Night_Hawk's Pheremone Journal

[Night_Hawk]

DHL has sent me an email to say my parcel is on its way, literally!! Yip, picked-up and everything; and should be in my hands by Monday - YAY!! Actually, I wasn’t expecting it to come so quick, but at least I have something for the Birthday party in a couple of weeks time!!

Safe to say, I will be going to that party with a TOGO bottle containing the following…

IO x2 (15mcg per spray)
IShine x2 (15mcg per spray)
TUTH x1 (Who knows what the mcg is [Anyone?] but they say 5 sprays is enough; and well I’ll have 10 sprays in my TOGO mix!!)
P96 (12.5mcg per spray)

There will be roughly a quarter of each product in the one TOGO bottle, all mixed up. I know we all like the math; and I’ve noticed that on the store pages, we now can see most of the mcg’s for the instant line, hence why I’ve added them above; and apparently you get approx 40 sprays per TOGO bottle, so with that in mind, we can now work out how much mcg’s are going to be in that nice mix of mine:

So er, the ‘Party Mix’ will contain:

IO X2 150mcg
IShine X2 150mcg
P96 125mcg

=425mcg plus 10 sprays of TUTH X1 Strength.

Yep, that’s my ‘Party Mix’, wish me luck with that one, lol!!

…Probably got about 10 sprays of IShine left for tomorrows shift, this order can’t come quick enough!!

Today’s shift was just like yesterdays! Same hedione/ylang ylang mix applied, and my lynx/IShine thrown on over it. The ylang is hellish strong until covered with something! Had the exact same chill-out feeling from within a few minutes of applying it, the taxi journey in and pretty much all of my shift. Everyone around me was just running around like loons. Liverpool Soccer club playing at home, so busy as hell in our store; and after a couple of hours into my shift, I had a new member of the team to train. Worse time to come, when we’re packed with customers; and this is your 2nd shift to learn everything! Can’t complain though, she did really well, worked really well, picked up and responded to everything I showed her, but then, I keep asking them questions to see if it has sunk in!! Sort of makes them learn it, remember it, cos they know I’m not going to let them get away with anything, lol, but hey, that’s the way I was taught in pretty much every job I’ve had, so in learning and remembering, I use it to train my new members. Still, she’s in at some point tomorrow and I think I may be training her again. Nice friendly personality and she is friends with a couple of the staff already; and I found out on my break, that her cousin works with us too! At least she knows someone, that sort of makes learning everything a lot easier, as they can ask friends to help, shows initiative!

No ‘AC’ on shift, so no prodding of my ribs, or any misbehaving, almost like a day off, lol! Did see her close/best friend ‘DB’ just before I left, told him about the attempt to lock me out the back door, lol, told him about the chat on snapchat for over an hour were we both seemed to plot out what we intended to do on our next shift, lol. Didn’t actually expect him to come out with, “Ask her out!” Erm, nope, can’t. Two reasons, one we have a huge age gap between us; and two, I don’t have that ‘X’ feeling. Told you, until I get that feeling again, if I ever do, I just cannot commit to any relationship. It was just an unreal feeling like I said, I got every time, every single time I saw ‘X’. Someone in work mentioned she might be at that party in a couple of weeks, ‘X’ that is. She may very well be, we’re both friends with the birthday girl, but if that happens, well, I’ll work through that if it happens. Probably end up hiding in the corner again, albeit, I’m not DJing this time!

Speaking of DJing, one of the girls in work said, “NH, June, you’re DJing my 18th!” Okay. Whoa, wait a sec, you’re 17?!! Jeebus, might start having to check ID’s in there, to make sure I know their ages, thought she was around 19 going on 20!

So, I’m back in, in 5 hours, arf! Shouldn’t really complain, it’s a shift swap with another manager whom needs to start later than 10am, don’t mind really, as my other shift would have meant I finished at 1am; and well my Monday shift was due to start at 8am, so no sleep, lol!!

I’m going to do the hedione/ylang mix again today. Not just for the heck of it, but I am loving the calming feeling I get. It’s almost like the ‘Zombified mix’ except I know what I’m doing/am not spaced out, if you get me!

So, I’ll speak later.

NH.

[Conjurator]

The mcg of your TUTH is probably 2.5 mcg / spray if it’s the regular version (1X). If you have the extra-strength version, it’s 5 mcg / spray.

I got lost a bit in the math, are you planning to use the totality of your bottle at that party? Or only a few sprays of the global mix? If you plan on using it all, I’m afraid you’ll be Gasp-her the unfriendly ghost of the place , seriously, that’s OD material . I’ll reach for the popcorn and read your report though, hehe. Just curious however, is there a reason you don’t apply each product separately and add individual sprays, if required, as the evening goes on?

[Night_Hawk]

@Conjurator

The mcg of your TUTH is probably 2.5 mcg / spray if it’s the regular version (1X). If you have the extra-strength version, it’s 5 mcg / spray.

I got lost a bit in the math, are you planning to use the totality of your bottle at that party? Or only a few sprays of the global mix? If you plan on using it all, I’m afraid you’ll be Gasp-her the unfriendly ghost of the place , seriously, that’s OD material . I’ll reach for the popcorn and read your report though, hehe. Just curious however, is there a reason you don’t apply each product separately and add individual sprays, if required, as the evening goes on?

lol, yeah, I was thinking I’d be in the OD zone, albeit, the intention to use the entire contents of the TOGO in the one night, that’s a “No!” I’ve been thinking of what I did back in 2010, had to recap back to page #1…

…Sprayed Ammo x2 to the chest/stomach, 1x spray of IO under each arm (well it’s cold out, so not much chance of sweating), then another spray of IO on the top of both shoulders. CTM2, only used it once, not sure what the heck that’s for, but the name suggests what it may do, lol. Sprayed across my hair, neck (front and back), both wrists and then rubbed it up both my arms…armed with TUTH in my pocket…

I did 2 sprays of TUTH and then kept topping up the TUTH to my neck, as the night went on, to get hit after hit!

Tempted to do that again. Same mix, that is.

Changing the mcg to what you have posted, the TUTH I have coming tomorrow is X1 Strength, so 2.5mcg per spray. Add that to my ‘Party Mix’ and it goes up to 450mcg.

Of course, when I posted the above math calculation, I failed to do the division. It would be 450mcg divided by the 40 (Approx) sprays you get in a TOGO bottle = 11.25mcg of mixed mones per spray! Does that look a little better??

Probably do 2 sprays to start with (Front and back of my neck); and then maybe do one spray every hour/two hours to the front of my neck as the night goes on, or up until I feel I have more than enough on, which will probably be after 3 or 4 additional sprays! No much, but still a few mcg’s working whatever they intend to do, as let’s face it, I’ve never tried tis particular mix, so have no idea what will happen!

So, start out with 22.5mcg of the ‘mixed’ mones in total, then add one spray at a time of the 11.25mcg, if you get me!

Somehow I think applying 450mcg in one go would be a really bad idea, lol, deffo be standing in the corner on that one!

…Now, I hear you with applying each product individually, but bare this in mind, I’d be carrying 4 TOGO bottles in my pocket, along with my passport (For ID) and my wallet. Some venues, they pad you down at the door; and well, try explaining why you have 4 TOGO bottles in one of your pockets, lol. One, I can get away with. One, I can say it’s my own personal deodorant spray and get away with it, but 4, can see them being confiscated!!

I haven’t decided if I try any hedione with the above, personally, I think it would be fine on it’s own, again, don’t want to OD from the beginning!

Ylang with the above, hell no! Tried that again today, still as strong as hell on application. Kind of put double what I’ve applied the past 2 days onto my entire front/back/sides of my neck, lynx and IShine. Had this strong medicinal floral cleaning product scent trying to break through the Lynx ‘Black’ and the two shots of IShine I applied at home before my taxi arrived. Yep, late by 2 minutes, didn’t actually think I was going to get there at all when I saw on the taxi app where the vehicle actually was - practically parallel to my workplace on another housing estate. Still, I watched with interest in a nice calm state as the taxi’s position updated every few moments on the app to show it was getting ever closer to my home! Arrived and set off with 9 minutes to get me to work - yeah, I need at least 15 on any normal day, when the driver goes at the speed limit, yet the driver practically flew there, pulling up outside with 1 minute to go to 10am!! Lost those 3 mins trying to get my coat off, trying to locate my cap buried deep inside my bag and applying yet another two shots of IShine! That seemed to sort out the overbearing scent of the ylang, brought out the weird but nice smoothing floral scent even more; and I went even more into calm but happy mood.

Walked on shift and ‘AC’ is there, looking right back at me asking “What you looking at?!!” Wasn’t looking at her, was looking for the shift manager to ask where they wanted me and to apologise for my 2 minutes of lateness, same manager as yesterday (AJ); and I was like, “Wow, it’s your 3rd day in a row of running the shift, what’s going on, lol?!!” Another nice manager, I’ve kind of moved up the ranks with her, but she’s now one level above me and doing pretty well for herself. So, yeah, ‘AC’ realising I wasn’t taking the bait of her “What?” look and expression came over and proceeded to try and discretely prod me right in front of everyone. Yo, hello, everyone can see, lol!! So, I just got on with the job, started helping out to get the orders for B3 and yeah, every time I went to get a bag, over would come ‘AC’ to try and give me a little prod in the arm, my side, or elbow, thinking no one could see. Ended up poking her back in the end, probably shouldn’t but hell, game on!!

Then I overheard one of the manager’s ask her what shift she was on to say, “I’m not in today, I’m on holiday, just saw an extra shift till 3:30pm and took it!” Okie, fair enough we all do overtime, but on your holiday, lol!! Made me wonder though, she was asking me yesterday what shift I was on today; and I said I’d swapped to do this earlier shift with another manager, not a word then that she was coming in, or on holiday, so made me wonder if she was trying to get on a shift the same time as me, who knows, probably not, hope not anyway, lol!! Got another “What?!!” smile/response thrown my way for another member of staff to finally notice and say, “You two stop flirting!” Here we go!! Time for me to empty the bins, feck she’s (AC) followed me into the corner and proceeds to try and push me over with her body/leg as I bend over to pick up a new bag left on an open box on the floor! Lil’ minx. Don’t know if the ylang or the hedione has kicked in, cos she’s close, possibly even the IShine helping out, but damn, getting out of that corner was a pure mission, as she kept blocking me with the side of her body, leg and hands from getting past, lol!!

Anyhow, not long later, I get another newbie, yay, 2nd shift for her; and it’s immediately apparent that although she has worked on the till, she is slightly lost at where all the buttons are, doesn’t know the promo items, doesn’t know what the mystery shoppers can buy (Or when they can come in); and hasn’t been shown how to make drinks, get food, shout for grill orders, etc. Gawd, what did she do yesterday? Anyhow, took my time, explained it all and showed her how the ‘Help Guide’ section works. Don’t know why any newbies are never shown that area on the till, but it’s their very own visual aid to helping them answer at least some questions customers may have of what is on what products! Still, when they least expect it, I’ll ask them to tell me what is on the promos, what they are even, where they’re located on the tills, what can the mystery shoppers buy, all the things they should know! You know this new member of the team was the 2nd person to tell me that they’ve been told by the same person, not a trainer, but someone whom wants to be, that I’d show them the correct way, but in our store, no one does anything like that and the proceeds to show them the wrong way of doing things, ie the shortcuts!! That doesn’t help anyone!! In fact, get caught by a salaried manger like psycho cutting corners and she’ll be first to ask who your trainers where? Nothing worse than having her come up to you to ask if you trained someone and as to why they were doing it all wrong, as then the truth would eventually come out; and cause even more problems!! Better to do it right 1st time and every time.

Sadly, for a few minutes, my newbie got to see just what a few members of the general public are like to us workers, with a nasty creature whom lives in apartments opposite our store come in with a complaint about his order, threatening to kill the staff, if it wasn’t fixed there and then! I’ve seen this guy attack his partner outside his apartment, then attack two men whom went to her aid a couple of years ago. He’s even come in on night shifts and randomly attacked customers, claiming they had knocked on his door and come into our restaurant to hide, despite them being there for over an hour. This deranged lunatic shouldn’t be allowed to walk the streets. Matter of a fact, had this been any other Country, were the Police shot first, we’d not now have to be dealing with his abusive threats; and even when his order was sorted, it STILL wasn’t to his level of expectations, yet there was absolutely nothing wrong with it!! So he threw it across the kitchen towards the staff threatening to drag them out one by one and kill them in front of the customers!! Even when the salaried manager (AM) attempted to hand him his 2nd replacement order, he began dishing out even more threats at the manager, muppet! Told the manager he’d drag him out the the car park and kill him out there; and to watch his back as he would be seen at some point coming and going to work on his own!! Safe to say it’s all captured on CCTV, here’s hoping they have sense to take legal action at the very least, very much doubt they will though, Police always take far too long to respond to any incident, chance are you’d be dead before you got to say anything over the panic system!!

So, break time not long after this, with my newbie; and 10 mins in, ‘AC’ comes in for her break, not long after followed by her sister whom was soon to start her shift. Safe to say she (AC) had to bring up the ‘door’ comment of our conversation on snapchat, with a confused younger sister having to have the details filled in to her, lol! Said “‘CC’, you and I will have to work together and lock your sister (AC) outside!” She responded with, “Yes, she deserves it, especially as it’s raining!” Thought wonder why she said that; and she went on to say, “Yesterday I bought myself a new umbrella. Went to get it to come to work and couldn’t find it anywhere. Why? Because ‘AC’ had taken it for her selfish self to get to work with!” That got the two of them having a laughing argument with one another, for ‘CC’ to continue, “Well, does anyone want to see what umbrella she left for me?” lol, she proceeded to hold up this tiny luminous bright green umbrella, lol!! Yep, that WOULD deserve a locking out the back door in the rain!!

Still, it prompted me to grab my snapchat app and begin filming the 10 second video clip and sending it to my story, lol! Next ‘AC’ give my Snapchat username to her sister, okay! Just when you think you’re safe, I look up and discover ‘AC’ is filming me, took a second to realise, the response was like -

Anyhow, back to work, back to training; and I applied what I’d taught my newbie to ask her what she’d remembered. Seemed like all of it! Had a really quiet period; and the manager (AJ) asks if I want to take my newbie off the floor, into the office and go over all the training flyers that I have. Yeah okay, quickest way to get everything drummed into them in a relaxed warm atmosphere! Also an opportunity to get to know them better, put them at ease, get them to be more open and ask any questions that they have. Surprisingly, she said she’d overheard people say, “This is how you do things…” But, her non-trainer training her had said, “Nope don’t do it like that here!” On reading the flyers, she went, “I see this person is wrong, the others were right, I’m glad you have shown me these, so I can now do it the right way!” Yes, that’s what I want to hear; and it’s the 3rd person new this week that I’ve had to retrain from errors non-trainers have shown them, to be thanked for doing so!! Makes me happy actually, makes me feel like I’m doing something right. Hopefully in time, they’ll pass that knowledge on to other new members!

