Well, that was one horrid shift, kind of. 
Salaried and young member of staff I could just about handle, okie, I was flirting back, lol. Probably shouldn’t of done it, but what the hell eh?!! Ended up having a 3-way water fight at the back of the kitchen with the two of them, lol, not the 1st time I’ve done it with the salaried manager mind, but wasn’t expecting to get a drenching from the younger member of staff too. Ended up standing still saying out loud, “What the heck is going on here?!!” lol, Okie, I knew, it was probably the mix I was wearing and it was working more than expected. DIHL I could of coped with, but not on the scale of what was happening, lol, never in a million years did I expect something like that to happen! Thank gawd there was only a handful of female staff in, otherwise I may have been in even more trouble!!
As for the stalker, jeebus, she was full on flirting, kept grabbing me from behind, hugging me, resting her head on my back for the 1st few hours I was on shift, just before I went on my break!
However, on going back for round 2 of my shift, after my break, I started hearing the usual “Here’s my man,” and “NH, do you love me?” “NH, will you marry me?” comments, I knew it was only a matter of time before the negative remarks got flung my way by her; and you know what, I was right!! Was about an hour after my drenching, after coming back from my break; and we ended up alone at the back, when she came out with, “You know I’m messing, I don’t like you!” Which then switched to, “Why won’t you talk to me, don’t you like me?” Which then steadily got worse with, “NH, why aren’t you speaking to me, why are you ignoring me, don’t you love me?” Here we go!!
Back with the others and back she goes with the full-on flirting “I love you!” comments. Seriously, what part of, “I don’t want to go out with you, you’re not my type!” Does she not get??
It’s getting to the point that I might let her see what screaming in someones face feels like. It’s not something I want to do, but if it gets the message across, it may have to be done. Knowing my luck, I’ll end up being the ‘bad guy’ but what have I done? Okie, so I’ve got on a few mones, but long, long before this day she has been like this; and on some of those days, all I’ve had on is my IO/IShine mix. I can never forget that day she blasted me about ‘X’ and then denied it the very next day to all the staff. After today, I now know she is one crazy a$$ B1tc4; and I cannot ever go out with someone like that!
Why can’t things be easy? Not one feeling around anyone today (Or any other day for that matter), even though I was flirty back with the ones flirting with me, minus the annoying one, (Did my best to stay well away from her!). Just no feeling at all, nothing like when I was around ‘X’; and that’s what bugs me. Now that I’ve had an endless taste of that feeling, I’m looking now for anyone that will make it happen again; and so far, no one has!
I feel like if I did find someone, that if I didn’t have the same, exact same feeling I had when around ‘x’ would I be using them? Not something I really want to think about right now, not likely to go out with anyone any time soon, especially from work. Goes to show doesn’t it, you see someone, you think you like them, want to go out with them, then one day in an instant, you are hit with overwhelming feelings that are far too great to understand or deal with for one person you have come to meet. That’s the point when you think to yourself, I want that feeling again, everything else, with everyone else, just obviously wasn’t real!! 
Bubbly manager, who I haven’t seen for nearly a month, well she’s had an operation. Cosmetic, if you can call it that, but I hope she’s done it for herself; and not to attract some dumb a$$ guy that wants someone attractive to hang off of their arm as a trophy to their friends?!! She’s too good for that type of person, kind hearted, like ‘X’; and someone I’ve come to call a good friend, albeit she probably doesn’t know that’s how I see her!
Actually, I never tell them how I see any of them, it’s something I keep to myself. Maybe they’ll take it the wrong way and think I’m hitting on them, when I’m not. But still, there’s only a handful of people in there I really trust and feel able to literally tell them anything, bubbly manager being one of them!
Those few people have entrusted me with their thoughts/problems over the years. I keep it to myself, even here I’m not posting it. When I make a promise to not tell anyone something, I keep the promise! Well, you already know I do that, lol, but without trust, your friendship will end; and in my case, that’s not something I’m prepared to let happen! 
Another day off tomorrow. Got to finish off that booklet for my management training. Well, it’s done, but I’m transferring over every question and answer to a MS Word document as a back-up in the event my book goes walkies yet again. This is the 3rd time I’ve completed this book, would you believe. Every time you do something, it gets marked, put into your employment folder supposedly forever to gather dust, not see light again, but nope, people go into the filing cabinet to copy people’s work; and that’s the last time you see it! So everything i do now, I copy over to a Word document as a reference in the event it goes for a 4th time!! However, all I’ll do is print off the work and stick it in my folder. Actually, I have my own folder on the main office computer with nearly all of my files on it. No one would need take my work, they’d just need to hit ‘print’ and get the info that way, but they’re not that clever!! 
Got the nice elearning course to complete as well. They’re always fun to do. You’re given an up-to-date booklet of all the information to do the job, but the course was written in 1888, probably. Certainly designed for Windows XP, Internet Explorer, lol. Hates certain browsers, so is always a hit and miss that you will ever get it done, let alone watch it load on your home PC, but anyway, said to the salaried manager (yes that one from today’s fun times) that I’ll have it all done for Wednesday; and yes, you know me, that means no sleep tomorrow, probably, lol! 
For tonight though, I’m currently eating my dinner, will let my hair down (Yep, I’m still looking like Cousin IT!); and have a few more bottles of something. Lucozade at the minute, lol, but I still have a case of cider, bottle and gift pack of Port (Oh dear Lord, just thought of the last time I had that stuff! Not good, not good at all!!).
In other news, my face/neck/arms is looking more like I’m a human again!
Top of my head, jeez, still have a few holes on my right side. Don’t think they’re gonna heal any time soon what with the constant wearing of the headset in work, band cuts right in there, to the point that I have to take it off when not speaking to a customer, as it’s like having a bad headache! Chest lol, let’s not go there. Still look like a leopard. I guess I should be on the steroids still, but it’s the side effects that I don’t like (kind of). Suppose to take them every 4 hours, yet they knock me out soon after taking, but on waking, well we all know who it is I see! Don’t know how I’d react if I saw her in the street, go up to her and say “Hey, just touching your hand to see if you’re real!” Yeah, like that’s gonna go down well, if it ever happened, probably won’t so shouldn’t be worrying about it now.
Anyhow, after today’s craziness, I’m wondering if I should do the ‘crazy’ mix again. As much as I freaked out on-shift for well, pretty much all of it, I’m tempted to do it again, just to see if it was a one-off, or that mix really does work out just like that Lynx/Cougar commercial, lol. I think it might, but I’ll only know for sure if I do it again. Deffo one mix to think about for going clubbing! Oo, night out with the boys in a few weeks, hopefully. That would be the definitive answer if that worked in a club to the scale it worked today in work; and no, no sharing! I’d keep it all for myself, lol!!
Right, time to go, speak later.
NH.