Firstly, I really do appreciate your help. What you say makes a lot of sense, and I respect that. Thank you sir. However, I need your opinion with this:
REPORT
Day 5
Today was not good, but I must preface it with this:
As I said yesterday, 2 sprays of AMMO to the bends of my arm, 2 sprays of IS (2x) to my face, and 2 sprays of IH to my wrists.
Also, I’m not being bias in any of my reports. I didn’t alter anything to make myself sound cooler, or her sound more loving. Everything is real, and factual (unless it’s an opinion, of course).
Now, as I said in the last report, we were put into groups today. I was in her group along with two other people: a guy and a girl. The bad thing is that the two other kids who were sitting next to us were the usual high school flirt whores. For most of the class, the both of them were playing a game of Ultimate Footsies (UF) under the table. It was quite annoying, but the worst part is that it made me look like an idiot in front of “my” girl, since I wasn’t flirting at all. It’s not that I didn’t want to, its just that I couldn’t get a word in edge wise with their constant talking.
During round 2 of UF, though, she kicked my leg, sighed, and crossed her legs (we sat across from each other). Now, it’s not that I was too far on her side, because I wasn’t. It’s that she was too far on my side.
Anyway, I did make a few cracks here and there, and she did smile at them all (and they weren’t fake smiles; I’m good at reading faces) and chuckled a bit, but she refused to initiate conversation. It’s always me! And in an instance like what I mentioned above, I can’t do anything!
Of course, I turned to my 'ol pal Google to see what the Internet says about “what does it mean when the girl doesn’t initiate conversation?” Most of the forums Google showed me weren’t in my age group, so they were not applicable. The other possible solutions I came up with are that she does like me, but is shy, she simply doesn’t like me, she’s a flirt whore (doubt it), or she’s playing hard to get. I don’t know ![]()
Another extremely bad sign that happened near the end of class is that she started to talk to another guy, we’ll call him “Doug.” Now, the speaking was coming from across the room (while sitting in front of me), I have NEVER heard them speak before in my life, and they only said a few words to each other, but this “Doug” really got me agitated (especially since he a royal arse). I want to be optimistic about it and say she wanted to make me jealous, but I just can’t.
WARNING: below is a rant. You can skip it, just delves into my personal feelings ![]()
Let’s say she lost interest in me. That’s fine, I can understand that. We can’t talk in that class, and for the time there is to talk, there isn’t enough time to build up the conversation enough to ask for her Facebook or phone number so I can talk to her outside of class. However, and excuse my censored language, but if I see her with that ******* ******** Doug I won’t blow a circuit, I’ll blow a freakin’ motherboard. I didn’t report about this before, but I was walking in the hall, and she and her friends were talking. For a few quick seconds I heard them talking about this teacher’s husband who brought her flowers. They were going crazy over him; one of them said “why can’t my boyfriend do that!” And they all agreed.
And yet, they go for the douches and the bad boys who wear their pants down to their ******* ankles. I know it’s high school, and I know it’s all about having fun, but don’t say you wish for a good guy when all you want is a guy who couldn’t give two ***** about you.
Maybe I didn’t make myself out to be that nice guy who would get her flowers here and there, and actually remember her birthday, but I think the fact that I didn’t grope her *** yet is good enough to show that I’m not one of those guys.
Again, I know it’s high school, and I wouldn’t mind it at all if they at least admitted they want to date the people that give them the drama they scream and cry about at night, but they don’t; they love that ******* drama.
ehem So, what do you highly intelligent and much more experienced guys and girls think? Does she still have any interest in me? Oh, and don’t hold back on your answers. Even if she doesn’t like me anymore, I finally chipped a tiny whole in the ice with a girl, and I think that’s a big step ![]()
No matter what, I plan on talking to her tomorrow. I’m actually a bit curious about her last name; it’s Scottish, but she pronounces it differently then how it should be said. Exciting, I know, but I actually am very curious about it.
Anyway, talk to you all tomorrow.