For the last hour of my newbie’s shift, we moved to the order taking/cashier area of the Drive-thru, put her straight onto the headset. Don’t know if it was the torrential rain, but man, were the customers in a foul mood!! Still, with a little bit of coaching, she picked this new role up fairly well, I was quite impressed. Think on her next shift, we might be able to step back and let her find her feet a little. Got confidence in her anyhow!

‘AC’ finished too, skipping by me, lol, knocked my hat off yet again, minx! Actually, I thought she’d gone home and around 410pm, 40 mins after she clocked-off, I went into the Crew Room for a quick drink of my lucozade and a shot of IShine, to find her sat there waiting for her sister to finish, with a manager sat next to her watching everyone’s ‘Stories’ on Snapchat. Yeah, he was on mine and without seeing me standing there, he leans towards ‘AC’, shows her my story and says out loud, “NH wants to neck you everywhere!” WTF?!! She laughed, I said “Yeah, thanks for that m8!” Shocked him somewhat as he said whilst laughing hard, “Oh hi NH, didn’t see you there, lol!” Safe to say I left and went back to work. Remainder of the shift was fairly good, got to finish 50 minutes early, was tired at the time of being asked, but the IShine I took just after being asked if I wanted to go, woke me right up, lol. Ah well, came home, cooked the family dinner and am now chilling writing this.

Tomorrow, DHL comes, YES!! So cannot wait to get my hands on my normal mix, all X2 strength. Back to being one lively bouncy bunny, lol!! In work at 9am today, cleaning the milkshake/ice cream machine and smoothie machine from 9am, well, being trained to clean the shake machine. Think that’s going to be my new Monday job, not scheduled in to work, but well, I guess that’s one way to top-up ones hours!

Anyhow, going to fire up the controller and mix some tunes for a couple of hours.

Speak tomorrow, A314 testing commences from Thursday!!

NH.

[Conjurator]

Thanks for the answers, man. I’m happy to live in a place where my pockets don’t get frisked for togo’s , but I get you on this. Nice report by the way.

[Night_Hawk]

Thanks Conj!

Today I wore the ylang potion again, same application as the last couple of days, same areas, chilled on leaving my home! Finally ran out of my IShine, but not to worry, my DHL parcel was out for delivery, so new batch would be waiting for me on getting home, hehe - nice timing!!

Oh great, pretty much all of my ‘haters’ were on shift, including ‘funny boy’. Feckers surrounded me where I was working to offer their wisecracks on cleaning. Yeah boys (SK, LK, TD, CD, PK) …and one girl (LZ), but did I care? Nope, I was in one calm relaxed mood; and I put that down to the ylang that I was getting a strong hit of. To be honest, I think my trainer ‘AJ’ was getting that calm effect too, as she went from lively to calm state fairly quickly as she stood next to me! Probably just as well, as her Ex, ‘LK’ was trying to wind her up with the help of another one of the idiots ‘TD’ whom kept draining the back sinks we’d placed all the shake machine parts in to soak/be cleaned. The parts, some of them, are pretty small. So, by draining the sinks, we had a high chance of losing them! We were lucky though, didn’t lose anything, but had we, had they, in their moments of constant stupidity, as they kept dropping the sinks sending ‘AJ’ to take off screaming at them, refilling the sinks over and over, we’d of had no ice cream/milkshakes until new parts were ordered/delivered!!

‘AJ’ the same manager that has run all the shifts I have been on the past few days, both of us weren’t scheduled to work today, so technically it’s overtime for us. Took my time learning. Think AJ thought I’d be slightly quicker, but I was on ‘full memory record’ and that requires me to go at a slower pace than normal as I have to block out anything irrelevant and stitch together only that of what I’m being trained to do! Actually tried to explain it to her, when cleaning all the parts in the sink (…and hoping none had drained away), but for a person without a photographic memory, that is one hell of a hard task to do! Only a handful of people get it, AJ was not one of them, sadly, not today anyhow. Still, sitting here, typing this, I have my own training video playing on loop in my head, think I could strip that down and put it back together in a fraction of the time it took today! Could see in her face she wasn’t happy with the idiots! Safe to say I told her that they were (Almost) all of my ‘haters’ from the days of when ‘X’ worked with us, told her of what some had tried to do last week in winding me up to the point I exploded in the office and quite frankly was in a “Come and get me and see what happens!” Attitude right now, with them all being on shift. Safe to say she then said she was “Pished off with the two guys messing and trying to deliberately lose parts, as the salaried manager (The same one I had the nice argument with) was in and in a fairly bad mood already!” Don’t know if that was with her, but the 1st assistant wasn’t happy that the labour % was so high - well, we’re not scheduled to be in, of course it’s going to be high. Maybe they should train more than 2 people to clean the equipment, so that ‘someone’ is always available on any given shift, to clean it!! Nah, they don’t think like that, probably never will!!

Blended ice/smoothie machine, ha! This machine has been a headache since the day we got it! Actually, it was delivered to us broken and took 5 days for the engineer to wait for the part (From America – It’s made by a US Company), to get it online and working! Now, I’m looking at a part that regularly jams; and on closer inspection realise why? A support arm, one of 3 has snapped from its base - something else that needs ordering from the US! Irrespective of this, we continued with the training/cleaning and all went well, right up to calibrating the different products, lol! Oh yeah, lets watch the machine dispense 5 large cups of yogurt instead of around 2.8 grams!! 5 cups of ice, no mix, 2 cups of strawberry mix, no yogurt or ice, yeah, that’s broken!! Took 20 minutes to find a support phone number, only to hear a voicemail message, yeah, that’s not getting fixed! Then, another manager told us that the same thing happened last week, that it dispensed 2 cups of mix and nothing else - great, why didn’t no one tells us? Could of had an engineer out and not had to face all these problems! Like I’ve said before, communication in that place is shocking!! Believe it or not, it took 5 hours to clean both machines!! Felt like I’d only been there an hour, seriously!! Where did the time go?? At least I know how to clean both machines properly, just wish I got the chance to see the ‘calibration’ process properly, but not everything runs smoothly every time, this day, being one of them!

Bumped into my friend (ST), the manager whom completed the few sections of the workbook that has gone missing twice from my file; and the one thing that I need to become a Floor Manager - Yes, this is the reason why my shirt hasn’t been ordered, believe it or not!! Said to him the salaried manager was in, not happy she couldn’t locate the workbook in his draw or my file in the filing cabinet - Think she was making out I was lying that he had!! He went on to tell me he had hidden it, so that it didn’t go missing again; and not to worry! Why would I worry? Not this time around, I’ve scanned every page, only need to print it off and have him fill in his sections again if it goes ‘walkies’ again!! Still, that was my day over, a pretty easy straight forward one, albeit, time flew by without me even realising it - ylang potion I think may have had something to do with that, as I was still in a calm state talking about the ‘workbook’ outside to my colleague!

…So, I revisited our City’s Police recruitment website tonight, looked at the ‘Voluntary’ Police Officer application, known as a ‘Special Police Constable’. You do the exact same work as a Regular Officer the difference being, you don’t get paid for doing the role. Minimum hours worked a week for this role is 4 hours, expected to do a minimum of 16 hours per month. Could easily do one of my days off a week to perform this role; and knowing what I work now a month in advance, it would be easy for me to plan ahead. Opportunities for this role means I have a better chance at a later date if they start applications for recruiting Regular Officers, but still, a lengthy application; and looking at a video of the fitness test, I’m going to have to do a few months of serious exercise to build up my body strength to pass the test!!

I applied to be a Regular Officer in 2003, whilst working for the NHS as a manager; and part-time as a Radio Presenter/Journalist at a local community studio. Back then, it took 18 months to get to the interview stage, but before even being asked a question on the day, I was told they “Had their quota for the next intake; and that I wouldn’t be going forward and would be expected to re-apply in 6 months time!” That kind of explained why all interviews were running short ahead of me, with the interviewees coming out the interview room really hacked off!! I knew how they felt, as 18 months is a long time to work your way through a recruitment process, where you constantly contacted them for information as to whether you where moving along in the recruitment process, not them contacting you - crazy way of doing things!!

Now, it apparently takes 6 months, start to finish and the whole process is compact and intense to say the least, but that fitness test, that’s the one I’m gonna have to seriously work at. I’m strong anyhow, skinny as a pencil, but that’s down to my high metabolism - everything I eat just burns off! Hell, managed to get back up to 9 stone 2 weeks ago, after losing 2 and a half stone at Xmas when I got sick (Target weight 9 and a half stone), yet, yesterday, weighed myself and some how I’ve gone back to 8 stone!! This is the problem, the slightest bit of exercise and it doesn’t matter how much I eat, it’s gone, burnt off/absorbed.

Doctors over the years have all said the same thing, I’ll always be this build, but that doesn’t stop the endless amounts of people making fun as to my build. Half the time, it’s people I work with, but occasionally, I get it from random people in the street/customers. I no longer care, used to years ago, hence the long, long process of having this specialist and that medical specialist trying to work out what was wrong? Nothing at the end of the day, just a high metabolism, but that didn’t stop different medical ‘professionals’ putting the fear of God into me, telling me I had some fatal syndrome/illness. Twice they told me in Alderhey Children’s Hospital I was going to die, 1st time was a shocker, try getting your head around being told you have 6 months to live when you’re just turned 18 and attending your 1st College to pursue the career you’ve longed to do! Nothing prepares you for it! Then, nothing prepares you for the words, “We may have gotten it wrong!” When the 6 months pass and you’re still healthy, despite having the ‘symptoms’ of what you’re supposedly dying of! Like I said, they did it to me twice, the next one being when I was 21! You’d think for a kids hospital, someone my age would be sent to an adult hospital, but nope, they kept saying I had to go to them. What amused me the most was that every letter was addressed “To the parent or guardian of…” Yeah, they expected me to turn up with a parent or guardian, because it was a kids hospital - Hello, I’m an adult at 18!! Still, at 21, I was diagnosed with some heart valve defect, according to their stupid ultra sound scanner! Two males carried out that test, one carrying out the examination, the other observing the data on the monitor/readout! Usually, you went home and came back a week later for the result. Not that day, was told within an hour by the specialist of the news! You know, even then I wondered if they’d gotten it right, or was it another monumental balls-up like a few years earlier. Still, I was still in the same College, on another course, same career, but an advanced course, had me doing so much research on so many subjects, that was probably my starting point on learning and remembering random stuff! Yet, 8 months on; and the ‘Specialist’ is baffled as to why I STILL was going strong, albeit in great pain from my heart valve area. Another scan - HA!! Boy did they get that one wrong!! Turns out I had a hairline fracture on one of my ribs and it was catching on my heart/valve!! Yeah, twice being told you’re going to die, twice being told, “Well actually, we’ve made a mistake!” Safe to say I got transferred from the care of that hospital quick, finally got someone in the hospital opposite my home to give me a good assessment and as for treatment? Well apparently the location of the ‘chip’ there’s been nothing anyone could do!!

Actually, even now, years on, do I get the occasional jabbing pain from that particular rib, that’s how long it has gone on for, with no treatment available! It’s like a serious case of heartburn with the possible symptoms of angina/a heart attack - yeah that painful! It doesn’t happen all the time, doesn’t even happen with exercise, just randomly happens without warning, lasts a few minutes up to an hour and then goes again; and that could be for months before I feel it, experience it again!!

I got told at the hospital near my home (On transferring), by the new ‘specialist’ (That actually had all the answers), that I had to have had a serious ‘bang/blown’ to my chest for it to happen; and that the injury appeared to have occurred a number of years ago!! Actually, it wasn’t a break as such, more of a ‘chip’ to the bone, hence the occasional feeling of it. Said my ultra slim build didn’t help!! Only thing I can think of is when I was flung to the ground after the blast in Germany as a kid, certainly winded me, but my chest was never checked out, well, not for breaks. Burns yes, breaks no, had that severe sun burn look with what I had my dad believe was ‘grit’ and the doctor trying to make out it was bits of metal! Probably was, but try telling your family that you were off-base during a curfew period (Albeit, those living off-base half the time didn’t know that there was a curfew on-base!), yeah, better to try and get away with ‘sunburn’ than ‘confess’ to breaking the ‘parent’/base rules!!

Still, at that point, my faith in doctors kind of went out the window. Didn’t of course stop me from becoming a human lab rat for clinical trials, but for me, that was kind of my way (As I’ve said in previous posts) of helping to find things that could hopefully help others. Those endless goofs by those medical professionals at that hospital (Alderhey) was probably what got me wanting to work in bio-medical research. I certainly have one hell of a knowledge now on a whole manner of areas, viruses, their effects and how to combat them is probably my favourite areas to work in. I’ve been telling everyone in work the past few days that if they get anyone, any customer asking about ‘bird flu’ effecting our products and would eating our food make them sick, they are to be sent over to me. I’ll happily give them the facts!

After last weeks 9-hour mammoth report gathering/writing session, I have a pretty solid knowledge of all things H5N8, knowing that humans aren’t at risk, but like I said in another post, H7N9, yip, not that that has made it to main land Europe yet, but still, I’ll keep monitoring the data that comes out - At least there’s 4 vaccine trials for that one underway!!

Gone off-track again, haven’t I!!

2 rest days, yay! My DHL/AD parcel was waiting for me on stepping through the front door - excellent. Made some food, fell asleep, damn!! Didn’t realise I was tired, but came here straight away on waking, to type-up this journal update, as one does! :]

So what was in the parcel apart from my essential ‘Party mix’ and A314? Well, something I’ve never used before - P131 5mcg (TOGO)!! Yep, my signature has been updated to reflect that I shall now be testing something new; and guess what?? It’s my 1st ‘Stealth’ product!! Oh yeah!! :]P

Will have a look at that one next week, got the A314 trial to do this week from Thursday, can’t wait to see how that one goes down. Like I’ve said, I’ve used both the A and B versions before, this being the B version I have. I kind of know what to expect, but still, will probably follow what Dee posted a few pages back (A314 + IShine), albeit this is spray version not oil, but if memory serves right, one spray of the B version is equivalent to one drop of the oil version? Still, last time I trialed it, I did it as a standalone, the A314 that is. This time, I’m adding the IShine into the mix, so as I said, it will be a whole new trial for me!! :]}

Well, it’s 1247am, I’m off to get something else to eat, hungry again, lol.

