I wore two sprays of p102 at 12.5mu/spray.
I was bored and wanted to test so I took one togo of p101 and one togo of p102 and mixed them up. I held them and switched them until I forgot which hand was holding which. Then I kinda tossed them under my sheets and searched around until I found one. I didn’t look at what I was spraying because I wanted it to be a surprise.
I was on my way to my last final. We pretty much have to just show up and either perform a piece or present our project. I had just finished my project and was smoking to celebrate. After putting on the putative, my high was waaay more intense. I was shocked. I mean, I just finished a short 10 day break and I expected my tolerances to be lowered, but I was high to a degree that wasn’t at all expected. I was completely and utterly stoned.
I walked quickly because I didn’t want to be late and I needed to drop off some books at the library for some friends. After that, I went to my final. I pretty much just sat there and watched. I didn’t really have anything to say to the people around me. I would say that my high definitely invaded my reality and kept me hostage. Like an Instant Honesty overdose.
I noticed the girl on my right would keep looking at what I was doing, even commenting when I put a question mark next to Beginner in the check box. She thought it was funny. Eventually she straight up asked me if I was doing a performance. Told her no, I’m doing a presentation on a drum I made. I wasn’t too confident on how well it’d play, and I wasn’t feeling very social in general.
When it finally the final ended, something kinda disappointing happened (basically, I watched a girl that I was kinda talking to, rush out of the class with another guy.) I noticed that completely changed my mood. I wasn’t just burnt out and needed a smoke, I was downright pissed, and sad. I was surprised at the intensity of my reaction for her. I didn’t really have strong feelings for her before, but today she really looked pretty, all dressed up for her performance, I dunno, just hit a couple buttons I guess. I wonder if part of it is wanting what you don’t have and I was casual about it before because she was spending her time with me. I dunno, it’s not like I was dating the girl, but there was definitely some kind of relationship even if very casual. Anyways, there’s really not much to say on the matter, one of those just move on scenarios. I’m starting to think that I’m way too picky and need to just pull the trigger and find out for sure if she’s right for me or not.
Anyways, I was on my way back home to pick up some stuff from a friend and a person in front of me is inattentive and holds up the left turn until it turns yellow, so I get stuck having to wait for another cycle. That really pissed me off. At this point, I kinda felt that whatever putative I was wearing really intensified things.
This wasn’t an intensifier like p79. p79 is way more physical. This putative felt more like an emotional intensifier, definitely not visceral and not too cerebral. Okay, let’s see what this mystery pheromone was…
p102. Hmm..well, there you have it. My first experience with p102.