than trying to get them to respond to me in a certain way.
that said, now that my batch of mones has arrived, i’ll still try them out and journal my experiences here, so stay tuned.