Speak later.

NH.

[Night_Hawk]

Okay, my room currently smells of Neroli. Actually, I got some on my hands and am feeling a little strange to say the least, lol. Not in a bad way, but in a good way! My head is going “Helloooo!” As I seem to have become wide awake. I thought I was wide awake, but not after getting this mix on my hands, lol, I’ve rubbed it into my neck and am getting a full on self effect of mones - IO, IShine, P96 and TUTH. Yep, as I said, I can smell Neroli everywhere, literally and well that’s the ‘Party Mix’ made up, ready to go next week!

Packed my work bag with the A314, a new batch of my IO/IShine mix (I’ve just started smiling, as I type this, can feel my face muscles, lol!! ). I’ve so missed the X2 strength verions, deffo worth waiting for and getting!!

P131, have no idea what that was for; and I know we’re supposed to go and test them, but I had to go and look at the ‘search’ box, as I was curious if I could add a shot to the ‘Party Mix’ or not?!! Well, to quote ‘TheAttractor’…

P131 is also a touch amplifier. It evokes touch behavior (affectionate touch in women, respectful touch in men) in situations where strictly verbal communication would suffice. For example, a regular (female) in my Zumba class and a 50-something waitress kept touching me on the shoulder, and a man in a karaoke bar gave me a slap on the back while saying “great singing, man!”

I used 1 or 2 sprays, @ 5 mcg each.

Yep, I have 5mcg P131 in ‘Stealth’ spray form. May try 1 or two sprays and see what happens. Actually, might trial that with my IO/IShine mix in work and see what happens. Not had any ‘hugging’ for a while, so will be interested to see what this does, standalone or, on its own!

Looks like I’m on night shifts Thursday to Sunday, late shift (5pm to midnight) on Monday.

Oh news from yesterday, looks like one of the girls (BD) that left (The one that screamed at me 18 months ago as to why I’d returned back to our store after being away for two months, my very 1st day back, in fact? Like I said, I was on loan.), came in late yesterday afternoon to ask the 1st assistant could she come back to work with us! I think she’s realised that everything I said about other jobs really was true; and that they all have a very easy laid back life in our store/job!! Perks are good as well, can’t fault them, when I remember to use them, lol!! Anyhow, I expect to see her at some point back as a crew member. Really, she was good at the job, I don’t think she’ll need any training, maybe just a recap, well, until we get the new system in June, that’ll be fun!! Still, I don’t want to reserve judgement, will see if she’s changed when she comes back, most that return after a break or different career path do change, usually for the better; and I’m hoping this time away has done the same to her as well!! Can’t wait to see how psycho takes to the news on her coming back, she proper didn’t like her. To be frank, I don’t particularly think she likes anyone, lol, but then some people are like that; and well, it’s their loss if they can’t be nice, they’ll just alienate themselves from the team!

Well, back to my day off, if you can call it that!! Mom has given me a list of DIY jobs to do in the back garden - great!! Apparently it’s a sunny day in the back! Really, wondered what that was shining through my window!! Still, wonder if the lunatic at the property at the back of ours will be out in force wondering what it is I’m doing in ‘HIS’ garden! Pretty certain a dividing fence between properties indicates that my garden is on one side and his on the other, but nooo, muppet wants to make out everything in mine is his - Land Registry says otherwise. Been on the phone to the bank this morning with an update, got to go tomorrow to the Archive Library in the City Centre to obtain all the images dating back to 1927, when the properties were built. Each and every day, I find something new, that when it eventually ends up in court (As that’s where I think it will end up going to.), will prove to this guy that he is very much wrong, but I know him, he’ll still claim he is right and everyone else is wrong, even his legal team, lol. Gonna upset him soon, when I start asking for details of his surveyor and where he got his measurements from. Still have the audio recording of his full on argument with his wife when the surveyor left, they certainly disagreed with something, I have everything on CCTV!

Anyhow, enough of that, still feeling in a proper happy mood, can smell Neroli really strong on my hands, no face, as I’ve rubbed it into my head, lol. Don’t know why or how this makes you feel happy, but it just does, just makes me smile spontaneously, lol.

Speak later,

NH.

[Night_Hawk]

Seriously, I cannot sleep!! All I can smell in this room is the Neroli from when I made up the ‘Party Mix’! Got some on my desk next to me when I transferred the IShine over, maybe that’s what I’m detecting?

Been awake now for just over 26 hours, and my head is so darn active it’s unreal!! A couple of my ex-forces high school friends have been sending me ‘Live’ DJ sets (Hard Dance mainly) on the social media site we use, since yesterday afternoon; and well, it’s safe to say I feel very active!! Even stopped at one point to make a few remixes of tracks that one of the DJ’s sent me, nice to see I still have those skills, not done any mashups for a few years, especially Hard Dance, lol.

Maybe I should put some ylang on and chill out, lol. Got my 1st night shift of 4 tonight, hope I get tired long before that starts (10pm), lol!!

Deffo going to be wearing my IO/IShine mix tonight, going to take the P131 with me as well as the A314, will decide what to wear when I see whom I’m working with, some are quite good to work with, only have a handful of what I call ‘haters’ in there, don’t know if they’re on with me tonight or not, but I’ll cross that bridge when I come to it.

8:15am, can’t believe I’m still awake, lol! Right going for erm, breakfast then. Speak later.

NH.

[Night_Hawk]

Well, came home from work this morning, just after 7:30am; and I don’t know how the hell I was STILL awake and still going strong, lol!! Actually, I don’t know how I got through that shift last night, without any sleep! I’m beginning to think it was down to the X2 IShine and X2 IO?!!

Did however crash out around 11am, woke just before 5pm tonight - Awake just over 41 hours!! Ask me how that is even possible, lol?!! Yep, I put it down to the mones; and what was (and still is, slightly) lingering on my desk next to me! Not going to wipe that, as it’s giving off a nice neroli hint, especially when I rest my arm on the desk!

Still, tried out the A314 (Rev. B) on arriving to work, 1 spray to the front of my neck (Adam’s apple). Forgot this is the one that makes me feel like I’ve been to the gym for a couple of hours!! Noticed a difference straight away, almost like I was standing up straighter than normal. My head was very active, possibly as I did 2 sprays of my X2 strength IO/IShine mix before leaving my house for work, then another shot just before the A314 on arriving at work!

That scent from the A314, last time I remembered it to be stronger, doesn’t feel that way now, was quite pleasant, if I’m honest. Early days on the trials of that, my head was very active though, far more than normal!! Concentration wasn’t even a factor, I thought what needed to be done; and acted on it with ease/direction. My Shift Manager was like death warmed up! He shouldn’t of been in, he clearly has something that’s far worse than flu, he should of been at home resting. It meant that I had to literally see the orders on the screen, get the drinks/desserts, hand them out, then say to the customer, “You’re food won’t be long, I’m cooking it!” Then literally go and cook it for them, before switching role and handing it out to them. It was that bad!! The manager was that ill, he couldn’t stay on the floor to carry out the job. Member of staff on with me till 3am, for some reason, she wasn’t happy for me to go in the kitchen and cook the food to leave her - erm, you’re only serving 3 people on front counter, I’m trying to do EVERY order on that Drive-Thru screen! Oh; and if I hadn’t of gone into the kitchen, no one would of cooked her food for HER orders! Ungrateful person, one on every shift, another me, me, me, upset cos they have to do a little, tough luck, get on with it! Should of said, let’s reverse roles, doubt she’d of been able to do it. That’s were my years of running hotel kitchens comes in. I know what to do, I know how to prioritise to get everything out in a timely manner. An extra pair of ‘trained’ hands would have been great, but, on my own it will still come out, just need to move faster; and for me, well, I was singing along for pretty much the whole night to a DJ mix I’d produced about 2 hours before coming in, so speed wasn’t an issue, as I was sliding everywhere in some form of mad dance moves, lol!!

For some reason though, I just took everything in my stride; and I didn’t have one customer scream in my face in the Drive-Thru, not one!! Don’t know if that was down to the mix I was wearing, like I said, will need more testing, but it was out of the norm! You usually get one muppet that has to get out of their vehicle, walk down and seek your attention to blast all kinds of obscenities at you, for their having to wait! Not last night though, oddly, not once all night. I gave them their drinks, explained the situation; and off I went to carry on cooking their food. Was quick enough to get out 3 or so orders at a time, as I was working both kitchens on my own, not really that hard, I’m turning out equivalent to 40 or so meals, every 20 minutes. I did 1200 in an hour and a half when I was the catering shift manager in the NHS, not hard to do, just works done to prioritising in an order; and sticking to it, like one long sequence, deviate from the sequence; and you’re gonna have problems!!

Still, come 3am, my colleague left, giving me the chance to fly around and get the area sorted from the rush of meals just before 5am when everything switches to breakfast; and you suddenly feel like you’re working in a coffee cafe, serving nothing but hot drinks, with the occasional meal thrown in for good measure!! Same people, same faces, same orders, every single day!!

Still, the morning team came it at 6am bright a happy, which isn’t normal, lol!! The one that told the ‘Story’, “Her story!” last week (LZ) came in really cheerful and pleasant towards me! Wonder if something has been said?!! Anyhow, here’s me in one mad feeling, not feeling a bit tired, singing away to myself, still, bouncing around this person and the other member of staff (ZE) now working in the same area as me, wondering (And laughing) at why I was so active?!! ‘LZ’ commented on the post I’d written on my social media account about being awake around 26 hours straight and wondering how the heck I was still going, lol?!! Think she could see that I wasn’t actually making it up, body was like a second behind my head thinking and my endless singing of happy dj tunes from that mix I made, certainly had it blasting out when I was on my break, making the ‘close’ team to come in and listen, wanting to know who had made it - MEEEE!!!

I think the crazyness was down to the mix I was wearing, if I’m honest, thinking about it now, lol!! At the time, I didn’t give it a second thought. I’ve been wearing X1 strength for nearly 2 months, it didn’t even cross my mind that the X2 was causing me, my head to go beyond active! Yeah, it’s happened before, when I’ve not used IShine X2 for a long period of time. Written about it in my earlier pages of this journal, when I switched to using the endless ‘samples’ of well-known perfumes/colognes; and not experiencing the effects of any mones for some time. The minute I did start using them again, bam the effects became apparent in minutes; and with IShine, I noticed even back then, I would go with long periods of no sleep!! Guess it’s happened again, albeit, not used any IShine as yet tonight, can still smell it coming off of my wooden desk next to me, my head is becoming more and more awake, so I guess it’s till giving off something!

Can’t complain though, having happy people in work whether that being themselves, or with a little help for something AD has bottled up; and I’m now distributing in the air from my skin as I move about, go about of my every day activities, then it’s got to be a good positive thing! Happy people, usually remain like that all day, puts them and those around them in a good mood too, I know I was certainly happy!!

Ended up talking to one of the young guys whom was working in the kitchen (Pov), that came to get himself a ‘wake-up’ coffee about the Birthday event next weekend! He has been asked to go too, even spoke to the soon to be birthday girl herself about going - he wasn’t too sure about it, think I may have changed his mind on that one, lol!! Ended up talking about my fave manager (Of 3, I work with, all female - favourite enough to share my secrets with, or go to if I have a problem!), whom will most definitely be going, Bubbles aka ‘RW’. I’ve known her for 5 years now, best manager to have a ball with, well, best one to hold a bag of sweets above her head and watch her try and jump up and down to get them, lol!! Yeah, she’s small, but that’s not a bad thing, far from it!! She has one of those personalities that just makes everything and everyone around her bright and happy! Love it when I find out she is on one of my shifts, or even running it!! Before you ask, no, I don’t fancy her, (Used to when I first started working there, never really said anything though), not that I ever think she likes me in that way either. I’ve still got that mad thought of ‘X’ in my head, don’t know why, December 6th was the last time I saw ‘X’; and yet, my head, nor heart just won’t let go! Like I said, that’s not normal for me, must of done something more than usual to me, for me to hold memories and feelings for this long, albeit, I’ve never experienced ANYTHING like that before, like when she was around me! Maybe that’s it, I just don’t know, have no answers and guess no one else does either, not that I can ever share it with anyone in work, or anyone that knows her; and my fave manager ‘RW’ is best friends with ‘X’, so much so, that they go on holiday together pretty much every year, from what I gather! Wish I went too, lol, okay, too far! Still, I think I have a lot of things I should of said, that well, we all know I never, kicking myself for it now, but what is done is done, can’t turn the clock back; and I guess ‘X’ is probably with someone by now, can’t see her being single for long, she has that type of personality that anyone with a decent heart would want to be with; and I hope wherever she is, she is doing well for herself; and living life to the fullest, she certainly deserves a happy life!

Ah, side tracked. Worth it this time though, I guess, needed to get that down, got that weird feeling in my heart again, as I think about everything!

Still, party! Yeah, so my colleague (Pov) and I end up talking about how mad our manager ‘RW’ gets when she party’s hard! Well, I’ve not seen her 100% intoxicated, certainly read about it on our social media news feed! ‘Pov’ apparently has, said she’s the best person to have a night out with. Well yeah, she does have the best personality and brings out the best in everyone, so I would think if there was someone to have a night out with from work, she’d be it! Although, apparently, she occasionally has to be carried home, after being found upside down in a bush somewhere, lol. How true that was is, well, not seen it with my own eyes yet, but kind of reminds me of working in Germany, of all the places I used to end up sleeping after a night of DJ’ing and thinking, “Like hell am I climbing up that mountain, in that snow, at this hour!” …and woken to find myself in a ditch, up/under a tree, in a phone booth or in a chair on someone’s porch, lol! Actually, there was one night that I and my two colleagues dug up a small xmas tree and lay it across the roof of someone’s car, don’t ask us why, but after breakfast, after serving all the hotel guests and getting a couple of hours off before starting the lunch service, I went down into the town, past the house that we’d well, decorated the car; and could look at the owner now standing there outside, with a puzzled look trying to work out where it had come from, lol, yeah, me (and my friend’s), bad!! Ah, the things you do when you’re merry and under the influence of alcohol; and from what my work colleague (Pov) is saying now, ‘RW’ is no different. If she is at next weekends party; and from what I gather she will be, then it’s gonna be one hell of a night! He asked me if I would be going to the clubs in the City Centre afterwards - hell yeah, I’m game!! Don’t ask me a daft question on that one, lol, if everyone else is going, especially ‘RW’ and Co. then yeah, I’ll be going too, fun will become a blast; and who better to do it with than with you’re bestest friends, albeit, I don’t think ‘RW’ knows just how much of a great friend she is to me, never really told her - well hey, you know me, I keep everything to myself, don’t like people getting the wrong impression!

