2 week Observations
I always had a profound openness to gaining new knowledge and skills. I usually stack all of it and jump from info to info without finishing it. With the oil, I’ve been pacing myself really well
I feel really good about myself. Really, really good.
I look in the mirror and it’s like I fall in love with myself over and over.
I get certain vibes from people. I can read them a lot better.
People are nicer to me.
My family is a lot nicer to me. They look very happy to see me!
I am not bothered by women and their craziness anymore. I see them from a different point of view.
Every couple of days, I get this huge shift in my thinking. It’s hard to explain.
I just perceive things differently and they usually hit me at the most random times.
My dreams are VERY vivid. I believe this is happening because my awareness in this world is increasing. I think with practice, I can learn how to lucid dream.
I always suspected I had anxiety, but A314 brought it to my conscious awareness so that I can deal with it. I must admit that it is a little bit tough bad sometimes I drop some oil just to make myself feel better; I am learning to not become some dependent on it. To just deal with my issues.
There is a lot more space in my head. When I first started using it, there were these moments when my mind would completely blank out. I think this was happening because I was both clearing unnecessary clutter and making space –OR- there were habitual negative neuropath ways that just weren’t there anymore. My mind would search for some negative drama and find that that it was gone.
My biggest observation: MY CONCEPT OF TIME HAS SHIFTED. Things are going by slower. I feel like I have all the time in the world. At the same time, I feel really motivated to get my life together once and for all. The trippiest thing about it is when I look back at the past week, it feels as if I lived LIFETIMES. I understand Eckhart Tolle’s concept of The Power of Now and my pain body.
I do realize that there is some beta male left in me (a little whiny bitch). I do engage in its behavior but now days, I am so much more aware of it and I choose whether or not I want to engage with it and allow it to express itself. I am looking for better ways to express any energy that wants to exert itself via bodybuilding. Which brings me to my next point,
My body is not happy if I do not weight train. I have a picture on my vision board of me looking really big and cut. I seriously woke up one day and got fed up and started weight training. This regime is different the countless other ones I started. This feels like the one I am staying on for life. I have this do or die mentality about it.
People look at me differently lol. I can tell they are looking at me saying in their minds that there is something different about that person; I just can’t put my finger on it. I do notice a slight look of caution. Not to mess with me.
Gaming chicks is sooooooo much easier.
My voice is deeper. I have been told that numerous times. I can also tell it myself. My voice has already been deep, but this is a different deep. Deep, down in my soul deep. It feels good. Literally.
Nothing really bothers me anymore. If I do lose my cool, instead of the negative loop of beating myself up about it, I get over it. I am starting to master my inner dialogue. It is tricky but SO MUCH FUN.
I am also harnessing my emotional turbulence. Instead of feeding it to the vampires of the world, I don’t even sweat them. I conserve it for myself.
Thank you so much Steve O for the Richard Bandler recommendation. I was dabbling in a little bit of his work, but now I am knee deep loll. I have been listening to his Personal Enhancement CDs, watching his DVDs, and reading some of his books. A+ guy. I do feel a difference in my thinking process. Thank you, thank you, thank you. If you are reaidng this, please leave a message because I want to discuss/ask you something.
I also notice God/universe is talking to me a lot more. My synchro destiny is off the charts (“SynchroDestiny is coincidence but it contains a purpose. It contains a meaning. It has a direction. It has intention. I see coincidences as messages and build up understanding about laws of success”.) I have no idea if this is because of the oil or because I am more focus. I think it is a combination of the two. I can see where the universe is LITERALLY PUSHING me to become a better person.
My favorite thing about the oil, is how observant I am about other people’s behaviors. I have been cutting people off in my life that no longer serve a positive purpose. Or they cut themselves off. For example, I have only had one bad interaction with the oil and that was with two friends that I had up at university. I saw them the first time and months and WOW where they shittesting me. BIG TIME. It was absurd. It was like they refused to accept that I was happy and becoming self-fulfilled. Everyone else in my life accepted my newly acquired alpha male except them. I realized they were “at-the time friends.” It kind of hurt my feelings because I thought they were good friends, but they snitched on themselves and exposed the fact that they were indeed riff-raff. Oh well. I now know that I will be way more selective with who comes into my life. Point-blank.
In conclusion, I feel that I am evolving really fast but it is slow and paced at the same time. I love life and I know beyond all doubt that I will get to where I need to go.
Look out for more reports because I know that the oil/God/universe/my higher Self will reveal more to me in due time.
I love everyone out there. We all have lessons to learn just remember to treat others as yourself and keep being happy!
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