So yeah, that was last night/this morning. Just gone 7:30pm now; and I’m off for something to eat before I get ready for tonight’s antics. Shift manager from last night has phoned in sick, by the looks of it, certainly should of been in last night that was for sure, hope he gets well soon!

Different Shift Manager tonight (SK), one from my least favourite fan club, yeah, ‘The haters club’, so A314 will be getting applied tonight. Have to be fair, he’s not as bad as some of the others, on his own he’s fine, it’s just when he joins ‘the group’ that things become impossible, almost like they can’t do anything unless there’s more than one, more of an audience! Okie, some do work and say things on their own (TD, LK) but I have this, my place of escape, somewhere to share those thoughts/experiences in the knowledge that putting everything here will clear my head, not really forget the thoughts, but make me deal with them in a better way, still with that, tonight will be the 1st real test of the Rev.B. mix and my IO/IShine mix. Think I’ll reserve the P131 for tomorrow, got the same people as tonight in tomorrow, plus a couple of extras, think the mone build-up will be better if I stick with this method of A314 and IO/IShine, then the same tomorrow, but with the addition of P131 ‘Stealth’ and see how it goes.

Right food, speak later.

NH.

[justintime469]

With P131 I have found many different sides to it and even at low doses from 5-15MCG and I put my report in the official P131 thread that is in the men’s section if you want more on it. I would start with 5MCG to see what you think of it. I even reported on it in a mix with IShine and TUTH and is in my journal with the link below if interested and hope you try that one for sure.

Now one of the main things I have found with it is it seems to make people want to touch you and seems to be a physical disinhibitor where women want a hug or touch your shoulder and men ant to high five and shake hands with P131.

[Night_Hawk]

I’ll be back later with an update on P131 stealth just in work on iffy wifi!!

[Night_Hawk]

Right I’m here, back after the weekends night shifts and last night’s shift!

Well, I must admit, I was a tad skeptical when I saw that people ‘High-fived’ you when using the P131, but I’ve used this twice now (Saturday and Sunday) and both times, right after applying it, guys have walked past me, stopped; and called my name. On turning around, they have their hand up in the air to do a ‘high-five’, lol!! Wouldn’t of believed it for one second, but yep, have to!! 5mcg P131 ‘Stealth’ on top of my IO 15mcg and IShine 15mcg mix, to the front of my neck (adam’s apple) and to the back of my neck, total spray amount wearing = 70mcg.

It’s bizarre to see it the 1st time if I’m honest, but to get the exact same thing happen a 2nd day with a different person, yeah, you just don’t expect it! Who knows what vibe that must be giving off for that to happen, lol?? Not complaining like, if it makes everyone around act in a positive manner, then it can only be a good thing! Saying that, not really noticed anything different around the female staff, albeit, I was in shock that it was happening at all, lol!!

I applied the A314 x2 sprays (Adam’s apple/back of neck) approx 1 hour after spraying the P131 and IO/IShine mix, right after my break. Had the ‘boys’ trying to act up because they were in together. It’s amazing really, on their own, they’re completely different, you can hold a conversation with them, but the minute they’re in their little clique. that’s it, they have to start with the stupid comments and their attempts to wind me up. I say attempts, because this past week I have been acting beyond nuts! I’m putting it down to the X2 strength mones, going from 15mcg to 30mcg per spray, my head clearly has gone “WOW!”

‘SK’ was talking about our ex-colleague coming back to work with us (BD), yeah deffo think he thinks he’s going to be going out with her at some point in the near future going by what he was saying. Maybe they will; and good luck to him/BD if they do, none of my business, think she is going to the birthday event on Saturday from what he was saying to me/another member of staff, but then the conversation turned to “Have you heard, ‘X’ is coming back as well?” Well, here’s me going to myself, “Yeah, that’s not true! No chance that will happen, she’s in a very good, well-paid job, she’s not coming back, not here!” Okie, so a part of me would love it to be true, but then, even though I can tell from SK’s voice and body language, that this was a wind-up; and I’m now just awaiting to hear confirmation of the fact that it is indeed a joke; I’m stood there thinking to myself, “Great, she’s coming back, but she still probably hates me!” I’m still curious to what was said twice to my colleague/manager those times, certainly made me try to stay away from her on shift, just to stop the ‘haters’ targeting her for their entertainment; and they did that daily when we were both in together. She must of dreaded working when I was in, don’t blame her if she indeed hates me, not that I’ll ever know?!! The thought I get from when she unfriended me, had the other staff member scream at me, then the two times the manager tried to ask questions after ‘X’ spoke to him, without actually telling me what was said, nor even asking me a question that I could answer, just being endlessly asked, “What did you say, what did you do?” Nothing, apart from that online post; and that is STILL not deleted, still got it hidden! 5 months on; and I still can’t delete anything on my a/c, nightmare is never going to end!!

So, ‘SK’ eventually confirms what I thought, that he was joking; and ‘X’ wasn’t returning! Got the other staff member (LT) he was talking to about ‘BD’ laugh, they both found it very amusing, thinking I would react badly to the wind-up!! For them, I didn’t show it, I’m back to hiding my feelings again (Got this place to write them if need be!), but the mix I’m now wearing, apart from giving me that “Wow!” feeling, I really didn’t care what they were saying! As sad as it makes me feel when I think of ‘X’; and I think of her constantly, wondering if she is OK, doing well for herself, being happy, in a way I’m glad, as she just doesn’t deserve the hassle (or hatred) that a few have for me, to get their kicks, their daily entertainment; and I’m now standing there having to endure it again, albeit, it didn’t last as long as usual! I think in a way the A314 was doing what it does best, I certainly wasn’t rising to it, my head this past week has been totally different since trialing these new mones; and that has been noticed by all, especially the female staff/management!!

Can’t complain really, I feel excellent wearing this new strength mix and the A314/P131 combination. My head is VERY active!! I don’t think I’ve ever been so focused on what I’m doing, what needs doing; and just getting on with it!

OK, so I’ve just noticed something on looking at my sig, as I think about updating it a little - The A314 I tested a few years ago was ‘Alpha A314 Spray (1.29B)’, we’re on “Alpha A314 Spray (1.32B).” That explains a lot, new version, hence, I guess, the difference in the strength of the scent, interesting!! Don’t know when that changed, lol, but I am indeed liking this version, I feel absolutely awesome!!

Trained another Newbie last night,; and for someone only on her 2nd shift, she picked up everything I threw at her very quickly!! OK, so we know my training methods are different to everyone else I work with, constantly asking them questions, getting them to show me everything I show them over and over, asking them if they have any questions, getting them to spot what needs doing so that within an hour or so they automatically do it; and for the quiet ones, I introduce them to other members’ of staff, get them to do basic teamwork, 'cos afterall, these people will ultimately be working with one another supporting one another on every shift, so the sooner they get used to the teamwork the better for them; and all!! Seriously though, this new member of the team was really good, I was really impressed, but what I am noticing, am hearing from everyone I’ve trained this week is those that train them are saying “NH will show you this way, that’s the correct way, but we don’t do that here!” Then they apparently show them the shortcuts, the wrong way. Kind of annoying really, as once the bad habits get a hold, it’s really hard to get them to follow the correct method, can lead to poor service/performance, and really, who wants that?!! Still, won’t stop me from showing them the right way and corrective coaching them until they do it, irrespective of what others (Including the ‘haters’) have to say!!

Oh incidentally, got my Performance Review yesterday, got the highest mark possible for my work/contribution to the team/customer service. Apparently, they had had 3 customers write in to head office in the last couple of months singing my praises, nice to know! Would of been better being told as and when it happened, not a few months down the line on your Performance Review, but ah well, better late than never! To be fair, couldn’t of delivered the service without the backing of the team, so credit should go to them too! Yeah, I know, I’m a nice guy, but really, I won’t change, I’ve always thought of others over me, always will. Being respectful costs nothing, just wish some staff and most customers were just as nice in return, sadly not from experience! Ah well, if they can’t be bothered to get to know me, the side of me that I have since October only really posted on here, not spoken to anyone in detail about it, I guess, well, it’s their loss. I do get asked a lot why I constantly ask staff if they’re OK? Simply it’s something I learnt years ago from working in a hotel as an assistant manager. I watched the General manager, every hour, go around every department checking the well being of staff, seeing if they had any problems, needed anything, his staff always came first; and in a way, from watching him, I have done the same in every job that I have had. Kind of shows you care, takes interest, are willing to get stuck in and help where needed, whenever needed; and that’s me, my friends, my work colleagues, their needs will always come 1st over anything and everything that I do.

So back to day shifts, arf; and yep, even though I’m in in just over 6 hours, I’m yet to go to sleep! Night shifts, they kill your sleep pattern!! Lol, who am I kidding, what sleep pattern?!! Only plus side is, that I’m actually looking forward to Saturday night! Got to get a card/gift yet, no idea what that may be, but will get something, always do, something that can be used, not eaten, lol. According to ‘SK’. ‘X’ will be there. Maybe so, I’ll cross that bridge when/if it comes, probably be a repeat of the apartment all over again, but without me being able to hide via playing on my decks. Ah well, have a few drinks, throw on the ‘Party mix’ and see what the heck it does, then go from there. Have no idea who from work (males) are going, if any, so ghosting myself on 450mcg of mones might be an option. Actually no, I won’t do that, will take my iPod, sit in a corner and mix a nice DJ set, hahaha. Easiest way to upset a DJ - they spot someone on the dance floor holding their phone/mp3 player, headphones in, dancing to their own tunes!! That’ll probably be me, hehe.

Right, 2 minutes to 6am, got to go play a war game (Cybernations.net), being playing this thing every day since Xmas Day 2006, yes, I have no life, lol, actually I have a very active life, I just like to cram as much into every single hour of each day; and this game has been part of that, so, bye for now, A314, IO and IShine trials will continue from Midday. Might throw on P131 after my break, see how that goes! Will report later.

NH.

[justintime469]

thank you for taking the time you do to post these things. I notice from reading your journal that you like more social mixes like IO and IShine. I am thinking the P131 is actually a really good match or you with what you like and it is very effective pheromone wise and cost wise to. Once I tested this and it was a freebie right away I order a big 30ML bottle in 5MCG as this is very useful especially in a mix.

Just a suggestion I would look at maybe adding more a driving setup to your mixes like the A314 you mention or IG or if outside of work Ammo and then go use your social heavy setup that you do like. I think if you do this you will have a lot more success by far and will get you the respect and attraction from women without a doubt.

It is just my suggestion, but if all means if you are happy with your setup keep it. I actually wear to heavy a setup with my A314 and I have to go much heavier on the socials to keep things in check for me.

The P131 would work really well with your A314 and your social mix and I think it would help to pull it all together for you. I am glad you do like the P131.

[Night_Hawk]

Another day, another dollar (Or pound, lol)!

Was a fairly good shift, had my mix and A314 on. ‘AB’ running the shift; and I can see he’s getting hit with the A314. Kept going to take the pish, gets up close and you can see him throwing on the breaks about a metre away as if to say, “Whoa, let’s not fight!” Hehe, forgot A314 has that affect on some people! Could also be because he didn’t have his fan club to join in with his childishness, well not until around 3pm, so up until that point it was a pretty good shift, quiet for most of it, bosses in talking about the new store with one another and the occasional busy period; and me just playing tunes in my head to keep me happy. Still got to finish off my track. Keep putting the release date back as every time I go to finish it, in enters ‘X’s’ track and it’s like a killer for any thoughts. Seriously, how do I get her out of my head? Honestly, I don’t think I ever will! I’m being serious with that as well! I see the venue, apartment and that one image soft lad showed me last month permanently fixed in the same spots in front of me, projected in front of me all the time. Doesn’t matter where I look, they’re just there!! This has never happened before; and I’ve kind of given up trying to think of ways I would normally move images out of what is effectively my main memory area for daily/weekly tasks! Hard drive must be getting full, lol! Well, have to admit, I do, do too much! Don’t think I’d get anyone in work to understand what I do outside of work with research, coding and music, would probably take the best part of a week to get them to understand/explain everything! Even then, it would have to be a case of literally logging into every single website/research location to show them that I wasn’t making it up, as half the time I get that impression from my work colleagues, then some ex-worker will come in to the store and they suddenly realise, “Hey, this guy is actually telling the truth, damn!”

Well, thank gawd for X2 IShine!

Got hit with a serious lack of sleep around 2:30pm! Actually, can’t say I was tired, as my head was active, but my body, jeez, my body was on a couple of seconds delay, so, I feel like I’ve moved across the room but I’m still stood at the damn till, lol. Horrid feeling, memory was going nuts, kept playing the weekends party, not that it’s even happened yet, nor that I think that I’ve been to the venue before. I’ve been to one around there, the location, but don’t think it’s the same one - tell that to my head, lol!! Feckers on full recall from the last party I had in that location (not venue); and that was one eventful night!

Imagine getting invited to a party when the only person you know is the person (Your friend from work) that has invited you to come along as their +1; and you don’t know a soul there, yet they’re all asking you how you know the Birthday girl - Erm, I don’t! Yeah, that was a fun night, lol! Still, you know me, have a few drinks and just mingle/party; and that’s pretty much what I did until my friend got bored and dragged me off to some local bar that was well, how can I put it, full of wannabe teenage gangsters that would pee themselves if someone showed them a real gun, all with their faces covered with these stupid looking bandannas, whom got upset when my friend wanted to play on their pool table!! Surprised they weren’t at home playing COD!! Safe to say that was the last time I went out with my work colleague!

So yeah, off to get a double shot of my mix and I must of been tireder than I thought, because I was in a slow wake-up for the next 30 mins, still getting that second delay in everything I was doing! So, saw it as a no choice option and went and got another 2 sprays of my mix. Yip, that did it! Head went “Wow!” in a few seconds, felt like I had springs in my shoes as I walked to the Crew Room door; and by the time I’d gotten back to the front of the store, my body had played catch-up with my head, finally!!

About an hour to go on my shift and my favourite manager came in! Don’t know what came over me, not the ‘X’ feeling, but I just seemed to become more happier that she was in, finally a friend, yay! Still, stupid idiot here kind of said out loud to the 2nd assistant (Now her shift), “That’s my favourite manager in here!” Well, she is and I’ve said why above; and over and over throughout in this journal over many months, but it didn’t go down well with the 2nd, with her saying, “Oh, thanks NH! It’s like that is it?!!” Well, no not really, like most of the managers (Not all, but hey, some like to get their kicks), but like I’ve said there’s 3 managers that I like and trust out of all of them and ‘RW’ just so happens to be my favourite out of those 3, what more can I say?!!

That last hour came and went too darn fast! You see, this is what happens when you work with friends, people you like and get on with, albeit, when the 2nd assistant told ‘RW’ what I said, I got the feeling she may have taken it the wrong way! Another person I think at some point I may end up showing this to, only way she’ll ever understand. I think other than ‘X’ and ‘RW’, the other 2 managers that I trust, if it came down to it, to make them understand me, to make them understand everything as to why I am the way that I am; and all the things that I’ve done past and present, they’d be the only ones I’d ever share this with. Guess one day that might happen, I mean, how do you approach someone and say, “Hey come read this, my life and erm, everything I’ve experienced in our current place of work both good and negative!” Yeah, you see my point, not something that is easy to do, ever; and because of that, I keep those thoughts to myself, albeit, they’re constantly in my mind, constantly saying, “Tell them, show them, get them to understand!” Never going to happen really is it?!!

Sidetracked!!

Right, don’t know how today is going to go! Since using the A314, with the past 3 weeks of endless “‘X’ is going to the party!” Comments from the muppets - if she’s there fine, if not, fine too! ‘Haters’ clearly are bored and need their entertainment. Still getting asked hourly from them as to where my manager’s shirt is? That got ordered last night, got a lovely mark on my neck from using a metal tape measure to get my collar size, lol, never ever put a metal tape around your neck, looks like I’ve attempted to hang myself, lol!! But, with the introduction of the A314, that seems to throw on the breaks when they get close. From a distance, on their own or with the other idiots they a unit of idiots, but up close, when I have that (A314) plus my mix on, everything changes, their mindset changes, it’s like to them, I’m a different person, seem to get just a little bit more respect, than when they are away from me; and far more than when I’m not wearing the A314; and just my IO/IShine mix! Deffo getting more of that at some point in the next month. Not tried the oil version/s, as yet. Spray version (1.32B) seems to be holding everything together. Wonder what would happen if I introduced 1.32A into the mix, lol? Might get both A and B versions and use them on alternating days, don’t want to come over as some Drill Instructor for the Marines, even though some need a swift kick in the gonads!

Anyhow, in at 9am today, alarm clock is due to go off in 7 minutes; and erm, I’ve been awake nearly 7 hours, hehe!! Here we go again!! Going to go to work with my mix on, then apply either A314 or P131 depending on who is on shift with me. Used to be able to look at the schedule and know before hand, but the staff swap their shifts that much now, it’s better to wait and apply on arrival than effectively guess and think, “Cr*p I have the mellow stuff on today, could do with the power-booster!” Yeah, I’ll let you guys reading this which mones I’m referring to on those haha!

Right, back later - breakfast time!!

NH.

[Night_Hawk]

Another day, another dollar, another shift from hell!!

Just when you think it can’t get any worse, I get to do a breakfast shift in the kitchen with my least favourite manager, and two of the haters (CalD, TD), and to throw it in further, I have a new member of the team! Didn’t know whether I was coming or going, manager appearing to make up her own procedures as she went along!! Nightmare, flippin’ nightmare!! Here’s me with the photographic memory that’s memorised every training flyer and online course; and now I’m being told I’m wrong in front of the 2 haters that found the whole ordeal highly amusing, so much so, that out of sight of the manager they had to do their usual pick, pick, pick!! New member of the team, his 3rd shift, 1st breakfast shift, poor lad, don’t think he quite knew what had hit him either!!

Still, this is a manager you have to bite your lip with, but listening to her, the way she spoke to the new staff member, shocking to say the least! She didn’t tell him what he’d done wrong straight away, no, she’d make some stupid noise, like you’d do at a small child, for doing something wrong!

On our break, he asked how to access his schedule, turned out he had only 30 mins for his break, I had 45, so he was going back to grumpy long before me, but before he went, I had him log into his training section and look at the training flyer for where he would be working for the remainder of the shift. Proceeded to show him the morning training flyers too; and asked, “After reading that, who was right at the procedures?” Response, “You are NH! Everything here is what you said to that manager!” Yep, I know, I have that all in my head, have done for over a year, yet I’m being told I’m wrong! This is the problem we have in that store, the managers all have their own ways of doing things, instead of everyone doing it the right way, every day. They’re going to have major problems when they get the new system installed in 3 months!!

Threw on a double shot of the A314, only had my mix on to start the shift off!! Well, that seemed to have the desired, “Back off!” effect I so dearly needed during breakfast, seemed to give her a puzzled look when she came near - great, it’s working then! She ended up working at the other end of the kitchen with the new starter; and eventually swapped to the 2nd kitchen, lol!! I’m laughing because for someone hot on procedures, she’s now letting all the timers in the universal holding cabinet bleep away like there was no tomorrow. Hot on my tail for following the level charts for how much to cook, she’s now breaking her own rules on working this 2nd kitchen!! Tell you what, it beggars belief at the way some people in there operate, seriously need to get a life and end their power-trip attitude!!

Still, manager from hell went home eventually, as did my least favourite fan club!!

Enter favourite manager #2 ‘CD’ working on the opposite side of me. Like her too, another friendly person, I happily would call a friend!! Not as lively as ‘RW’, actually, I don’t think anyone else in there is as lively, well, apart from me, when I’ve been testing a few self-effect mones products, lol!! Anyhow, ‘AJ’ took over the shift, ended up being asked to stay on another 2 hours - why not! Well, to be honest, she did that thing with her eyes that well, most of the female managers seem to do to get me to stay on, lol!! Can never say no, but they were incredibly short staffed; and would of volunteered anyhow. Still, she thanked me for staying, which is more than most do in there, they just expect you to stay on regardless!!

One shift left, yes!! Been up all night doing endless online courses for this new system we’re getting in June, got 3 courses left, but needed to stop, done about 12 courses since 11:30pm, lol, 5:30am now, back in work at 8am - kill me now!! Grumpy isn’t in, but no doubt the hater fan club will be, can’t wait for all those negative comments to be flung my way at some point today!!

Ah well, I need sleep, getting tired for once - Yes, I just used the ‘T’ for tired word, lol!! Alarm clock set for 7am, can’t wait to drag myself out of bed for that shift till 5pm!! Then roll on the party Saturday - cannot wait for that!!

Right 1 hours sleep, let’s have it, lol, Night everyone!!

NH.

[Night_Hawk]

Remind me never to have 1 hours sleep, lol, pure killer of a shift yesterday, could I wake up, could I hell!!

Had to spray my mix every hour, literally! Got about 5-10 mins of a mad rush of energy to my head then the power drain from lack of sleep would slowly creep back!! Had 9x sprays of 15mcg IShine/IO to the front of my neck and 9x sprays of 15mcg IShine/IO to the back of my neck. Math time - 540mcgs over 9 hours, yeah that much!!

You know what though? The walk home, the cold air, don’t know what happened, but sods law, I wake up!! 3 hours at home and Bam Goodnight World!!

Today, day off! Been out and about as you do buying new shoes, out in just over 30 mins to the 21st Birthday for a good friend and ex-work colleague; and yep ‘Party Mix’ is going with me!

Don’t ask me how that is gonna go (Using the mix), will have to report back sometime tomorrow on erm, tonight, lol. Got a feeling I may become a tad lively, but hey, I’ll be mostly among friends and a few strangers (..and possibly a few that I don’t get on with from work, but hey, not there for them, there for my friend ‘EH’).

Speak later, unless I find Wi-Fi, then I’ll probably be back in here, haha!

NH.

[Night_Hawk]

Okay, that was one great night!!

Building bridges with ‘BD’ over that day she shouted “Why are you back?!!” on returning to my base store after being away nearly 2 months. Turns out, she actually likes me, ended up having the 1st decent conversation since before she left, cleared the atmosphere, talked old times before that ‘Shouting’ day. Think it was needed, long overdue and well, I look forward to working with her from Monday (Tomorrow). Funny thing though, in our conversation, she agrees that ‘Grumpy’ doesn’t like her. To be fair, I don’t think she (Grumpy) likes anyone, makes up and follows her own rules every shift she is on; and from last week, as I discovered, she can’t even follow basic procedures herself!!

Still, that aside; and now happy to have cleared that up, the night itself was pretty good! Got there for just before 8pm (Started at 7:30pm), expecting there to be a fair few people, but nope!! Walked in to practically an empty room, with just the Birthday Girl (EH), ‘LZ’ and ‘BD’ sat at a table right in the middle of the room! Then got to meet ‘EH’s’ mom ‘KH’ really nice lady, poor person had lost her voice, so it was hard for her to speak. Kind of met her dad, lol. I’ve seen him before when he used to bring ‘EH’ to/from work, deffo the type of dad that if you ever dated his daughter you’d not want to upset her in any way as your life would be over before the 1st date ended, lol! Yeah guys (and ladies) you know that ‘Dad’ type, protective, but then he would have good reason to be ‘EH’ is a really nice person. Actually, thinking on, I told her mom how ‘EH’ used to stalk me on shift, lol, probably shouldn’t of, but her mom said, “Yeah, she does that, feel sorry for you, she can be a real pain!” Then I kind of said, “No, she’s nice, you got used to her chasing you, still miss her from work!” Her mom laughed and responded with, “Yeah, why doesn’t that surprise me, she likes to torment people, usually her sister!” Well, yeah I do miss her, minus the spontaneous kissing of ones neck, albeit, I think that might of been my fault from spraying 5x TUTH wrongly mistaking it for my IShine, lessons learnt on that one, lol!! Chr*t, that was a shift from hell; and one I’ll never forget!!

Was surprised to discover the DJ had left and said he’d be back at 9pm, say what?!! I know as a DJ at a party you ask what type of music the person/s may want, but really, this guy was running 2 laptops and all I can say was that he had his iTunes playlist running all night, no mixing involved at all, shocking really! Could of just stuck a CD player in the corner! Still, everyone started to make an appearance from 8:30pm onwards, along with several from work.

‘RW’ was there, wow, she was gorgeous, actually all the girls from work were, deffo my favourite manager, just has such a great personality, but from the opposite side of the table I heard her talking about why she was single. Damn, she was making out she scares them off, really, because from looking at the last guy she went out with, he seemed to be a bit of a d*ck; and I’ll happily say that out aloud, considering 2 years back at a works night out, the 1st time I met him, he tried for 20 mins solid to get me to buy some form of white powder from him in a little bag; and couldn’t quite grasp the fact that I kept saying “No, I’m not interested thank you!” over and over to him!! She’s better off without that type, she deserves someone that has a nice personality, just like herself. Yeah, she can dance, saw that at the venue; and again later on at a club in the City Centre (I’ll get to that!), but nonetheless, she has a great personality, wouldn’t change her for the World and am happy to have her as a friend!

So, sitting with work colleagues and a few ex-work colleagues, I get talking to the partner of one of my ex-managers, whom I nick-named ‘Tiger’ when she worked with us, lol. Yeah another great manager, that I miss working with! Yet, her partner also writes music, yay, something in common! Don’t ask me what happened, but he ended up asking to hear one of my tracks, out comes my iPod and of all the tracks I could of selected, I ended up having him listen to ‘X’s’ track, “I Want To Dance (EDM Mix).” Think he listened to nearly all of it, commented on how great it was, said, “No really, that’s very well produced, what DAW do you use? Logic pro?” Sadly not. Been there, tried that, hated the fact that they made it only for Macs, my version years ago worked on the PC! Matter of a fact, I’ve tried all the DAW’s over the years, Cubase, P5V2, Reason, Sonar, to name but a few, but I love Image Line’s FL Studio, now at version 12.4, lol, considering I started out with Version 3!! So, yeah, that put me in a proper happy mood. Could see the others sat trying to see what he was doing/listening to, can only imagine what they may of thought if they could see the album cover, but ah well, never mind, was great to have nice feedback, of something that means so much to me in so many ways!!

Argh, Head desk time!! I’m on ‘Active memory’ again! I was on my 4th bottle of cider; and not feeling drunk one bit! Okie, let me explain that one!! So, on leaving home, I was wearing 2 sprays 15mcg (30mcg total) front and back of my neck of my IShine/IO mix that I use in work, plus 6 sprays of 5mcg (30mcg total) of P131 ‘Stealth’ - 1 spray adam’s apple, 1 spray back of neck, 1 spray each wrist and 1 spray in the crook (Brachioradial pruritus) of both arms. Then grabbed the ‘Black’ lynx, sprayed under my arms (Damn, that was cold), and used it as a cover scent over the P131 ‘Stealth’ on my arms. Smelling good! Taxi booked and on its way - 7:40pm! Got a good mix on, or what smelt and felt like a good mix, but at the spare of the moment, just as I see on the taxi app that my ride is only 2 streets away, do I get the daft idea to add a few drops of hedione into the mix!! Oh yeah, why the hell not eh, it’s gonna be a fun night at the party, why not throw in a little something to make things even more lively! 8 drops to a cotton wool ball of my hedione oil and applied that to my jawline, behind my ears and to the back of my neck!! Lynx sprayed the back of my neck/back hair line and headed for the door!

So, now you’re up to speed on what mones/spray deodorant I was wearing for the night, with my ‘Party mix’ of IShine, IO, TUTH and P96 - 450mcg divided by the 40 (Approx) sprays you get in a TOGO bottle = 11.25mcg of mixed mones per spray! Yeah, this could be an interesting night, for sure, or I’m gonna be sitting in a corner chillin, like Conj said in an earlier post, haha!!

Well, a quick recap. On entering and seeing those girls, out came their mobiles, a quick video time of me entering - great!! That short clip by ‘LZ’ is sat on the ‘closed’ works social media page for all to see. Not bad, but really, lol?!!

Anyhow, what I have on, that just seemed to be a social inclusion mix, seemed to be a “Your one of us,” type mixes - have to remember that one! But yeah, Head desk moment! The boys being the boys that they are said, “You know ‘X’ is coming right?!” Responded with, “Actually, I don’t think she is, but then we know she won’t want to speak with me anyhow!” To be fair, I had no idea if she was coming or not. In a way, I hoped she would, in a way I kind of thought they’d harass the hell out of her/me if she did, so probably not a good thing, but still think at some point she’s going the eventually see this, either with her own eyes, or that of her friend’s. Can’t keep what I write here a secret forever, albeit, everything I write in here is my way of getting out of my head what goes around and around on loop daily, but I seem to be able to deal with it better, than just keeping it to myself. Still, I have a lot of unanswered questions when it comes to ‘X’; and I’m sure she probably has the same, although she’s probably moved on by now, for me, I can’t, I’m stuck staring at a huge wall of images - nightmare!

So yeah, I get, “NH, have you seen this?” Seen what? Oh feck!! Yep you guessed it, another mobile held to my face with an image of ‘X’!! Tried to look away so my head didn’t register it, but damn, this memory recall is getting too darn quick! It was etched to the left side about 6 images away from the picture ‘ST’ showed me, now displaying a Snapchat image of a selfie filter image of ‘X’. Can see it now as I type this!! Gawd, she’s gorgeous - yeah, Head desk How do I forget, how the hell do I do it? Seriously going out of my mind! How the heck does one with a photographic memory forget something or someone displayed permanently in front of them? More to the point, why can’t I move said images/video from my main daily/weekly visual area. Usually I can just move stuff to beyond where I look, it’s how I normally forget stuff, can still recall it at a later date, may take a few seconds/minutes to reappear, but then I can hide it again. This I can’t, it won’t budge, has been locked in the same spot since leaving the apartment on the 6th December, then there’s the 1st mobile image from ‘ST’ placed in my middle right view, that’s almost on my direct eye line view if I look straight forward at anyone/anything, I get that image right back at me. Now I have the snapchat filter image on my left middle view, thankfully slightly more to the left of my eye-line view, but still, really? Don’t know whether to smile or cry when I look forward. Actually, no, done all my crying, guess I’ll just have to smile!

Anyhow, let’s move on from this, got the venue in my head, now on my 5th bottle of cider and am thinking to myself - Party mix!! Quick nip to the toilet and I do 1 spray (11.25mcg) to my adam’s apple and 1 spray to the back of my neck (11.25mcg) total amount 22.50mcg plus what I already have on =82.50mcg plus 8 drops of hedione. One thing is for certain, the ‘Party mix’ is strong! Neroli scent is no longer in there, but still, on it went, lol!! Go to wash my hands, as one does after handling the gentleman’s sausage, lol, to find 3 guys congregated around the one and only hand sink all trying to make themselves happy from whatever substance it was they were trying to sniff, lol, never seen anyone split away in 3 directions, like these 3 did when they saw me approach!! Had to laugh though, how couldn’t I, it was obvious what they were doing! Hands dried and on leaving I said, “Right lads, back the corner you go for some more sniffing action!”

Leaving the toilet, I’m now thinking, I’ve had 5 bottles of cider here and I’m not even feeling like I’ve had 1 bottle, what the hell is going on?!! Yep, my head was reacting to the mix and I was wide awake, seriously focused, but still in a mood to P-A-R-T-Y!! Off to the bar, bottle #6 ordered!!

Back to the guys, hoping I don’t get any more photos on mobiles shown at me, only to get one hell of a shock! Birthday girl comes up from behind and tries to grab a handful of my manhood! Yeah, wasn’t expecting that, nor were the guys standing next to me, lol, made me jump higher than when my ribs get poked in work; and she came in for the kill a second time, safe to say I blocked both attempts, lol, don’t think anyone knows I used to do martial arts as a kid, so performing blocks is fairly easy, straight forward for me, lol, still with a bit of warning, I might have willingly participated, haha. Whom am I kidding, in front of her mom and dad, I’d of headed for the hills! Her sister was just as bad, passed me, whispered in my ear as she passed, “Hi, NH!” Smiled and walked on. What? scratches head, are they both hitting on me, or is this a sister thing, lol? Or is it the mix I’m wearing and I’m getting the 3 metre hit?? Who knows, but the night was getting stranger and stranger with regards to women taking notice in me and I was beginning to think it was the ‘Party mix’ having some ‘voodoo’ effect on them, as, as soon as they got within about 3 metres, you could just see that look, the look of “Who’s he?!!” The very same look I got 6 years back on the very first night I tried out the AD mones; and now I’m seeing the exact same looks/results as back then!!

Didn’t dance at the venue, really, couldn’t!! Music was seriously not my thing. One song I’d like, next one to come on from the playlist and the music would be a ‘slow as death’ track, so you go from an up-beat “Let’s have it!” mood, to a “Dear gawd, DJ, is this your toilet break song?!!” Yeah, you get the idea; and around 1am-ish, the call to head to the City centre came in - hell yeah, let’s go!!

Shared a taxi with two of my least favourite fan club, sat in the front, got to listen to their conversation about ‘RW’ in the back!! ‘SK’ dated her, didn’t turn out too well and they split; and for a time I thought ‘RW’ would leave work because of him and their split, so glad she didn’t, place is much happier when she is around!! But this idiot and his brother ‘LK’ that I’m sat here with the driver listening to, are commenting on how much she has changed, how much ‘fake’ she has become in appearance! No boys, she really hasn’t!! She’s the same person she always has been. Sure, she’s had surgery not that I can tell, not that I ever looked to be honest, don’t go round staring at peoples breasts, clearly they do from what I’m hearing from the back seats, but to comment on her teeth as well, wtf? So she’s had veneers put in, wow, big deal, I’ve had mine done, and really, they need replacing as they’ve become worn out from heavy handiness of my tooth brush, lol, but still how can they comment on someone for them wanting to make themselves feel good about themselves. Everyone wants that right, to feel good, look good and (eventually/hopefully) have someone special to share their love with. Can’t see that happening to me any time soon, lol, but hey, why should others judge people? Really, some people will just never learn, nor give up having opinions on other people. Really, they should take a long hard look at themselves, nothing special there!!

Still, half the group went to one venue at one side of the city, we ended up at another venue right across the other side, great!! So, after much debate about not joining the others at their venue because apparently it cost 10GBP to just get through the door, lol, let alone buy a drink, even though I was all for going, lol, well you know me! Still, we ended up in some basement venue that had some better music than the venue we had just come from, finally something I can dance to!! Think 20 mins past and the ones that had gone to the other club, turned up at out venue - LZ, BD, EH, RW; and a few people that the Birthday Girl EH knew that had attended her party came too! Sooo, let the dancing commence!! Toilet time; and erm, with Conj’s mention of ‘Casper-ing’ I declined the toilet attendants shot of gawd awful cologne for paying 1GBP for his services to allow you the right to use water and wash your hands, lol, does anyone see the logic in that?!! Still, by paying that Pound you get to also get a nice selection of lollipops, and I find the girls just love them, haha, so I always end up paying 2GBP and filling my pockets with them as the night goes on, haha!! Anyhow, stuck on 2 sprays of my ‘Party mix’ and went on back. Attendant looked puzzled right up to the point after spraying whe I held up the bottle and went “Pheromone spray!” With a big grin on my face, made him smile and chuckle away to himself too!" On the shelf behind him I could see a huge selection of the Hedione based cologne sprays I listed back in early December. Tempted to give them a go, but hey, no, I’m on my mix and sticking with what I know works, also I already have 8 drops of hedione on, could of been a no-no to add more without field testing the product in the cologne!

So yeah, drink from the bar, back to our group, I’m feeling like I’ve still not had one drink lol, head is seriously focused; and ‘Pov’ is shouting at me over the music that ‘X’ is out somewhere in the City clubbing. Yeah okay dude, I’m not going stalking from club to club to try and find her, let’s get that one cleared up right now, seriously, she’d probably freak anyhow, or worse case scenario leave, lol! Anyhow, I carried on dancing like I do when I’m at home on the decks - no, I’m not giving you a demonstration, don’t ask, just think Hardstyle meets UMF/EDC/Tomorrowland, yeah throw your hands up, move your feet and pretend your at an EDM Rave, haha, love it!!

So, EH decides to grind on me again, feck it, feel away girl I’m not shy anymore, your mom and dad aren’t watching, lol, just be careful where you touch this time, don’t want to shock you, lol! Still that eventually ends and I begin to dance next to ‘RW’ and ‘LZ’ and all seems fairly good. You know, ‘LZ’ is a totally different person when she is out away from work, or on her own in work, not with the ‘boys’ of the ‘fan club of hatred’, still you’d understand why I’m cautious around her, wonder if she’s still getting told in THAT private media group on how to act around me and what to say, sometimes, with all their phones out on shift, I think “Yeah, they’re communicating amongst one another,” because you can see they’re all typing away in a group chat, go near them, they hide the screen, then one would say something; and the others would all be watching, then back to the phones they’d all go. So yeah, that would appear to be very much how they communicate their endless wind-ups on shift. Wonder what they’d do if there was no phone signal?!! Have to dig out my jammer and flick it on for a few minutes just to see their reaction, can imagine it now, having to actually talk with one another to communicate!

Still, I carried on dancing on my own and amongst ‘RW’ and ‘EH’ to notice that there was this pretty girl sat next to ‘BD’ in the booth where we were all sat/dancing by. Didn’t really take much notice until she started looking at me and attempting to join in with my dancing, whilst she was still sat down - O-K!! ‘BD’ whispered something into her ear, gawd knows what, but it seemed to make her interact with me even more across the Booth, lol, we were proper copying one another’s dance moves! This went on for about an hour, didn’t know her name, nothing. Before you ask why I didn’t go over to her, well, there was this creep of a guy next to her, not our group by the looks of it, but he slowly tried to make his advances towards her. Watched her say 5 times to the guy that she wasn’t interested, he twice kissed her on the neck expecting something in return. Personally, if I was her, I’d of smacked him one, lol, but that’s me; and the booth that we where at, was now surrounded by desperate single guys wanting someone to go home with, there was like 9 guys all fighting for the girls in the booth, now down to 3 - the Birthday girl, (Who immediately hit off with one), BD, who upped and left; and this other nice girl, a tall girl I might add, being targeted by oddball. Safe to say she left with him, not before coming up to me and whispering in my ear, “Bye NH!” What? Whoa, who told you my name, cos I didn’t? Birthday girl was like, “NH, what am I doing?” Simply responded with, “You are your own person, you don’t have to go anywhere or do anything with this guy, you can tell him NO any time, even leaving the club!” She didn’t listen by the looks of it and left with him. Me, now on my own heading outside, gawd it was busy with people out there; and am I drunk, am I even slightly intoxicated? Nope, I’m wide awake wanting to go elsewhere, but on ones own lol, @3:20am in the morning, with most clubs open till 4am, not happening, pah! I know there’s a few 7am bars, but they were on the other side of the City from where I was, 10 minute walk for me, but then, chances of getting in to a club on your own, slim, so for me, my night was over!! Still, got home for 3:40am, fired up the decks, cracked open yet another cider and played a nice hours set, before thinking, “Better get some sleep!” lol.

So, that was last nights fun, wish it didn’t end, kind of wishing I’d spoken to that girl, but then saying that, even though she was pretty, even though we seemed to be communicating in some form of visual dance moves across the room to one another, I didn’t have that ‘X’ feeling, so it was something holding me back from going over, if I’m honest. One of these days, I’m going to have to bite my lip and just go with the flow I think, feeling or no feelings, which I think might be the case - no feelings - but then is that wrong of me to do that, because ultimately, I’d be no better than the creeps that were targeting the girls in the remainder few minutes before the club emptied! I’m not that person, never will be, can’t lead someone on when I have no feeling for them, it’s wrong imo.

…Anyhow, in another news, just bought myself a weekend ticket to Creamfields UK in August, can’t wait for that music festival to come, gonna be raving both days, dead on my back come the Monday, haha!

Speak later.

NH.

[Night_Hawk]

Okie, so update on the girl trying to do sync-dancing with me across a booth with the dude next to her attempting to get a response from kissing her neck! Well, after speaking with ‘BD’ today in work (Which incidentally was a pretty good shift with her, the 1st in a long time! Glad we had a chance to talk; and clear the air!), turns out that the guy is the nice lady’s boyfriend! Typical. So, found out her name was ‘Sophie’ and what made me laugh when I heard the dude was her boyfriend was the way she kept telling him to “Stop” and “Back off” and then she would look back at me and continue with the sync-dance moves, lol! Really, you want to go out with this guy? Not from what I was looking at!! Even when she moved away from him, further down the seating, did she continue to do the sync-dance moves with me, with a now huge gap between her and her boyfriend!

Sod’s law really isn’t it, they either don’t have a boyfriend/partner and aren’t interested, (Or in the case of ‘X’, hates me for whatever?!?!), or, they do have someone, but act in a way to like me, obviously I can never go out with them! ‘BD’ told me that ‘Sophie’ thought I was “Cool” and “Liked me,” sorry young lady, you have a boyfriend, that’s a no-go rule for me!!

So, shift today, hmm! 1st up, walked in to see ‘AC’ waiting to go home, catch her train after being on the night shift. She looked pleased to see me with her happy bright shout of “HI, NH!” Okay, so I went and gave her a hug, said, “Missed you!” and she responded with the same, hehe! Been a week since we were last on together, and well, we all know what fun those shifts are, minus the rib prodding though, lol!!

Anyhow, ‘LK’ roped in one of the daft male teenagers that we have, just promoted in the last week to Crew Trainer, don’t know how, because he still needs a lot of training; and on corrective coaching any errors he makes, he rejects them, telling you he knows everything! Really doesn’t; and if he doesn’t get it right now, he and his trainees’ are going to have a nightmare of a time in a few weeks, when our store gets updated with the new system! But yeah, ‘LK’ had ‘LT’ place a rather large bar code sticky label on my back whilst I cleaned the milkshake machine, and then he and ‘LK’ proceeded to have their fun at asking the daft questions of “Are you ready to be scanned today?” and “When are you getting your scan?” I knew it was there, just like a fortnight ago when ‘LK’ tried his hardest to wind me and the same shift manager ‘AJ’ up whilst we stripped the same machine, he was now trying it again! Wasn’t taking the bait. As far as I was concerned, it could of stayed there up until I went home. Actually, it was on there for an hour, up until one of the other female staff members in the kitchen decided to end their fun and remove it, lol!! Thanks ‘M’, knew it was there, wanted to see how long they (LK and LT) were prepared to take it - all shift, by the looks of it!

‘LK’ didn’t like the fact that it had been removed, that “SOMEONE” hand told me; and proceeded to ask over and over who had told me, lol! Sorry dude, not taking the bait, I’m in a proper happy mood, you can’t bring me down, even if you tried!!

Should point out, I had my ‘Party Mix’ on (IO/IShine/P96/TUTH - 22.50mcg total), 2x sprays front and back of my neck, lynx ‘Black’ sprayed over the top as a cover scent. Gave me a buzz, made for the girls around me to be somewhat playful/at ease. Actually, ‘LZ’ was flirting more than she’s ever done; and the self-effect was having a similar effect on me, lol. Actually, it was giving me one hell of a confidence boost, but I was kind of taking ‘LZ’ up on her flirting offers, lol, I do believe I said in reply to one of her comments, “You and me babe, back of the store, let’s go!” Okay, on any normal mone wearing day, I don’t say things like that. Actually, any normal non-mone wearing day, I’d be hiding to even think such a thing; and here I am now, full on returning her flirting talk with me, lol, deffo not me, that ‘Party Mix’ has changed me, lol. She even snapped a picture of me and her together without my knowledge, until I spotted the still image on her phone - straight to the work’s social media closed group did she send it, doh!! To be fair, I thought it was my IO/IShine TOGO bottle, as I took it out of my bag on Saturday and put it on my shelf with my other mones. Sods law I packed the wrong one, and only noticed on going to leave, spotting the tiny green label I’d stuck to the bottom of the bottle to identify which TOGO spray contains what! Typical of me to pick up the wrong one and take it/use it in work! Ah well, not complaining, it was fun; and in a way I was calm and level headed with the idiots in the background carrying on with their stupid ‘label’ actions.

So, ‘LK’, ha!! Dope thought he’d try and stir up with what ‘LZ’ and I were doing; and trying to make something out of nothing about what would have happened if I’d gone to the other venue ‘LZ’ had gone to on Saturday. Personally, I thought they’d all gone home, but apparently they had moved to a club next door! Not to worry, next time! But, ‘LK’ in his moment of trying to wind me up didn’t like the fact that I was now gunning for him in a nice calm manner, bringing up the fact that he regularly goes out to the City clubs to track down and stalk ‘AC’! He even tried to make out he was 24, haha, he’s 30, she’s 18, bit of an age gap there, yet I said, “If you’re 24, then I’m 26!” Got the response, “But you’re not!” to which I replied; “…and you’re not 24 and ‘AC’ doesn’t like you, yet it doesn’t stop you swapping your shifts so you can go and stalk her in clubs!” lol, his face!! My guns are out, no prisoners are being taken, you gonna come at me now, right now, I’m coming right back at you, just like that time ‘TD’ got a piece of my mind!! So, he tried to plead his innocence, but he clearly forgets, he’s not only sent threat messages to ‘AC’ for her to stay away from me and to TELL me to stay away from her, but, he’s sent me them too, which I still have cos the dope sent them via the private social media a/c system; and they can’t be deleted!!

So, in front of everyone, he’s still trying to deny it, ha! I’m on a roll, told you those that do stuff to me, end up getting karma at some point. He was getting a slight taste of that right now…"Sorry dude, but everyone already knows, everyone in work knows that you go to the City clubs and follow her, try to find out where she is! Seriously, she’s not interested! How many times does she have to tell you before it sinks in?!! Oh; and incidentally, not you, or anyone else is going to tell me to my face, or on a private social media message, whom I can, or cannot talk with, clear?!! He responded with, “I’ve never told you you can’t talk to her!” Hahaha…"Really? Would you like me to remind you with the messages you’ve sent me? Would you like me to show everyone else? Oh wait, they’ve seen them already, that’s how they know, even seen ‘AC’s’ messages! Everyone knows, you cannot deny it! The silence was feckin’ golden, he never said anything else to me after that!! That’s 2 down; and hopefully lesson learnt (Probably not), not to cross me, cos I’m sitting on a wealth of thoughts just waiting to be unleashed when they least expect it; and that goes for all my ‘haters’ thinking they can get their fun at my expense, not happening, I’m going to keep it, write it here; and then unleash it when they least think they can get away with it, because they have an audience of people that don’t know what has gone on before!! Yeah, that’s one way for everyone to find out everything!! Even if they denied it verbally, I have this, my ‘written’ back-up. Obviously, I’m not going to bring an entire store of people here to read everything, I’m not that stupid, not to mention, my entire life is in this journal, not just my work life and mones research, so no, this isn’t getting shared any time soon! At most, if asked, if the time ever came, only ‘RW’ and ‘X’ would see this; and even then, I think I’d try to encourage them to log in with their own username/account, at least they can then see for themselves what we all really do, not just read a journal!!

After that though, the targeting of me for the remainder of the shift ended, surprise, surprise!! They then got the daft one, ‘LT’ to juggle 3 raw eggs in the kitchen - Yeah, that went well, not; and ‘LZ’ caught the whole thing on video, placing it to the Store’s social media page for all to see, lol!

Still, cleaning that shake machine, lol, got my video ‘memory’ playing (With that Snapchat filter of ‘X’ popping up every now and then in the background - Thanks for that POV); and the shift manager, ‘AJ’ throws a spanner in the works by giving me 3 separate instruction guides. One for stripping it down, one for putting it all back together and one for priming the syrups - yeah, not the best of things to do, as, as I read it as a quick recap, I suddenly got my ‘Confused’ feeling, as these instructions were totally different to what she had shown me to do, 2 weeks ago; and now I’m finding myself having to ask her questions, when really, all she wanted to do was a) Go back to be to sleep; and b) Run her shift! Yeah, between all three guides, she’d missed out 26 steps on cleaning it properly. Not something you do to someone with a memory like mine, as it is now trying to add those missing stages into the on-board video I’m looking at; and make the cleaning stages that more complex, than they really had been 2 weeks prior! Showed her; and got the “Wow, didn’t know that?..Never done that!..Can’t see the point in doing that, when you’ve done that!” Now I know why it takes the Store Manager almost 6 hours to strip down/clean and put everything back together again; and for ‘AJ’ to complete the whole lot in an hour and a half!! Lots and lots of corners cut!!

Still got it done, got help (Teamwork) from ‘LZ’ to clean (..and learn how to clean) the blended ice/smoothie machine properly, about time someone else was shown how to correctly clean that machine, another bit of equipment that too many people skip the stages of correctly cleaning it!! No wonder it breaks, regularly!!

So, ‘LZ’ has lost her voice - doesn’t stop her flirting with me, but that could of been down to the mix, haha! Once the machine was cleaned, she went home early; and I stayed on for her, just one hour extra for me, but she could hardly speak, so best to go home and rest! Didn’t mind either, think when she asked would I stay, I’d say “No.” but I’m not that bad, not like some that expect staff members to pay them extra out of their pocket to stay on for them - Really? Cheeky feckers!! Anything for a quick buck!! ‘LZ’ though, she was genuinely sick, so didn’t mind staying.

Went to the City after work to pay in to my bank the silly amount of money I had left over from the night out, thinking I’d be out for at least another 4-5 hours, but that wasn’t to be the case. May as well have the money back in my account gathering interest, than sat in my wallet, waiting to be spent on gawd knows what, eventually! Actually, my next time out is probably in April for my Birthday, well, not decided yet on that one. Got my studio friends wanting to go out, but they can’t decide on a date; and I’m tempted to arrange something with my work colleagues, as well, if I’m out with those that were at Saturday’s event, it will be one fun night. Okay, so it will be mostly girls, lol, but hey, these are people I call my friends and that’s all you need when out on a night out - great friends!!

With that, I’m off. Two rest days, just had 6 hours sleep would you believe! Think I’m coming down with ‘LZ’s’ cold, as the breaks in my nose (From my head injury when I was 10) has started to tingle; and that’s usually the first sign that I’m getting a cold, so food now and paracetamol, not getting any cough medicine, that’s for sure, lol!! Am I hell using that syringe (Epi-Pen)!! Hate, hate, hate needles!!

Speak later.

NH.

[Night_Hawk]

So, currently suffering from ‘Man Flu!’ Think ‘LZ’ gave me a little more than fun, yesterday! Two breaks in my nose are giving me hell, pah! Saying that, having fun playing with that SnapChat filter, haha! Got to amuse myself somehow I guess. Head is roasting the rest of me is freezing, yep got Man Flu, kill me now!! Food and rest is in order for today, but my head is telling me I’ve had yet another 6 hours and that is more than enough! No, it really isn’t!!

One more day off, then back to work for more fun and games. ‘Party Mix’ maybe, A314 most definitely, ‘Stealth’ P131 who knows? Still laughing at the two dudes high-fiving me on spraying the P131, really didn’t expect that one to come true, lol!! Shall see when I get to work what I’m throwing on for the duration of it. Gotta have fun right?!! Prefer to be out clubbin’ but will have to wait now till towards the end of next month.

Still laughing at my sister thinking Deadmaus5 (Dead mouse) is pronounced “Dead Mau 5!” Say what?!! Hahahaha!! She’s coming with me to Creamfields in August. Hubby, only wants to do the Sunday, she wants to do the Saturday, but couldn’t afford both days - had to go with the Hubby on the Sunday - So big brother has paid for her to come join me on the Saturday! Well, I’m a nice guy; and that’s what big brothers do I guess! Can just see it now, we’ll have a blast Saturday and Hubby will be texting his Mom every 2 minutes on the Sunday, just like last year, as she wanted a minute by minute update on everything he was doing - apparently festivals aren’t safe? Really? I’ve been going to them for years on my own; and never had any problems, lol!!

Still, need to introduce her to this place, fed up of her sneaking into my room on visiting me (They live in an apartment a few miles away); and nicking my IShine, as she knows how flippin’ awesome it is at curing hangovers!! Always know she’s been in my room, cos the bottle is always half-empty; and I get a lovely hit of neroli, prompting me into a panic on when I can get more!!

Anyhow, got to get some more food, can’t have these tablets on an empty stomach; and I’ve exhausted my chocolate supply, eek!!

NH.

[Night_Hawk]

Well, here’s a quick recap for the last couple of days seeing as I’ve not been in with an update!!

So Thursday, I could of quite happily stayed in bed for once! Yeah, I know, not like me to say I want to stay in bed, lol, but come 9am I had no choice but to get up, man flu or not, I had to get up and get ready for a lovely 9-hour shift!!

Well, I’ve taken to getting to work, attempting to see whom I’ll be working with on entering the premises; and then applying my mix on getting ready, before clocking in!

Like last Saturday, I wore my mix slightly differently. 1 Spray of the ‘Party Mix’ (IO/IShine/P96/TUTH - 11.25mcg per spray), to my Adam’s apple; and then another spray to the back of my neck. On top of that, 1 spray of A314 (B. Rev. 1.32) to my Adam’s apple and the same to the back of my neck. Then, I took the P131 ‘Stealth’, sprayed once to my left wrist, then rubbed the solution up/down my arm with my right wrist, then rubbed my right arm with my left wrist, to get a slightly even spread on both arms.

With all that on, it was time to clock in, time to start my shift! Oh yeah, great, I can hear the voice of ‘Grumpy’, yay!

She’s in the kitchen, apparently that’s her new place of work, I’m on counter, yes!! So, it’s ‘LB’s’ shift. First voice I hear, “NH, what are you doing now?” Been on the shift 5 seconds, ‘Grumpy’ is already on my case, oh and those timers she tells all the kitchen staff off about on the UHC, they’re all going off and she isn’t doing one thing about it, why? Because it’s the section she is working on!! Told her what I was doing, she has 5 people in with her and can’t seem to get them to work as a team; and wanted me in there to help out. Sorry, ‘LB’ wants me to do the screen load of holds and get them out to the vehicles. Could only see 2 orders on the screen, there was 10, lol, that’s how good she’d organised the kitchen! I don’t know about anyone else, but if you bark orders at someone instead of telling them how to do something, give them guidance, they never really will learn anything, especially when you do that stupid childish noise to tell them, that they have done something wrong! Only thing that does, is teaches the staff to also bark orders, instead of showing/helping resolve the problem; and I love the way she just has to belittle the staff member doing anything wrong in front of everyone, staff and customers, just no respect for anyone, the wrong way to do corrective coaching.

So, hehe, she’s back to being with her team of 5 and I’m trying to get through all the orders on screen, would be even better if all the vehicles parked together, but no, no sense there, let’s all park at the back of another stores car park and sure, we’ll find you, not!! Still, till at the front for me - Monopoly, argh!! If there’s one thing I hate year on year, it’s that game!! Every man, woman and child from across the land descends on your place of work, eager to win something. 9 times out of 10, it’s an apple pie, but still they all do it, every single year!!

Still, the shift was a fairly good one, albeit, ‘AC’ was in, but in a rather quieter than normal mood. Asked what was wrong? Said she’d injured her shoulder somehow.

Friday, not a bad shift either! Same mix worn as Thursday - ‘Party Mix’ plus A314 (B. Rev. 1.32) to my Adam’s apple and the same to the back of my neck. Didn’t put on the P131 ‘Stealth’, but yeah, that mix combined makes for a ‘Party’ mood amongst everyone. I seem to get the most self-effect however, make me feel really happy! Not complaining, it’s a great feeling, I just want to sing to myself and strangely enough, there were times when others stood next to me and started singing to themselves too, lol! Yeah, it’s giving off some form of ‘Happy Vibe’ and let’s face it, in the times of pressure we’re all under to deliver high quality services all the time, you really do need that happy feeling!

Saturday, woohoo! I’m the Kitchen Manager again 3pm - midnight shift. Okay, so my 1st hour was spent in a freezer getting stock. Really? What bright spark decided that the Kitchen Manager HAS to get the stock at the beginning of their shift?!! Really stupid thing, as you have other staff/managers going home, you can’t re-organise your team when you’re in a freezer, you can foresee any problems and deal with them, not when you’re turning into a popsicle at the back of the tiniest refrigeration/freezer unit, wading through a wall of stock, with only a tiny gap to get through to the back, then realising the box isn’t going to fit the gap, so you’re having to either empty the contents out and make multiple trips, or pull out as much as you can into a corridor and then get access to what you need, but add about 10 minutes onto finishing the stocking, as you have to put it all back!! Yeah, how do you run your shift from a freezer?!!

Anyhow, that aside, come 4pm, an hour later and I’m told to get my break from the Business Manager as even more people were finishing their shift at 5pm and we’re were supposedly 5 people down for the remainder of the evening shift - nice!!

Got called into the office by the 1st Assistant Manager! Okie, what have I done? She’s sat with a huge box in front of her and the 2nd Assistant is standing close by with a big grin - my uniform has arrived, yay! Let’s see ‘Funny boy’ and the other haters comment on “Where’s your shirt?” now, eh! Manager said, “Why are you so happy today?” Well, that’s an easy thought for me, I’ve got on my ‘Party Mix’ plus A314 (B. Rev. 1.32), to my Adam’s apple and the same to the back of my neck. I’ve also got 2 sprays of P131 ‘Stealth’ to both wrists; and I’m in a happy, upbeat, bouncy mood - Just said, “I’m in a good mood!” Even happier to see that uniform, finally!

Clocked off for my break, but had to go try on the new uniform; and come back to show it to the Salaried team. Starched shirts, hate wearing those, need to be washed at least once in fabric softener, but not today, not for me. Also, I’ve not worn a tie in 8 years, lol, thankfully I can still remember how to do a Windsor Knot, hehe!! Went back and had the entire store go nuts, lol! Girls kept commenting on how good I looked!! Actually, on looking in the mirror, I look a hell of a lot younger than I am in this new uniform - not complaining like, lol!! 1st assistant kept making strange flirting noises, can’t really describe them here, but you can probably think of your own, lol - back to my break, did a little 20 minute mini-mix on my iPad, put me in an even happier, upbeat mood, with both male and female staff coming in to listen and continue commenting on me being in my new uniform! Positive feedback from the staff, finally!

Went back to Armageddon, literally! Remember, we’re on those horrid Monopoly vouchers for the next month and a half, so I walked into a jam packed store, with a skeleton crew, trying to do 3 times their normal workload; and where do I end up spending the next 20 minutes? Yep you guessed it, back in that freezer!! They really need to invest in a backroom person (BP) to oversee the replenishing of stock for both front counter and kitchen, as the Kitchen Manager shouldn’t really be running back and forth every few minutes to do what this dedicated person in other stores I’ve worked in the last few months, does. The BP takes almost all the stress away from most of the staff/managers; and they can spot and report back of stock shortages/problems to the relevant person as soon as it occurs. Makes more sense having a BP, but because we haven’t been modernised as yet, our Salaried Team don’t know of/don’t understand how good it is to have a BP during peak periods; and trying to explain it to the Salaried Team is a nightmare. Only a few months until that is made clear to them, then they’ll understand everything I’ve been telling them for the past 2 years!!

Got to 7pm and ‘LB’ wants to know when I’m going to get kitchen staff to switch off certain equipment and clean it/put it back on - Erm, we’re all up to our eyeballs in cooking I mean seriously, what comes first, stock/cooking or cleaning? There’s only 4 of us trying to do treble the work we’d normally do; and the 2nd Assistant (Her Shift), wants 2 of them to start cleaning, lol, don’t think so!! Even the 1st Assistant manager was like, “What? We need food in the production bin, not someone cleaning a side freezer!” Yeah, we need to clean stuff I get this, and we usually have a nice quiet time around 7-10pm to do it all, but this is Monopoly, everything goes t*ts-up when this thing is on, cleaning, albeit it will get done, won’t be done until later in the night. The priority right now is food, accuracy and quality, nothing else matters! 1st assistant stayed on an extra 40 minutes over her shift, it was that busy; and after she left it died down enough for two staff to carry out the cleaning needed to be done. Said it would, just not when a 2nd Assistant wants it doing, bit of common sense needed! Whilst all this mayhem was going on, I’m actually still in a focused happy mood. I put that down to the mix I had on. Best feeling I had, even in the mayhem surrounding me, lol!

Sunday, back in for midday, no mones on the journey to work, but applied my ‘Party Mix’ plus A314 (B. Rev. 1.32), to my Adam’s apple and the same to the back of my neck. Strating to get low on the sprays now, will have to think about ordering more in the next week or so! Really will have to think about 30mls, togo’s I’m going though too quickly, getting about a month from them! A314 (B. Rev. 1.32), will most definitely be on the order form, but I think I will have to have the ingredients of the ‘Party Mix’ and it’s just a fun zone feeling when I have it on, stay focus for ages and everyone around me, just seems happy too!

So, back to Sunday; and more comments from the female staff on my appearance in my new uniform, hehe. Finally though, I managed to get an iron over the shirt I had on, couldn’t Saturday as it was literally new out of the packaging and straight on, but still, need to get all 3 shirts soaked in fabric conditioner to make them more comfortable, less of the new shirt cardboard feel! Last time I had that stiff feeling was wearing my chefs whites years ago when working in the RAF/hotels. As much as I miss those days, I don’t miss trying to keep those white jackets white and starched, lol!

Mother’s Day here in the UK; and of all places people want to take their Mom’s, my store! Really? If it was me, I’d be taking my Mom out somewhere nice, sadly, this is the 1st year in a long time that I’ve had to miss taking her out; and to be fair I’m really hoping that it isn’t the last one. Mom has finally gone to a Doctor over the hernia she dropped the bombshell on us at Xmas, but, from a visit to the opticians last week, she now needs an urgent operation on her eyes too!! Problem is, over here in the UK, NHS patients have a long wait; and I’m concerned that she’s already waited a long time before seeking help from the Doctor, but the hernia op, I don’t know! A previous manager I worked for in a bar (I was the Assistant Manager) had a similar hernia operation and only lived 6 months after it; and that’s something I can’t really think of, can’t handle to well thinking of it, as it’s my Mom at the end of the day, my special friend I’ve known all my life; and you don’t ever think you’ll lose them until something like this happens! Does make you think though, how short life really is!

Moving on, don’t want to get morbid in here, not now, will come to anything, deal with anything when, if, it happens. So yeah, as you can imagine, another really busy shift, hot day outside; and yep, you guessed it, we were short staffed again!! In fact, the 1st Assistant commented on why we had so many phone ins? Well, really, it’s not that hard, lol! It’s Mother’s Day, it’s hot as hell outside; and if I didn’t have a conscience, I’d be in a beer garden somewhere, soaking up the sun myself with a pint of cider in my hand, lol!!

Still, Sunday was an easy shift compared to Saturday, albeit still busy as hell!! Monday though, by far the easiest shift, hehe!! Okay, so I was in for 7am-ish, cleaning the Milkshake and smoothie machines, this being my new job every Monday morning! Not going to lie, it takes flipping ages to clean both machines (Yet, time seems to fly-by without you even noticing!!), but after last week, I re-arranged my training images in my head a little, to shed a few hours from the process! Smoothie machine, I started cleaning this 1st, as it goes through a cycle of 20 minute stages; and in between that, I make way cleaning the machine from hell! Monday was also my 1st no-mones day in a very long time!! Not one drop of IO/IShine, no ‘Party Mix’, no P131, nor any A314!! Think if anything, I was still in a daze from my mammoth cider drinking session the night before! Saying that, I stopped drinking around 2:30am for some sleep and jumped up at 6:30am to get myself into work, lol! Still, around me, I could see a significant change in mood of those working around me. None of the usual upbeat friendliness I’ve come to see this past week. No spontaneous singing when stood next to me, nothing! I did however still get the positive comments from my fellow female colleagues, plus a couple of customers congratulated me outside the store, not something I was expecting, if I’m honest, but still, it was nice! So, half-way through and ‘BD’ passed comment about how good I looked in my uniform, think that’s the 4th time in less than 24-hours, lol, not that I’m complaining, but it set the mood for the others - here we go again!! I know she’s single, but damn, can’t go out with her, not with my thoughts and feelings still going through me over ‘X’, but she turned around to ‘SK’ and said “I’m just saying how good he looks, I might be single but I’m not wanting to go out with anyone.” Well, we all know ‘SK’ wants to go out with her, despite his social media a/c saying he’s been out recently on a date, who knows with this guy, he’s dating one by the looks of it, whilst thinking of another (BD). Me on the other hand is thinking of one, trying to work out how the heck to forget her, which is proving to be impossible, whilst trying harder still not to come across to anyone that I may like them, as it would be wrong to use my feelings for ‘X’ on anyone else, just couldn’t do it! Well, what came next from ‘BD’ I wasn’t expecting, but after, I had a feeling a sense that I had to say something and tell her what was on my mind. “NH, do you miss ‘X’ not working here?” My response at first was just a nod, it wasn’t something I was expecting to be asked if I’m honest, kind of caught me off guard as I cleaned that horrid machine, but I took a deep breath, slowly walked over to her and responded quietly enough so that the other couldn’t hear. Last thing I needed was more agro when I have ‘TD’, ‘LK’ and ‘SK’ on shift. “Yeah, I very much miss her. I see her in my mind, I feel her in my heart, every single day and night! It doesn’t help that some in here will also not let me forget, by showing me pictures of her, even at ‘EH’s’ party last Saturday, did I see a Snap filter image! I’m just destined not to forget, always remember; and I’m finding it very hard to deal with!” With that, ‘BD’ went on to say, “Yeah, she’s a real nice person!” Tell me about it, one of a kind in my eyes. Said, “I know. I just wish I’d spoken to her at the apartment. I still see everything that night; and the one thing I shouldn’t of done at the Bierkeller. There’s things I don’t know; and I’m pretty sure there are things that ‘X’ doesn’t know, that’s been said to me too.” With that, I continued with the machine; and ‘BD’ didn’t say anymore, didn’t ask anymore. I think she could tell from my face, from my expression that I was in a different mindset from prior to her asking her initial question, which kind of had a slight knock-on affect to me reassembling the milkshake machine, lol! Accidentally put lubricant on a seal that well, didn’t need it; and within 30 mins of putting the machine back into action for all to use, did that error become apparent, lol!! The seal popped up sending ice cream shooting out in all directions, hehe! Okie, so mistakes happen, can’t exactly explain why I goofed to the 1st Assistant that kind of found it amusing, saying “You’ll have to strip it down and reassemble that part again!” Yeah, gathered that, happy days. But before that, I was presented with a male whom had come for a job trial/interview and I’m having to give him a crash course in working our nice busy section to see if he can do the job! One problem with that, he spoke no English! Spanish yes, but this is a job that involves 99% interacting with the general public, with about 95% of those customers speaking English. The ones that we do hard to try hard to communicate with are from Poland, Russia and Ukraine mainly, with a few German’s every now and then. German’s I have no problem communicating with, grew up and went back out there to work, but Spanish, not something I’ve learnt, so it was a case of 100% sign language, mostly me doing, then pointing to get the male to copy. Wouldn’t call it a nightmare, because I got him to do almost everything I showed him, but communicating with the public, the customers, that was the challenge, as sadly, he just didn’t understand what was being asked of him. Still, after that, back to my disassembling duties; and being the butt of all the jokes for being shoulder deep into a hole, cleaning out ice cream, so I could re-house the internal parts securely this time, lol.

So yeah, no-mone Monday. It kind of went well. No craziness, no spontaneous singing, no bouncing around from me; and my focus wasn’t as spot on as normal, lol, but it was a fairly good shift. Had to stay on an extra hour and a half due to the lunch rush and no staff. Offered to stay longer thinking they’d be hammered at 3pm when all the kids came out, but ‘SK’ said “Nope, we’ll be alright!” Ha, don’t think so, as, as I left the front door, I could see about 100 teenagers heading their way, lol - Unlucky!!

That was yesterday, today is my 1st rest day, my next one being Thursday, go figure that one! Still, back in at 8am tomorrow for more mayhem, so I’ll be trying on my mix of fun I think! Payday needs to come back around soon too, need to get me some more mones. Deffo making up that ‘Party Mix’, best thing I’ve had in a long time since one of the ‘Frankie’ mixes. Think I might go back to the earlier pages and see which ones came out with the best results do a comparison with this mix, as if memory serves right, it worked better in togo’s as opposed to 30ml’s and at least one ‘Frankie’ mix failed to live up to expectations, so yeah, for me a re-read of old test results. Probably recompile them all and post them in here as a quick reference guide, save me trawling though posts from 2010 to present date, lol.

For now, I’m off to listen to Hardwell in Miami (UMF 2017) on youTube, seeing as it keeps popping up on my PC, might end up firing up my decks after it, as you do, hehe.

Speak later.

NH.

[Night_Hawk]

Well I’m on fumes literally!!

Could of done with more shots of A314 and the Party Mix today - Had 3 ‘haters’ in and all being complete idiots towards me. Did I care? Nope; and by chr*st did they try to wind me up on shift!! Did end up flipping on a 4th to come in around 2 hours before the end of my shift, you know, the soon to be Crew Trainer. Once again, told what to say and do towards me, overheard them telling him - seriously?!! It was the point of having someone come up to me and go “Tickle, tickle!” whilst trying to quite literally punch me in the ribs that made me flip! Why, because it was the side where I have that injury and the last thing I need is that to start playing up!

2nd Assistant was like, “What the?” Sorry love, but you really need to keep up with what is going on around you, open your eyes! Even had a bunch of tearaway teenagers runaway outside, when I went to tell them to stop jumping up and down on the tables.

1st Assistant becomes my new Business Manager tomorrow, yay! 1st of April, lol, had to ask if it was an April Fool’s joke, lol, well, you never know!!

Was going to stop by yesterday and say what went on the shift the day before, but to be honest I’m trying to forget it, not that I can, lol!! Busy as hell, but one of the crew members dropped the bombshell of a family matter on me to explain why she’s not been herself. Safe to say, I can relate to it, being in the same boat myself when I was 18 and 21; and I feel for her having to deal with things that are out of her control! Did say that if she needed to talk with anyone whether in work or outside of work hours I’m available, least I can do, even if I can’t offer actual help, at least she has someone to talk to instead of bottling up her thoughts and feelings and having to deal with it on her own. I had to deal with mine on my own, it was hard both times, a shock to the system the 1st time around, the 2nd thinking, “Have they actually gotten it right this time? Or is this another monumental c*ck-up?!!”

‘RW’ was in yay!! Only got to see her for a couple of hours, but that was enough to brighten up my mood for the remainder of the shift. Love working with her, has such a cool, bubbly personality! Still trying to work out how she scares dudes off, lol, can’t for the life of me see how?!! All I can think of is, that they were complete muppets towards her and deserved everything she threw at them!

So yeah, yesterday I stayed away from here to clear my thoughts. Mainly drank cider and played on my decks if I’m honest, lol. Today was just the shift from almost hell, oh and ‘LK’ last night tried to be a Keyboard Warrior and Troll me on my social media account, seriously, these muppets have nothing better to do! Kind of laughed this morning at that when ‘TD’, ‘PK’ and ‘CalD’ all decided to bring it up in conversation, told you, they all communicate together!! They really need to realise that everything that they type onto that particular site, even when they delete it, saves a copy to the website’s archives for 12 months, of which I have full access to! Ah well.

Right, food, back at the pop factory tomorrow for 2pm, couple of hours of ‘RW’ woo, even better, she’ll put me in a right happy mood, hope that feeling lasts for the remainder 6 hours after she’s gone!! Pay day next week, going to have to do a rush job order of some A314 and the ‘Party Mix’ essentials, those two in combination are just great!! No Shine, jeebus, night shifts next week, they’re gonna be fun! Might actually have to go back to the ylang ylang/hedione combination for those; and it’s going to be absolutely packed with customers as we have the Aintree Grand National on next weekend; and quite possibly a train strike on the same day, oh what fun!!

Right, I’ll be in tomorrow, got Sunday off; and yeah, I’ll be in with an update. Don’t know what I’m wearing tomorrow, might be the ylang/hedione mix, might be the fumes I have in the togo’s, one thing is for certain, I’ll have something on, hehe!!

Speak later,

NH.